My eyes felt like they were mountains as I opened them to the blinding light. I could tell they looked red and puffy as ever, but that was the least of my concerns as I woke up in Dallas's room. My eyes wandered around the room, I had such difficulties sleeping in, that I ended up just not sleeping at all. The bookcase towered over the room, as I saw Dallas sleeping in the rocking chair, with a blanket thrown over him. I wasn't sure why he hadn't just slept in the same bed with me, we had done it so many times before.
He woke up suddenly flinching towards the bed and as he saw me watching him it looked like he was about to have a nightmare that he would play out and act as if it was chasing him now."You're awake", he stated, filling the space between the both of us. I nodded my head at this statement, clearing being awake covered the basics of it.I felt like I should say something, anything, I needed to say something."Listen about last night, thanks for everyt"I don't get it. Why would he surround himself with alcohol if he promises to stay sober at his house nonetheless?" I asked Davina, as I stood in front of her elegant mirror, watching as she pressed clothes against my body. Trying to find my revenge look of some sorts. I don't think I needed one."Maybe he wants to prove to a special someone, he's okay. He did make sure you're coming". She said, factually she seemed to be one of the few factual people in my life. When I told her about Dallas and I, the whole full blown story between us, leaving out details that I couldn't share, they were too private. She could fill the blanks in, I left out most of the words he had said that made my stomach swirl, my heart pound. She concluded that we were lovestruck with each other and we were horrible at saying what we felt, because of those and I quote "stupid love stories" we both read. It was hard to avoid it for him, his father was a genius writer, he probably grew up with brilliant idea
I had never experienced magic in my life, nothing magical, nothing freeing but this came close to anything else I would ever feel. He came close to it all, my lips muffled his, kissing him like the world was coming to an end. Like I would die happy if my heart came to one final beat.It felt like a fever dream, he felt like a fever dream. Reality was further away from me than I had ever imagined, but here he was my very very real reality right in front of me.His heart beat heavily under mine, our hair messy, our lips puckered as we laid under the stars lying in the back of his car and staring up at them. It felt like a dream, he felt like a dream and I was just waiting to wake up, hoping I wouldn't fall in love with this moment if I was just going to wake up at the end. But I pinched myself many many times and each time Dallas looked at me like I was crazy. I pinched him too as he returned my pinch with a kiss, reminding me of how real this is, how real we are. How
I screeched at him as he climbed up the ladder, his loud shoes clacking against the ladder. I was absolutely horrible for sneaking him in, absolutely horrible. Nolan was just processing the information earlier, he still yelled. Wondering why I even wanted to have a relationship now. Wondering why I needed to be with him. But they would understand, considering they both walked through hell and fire to be together, they knew what I was feeling.I doubt this was one of the things they would allow him to do, crawl into my bedroom most nights. It had been a week since we decided our fate, simply each other and I was just grasping the idea of him being next to me through it all, sometimes I would be surprised when he would kiss my cheek, or slowly hug me. He was filled with affection."I've been doing this for a while, climbing in and out of windows". He said, his voice laying low as I nodded my head, and grabbed the water I had snagged for him."Only my window right
Dallas noticed my face drooping forward as he smiled, finding his way to my ear."You told your therapist about me?" He whispered as I nodded my head, he knew what was affecting me the most. His head ducked down to my neck, nibbling on the skin."It's okay. And you're probably right. He helps me in many... ways". I said, my groan echoing throughout the room, echoing hopefully in my voice."Okay wait... finish the story". She said and I looked at Dallas, devouring my neck, finding pleasure in our situation."And then I thought he regretted the kiss". I announced and displeasure came from Natalie's, echoing Dallas's formal plea of a very stern no from his voice, echoed by the shower running. If she pulled back the shower curtain, not only would Dallas be stark naked but he would never be allowed over again and the trust between Natalie and I would be gone. I hated lying."I could never regret that kiss". Dallas whispered down in my ear and I thanked this house
My hand moved, as I felt fingers trickle against my forehead, soft caressing almost wiping the dried tears that had formed overnight. The dried tears that had formed and never had weaved down my skin.I remembered the night, I had told him it all, the box still on the floor likely next to us. The questions, and his soothing answers he offered me, he didn't search for the answers but he dove to find them and he didn't give up, he was a powerhouse. A moving world wind of love."It's not morning yet". He whispered into my ear as I moved my head to his chest, opening my eyes softly and he peeled up, kisses running down my cheek."Wake me up, when it is morning then". I whispered to him as he nodded, feeling the way his whole body moved as the motion followed through his whole body. He smiled, kissing my head and letting his hands wrap around me. My body felt magic flow through as he surrounded me from all sides. And I fell back to sleep, the magic pulling me into a
The car pulled up, music muffling the car, my long awaited adventure finally taking place. But this time I said my goodbyes to Nolan and Natalie, and even the twins and I went out the front door. I opened the front seat, as Dallas leaned over kissing me rapidly and Vi booed from the backseat."You look beautiful". He whispered as I blushed, and kissed him once more, his kiss radiating through me like the sun, bleeding through. He smiled, moving my hair to the side as I kissed his cheek."I missed you very much". I said, as we sat there lost in the presence of each other, the strong presence we both captivated long enough. He nodded his head, leaning against mine as hands broke us up and I turned to look at the criminal we had broken out of jail."I missed you too". I told Vi as she hugged me, standing up and bending over the front console. She looked better, well anyone looked better out of a hospital bed, but she looked like she was free. Like she was ready to
My stomach stormed aloud, my heart too as I looked down at Dallas from my bedroom window, there he stood with a bag of food and my work for the week. I had enjoyed the company of my personal mail boy more than I should've. I slid down my ladder out of the window as he smiled."I missed you". He said, pushing his hands around me as I looked over at him and he smiled, he moved his head to the side as I pulled myself against him. My lips locked with his as I breathed in his husky scent, the way the words rolled off his tongue."I missed you too." I said, kicking off the other bag he had brought. He moved it to the side as I heard the thud of my favorite thing, of my absolute favorite thing. He saw my curious look as he opened the bag wider and he moved the bag to the side and I saw books more and more books as I toppled over him, hugging him with everything I had in me."Thank you for keeping me from losing my mind". I said, watching as he looked at me with a proud smile
It's a gawdy feeling. A gawdy feeling as my chest tightened staring out of the home's balcony. We were leaving today. Leaving our escape to a reality filled with nothing close to normalcy and I didn't and wouldn't be able to accept the fact that everyone was waiting for Vi to just give up. She didn't have it in her, she had the fight in her and it was apparent, apparently loud."Thinking of something?" A hand snaked around my waist, as I felt his head rest on my shoulder. I didn't know how his head was straight properly, I didn't know how he wasn't a mess, but whatever was working I hoped it continued for him."Just how- beautiful it is". Lie. An apparent lie. I wasn't a fan of forests. The empty nothing, empty nobody. They were amusing, but not what's in them. That's nothing but amusing."It is beautiful". He agreed. His small form of agreement won me over a million reasons why I should pry through his mind."I gave Vi her breathing treatment, but she's r