After 2 days of staying here, I finally dared to go home and face reality.
Earlier I woke up to bed with a very heavy body and heavy eyes. I printed my resignation letters one for the company and the other one is for our relationship.
I went out of my apartment and saw Singto and Krist sitting in the waiting area in the lobby.
" Hey what are you doing here" I shouted and run towards them.
They were shocked but they maintained their posture, I gave out a big smile to them.
" What are you...." I'm not yet done talking when Singto pulled me in a deep hug.
"What happened to you? I'm sorry" He said.
I took a deep breath and grip my hand before speaking.
" Why? I'm good" I controlled my voice from cracking.
He hugged me tightly.
" Bro ---are you -- going to kill me? I can't breathe" I said and pinched his back.
Before the incidentGun"Today is another depressing day for me I smile like stupid to cover the pain that I'm facing, I laugh like dumb to show that I'm happy even though I'm dying inside. My heart pierced with billions of needles and no one cared to help me remove it" I said while Krist is focusing on the road driving his car." Bro, we own our hearts, thus we should own our happiness, It is only "US" who can make "us" happy. So pick up the broken pieces, stand up and feel the sunshine on your beautiful face, let the pain flow, don't fight it, feel it then let it all go, those needles will never go unless you, yourself would pick them one by one." Singto answered.I still remembered those words that Singto and Krist told me earlier.I run off from the building with swollen eyes, the sky is dark just like the feelings I am into. Th
OffIt's already 1 week and he is still not waking up, all of us are already stressed and scared about what might happen to him, earlier I discussed his condition with the doctor and he told me that he is not in a critical stage now, but why still he's not waking up.We are here inside his room still waiting for him to wake up, every second that passes us makes my heart hurt a million times, it's s all my fault. If only I could turn back time, I would be strong to hold him tight.GunI was awakened by the noise around me, I hear them talking about a guy hit by a car, I slowly moved my body and open my eyes to see who are this noisy person." He's moving" I heard an unfamiliar voice.I opened my eyes completely and they all stood up and stand next to my bed." are you alright?"" Hey buddy"
OffIt's already 1 week and he is still not waking up, all of us are already stressed and scared about what might happen to him, earlier I discussed his condition with the doctor and he told me that he is not in a critical stage now, but why still he's not waking up.We are here inside his room still waiting for him to wake up, every second that passes us makes my heart hurt a million times, it's s all my fault. If only I could turn back time, I would be strong to hold him tight.GunI was awakened by the noise around me, I hear them talking about a guy hit by a car, I slowly moved my body and open my eyes to see who are this noisy person." He's moving" I heard an unfamiliar voice.I opened my eyes completely and they all stood up and stand next to my bed." are you alright?"" Hey buddy"
OffIt's already 1 week and he is still not waking up, all of us are already stressed and scared about what might happen to him, earlier I discussed his condition with the doctor and he told me that he is not in a critical stage now, but why still he's not waking up.We are here inside his room still waiting for him to wake up, every second that passes us makes my heart hurt a million times, it's s all my fault. If only I could turn back time, I would be strong to hold him tight.GunI was awakened by the noise around me, I hear them talking about a guy hit by a car, I slowly moved my body and open my eyes to see who are this noisy person." He's moving" I heard an unfamiliar voice.I opened my eyes completely and they all stood up and stand next to my bed." are you alright?"" Hey buddy"
I saw my reflection sitting and huddled in the corner wiping the tears on my eyes.Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I've cried in my room when nobody was watching. Nobody knows how many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down. Nobody knows how many times I've left like I'm about to snap, but I just don't, for the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head when I'm sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody Knows Me.I saw how messy I am in that picture until a hand came and offer me to stand up."Baby I will be by your side, I will stay by your side, I will be you forever, I love you and I will always love you"Who was that?The sad face I once had become like a flower that blooms."You are safe with me I promise. And when you get scared: look me in the eyes, hold me a little tighter and smile.
I thought that when he wakes up he will be happy as he was for the past years, but for Pete's sake, he doesn't even recognize me. Is this a good time to fix all mistakes that I did? or is this a bad time?Since the day he wakes up I did my very best to accommodate him even though I can feel that he is scared and avoiding me." hon we have a photoshoot later for our marriage," Jeed said, since Gun hasn't remembered anything yet I need to fix my problems first." I told you I won't be marrying you!" I shouted, " We already discussed this, right!" I added"I know but, are you going to disobey your parents ?" she askedArrghhh.. my mind is already twisted, why do I need to be stucked in this shit.We are walking along Siam Square when I saw Gun and that Oab.I suddenly remembered, why does Gun remember That Oab which he just meets a few days ago, not lik
" Hey, are you alright, bro?" Singto said as he entered my room." Uhmm sorry, it was so sudden that I called you, I know you are busy sorry!" I said as I bowed down" hey hey buddy, it's fine we are best friends remember, you don't need to be sorry, you helped me last time so I think it's my turn to pay back that debt," he said as he tapped my back" Thank you"" so what do you want to know ?" singto suddenly opened the topic, I'm not sure if I'll be telling him what's inside my heart and mind right now." err.. it's. uh about our circle of friends, can you tell me more something about you guys" I said as I bowed down, right now I wanted to know what's between me and Off but I think I might not be able to accept it." aww haha of course, first.. here" then he brought out a photo album from his backpack " I'm always carrying this one since I discovered that you lost your m
They ordered foods and liquors the band started to play too, the ambience here is good, not noisy not crowded."Cheers" Krist said as he raised his glass up" cheers" I shouted backWe enjoyed the night, they keep on telling me about many things, our stories, all, I can see how happy they are.I can feel safe on them" hey let's go to Club Insomnia-Ibar ( disco club in Pattaya Thailand ) I want to dance," Newwie said as he stood up and dance in place" let's go," Off said and pulled me upI can't help myself but smile, it's getting dark already but still, we manage to go to Pattaya to have a night out. We sat in a VIP area, the price is costly but Off said he can pay it all.We ordered different cocktails, I'm getting dizzy, the music is loud and the light hurts my eyes too, it makes me feel dizzyWe stood up and
It has been half a year since I stayed here in the states. Today I am happy to be back on my country. I am happy to see my love again.After arriving at the airport, I immediately called Singto and Krist to fetch me. I advised them not to mention anything to Gun. I wanted to surprise him. It took almost 2 hours when I landed on my country. I am back, I am bsck for good.While walking I immediately saw my friends in the kobby. They waved at me so I waved back.I ran towardsYou will marry meThe people who talk beh8nd your back are behind ypur reason but the people who talk infront of your face are the reas9n to get changedThe sunset is beautiful isn't it??He'll feel the pain that I felt when he toyed me.Gene to mark bakit baka titg ka lang sa akinMark sa tingin ko i lovr youPara akong isang libo, mung nabawasan tsaka ka. Nag siisis kasi nag
GunEarlier, I was about to get my phone in our room when I accidentally heard the conversation of Off and Newwie, that of was appointed to go to Paris for 6 months to manage their company business.I saw how sad Off was, I know that Newwie is comforting him but still, I can see how worried Off was, he is worried about me, for my reaction.I went back to our room and took our wedding photos and albums, the proof of the love we shared.I took a deep breath before walking on their location, Newwie and Off were both startled seeing me carrying the photos.My heart is aching but I manage to smile in front of them. I pretended like I am not worried about what might happen to Off abroad, I smiled like everything is good, like I really don't care but deep inside I am dying.I don't have a choice, besides, this is not just for Off, this is also for his family and Us as well.After taking a bath, I went back to our bed and laid my tired body.
I slowly removed his clothes while Gun slowly unbuttoned my polo shirt.Our lips are still pressed to each other when was the last time we had this?Uhhmm, last month? Last week? Ow, it was the last day. Last night to be exact. HahaHe slowly pushed his hands inside my pants and started playing my little brother."En--Enjoying it baby?" I asked"Uhmm" He answered while biting my lower lipI used my right hand to play with his right nipple, I played it like a marble. I know that these little things can turn my man on, I know it since we are already a couple for years.He also know-how to turn me on, by blowing my earlobes it can easily turn me on.I moved my lips down to his neck and kissed it slowly." ahh. Stop, it tickles" He said while giggling.This is what I love the most, the way he giggles whenever I kiss his neck.He keeps on playing with my tool until I suddenly burst on his hand." That's a
The happiest day of my life turned to be one of my saddest days, It's almost an hour now and still, I am here sitting on my car, watching every people walk back and forth in front of me.I took a deep breath and rest my head on the steering wheel, I rested my head for almost 10 minutes when someone knocked on the window." What are you doing there?" Gun shouted.Thank goodness my window is tinted, he can't see me inside."Jerking off" I answered."What the hell!" He answered."Just kidding, I'm just fixing the radio" I lied."Tsk. Faster Newwie is inside waiting for you" He said"Newwie?""Yes, he brought your favourite cake, the one she usually bakes for you" Gun answered."I thought he was in states with Tay?" I asked."Yes, they just arrive earlier this morning." He answered.
It has been 2 years since Gun and I got married. Dad gave me the company to take good care of.I woke up from a deep sleep when I felt Gun's lips touched my nose."Wake up now, don't be late for the first day of your company meeting," He said as he shuffles my hair."5 more minutes" I answered as I pulled his hands and kissed them."You've been saying that for almost an hour now Off, it's 7:00, your meeting will start at 8:00 right? Wake up or else I will throw the breakfast I cooked earlier" He hissed."Okay, okay, I'll wake up now" I answered and stood up from the bed.Since we got married, we decided to live alone. We rented a condominium. I hurriedly went to the bathroom to take a bath, I was about to turn the shower on when Gun shouted"Turn the heater on, faster the food is getting colder""Yes, noted on that love" I answered and started taking a bath.Isn't it amazing that Gun and I are s
Time flies fast, right? It’s like yesterday I had problems with my dad. I lost my Mom. And now I am here standing in front of the church waiting for my Man to arrive.“He was a former bully, A student that looks like he doesn’t have a future, A student that is always the headliner of the school and always the troublemaker of the school. Part of the gang. "Krist said.I smiled." But here he is standing in front of us. Marrying the Man he loves the most. "He added." Let's welcome my best friend, best buddy. Best bully. Off Jumpol, "I stood in front of them. Gun and my Dad were standing at the door. Walking, while walking I am here in front of everyone saying the words that are inside my heart.“ First of all I would like to take this opportunity to thank God for giving me lights and providing me with the right path, every one of you probably knows how asshole I am, how bully I am and
I have realized that the biggest mistakes I made during childhood were not the mistakes themselves, but the fact that I never dared to walk up to my dad and apologize for every one of them.Flashback" I'll cook later, what do you want to eat? Say anything I'll give it to you" I should have said that I want to eat spaghetti, Ice cream and carbonara, I should have received those shoes, I should have helped him carry the bags of groceries he was carrying, I should have hugged him when he needed me the most, I should have shown him how lucky I am to be his son"Here take this money."I should have held his dirty hands that time, offered him my jacket to cover his ripped clothes and proudly shouted that he is my father, I should have treated him to lunch after that, joined him walking from school to our house, talking to each other.&ldqu
I woke up from my deep sleep and felt that Gun is hugging meI don’t know what might happen in the future, but right now I will give him the love that he was longing for, I will learn to accept myself for who and what I am, I will cherish every moment we had.“ Hey, did I wake you up?” My Baby asked.“ No” I smiled and kissed his foreheadHe closed his eyes and buried his face in my chest“ Hey!” I whispered“ Yes?” He answered“ Uhhm--Baby, can I ask for a favour?” I said“ Uhhmm? What’s that ?” He questioned.“ Can I own you tonight?”He nodded and stared at me. "Of course, we've been a couple for almost 7 years. You don't need to ask that silly question." He answered and laughed.I moved slowly and lea
After we had fun im the bar, Ali invited us to his house to sober.I was sitting on the couch with Gun when Ali's father sat next to me."Off, I don’t want to butt in or to meddle to your life, but it’s by accident when I heard everything earlier,” His dad said." Gun let'sgoo to my room I will show you something, "Ali said. Gun stood up and went to Ali's room.I was left with Ali's dad.“ what was that?” I asked“ Earlier we overheard that you are shouting at your father through the phone,” He saidI was stunned for a second, it feels like I was doused with cold water, my hand felt numb that I can’t move“ Uhh..mmm sorry, I wasn’t able to control my anger” I apologized“ I just want you to know that, we don’t hold our life, as long as you still have him, make him hap