Days passed of me worrying, imagining every second of the terror that fills me, I had never had a week to process everything before it even happened. The shivers that felt me up in the wrong way, my hands shivered as I pulled for the comforter on a hot sunny night. Sweat built up on my forehead as I tried closing my eyes, I just wanted sleep but all that roamed my mind was how much it would burn, how much it would hurt.I turned to the side as I felt a hand creep up to my side as I swatted it away. Nolan was fast asleep luckily. I opened my eyes widely and went to the kitchen, I couldn't face the darkness anymore. I grabbed a glass from the cabinet and poured myself a glass of cold water, to wake me up. The clock read 5:00 am as I wiped my head furiously. I needed something to cool my mind, I crept back into the bedroom and changed into some leggings and a tank top, I wrote a note on the desk and took off on a run, just to feel better to feel clear.The wind brushed my hair as I pus
Time was something I didn't have as I hauled a cab over to the side of the busy street. The air was musty as I grabbed the top and pulled myself in. The old man smiled at me and asked where I was going. "Lawrence Enterprises, please", I said as he typed it in and began driving towards it. My mind spiraled as I felt the burning need to go home but then I remembered why I put myself into dangerous situations. It was all for her, she was the light at the end."Going for a job interview?", his question snapped me out and back to reality as I wished I was going for a simple job interview."No, you have a nice day sir", I handed him an extra tip as he thanked me and I got out of the bright yellow cabby. The tall building stretched out in front of me as I scaled the length, remembering the times I'd held my mom's hand as she delivered lunch to my dad.I rushed into the building as I spotted the lobby filled with exuberant plants and people yelling or fussing into their cellular phones.
Secrets filled my head rapidly, and regret clouded my judgment. My thoughts fumbled as I waited for Nolan to arrive home, I wanted badly to feel his bareback and his sweet lips kiss mine. The elevator dinged as I waited for the doors to open, I ran and hugged him as I felt my stomach nag at me, but I ignored it. He was home and that's all I could want right now. He smelled of an airplane, hinted with a tad bit of cologne. His hands roamed my shoulders as I kissed him. "Hi", he said as if we hadn't tried to destroy each other's faces just a second ago. He hauled in his suitcases and it had seemed like he had brought one more back. "Hi", I stared at his golden eyes and his soft hair, his enticing lips, and his sweet face. I missed him too much. "I missed you", I told him as he rolled his suitcases to the kitchen and he propped the suitcase open. "I missed you too", he kissed my head as he picked me up and put me on the countertop. You can imagine what we did for the next hour or tw
My heart skipped a beat as Avery demanded I waited inside the car and that I didn't peek as she exited the car with a huge grin. The door was opened for me as I saw Avery standing with a single white peony in her hand. Her smile was elegant as she handed me the flower. She took my hand and tucked it into my side, as I could hear the murmurs of people and the hushes from around the corner. My eyes adjusted to the glistening sun and I focused on how sinister I looked in this dress. Family and friends surrounded the area as I struggled to pull down my hiked up dress and try but fail to make it look acceptable to Nolan's grandma. I saw thumbs up from the crowd of people along with a photographer telling me to smile. I heard a whirring sound behind me as I turned around and looked straight at it. "What is happening?", I whispered to her as I saw a drone following us. She didn't say a word as she guided me down the flight of stairs. In the distance there were men and women and I saw the
Flower catalogs scattered the floor as I searched for Nolan's phone which buzzed on repeat for the last hour. Papers fluttered the floor as I searched, to please stop this horrid sound. His briefcase contents was sprawled on the ground as I finally found the ringing, bastard of a phone. my eyes twitched in response to the shining sun, and I picked up the phone having a pretty good idea of who it was, only one person would call us at 5:30 a.m. "Hello", I said steadily trying to hide the fact that I had just woken up. The phone on the other line sounded startled as I wiped my eyes in agony. "Darling did you just wake up, you can't be serious", the stingy british voice repeated as I wished I wouldv't just let it ring. Miss Celine was a wedding planner, Alison had hired to make sure it was absolutely perfect. Miss Celene made sure everything was perfect and if it wasn't she would fix it. "We don't have a meeting until 3 right?", I asked as I checked my wedding planner I got from a gift
The whole night I had been tossing and turning, I couldn't sleep right, couldn't sleep straight, everything was tossing through my mind and I felt that pinch of guilt seep through my heart. I lied to him, told him everything was fine, when it wasn't when I was in pain in fear, he wanted to be there for me, but I couldn't risk it. Nolan had crept out of bed early in the morning and so here I was sitting alone with my horrid thoughts. I knew he had questions dating back to the start of our relationship to even further. Could he ever trust me again? My mind was racing around the thought of him never being able to trust me again, to thinking that our whole relationship was a lie. He didn't deserve this, no one did. Last night was new for him, he had every right to be angry. I hadn't told him what was happening I had left him out of something so big he chose to defend me, without even knowing what happened. My legs felt cold and numb as I began to stretch my legs to face the thunder
Days had gone by, a full week had gone by and his touch, voice and scent drifted through my mind. I was too proud to beg for him back, when he had hurt me more than he realized, he stood there as I begged him to tell me he wanted me. But his silence scarred me more than his words could ever. "Smoothie?", Avery asked as she handed me a mango smoothie, the color of yellow reminding me of how I felt when I was with him, happy. "Have you heard anything?", I asked her as she had just gotten off a call from Tyler. She shook her head as my expression fell yet again. I asked myself at night why I didn't go home, leave my stubbornness here and say that I didn't care, I didn't care if he hated me, if I was too much for him, because I just needed to feel his touch again, his lips again. But I never could, and the end of the day I spent alone, in a large bed on an exotic and romantic island. "I was thinking we should go out tonight", Avery suggested as I looked down at my butterfly fuzzy pants
The rain pattered down heavily as his shadow stood still, and I heard not a single word flow from his mouth, only silence, the silence that once hurt me. "What are you here for, Nolan?", I cried out letting the rain and tears mix together as they ran down my cheek. "To humiliate me, to remind me that you left, what are you here for". "You told her, of all people her. My father ruined my life repeatedly, but you hurt me worse, because I thought you could never hurt me, you could never make me feel the way he used to make me feel", I wiped my cheeks as he stood there silent and frozen "Boy was I wrong", I shouted across the rain. "And when I told you I needed you to talk to me, we needed to talk, you ran, you left me crying on the floor", I whimpered loudly as his silence didn't reassure me anymore than him coming here did. "So if you've come here to humiliate me and play a little game with me, don't waste your time", I breezed by him as I walked fast back to the beach house. "I l