She's my mate

    Chapter 3

    Alexa POV

    My heart beats rapidly against my chest, and I gulp down nothing. I want to be relaxed and pretend nothing is happening, but I can't help it. The imagination of this stranger laying me tonight is a nightmare that I don't want to come true, but I know that can't be avoided.

    The world seems to be frozen for some seconds as he finally walks in, and my heart sinks into my stomach. He doesn't look as scary as I'd thought, but I'm still so scared that this man might harm me. I'm scared of being laid by him. It's my first time, and aside from the fact that he's a stranger, I'm also scared of losing my virginity.

    I know you would wonder how a werewolf of twenty-five years old still be a virgin, but it's very possible. For us, we can't let any other man touch us until after we are mated. Our mates are the only ones entitled to take our virginity, and be with us for the rest of our lives.

    My body trembles nervously as I fondle with my fingers, my palms are already sweaty like I just dipped them inside a bowl of water.

    "Are you ok?" He whispers as he comes over to sit on the bed with me, and as his hand slides around my waist, I flinch fearfully and uncomfortably.

    "Hmm, I'm fine," I reply to him in a very low tone as I step away from him. I don't know if he heard me though, because my voice was so low that I could barely hear myself.

    "Don't be scared, Alexa..." He whispers as he comes close to me again, and this time, he places his finger beneath my chin, turning my face to look at him. Looking into his pair of ocean blue captivating eyes, all I see is desire and wants, which is even making me scarier.

    "Don't be nervous," He hushes for the second time, as he slowly leans closer, and I gulp down nothing nervously while shutting my eyes tightly as a drop of tears slid down the corner of my cheeks. I just wish he allows me just this night, I just wish he leaves me alone because I can't do this, but on second thought, I also ask myself if there's any point there, knowing that I'll be with him for the rest of my life. I'm going to do this with him no matter how long it takes.

    "Why are you crying? Don't you want me?" I feel his breath on my nose as he speaks to me, and I slowly open my eyes to see him staring intensely at me, and I gulp down nothing. I feel my heart hammering so hard against my chest that I feel it's going to burst out anytime soon.

    "For...forgive me, Alpha," I quickly apologize to him in the same tone, before I close my eyes. Barely five seconds later, I feel his soft lips on mine, and my heart skips like a million times. My heartbeat increases even faster as I feel his palm at the back of my neck, and slowly, he lay me on the bed, not breaking from the kiss. Since it's my first time kissing anyone, this feels so weird that I can't even kiss him back.

    "Is this your first time?" He pulls away from the kiss and asks me as he stares into my eyes, and I slowly nod my head.

    "You don't have to worry about anything, I will take charge of everything," He replies to me, before he claims my lips again, kissing me slowly like his life depends on it. Tears stream down the corner of my cheeks. I don't know if I'm sad because he's a stranger, or because I can't feel anything. How would it have felt if my wolf was active? Would it have felt so miraculous? 

    This was supposed to be the happiest day of my life, but the only thing that fills my mind is fear, pain, and sadness. Fear of how he will react if he finds out that I'm wolfless.

    He finally breaks the kiss, pulling me back to reality, and I open my eyes to see him already stripped out of his chest. I freeze on the bed for seconds as I stare at his broad chest and perfectly toned abs. I knew from the first time I saw him that he would be like this, but I didn't expect him to be so perfect like this. My fingers itch to touch his chest and run my fingers through his chest as I drool at it.

    "Do you want to touch it?" As if he read my mind, he takes my hand and places it on his chest, but I quickly remove it, reminding myself that this man is going to take my virginity in a few minutes now.

    He finally leans forward and trails kisses from my cheek, to my earlobes which gives me this tingling feeling and finally to the nape of my neck, which I have always heard rumors that it is the sensitive part of a woman, and his tongue there has just confirmed the rumor. I feel my heartbeat increases more than before, I can feel my blood pumping so hard and so hot. I arch my back as his tongue teases me right there, while his hand trail up my bare thigh, giving me this feeling I have never had before.

    "Relax, Alexa," The way he whispers in my ear makes my legs shake fervently and my body feels electrified. For some minutes, I find myself forgetting all my pains as the pleasure already took over all of me. What if I now have a wolf? Will it be more than this? 

    My toes curl by themselves when he trail kisses down my neck until he gets to my cleavage, and he stops to stare at my breasts after he removes the fabric covering them. I am now laying half-naked with a man that I barely know. My cheeks flush embarrassingly, and without thinking twice, I quickly cover myself up with my hands, while his eyes are still feasting on them.

    "Don't cover yourself, Alexa," I'm sure he wanted to sound a bit calm, but his voice sounds rather harsh and commanding, so I quickly remove my hands, as fear grip me. As his eyes pierce into mine, my heart skips like a million times at the sudden change in them. They were ocean blue earlier, but are now yellow and as bright as the sunshine. His breath was just normal before, but now it's thicker and faster. At this point, I need no one to tell me what's happening, knowing that his wolf is already going to take over him, and I fear that he may end up hurting me.

    "I... I... I..." I wanted to tell him to leave me alone, but his dark aura keeps consuming me and my lips can only tremble, and can't even utter anything. 

    As he leans over me, I feel his manhood poking me down there, which is already freaking me out like never before. He nuzzles his face in my neck, breathing so heavily that I feel so terrified. 

    I jerk and force my legs close when I feel his finger rubbing my dripping wet clitoris, but he pats my legs again before he pushes his finger into me, and I yelp in pain. It hurts so much that I can't fight back the tears that stream down the corner of my cheeks as I bite my bottom lip.

    "I will be gentle," He whispers against my neck as he teases me there, and slowly thrust in and out of me with his finger, and when I get used to it inside me, he includes two more, making them three. Although it hurts a bit, but it didn't take much time for me to get used to it again.

    "You are tight down there," He comments as he goes slowly on me. He suddenly pulls out of me, and I watch as he pulls away from me, and bend between my legs. I wonder what he's going to do, but his fingers that suddenly push inside me for the second time distract me as I yelp in pain, but I grab the duvet tightly when I suddenly feel his tongue licking me there like ice cream. 

    "You taste sweet down here," He grunts as he blows a gentle breeze on it before he pushes his tongue inside again, and I gasp sharply. My body feels electrified, and my head spins around in pleasure as I arch my back.

    I shudder when I feel something flowing inside my body like I'm about to urinate, but before the thing could make it out of my vulva, he pulls his tongue out, then place himself between my legs, positioning his aggressive manhood against my wet cunt.

    Slowly, he rubs it gently against it, before he gently pushes himself slowly inside me, and I go crazy from screaming in pain, not minding people may be listening to me out there.

    "You will be fine, Alexa... I will be gentle," He hushes against my neck as he waits for me to get used to his length before he starts moving slowly in and out of me.

    My legs tremble as I cry out in pain.

    "Please stop... You're hurting me," I try to push him off, but he's way more powerful than me that I can't do anything with my almost tiny hands.

    "Let me go!" I hit his chest continuously, but he doesn't look like he's here. His breath becomes so rough, and his pace becomes faster than before, not minding that I'm in pain. 

    Suddenly, I feel two sharp things grazing my neck, and I know that it's about to happen. He's about to mark me.

    He pushes so deep inside me, as his sharp fangs pierce into my neck, and that is all I remembered, as everything went blank...