The first week of May would have been a roller coaster. The penetrating heat was sometimes so high that I found myself irritable. If not for Kyle, I think I would have gone psycho. I smiled and felt the tingles all over my body just thinking about him. I was love drunk and madly deeply crazy for him. I could go seriously insane if I don't tell someone. Sadly, I wasn't allowed to tell anyone about him. Not my Aunt, not my cousin and especially not my sister. In fact, I haven't even called home and neither did they try to call me back. Well, I already figured out that Kelsea had spilled the beans to our parents about my recent call. And I would put my bet that they felt guilty about shading me from the truth and would prefer to give me some space right now before dropping the phrases, "we're terribly sorry; we're only concerned about you" and "it was for your own good". I sighed. But despite the secrecy, my unkempt happiness and enthusiasm had not escaped my Aunt's keen observ
Another Kyle-induced evening and I was worse than a hyper one-year-old by daylight. I cooked breakfast, which, believe me, never happened in LA. I run through some classic but lively and meaningful CDs stacked beside the player and let them hum around the house. Aunt Hilda and my cousin Allen agreed that Matt was a good influence despite the fact that I hadn't even talked to the guy or just said Hi. It was ridiculous, but I would let them assume whatever they wanted. Just as long as they don't hit the right chords, I'd be fine; ecstatic even. But then again, too much won't be good, and I have proof of that. My Aunt decided to set me up with Matt. And Allen, the ever generous alien, had called the person mentioned immediately, telling him that the gang planned to meet at Bob's Café in Lacson Street by four in the afternoon. So basically, despite my outward protest and insistence that I couldn't meet up with him, I had no other choice. At precisely 4, I was fairly seated outside Bo
There's a fine line between pretending and not telling anything. With no telling, it would be easy to just shut up and change the topic, but that would be called avoidance, and my Aunt doesn't like to be evaded. On the other hand, if I play pretentious, I might get caught in one wrong move, but I could also hide how I was really feeling. So upon arriving home, I pretended to have a happy mood and told them that I had fun and would love to see Matt another time, then gave them the excuse to go to my room and change. The fake smile and glee faded as soon as I had the door closed. I leaned on it and rested my head, closing my eyes. "This is bad. And this sucks," I muttered, sighing heavily as the weight of that decision sat on my shoulders. I knew I had to tell Kyle. It was not my nature to keep secrets from him. Doing so made me feel trapped. Plus, I associate it with cheating. Technically, he was dead. Like everyone else's mindset, I should be free, single and have no other a
I woke up with a start. Kyle wasn't able to come last night, and I dreamed about him dying, which made me shiver despite the heat. I threw the covers off of me and found the house eerily silent. I raked the whole bed for my phone and found it lying under my pillow. The time read 9:02 am, and there was no single call or text. I sighed and again shivered at the haunting silence. Usually, by this time, Aunt Hilda would be singing downstairs, in the shower, or somewhere else. The house wasn't soundproof, and my Aunt's singing voice was shrill and off-key. I'm afraid that even the mouse hiding in her ceiling could hear it. So waking up in a silent house was saying something. I knew for a fact that Allen would either be in bed or had not come home yet from last night's partying at the club. He went out with his friends, and typically, he would be home late or crash at one of his friend's places. But Aunt Hilda was here. I got out of bed, finger-combing my hair. I padded towards
I did not know what to feel. I was numb inside and out. Aunt Hilda and I were like robots inside the funeral home. To be precise, I was the robot. My poor Aunt was left daze, unable to function properly. I took it upon myself to assist the guests despite some of them avoiding me at all costs. It was evident that the language barrier was a thing. But Aunt Hilda was seated at the first pew, blankly staring at my cousin's coffin. I wanted to ask what happened. However, I didn't even have the heart to do so. I picked up a few words from the discussion buzzing around his closest friends. But those who were with him stayed silent. They sat by Aunt Hilda's, mimicking her blank stare at the coffin. I chewed on the inside of my cheeks. Comforting Aunt Hilda was all I could do. There was nothing else I could offer other than my presence and helping around while battling the heavy feeling inside my chest. Sometime later, the atmosphere inside the funeral home became too heavy for me
I would have stayed with Aunt Hilda at the funeral home, but most of the adults there told me that I should get some rest and be back tomorrow. The adults I meant were mostly siblings of Aunt Hilda's late husband. Some of them were already children of one of the siblings. My brain was too dysfunctional to tell whether I wasn't introduced or barely paying attention. Either way, I wanted to stay and make sure Aunt Hilda was taken care of. However, I was left with no choice when half of them forced me to go home. So, home we went. I didn't try to have a conversation. I hardly knew anyone considering I hadn't even met them until today. Hence I went straight to my room and locked the door. It was when I was alone that my legs wobbled. I had to sit on the bed and slump my shoulders. I couldn't decide whether to cry or scream. Both options would be a nice way to express everything I felt. It didn't matter if anyone heard me or not. All I wanted was to release the bottled-up emotion
One of the things I hate about funerals is the lengthy mass. By the time Aunt Hilda had finished saying her eulogy, which mainly was drowned in a puddle of tears, my head was aching. My family had flown here just for this day, and I was somewhat glad. But I was nowhere near happy. They had dropped the phrases I knew they would. "Oh, honey, we are truly sorry. I hope you can forgive us." My mom apologized after explaining the whole version of the accident, which I no longer needed. I hugged her and Dad tightly and told them it was okay. Kelsea also apologized, and I know I should be crying by now, but I was way beyond grieving for that and my cousin. I was also grieving my own loss. Trying to live every day without Kyle in it felt like eating poison that was slowly killing me bit by bit; it sucked. I didn't break up with him. I needed time to think. But what I was doing wasn't thinking. I was torturing myself. Kyle had become an essential part of me. Even before the acci
MATT Kyle Jason Meridez was killing himself. As the Death Reaper, I can't deny how pleased I was to watch him suffer. After all, he was subject to punishment. I saw everything that had happened to him and Katherine, and it made me realize that I was wrong to conclude that their love was strong. I was hoping they won't be this shallow. But I guess I was wrong. It disappointed me to see them fall apart after a little argument. Katherine seemed to be the resilient one. I cannot say the same about Kyle. Perhaps, it was the reason why he was the one who had to die. Who believes in forever anyway? It's only a lame promise. Nothing lasts forever. Love blinded people. Tsk. I glanced at the time on the wristwatch attached to my hand and clicked my tongue. "I wonder if she'll make it in time," I chuckled. "Ooh, this would definitely be very entertaining." -- KATE When the car halted, I practically jumped out of it and approached the large house in front of me. But before I coul
"Smile for the camera". My mother said as she made a dash to find her place beside dad on the front. I felt Kelsea's nudge before the camera clicked and captured what supposed to be our new family photo for Christmas. It was the third Christmas picture that she had to nudge me supposing that was my cue to smile. As per usual, I didn't and as soon as the madness was over, I took my seat at the table and mooned over my plate of pasta. I know that it tasted wonderful as the rest of the food on the table. But I could hardly appreciate anything. I actually hadn't appreciated anything at all. I was literally a walking dead. I also felt that everyone around me wanted to say something but instead they seemed to respect my silence and ignored me for the rest of the meal. While all of them went for the gifts after eating, I decided to pick up the trash. I tugged on my sweater as the cold wind hit me while I dumped the heavy black bag inside the bin. I let out a sigh and slowly trailed m
MATTI felt sorry for her.The pain was slowly killing her from the inside and though Kyle had made that choice to save her, it was almost the same as if he had killed her instead.I can’t just not do anything.Katherine didn’t deserve to suffer.She was too good for that.But seeing her confused and not knowing what was going on made me regret interfering with her present.Did I make the right choice?I took a deep breath and sighed as I watched her from afar.It breaks my stone-cold heart to see her get killed little by little day
KATE I felt like the entire universe had fallen on me. My body was weak and it was difficult for me to open my eyes. Tons of bricks were like shoved inside my head, it was throbbing. I managed to open my eyes and found that I was lying in bed. I was back at Aunt Hilda’s and the events from last night was taking their toll on me. Groaning, I got myself up and squinted at the brightness of the room coming from the sunlight outside. Did I run a marathon last night? Why do I feel so tired all of a sudden? Well, I still have no idea what I was doing back at Aunt Hilda’s. I was supposed to be at a camp with my friends.
KATE ‘I will help you remember’. What that mysterious stranger has said seemed to bother me although I have no idea what he meant. Remember what exactly? Did he know something about me that I didn’t? The fire crackled and it danced in my line of vision. Some of the people in our circle had started to hum as one of our group strummed the guitar. They were playing a familiar song. However, my mind was elsewhere. It was bothering me that the mysterious stranger seemed familiar. All too familiar to be exact.
KATE“Whoa,” Shane exclaimed upon getting off the bus.“Right, whoa is the right word,” Anne claimed, placing an arm around Shane’s shoulder, pulling her as she took her phone out from her pants pocket.I was about to tiptoe away knowing that Anne would be taking a picture right after.However, before I could even make my escape, Claude grabbed me by the arm and positioned beside Anne, the latter had already extended her hand, her phone’s camera was already open.“In one, two, three, say cheese,”I forced myself to smile along with the three of them.“Oh my, we look so pretty,&rdquo
KATE“Merry Christmas!” everyone around me loudly and cheerfully screamed. I forced myself to join and even smiled. I had no idea who most of the guests were. All I knew was that they were relatives.Aunt Hilda was busily addressing everyone. So, I had a good excuse to be out of her sight upon taking a plate full of food, opting to stay hidden inside my room.Once I was at the safety of my private space, I let out a sigh of relief. Both Allen and Aunt Hilda would most likely not notice that I was missing. They were both preoccupied and at the moment, I was having a hard time trying to keep up with people trying to talk to me.I was no fan of large crowds, family or no, friends or otherwise. It was the reason why my circle of friends was small. I easily get at
KATEIt was already snowing. Back in California, it was already freezing cold. I stared at the photo my sister just sent together with an ‘I miss and love you’ message. I let out a sigh just as the final bell rang, indicating the end of our last subject for today.“Enjoy your holidays, everyone!” Mister Roy Filadel, our arts teacher said, bading all of us a goodbye as he walked out of the room. Once he was gone, everyone erupted into cheers.Finally, class was over for a few days and the holiday break has begun.“Oooohhh, is that your sister?” Claude said, appearing behind me. I nod, letting her see the picture more closely.“Lucky you, you were able to experience snow first hand,&rdq
KATEI found myself absently staring at the faucet positioned by my feet as I lay in the empty bathtub. The emptiness I was feeling was gnawing at me.
PART 4Broken love, broken hearts. The once sweet feeling was now replaced by bitterness and sad memories.Was the love you have always treasured worth keeping?Or is it time to find a new love?* * *KATEI raised a hand above my head, shielding my face from the harsh glare of the sun. I closed my left eye, playing and teasing my vision. Little rays of sunlight peeked through the slit I was creating with my fingers.“Kate!” For a minute, I was tempted to ignore the person calling my name. But then, my stomach betrayed me. It has been a while since I last ate. I was starving.Flashing a practiced smile, I dropped my hand and propped myself up from lying down on the bleachers of the football field of our school.I turned my attention towards the three approaching figures towards me, Annie, Claude, and Shane.From afar, I could visibly see Annie’s face scrunched in what I know was her way of telling me that I was guilty of something.The afternoon sun was high-up. I checked my watch. I o