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Chapter 19: Feelings

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Chapter 19

An Jiuen

“Click.” The sound of the bathroom door locking was so freeing. I slumped down with my back to the door and exhaled my irritation.

Is it irritation, or is it overwhelm? I’m not used to being around other beings, let alone young pups and babies. Even as a child, I didn’t act like a child nor was I around any.

I was always on guard, and my father wouldn’t let me around the pups of the pack. He always made up a lie about how much he loved me and didn’t want me to get even a scratch. In reality, he didn’t want his secret discovered. I was never exposed to the pack publicly, so weird rumors about me and my mother spread.

The Luna hated it because the prominent rumor that stuck, which my father never refuted, was that my mother was his fated mate, and his Luna was his second chance mate, making her hatred for me even greater. She would find ways to make me suffer or hurt me when she would fight with my father. I would never scar, so she would be merciless when she was u
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yes life is unpredictable, it's not easy when everything crashes down on you at once ...️
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Thank you. Yes I’m well, just had a lot going on
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