Josiah
Fuck.
I am fucked.
God damn it.
I sat on bed with the worst case of hangover in my whole life. It feels like my head is going to break in half.
But that’s not what concerns me right now.
Flashback of what I had done and said to Eunice came like a tornado in my head, making me curse every single word in my head.
The door suddenly opened and I stilled when Eunice came with a tray on her hands. Her eyes widened when she saw me. It’s as if she didn’t expect me to be awake yet.
I swallowed and just massaged my head. Damn it.
She slowly placed the tray on the bedside table and turned to go away.
I looked up and watched as she slowly left the room. I glanced at the tray and saw our usual breakfast meal with a glass of water and a tablet of medicine.
Something inside me constricted as I stared at it. I don’t want to think about anything malicious but I couldn’t.
EuniceI helped Nela in preparing dinner.I immediately got out of that place because I don’t want to deal with Josiah. This morning, I thought I was going to die when I met his gaze.He was drunk. He didn’t know what he was doing. Damn, I don’t even think he can remember it. I know because there are times when I can’t remember anything. Nanette always forgets everything she did when she gets stupid drunk.“Will they like these dishes, Ma’am?” Nela asked as she placed the kimchi stew on the table. She cooked a lot of dishes and they seem delicious.I smiled at her. “I think so. You cook really good,” I assured her.Anyway, I know those guys. They eat anything. I saw them in the reception of our wedding and I would say that they a wide range of appetite.Nela smiled at me and told me that she’ll just get the rice from the kitchen. I nodded and continued settin
JosiahSeeing Eunice with Dorian made me see red. I couldn’t stop myself from probing. I can’t stop myself from asking why I feel this way when I know I shouldn’t.Eunice is my wife on papers. I should stop this feeling.But I couldn’t.I couldn’t stop myself from caring for her. I couldn’t stop this awful feeling in my chest whenever I see her with someone else. It sucks. This fucking sucks.Eunice is mad at me. I can see from the way she glares at me that she is. I don’t understand why though.We’re all seated in front of the dining table and I just helped her place food on her plate. It took me a lot of courage to do that because all of my friends are watching.Sage smirked at me and I just gave him a lazy smile.I looked back at Eunice who’s busy eating her food right now. She’s not looking up but then I saw Dorian staring at her as she eats.
EuniceMy soul has left me. My strength too. And my sanity.Josiah’s lips are on mine and I could not believe that I am enduring his soft kiss without trembling too much. He lifted his face and his eyes met mine.I could hear the banging in my chest. I hope he doesn’t because I don’t want him to. I don’t want him to know how nervous I am right now.I stared back at his pitch black eyes and almost got lost in them if only he didn’t lean in to give me a deeper kiss.My eyes are wide opened at how expertly his lips moved against mine. His hand moved at the back of my head, pulling my face closer to him.He swiped his tongue on my lower and I almost gasped at his move. He continued to deepen the kiss making my eyes close and slowly responded to his lips.My heart is beating erratically, like it wants to leap out of my chest with every move Josiah’s mouth does. I haven’t felt like
JosiahI watched Eunice sleep in my arms. She cried a lot tonight and it’s all because of me.I hated myself for that. Was I deserving of her tears? Dorian said I am a douche, and I admit to his claim. I am a douchebag for having a wife and a girlfriend at the same time.My friends told me to not lead Eunice on but what have I done? I kissed her and now I’m cuddling with her on our bed. I didn’t know why I have to do that.Eunice is innocent among all this. I was guilty of everything.I took a deep breath and pulled her closer to me. I am guilty of everything but why does it feel so right now that she is in my arms? It feels so right that I don’t care if I’d be guilty for the rest of her life.I stared at her face and my eyes went to her lips. My breathing hitched when I remembered how good her lips tasted. Her kiss is like a forbidden fruit. It’s worth a grave sin.I could remember
EuniceMy classmates’ eyes were on me as I entered the classroom. They were all giving me confused and curious looks as I went to my seat. Normally, I wouldn’t care about it because I don’t want other people’s opinions to get to me. But right now, they are looking at me like they are judging me…and Josiah.I opened my book and just focused on the lesson that we will discuss today. I tried to shake off all the stares because I refuse to give their stares some validation.My phone suddenly vibrated.Josiah: I’m in my room now.My heart immediately raced the moment I read Josiah’s name on the screen. Sometimes, I think this is not healthy. I feel like if my heart continues to react like this to him, I would see death earlier than my right time.I was going to ignore it but then as I was going to put my phone back inside my bag, it vibrated again.Josiah: This is so boring. I can
JosiahWatching Eunice eat is so fascinating, especially now because of the curious eyes of her friends.I know that they know how Eunice and I started. They were at the wedding and they probably know a lot about our marriage.Nanette was throwing me glances as I continued to feeding Eunice. She heaved a heavy breath. “Are you serious with our friend?”Eunice stopped chewing and narrowed her eyes at her friend. She was obviously taken aback and I can’t deny that I am, too.Among all her friends, I believe Nanette and Mitch are the straight-forward ones. Mona was obviously quiet but I believe that she’s like Dorian. She only talks once but it seeps into the system.I looked at Nanette and nodded. “I am.”Nanette raised her brows. Mitch leaned on the table as she gave me a look like asking me to elaborate more on that. Mona was blankly staring at me like she’s trying to weigh me
EuniceMona’s words bothered me the whole day. I didn’t even know what to tell Josiah to make it up to him.“Don’t look at me like that,” Mona chirped when she caught me glaring at her.We are now in the hideout as we’re about to discuss our game plan. Well, we don’t really have a game plan. We just love talking about the gangs that we beat who keep sending us gang fight invitations.I took a deep breath and cocked my head to the side. “What was that? You totally acted so rude to Josiah!”Mona gave me a confused look. “I was stating a fact.”Nanette laughed while Mitch was shaking her head.“Yes, but did you have to act that way? You looked like you hate him!” I exclaimed.Mona nodded. “I hate guys like him so there must be some truth to your words.”My jaw dropped at what she said. Mona was usually quiet but when s
JosiahWhen I finished taking a bath, Eunice was gone. She wasn’t in our room.I sighed and went to bed. I don’t know if I still have some guts to show myself to her after what happened to her. Now, I’m the biggest asshole in the whole universe.I took my phone and saw Eunice’s message for me.Eunice: Where are you?My heart immediately constricted upon reading her message. She was worried about me. I can see from her expression when I got here. She wanted to know what happened but backed away.Fuck. I broke my promised to her. I told her I will break up with Hannah but I didn’t. I was so into the fact that my mother told her about my marriage that I couldn’t bring myself to end it with her.All this time, Hannah has been keeping all her pain from me. I felt awful and somewhat responsible for that.I waited for an hour until the bedroom door opened. Eunice came on and walked