Falling apart

CHAPTER TWO 

Falling apart

It's been exactly three hours and I'm still staring at the piece of paper, I was trying to wrap my head around the whole message, since when did she plan to leave and what did she mean by debts I need to pay, I was already having a headache just by thinking about the whole scenario 

So I just dropped the whole thing and went to sleep, I needed to clear my head, maybe it's just a prank, because what kind of woman leaves her child impromptu and apparently an alleged debts, so I left everything and went to sleep.

I woke up with a massive headache, it turned out sleeping was not really a favourable decision

I checked the time, 9:00 shit it's already time, I need to go to work nevertheless in the midst of everything I need work especially now that it seems I have been deserted.

I went out and took a taxi to the the cafe shop I'm currently working on, I don't want to be fired, the cafe is an elite 24 hour cafe, I don't know how I was accepted there, considering my timid nature, the cafe was only for rich people of certain calibar not just rich people, coffees made there are so expensive that I don't even understand why someone would spend such amount of money just on a coffee but that was not my problem now, I just wanted to continue working there, besides the pay was good, I could do better with some cash now.

Being really honest, I really don't know how I feel about Mom really leaving the house, she was never there anyway, just coming back in few occasions and with an attitude that shows nothing of being part of the family but even still, it feels as though the little string of hope I was holding unto has become even thinner, it keeps getting thinner, like it will become non-existent very soon.

I got out of the taxi and quickly went inside the Cafe , I look at Katherine whose eyes was already at the door probably expecting me, I offered her an apologetic smile and went over the counter to the back to change into my working uniform.

I came back to find Katherine already packed ready to leave, I thanked her apologized for keeping her waiting, she just nodded and picked her things to leave, I sighed I was 10 minutes late, Katherine hated staying more than she's required to, she hardly even speaks to me, but she's a nice girl nevertheless, I went to the counter, wrote down the time and my shift have officially started.

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It's was around 2:00 when I started feeling kind of dizzy, a bit sleepy, I'm the only one on night shift today which means I can't sleep, the manager will have my head if I sleep, he's so strict especially when it comes to employee being active, I really don't know why this cafe is 24 hour because around midnight nobody comes over again just on few occasions do people just drop by, even at that you are supposed to keep awake, don't doze off, don't even feel sleepy, I don't know how manager Wiz does that but he knows if you even slip in the slightest way, which is why I can't afford to, I look around the room no one is around except for the guy in a black hoodie that completely covered his face who walked in few minutes ago ordered a black coffee and hasn't raised his head since he came in, did I mention that this cafe is also for celebrities who just want to have coffee without disturbance by fans, the cafe is very low-key and sometimes I feel it's secretive too, we as the employee need to be very professional and always act like we don't see anything and I'm guessing the guy sitting over there is one our secret celebrity, I don't really care, because he already paid for his $1000 coffee, so I think it's time for me to do what has been on my mind for a while now, I needed to sing it's been a while I did that, my dad banned from singing so I wasn't allowed to sing for any reason

The cafe had a stage to sing, but it's usually in the night and only on rare occasion when a vip customer request for it, which seldom happens. 

I'm going to sing, I doubt the guy sitting there will mind me singing, he hasn't spoken nor complained ever since he came, so I think it's safe to use the stage for now .

I went to the stage the curtain was closed I didn't bother opening, I mean there's no audience anyway, I should just sing, my dream has always been to have a stage and a large audience listen to me, so I just close my eyes and imagine, just like I always do, the confidence comes immediately because in my mind, I'm a star... A shinning star

I had a dream , I got everything I wanted 

Not what you'd think and if I'm being honest, 

It's might have been a nightmare 

I think I died..

Nobody cried, nobody even noticed 

I saw them standing right there , kinda thought they might care 

But they didn't...

I tried to scream, but my head was underwater...

They called me weak, like I'm not just somebody's daughter 

It's like a nightmare...a dream 

But it felt like they were right there... Just looking and doing nothing 

I'm getting comfortable with the cold...

I'm getting accustomed to breathing underwater 

It's my life now... I'm chained underwater anyway....

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I breathed and walked down the street it's almost five o'clock I needed to get to my house and sleep I was really tired after my night shift, I don't know why the taxi I found at that time found it convenient to drop me just before the street to my house and claimed I didn't tell him the right address, not really in the mood to argue I just left him and decided to walk to my house since it's not that far anyway from where he dropped me .

I rubbed my hands together, it's quite cold and chilly at this time the street lights here is spoilt making the street dark, I guess it's not five o'clock yet, I hear footsteps behind me very faint but still there ... I turned around but found nobody, maybe I was imagining things, but I heard it again, this time more pronounced and getting closer, I was already gripped by fear and not even having the courage to look back, I start walking fast as fast as I can but the footsteps became faster also ... Now I'm convinced someone is after me and I took off, my heart was beating fast as I used my whole energy to increase my speed but it seemed as if running was a bad idea because the person caught up right to me rather quickly before grabbing my hair making me fall back on the ground 

" Aiisssh!! I was just going to talk to you normally and leave, why did you make me run you bitch!" 

He said while still grabbing my hair tight and looking at me, I was shaking with fear now, my hand holding his tight hold on my hair 

"W...w.w..who ar..re you, what do you want from me" he just looked at me with disdain before letting go and stood up

" You owe me money... I mean your parents do, but it looks like none of them are around so I have to take my money from you, however I will " he said bending down again to look at me

"I..I ..I " I tried to say something admist the panic attack I was having already 

" Shut up if you are a stammerer, hearing you talk just makes me sick... Anyway your parents owe me $500, 000 and I'm expecting you to pay me this week, if eventually it passes this week, the money increases to $1000000, and since it's my first time meeting you I'll be very considerate but I can't guarantee I will be this nice the next time I come over, so I recommend you find the money as soon as possible"

He finished and left me shaking on the floor trying to catch my breathe , I was sweating even in the midst of the cold, I don't know why but my chest suddenly started hurting so badly and before I knew what was happening I was crying the tears were not stopping I was full on bawling at the floor, forgetting about everything else... I wanted to disappear maybe if I die all of this will go away.