WE TOOK at least five pictures together. Sa unang tatlong pictures, natanto kong hindi ko alam paano magpose kasama siya.Nakatayo lang ako, ganoon din siya pero dalawa roon ang nakatingin siya sa akin. Menacing and awkward smile while he's watching me.The third one was a stolen shot. Sa ibang angle iyon at nagkatinginan kami.The fourth and fifth pictures, I directed at mas sweet. Iniisip kong maganda iyon ang iupload.I heard the splashes from the pool habang nakatingin ako sa cellphone. Nilingon ko at nakitang naghubad na ng t-shirt si Damon at naligo na! "Hey, you still have solo pictures!""No way."Umirap ako at imbes na sumuko, kinuhanan na lang siyang basa. Sa cellphone ako una nakatingin pero hindi ko mapigilan ang paglipat ng mga mata ko sa totoong Damon sa harap.He's good looking, alright. His muscles were all in their right places and it suited his height. Hindi rin siya sobrang puti o sobrang moreno. At kahit basa at magulo ang itim niyang buhok ngayon, guwapo pa rin si
GUSTO kong mang-inis pero hindi ko magawa. I am also guilty of whatever is on my mind.Can't sleep, Damon? Are you so bothered by me that you still need to let out some steam?Sarap sanang asarin pero ang confident ko naman, eh, iyon din ang iniisip ko. I am not actively horny or whatsoever. I just didn't want to pretend asleep when I can't. At ayaw ko ring mahalata niya na hindi ako nakatulog agad.I want to snore the moment I hit the sack. I want him to know that I am really asleep so he won't think I am bothered.Kaya heto at pareho kaming tahimik at medyo awkward habang nagji-gym. He's lifting while I'm running on the treadmill.Nililingon ko siya habang tumatakbo rito sa treadmill. Minsan napapansin kong sumusulyap siya sa gitna ng pagli-lift niya. The heck?!If I don't create a banter now, mauunahan niya ako!Think, Ysa.Binilisan ko ang pagjo-jogging sa treadmill, frustrated na dahil wala namang naiisip. Kinabahan ako at muntik nang nahulog sa pagtakbo nang nakitang lumapit siy
IT WAS PAST TWO when we went home. I was exhausted from all the walking. Madalas ko pa siyang hilahin para mapagod nga ako and it was successful.Nasa tabi kami ng pool pagkatapos mag swimming. Naka higa ako sa lounge samantalang abala siya sa pagbabasa. Hinihila ako ng antok. Lalo ba dahil hinihele ako ng hangin at magandang tugtog.Sa huli, umahon ako. Napabaling siya sa akin at masama akong tiningnan."What's with you?" he asked because of my sudden move.Hindi ako puwedeng antukin at matulog! Ire-reserve ko ang tulog ko mamayang gabi! Tingnan mo 'tong mokong na 'to at parang walang problema!"Ang sakit ng katawan ko, maybe I should request for a spa," I said trying to dodge his question.Umiling siya at bumaling na naman sa binabasa."Alright. We'll have our spa later. Before our dinner, I'm gonna use the gym. How about you?"Medyo lumakas ang loob ko dahil naisipang magpa spa, bukod pa sa antok na ngayon, at pagod pa, siguradong sigurado akong makakatulog ako!I smiled and leaned
WE BOTH can feel my wetness. O baka sinasadya ng galaw niya iyon pero hindi ko na alam. I was too busy with my own pleasure. I tried to remove his arm on mine but my half-hearted attempts are failing.Our doors were closed but the windows were still half opened. I heard him closing his side of the window. Inabot niya rin ang side ko at sinarado niya. Kasabay ng ginagawa, his finger is teasing me. Not dipping enough to reach my core, just enough to give me so much pleasure.I half-heartedly tried to push his hand away but it only worsened. My moves made it more pleasurable. Hindi ko napigilan ang pag daing. He leaned closer to me, slightly putting his lips on my ear. I was posigtive he's going to judge me but he didn't. Nakatanggap lang ng marahang halik.Because of that, and his finger on my entrance, slightly teasing me, I let out a long moan."Shh..." he whispered and slowly put his other hand on my lips.It was just on time. I convulsed right away, feeling the building up heat slow
HINDI NGA LANG tuluyang natanggap ng isipan ko dahil kahit naman marami akong eskandalo, may kaunting dignidad ako pagdating sa bagay na ito! Damon was a manwhore. He'd probably cum fucking anyone!Meanwhile, I couldn't even get into the mood with Luis, enough to do it with him. Kaya bakit? Bakit ngayon ganito?Okay, I'm already an adult. I have hormones. Kaya mas matindi siguro ngayon? Hindi ko na alam...Gusto kong maiyak pero hindi pa ako ganoon kadrama para tumulo ang mga luha ko. Lalo na tuwing may bumubulong sa isipan kong nasarapan naman ako!I don't know how to face Damon right now. What if he'll tease me? lisipin niya ba na gusto ko siya? lisipin niya ba na hindi ako makapagpigil pagdating sa kanya?Na may... hidden desires ako? That's horrifying to think about!No way!That was a mistake, Damon. Should I say that?Of course, yes! Alangan namang sabihin ko na puwede kaming maglaro ng ganoon habang mag-asawa pa. To just enjoy this marriage while it lasted? Para lang din naman
HINDI NA kami nagtagal sa bahay. Hindi ko rin alam kung iyon ba ang gusto ko o ano.I am too guilty and preoccupied of what happened in the plane. Hindi matanggal sa isipan ko na walang nangyari sa Maldives, pero isang hawak niya lang sa akin habang nagbabangayan kami, bumigay ako!Damn, I was just so horny, alright?! It's not about him. I have needs, too.I almost groaned when I realized it. Noon naman, gusto ko si Luis. It's his unfaithfulness that turns me off. Kaya kahit na nagiging pisikal din paminsan-minsan ang relasyon namin, lalo na kung nakainom o nagpaparty, his attitude always turns my mood off.Hindi ko nga lang maintindihan kung bakit ganoon. Damon is also an asshole but... damn it!Ano ba 'tong nararamdaman ko sa kanya? Nababaliw na ako!Dahil siguro siya naman kasi ang una ko? O dahil natuto ako dahil sa kanya. Not that I was totally innocent before that night but somehow... that night unleashed my sexuality as a woman.lyon na nga siguro iyon. There's nothing wrong ab
THE MASTER'S BEDROOM was spacious. He even has his own walk in closet and a bathroom with a large tub.Naghohotel ako at minsan tumitira na ako halos sa hotel namin, pero bukod doon, wala na. Laking mansiyon ako. I couldn't even remember a time when I went to a condo or there is a need to. Kaya medyo mangha ako na may malaking espasyo pala sa mga ganito. Parang hotel room lang din pero mas magandaThe interiors are a blend of black, white, and gray. The placement of the lights were artsy and modern on the walls, giving off drama. He had modern art pieces like abstract paintings and even brass metal art.Medyo impressed ako roon. I was used to jars and classic touch in our house so a modern one like this amazed me a bit. And how it was all cleverly put together. I wonder if he hired a designer for this, or he just did it himself. Kung sabagay, hotelier siya. He must know a thing or two about these things.Sa baba noong brass metal art sa landing ay isang console table na may platong la
HINDI AGAD ako nakatulog sa guestroom. Kung hindi lang malikot ang isipan ko, iisipin ko nang may maligno ang silid na ito.Bago kami tumuloy sa mga silid, in-offer ni Damon na huwag na lang muna kaming magtrabaho agad lalo na't kalilipat ko lang. Bukod din sa huling mga araw na iyon ng linggo. I just wouldn't accept it. It felt too intimate to stay for a while after taht honeymoon. Or vacation. Wala namang madrama roon kaya walang probelma kung bumalik na siya sa trabaho agad, at magsimula naman ako.Wala ring kaso sa akin ang paglipat. Ano naman ngayon? After school, or even while in school, I already like traveling. Living in hotels, and not at home is not news to me.Nagising ako sa tamang oras na sinabi niya. Medyo masakit pa ang ulo ko dahil hindi agad nakatulog kagabi. Naligo ako at magbibihis na sana nang naisip na tumingin pa sa walk in closet ni Damon.Maayos na naman ang nailipat kong mga damit pero I just want to make sure I am not missing out any outfit.Lumabas ako at na
NANG nasa tamang palapag na, nasa pintuan niya na agad ako. I clicked the door bell and waited for his door to open. He opened it after seconds. His eyes darkened when he saw me standing outside. Nagtaas din ang kilay niya at isang beses na marahang pumikit. "Why are you here?" he asked, a ghost of a smile is hiding on his lips. "Ayaw mo ba ako rito?" sagot ko, nanatili sa labas ng pintuan niya. He then crossed his arms. Hindi niya ako pinapapasok. Nanatili ang tingin niya sa akin. "Nagpaalam ka ba?" I rolled my eyes. "Hindi na ako bata, Damon. I can do whatever I want whenever I want. My father is just being overprotective but it's already out of place. I'm not a teenager." He nodded and swallowed hard. "Hindi na kita ginising kanina. Your father also told me to just go home so..." Umiling ako sa inaasal ni Papa. "Yup. I got tired of waiting and I was exhausted so..." Nagtagal ang tingin naming dalawa bago siya tumango, para bang natauhan. "Hinatid ko Sina Tiya sa bahay kani
PAGKATAPOS ng usapan namin sa study, Damon was also summoned. I have heard he's arrived a while ago. He's just waiting for my father's call. Kaya nang tinawag siya ni Papa at inasahan ni Papa na sila lang muna ang magkakausap, hinayaan ko na.I was also exhausted from all of what happened the whole day. Kaya sa pagod at paghihintay ko na matapos ang meeting nila, hindi ko na tuloy naabutan"Si Damon?" tanong ko nang bumaba.Natanaw kong nasa sala na si Mama at Papa. I assume that their meeting with him is done."Umuwi na," si Papa."He wanted to stay and wait for you for a while but your father here told him that you're exhausted for the day. Kaya minabuti niyang umuwi na lang para pagpahingahin ka,"Tumango ako at saglit na nag-isip. My father excused himself when his phone rang. Dumiretso naman ako sa kusina para kumuha ng tubig at saglit na magpahinga.Kalaunan, nang gumabi, I had dinner with my parents. My brothers were also invited and that was the time when my parents explained
"IT'S NEGATIVE," kuya informed me.Natigilan ako saglit. The relief came afterwards. Although I have doubts, recent events and realizations made me renew my faith towards my father. Lalo na dahil kinausap niya mismo si Ashley Ortega, at na alam ni Mama ang tungkol dito.To know that the results were really negative was such a big relief."The positive tests were not published, as instructed.""Positive tests?""The one with a different sample, Ysa. Tama nga ang sinabi mo. She probably did get some samples from you "That was a speculation but it's different to hear it that way.Hindi ako makapaniwala na umabot nga'ng talaga si Fiona doon. I hated her to the bones but now that everything is revealed, I realized there was a part of me who hoped that she was credible. Desperate but still credible. But knowing this right now, it seems like everything is crumbling.She is desperate and she is a liar. Maybe, she didn't really want to hurt me that night, she only want my sample, but it was a
AFTER what Damon has said, Papa stepped in and lorded the floor. Siya naman ngayon ang binuhusan ng tanong na kaswal niya namang sinagot. Halos paulit-ulit lang ang mga tanong ng reporters, naghihintay na magkamali sa isasagot pero dahil totoo lahat ng mga sagot ni Papa, hindi sila nakahanap ng butas.The press conference ended. Takot akong magbasa sa mga panibagong articles at tulala pa ako sa study ni Papa habang pinoproseso ang mga nasagot nila roon. Damon just revealed everything! I'm not planning to keep our relationship a secret but I was also shocked that it's that openHe wanted to protect me so he had to reveal the truth. Hindi ko nga lang alam kung paniniwalaan iyon ng mga tao but seeing that he has a good credibility from the press, they'd tone down for sure.Sa dami ng iniisip ko, hindi ko na halos namalayan ang nagdaang oras. Nagulat na lang ako nang pumasok sa study si Papa, kasunod si Mama at si Damon. Napatayo ako galing sa pagkakaupo sa swivel chair at agad na sinalub
PAGKALABAS ng sasakyan ko, natanaw nga namin na may iilang ang nag-aabang sa lobby. Iniisip ko na paniguradong mas maraming nag-aabang sa condo ni Damon ngayon. Mas interesado ang mga taong malaman ang sasabihin niya dahil mas pinagkakatiwalaan siya kumpara sa akin.Tahimik ako sa biyahe. Damon couldn't stop watching me even as he drives the car. Sinalubong ako ng iilang kasambahay namin nang nakarating. Damon made sure that I went inside our house. At ibinalita sa akin na wala si Mama at Papa roon dahil maaga sila sa opisina. My father's conference will be moved today because of the news.Binalingan ko si Damon."Hintayin na Ianq natin si Mama at Papa rito para makausap natin."Damom shook his head. "I'll talk to your parents now, Ysa.""Pero Damon, ang daming media. For sure they will want your statement.""Then I'll give my statement."Tinitigan ko siya, punong puno ng pag-aalala."Don't worry, okay?""You haven't been in an intrigue this big. The media can be harsh and they twist
I COULDN'T believe that I had such a good night sleep despite everything that happened that day. O siguro dahil nawala ang mga mabibigat na nakadagan sa isipan ko. The DNA test was done, I had a good conversation and a more open relationship with Damon... and I think that is enough, despite the chaos.Nga lang, kadidilat pa lang ng mga mata ko kinaumagahan, nakita ko na ang abalang mga mensahe sa cellphone ko. I saw missed calls from my cousins, which was unusual.Napabalikwas ako sa kama nang natanaw na tumatawag si Nics. Sinagot ko agad iyon."What?" I said."Awake, finally? Sorry to bring bad news to your morning but...""What?" I said in anticipation."Your father is busy answering the media's questions right now. Apparently, the nature of your relationship with Damon leaked. I traced it earlier this morning, Fiona Suarez was interviewed by an insider, kaya kumalat-""What?!" Napatayo ako.Nics filled me with the details. Ni hindi pa niya alam ang buong pangyayari pero kagabi raw
HINDI KO alam kung paano ko sasabihin sa kanya iyon. I-alo na dahil pinagbigyan niya si Papa sa isang pabor na puwedeng sumira rin sa pangalan niya - ang pakasalan ako.It was as if he trusted my family so much, he dedicated his life to us. And now, when problems rise, it's my family who threw him out of the bus."I mean...""I'm not trying to change his mind about it, Ysa. Gusto ko lang din... humarap sa parents mo. Bilang... boyfriend mo."I gritted my teeth. Not because I was angry, I was trying not to feel a leap in my heart. I cleared my throat and tried to compose myself. Hinuli niya ang mga mata ko at agad akong nanlumo nang muling naalala ang problema."I'm sorry.."I'm sorry what?" he said with a low tone.Hinuli niya ang mga mata ko."Nagulat ako sa sinabi ni Papa kanina. Hindi ko alam paano sasabihin sa kanya na boyfriend kita-""That's alright. I don't mind if I have to face him to tell him that, Ysa,"Kinagat kong muli ang labi ko. "Ang totoo... sinabi niyang„, a-ayaw niy
SA TOTOO LANG, hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko pagkatapos sabihin ni Damon iyon. He looked at me intently, not sure if he's waiting for an answer or just weighing my reaction"It's your family's problem," I said as my throat run dry."It is. But I want to consult you. we both know that this is still somehow related to you... or us."Napatingin ako sa kanya at agad ko namang ibinaling sa ibang bagay ang mga mata ko."Umuwi ka na lang at kausapin mo sila. I won't mind."His brow furrowed and he remained looking at me.Napatingin din tuloy ako sa kanya, ako naman ngayon ang naninimbang. What does he want me to say? Hindi ba iyon naman ang tamang gawin niya? Ayaw kong makialam sa pag-uusapan nila dahil bago pa ako, nariyan na si Fiona. Kamag-anak niya ang Tiyo at Tiya niya. Kahit pa tingin nila'y mag-asawa kami, it's not true. I'm just his girlfriend. And even if we were indeed married, I can't just butt in on their family affairs."It's your family's problem. Oo, I may be related t
NAKIKINIG ako pero habang ganoon ay natanaw ko na nakatitig si Papa sa akin. I looked at him as well. He sighed and nodded before talking."Alam kong naipaliwanag ko na ang nangyari sa inyo ni Damon, pero gusto ko lang sabihin na nagsisisi ako sa mga naging padalos dalos kong desisyon."Both my cousins looked at me. Natahimik ako at nakinig lang kay Papa."I know I should've done this the moment I revealed that your marriage wasn't filed, but I was a coward and I still wanted my plan to work. To cover up for your pasts scandals, Ysa."He held his hand up in the air to stop me from talking.Umaamba akong magsasalita."Pagkatapos lumabas ng resulta, gusto ko nang sabihin sa media na hindi totoo ang pagpapakasal ninyo ni Damon. That I did that as a parent who tried to make wrong things right, the wrong way. It was a foolish decision and I take full responsibility over it."Nabitin sa ere ang mga sasabihin ko sa gulat sa sinabi ni papa."l don't want Damon for you..." he said.My eyes wid