“I miss her,” I sniffed as I finally started calming down after crying for who knows how long. “I miss her so much. Why did she have to go away so suddenly!”“I miss her too. Every day, every night. I miss her with every breath I take. But everybody has to leave one day, and your mother left a little early.” I looked up and he offered me a glum smile.“But I know she would want us to live on. Happily, in peace. But that doesn’t mean we won’t miss her.” I looked down wiping my eyes with the back of my hand.“What about you, father?” I asked in a low voice.He sighed and his eyes fixated on her picture. “She is in everything I am. And trying to accept the reality that she is gone feels like I’m trying to swallow burning lava. But I know, eventually, I will accept the fact. I will try and eventually get used to living in a world where she doesn’t exist.” He smiled woefully at the picture. “We lived a happy and good life. Filled with love, happiness, and blessings. She built me from somet
“Where?” He asked. And I looked up at him with a gentle smile. “To a place I hold dear.” I quietly replied and his eyes widened a little in surprise. But the surprise was replaced with something I couldn’t understand. “Lead the way.” He said and I nodded heading towards the forest. This pack is filled with lakes, flower fields, and wild yet gentle animals and is blessed with fertility. I love every bit of it, yet this little piece of land, I and Ciro had found back when we were merely kids, is very close to my heart. I walked down the narrow path through the woods, feeling the soft moss under my feet. The trees were tall and ancient, their leaves whispered in the breeze. Erdem silently followed me and when we finally reached the clearing, I glanced at him to witness his reaction. Even though he always masks his emotions, he couldn’t hide his amazement from me. I closed my eyes taking a deep breath. This hidden place was filled with wildflowers, trees and so much more. The flowers w
I sucked in a breath as I watched him relive the death of his mother. “I felt so useless, so ducking useless as he had sliced her throat right in front of my eyes. And by the time they had left, my mother had already passed. I had spent that entire night wrapping my arms around her lifeless body. My father’s previous Beta had found me the next morning.” He paused once again and by then, I was holding his hand as tightly as I could.“That guy killed my mother as well, Nesta. She had died trying to protect me. And I couldn’t do anything about it. Hell, I don’t even know why he was after me and now after you.” His eyes locked on mine, and I saw nothing but fear.“You wanted to know why had said that I was a little late?” He questioned and I nodded. “Because after six years from that day, I had found him. When I did, he had his dagger on someone else’s throat and I couldn’t save that wolf from his grasp either.” He laughed bitterly and I gasped lowly.“What about your father? Didn’t he do
“Erdem?” I wondered aloud. Stirring slightly and opened my eyes, still full of sleep. I could barely make out his outline in the dark. But when his fingers gently moved some of my hair from over my eyes, I knew it was him.“I’m sorry I woke you up,” he murmured.“No, it’s okay.” I drowsily muttered. “When did you get back?” I asked as I reached out to turn on the lamp on my bedside table, but he gently grasped my hand.“Just now. I just wanted to see you before I go to sleep.” He brought my hand to his lips and laid a soft kiss. “You should sleep. I’ll go.”He tried to stand up, but I grabbed his arm. “What happened?” He gently asked, kneeling back down where he once was.“Stay,” I whispered and I could sense him hesitate.“I don’t think I should…”“No, stay,” I whispered tugging his arm. “Please.”For a while, he stared at me. I could sense him hesitate but not a moment later, that hesitation or whatever he had vanished. He nodded and I moved over slightly, allowing him to climb into
That night, I lay awake in my bed. Tossing and turning. Him leaving made me fear the worst. What if he can’t return or worse didn’t want to return? What if something worse happens! What will I do if he returns to his old ways? If something like that happens, I don’t know how I will be able to recover. I wanted to believe his words. I wanted to believe everything he said. But something in me was afraid. I was afraid to get my heart broken…again. But my heart wanted to open up to him completely, at the time, was building up a wall trying to protect itself. And the fear of the unknown kept me awake that entire night.When the sun was by the horizon the next morning, I was on my way to the garden. The fridge was practically empty, so I took some vegetables from my garden and went to the kitchen. I wonder how he would behave with Sigrún now. And I wonder if he would share all this Anxo. If he does, Anxo will for sure tell him the truth. But before he leaves, I must tell him about Sigrún an
I stared at the healer with annoyance that I was trying my best to hide. I tried to be as polite as I could when she asked me questions. I just wished for everyone to leave me alone. I was a little dizzy in the morning, yes. But I know my body better than anyone and I knew there was nothing wrong with me or my child.“Well, everything seems to be fine.” The healer finally said putting away his instruments. “Your blood pressure is normal; your heartbeat is steady. And the child’s heartbeat is strong and healthy. You have nothing to worry about.”“Thank you.” I politely said as I glanced at my father who was standing by my bed, looking anxious. “See? I told you I was fine?” I shook my head.“Make sure to stay hydrated, eat well and rest when you need to. And try not to stress too much. I know how emotionally stressful time you all are going through. But remember, stress is not good for the child.”“I will keep that in mind. Thank you.” The healer smiled at me and turned around.“I will
I curled up on my bed, clutching a pillow to my chest. I was still waiting for him fighting the immense tiredness that threated to take over. I yawned as I checked the clock. It was almost midnight. Where was he? The fear really started to take over at that point and I assumed the worst. Perhaps he changed his mind. Maybe he ran out of time and went back. Or is way to exhausted to come. Or maybe, he doesn’t want to come. I buried my face in the pillow and closed my eyes trying to sleep. But all I could think of was many unknown reasons why he didn’t show up. And every single one of them ended up being he simply didn’t want to. I suppose there is no point of waiting then.I saw a shadow, a large and black shadow that shifted at the blink of an eye. I tried to look more carefully trying to make out what the shadow was. I gasped and took a step back when I saw the shadow take a more prominent form. It was a large black wolf, its golden eyes glowed as it dodged trees and rocks, jumping ov
“Well I didn’t miss you.” I grumbled and he knitted his brows together. “You didn’t?” “Not even a little bit.” “Then who were you just cursing out loud?” He asked and I looked up to find him struggling stifling a laugh. “Come on, love. Tell me.” “Someone who isn’t you for sure.” “Come on now. Don’t lie to me.” “Why would I lie?” I growled and he backed up. “Just so you know, your ears become red when you lie.” He said trying hard not to laugh. “Fine! I was grumbling about you! I hate you! There I said it. Happy?” I huffed and he stepped forward wrapping his arms around me. He pulled me into his chest. “How can I be happy learning that you hate me?” He whispered. “I’m sorry I didn’t come sooner.” “It’s okay.” I grumbled. “But this is the last time I will forgive you without any consequences.” “You won’t be allowed another situation like this.” After that day, he came to visit me twice in the next week. And he did call everyday as per promise. But the time only reduced with e