"Is she here yet?" Tanong ko kay Kali nang makababa na.She awkwardy shook her head. "Nasa labas. She's parking the car."Iwinaksi ko yung ilang na tugon niya. I'd be awkward too. I mean, I feel awkward din. Kaya lang ayokong maging ilang sa harap ng lahat. Especially that I am meeting Auntie for the first time in a while. Hindi kasi ako yung tipo na inaabangan yung tao pagdating sa bahay. Well, if I were like that, she won't even acknowledge my presence. Kaya I never did it. Nakatira nga kami sa iisang bubong pero kadalasan lang kaming nagkikita.Naramdaman ko nalang yung mga kamay ni Lev sa beywang ko, niyakap niya ako patalikod. "Hey, babe."Napailing nalang ako. Magkasabay naman kaming bumaba. Why is he so extra?"Alam ba ng Auntie niyo na dito kami natutulog?" Tanong ni Sebastian. "Isn't she a little conservative?"Nagkatinginan kami ni Kali. Oh no. Hindi pala kami nakapagpaalam kay Auntie na dito yung dalawa natutulog. Biglaan kasi yung pag-uwi ni Auntie at hindi na kami nag-aba
"Himala ata at gusto mong sumama," sabi ni Auntie habang nakaupo sa passenger's seat. Nasa back seat kaming dalawa ni Kali at may driver naman kami. Medyo marami-rami din yung dala naming gamit kasi hindi namin alam kung hanggang kailan kami mananatili sa resort na yun. "I wouldn't miss this for the world, Auntie!" Kali exclaimed.Kaninang umaga maaga na siyang gumising para makapaghanda. Me, on the other hand, isn't excited pero maaga din akong gumising para maghanda. The urge of arriving at the venue feels like a necessity. Kailangan kong makarating dun before Lev does. Who knows kung ano yung gagawin niya before I arrive?"Oh, I know you wouldn't miss this for the world, dear," tumawa nang mahina si Auntie. "I'm talking about Kaia. She's not usually this giddy about a gathering.""Hmm. Change of heart?" Sagot ko.Umiling siya. "I don't think it's a change of heart. I feel like it's something else."I scoffed. "Think whatever you want to think, Auntie.""Well, I think it's because
A soft kiss began on my neck, the touch of his lips and the aroma of his cologne stirring my senses. Oh how much I love everything about him. His lips on my skin puts me in turmoil. I want to feel his body to mine even more! The distance that kept us apart became a factor on how much we want each other right now.My eyes closed as the kiss moved its way up to my earlobes, my breathing becoming more and more shallow. "Lev..."His lips pressed against mine, our tongues entwining as we kissed passionately. His hands moved down my body to my waist, his touch setting off a wave of pleasure throughout my entire body. I can feel that he is hesitant to touch me everywhere. But I want him to touch me. I want him to feel me.Hinawakan ko yung kamay niya at inilagay sa itaas ng aking dibdib. Napahinto siya sa paghalik at tiningnan ako habang napakurap."Kaia--""Shut up," pagpigil ko sa kanya at hinila siya at hinalikan sa labi.I guided his hand on now to massage my breast. His hand was stiff
"Lev! I missed you so much!""Becca! You're here!"Kumalas sa yakap yung babae kay Lev at nakangiting hinarap siya. "Look at you! You look so handsome!""And you too," sagot ni Lev.Uhm. Hello? I stared at the both of them with knitted brows. What is this? Bakit hinahayaan lang ni Lev na yakapin siya nang ganyan in front of a lot of people? I know who Rebecca is but I don't know who she is in Lev's life. This thing that they did to me is downright insulting!"Kaia," Kali whispered. "Are you okay?""I'm good." I cleared my throat para makuha atensyon ni Lev.Lev's eyes met mine kaya all of the sudden, bigla niya akong naalala. Wow."Oh! Right. Becca, I'd like you to meet--" Naputol yung sasabihin ni Lev nang biglang nagsalita yung MC."Ladies and gentlemen. Let me introduce to you, the hostess for tonight's event!" He announced."Teka lang. That can wait," Sabi ni Rebecca at hinila si Lev papalayo sa amin."But wait--"Nakakunot yung noo kong sinundan sila ng tingin. At hindi pa talag
"Kaia, can you please tell me what's wrong?" He asked frustratedly. "I can't read minds!"Napatitig ako sa kanya. He's really upset. Kumirot yung dibdib ko sa sariling naisip. Doesn't he loves me anymore? May nagawa ba ako para ikaka-turn off niya? Am I too harsh towards him. Naramdaman ko nalang yung pagtubig ng aking mga mata. Fvck! I don't want to lose him."Do you love me less now?" I asked at tuluyan nang tumulo ang aking mga luha.Nawala yung kunot niya sa noo at napalitan ng pag-aalala. "Kaia, please don't cry."Inilapit niya yung kamay niya sa mukha ko para sana punasan yung luha ko pero umiwas ako, leaving his hand in the air. Nasasaktan niya akong tiningnan. I wipe my own tears aggressively."Do you want to stop this ruse, Lev? Sabihin mo lang sa akin na ayaw mo na. Tell me that you don't like me anymore before my feelings for you deepens!" I cried. "K-Kaia...""Okay na sana tayo e. But why do you have to show that stuff to me?" I asked, pointing at the party. "A girl sudde
"How did you learn how to cook?" I asked Lev when I took a spoonful of his cooking.Nakakagulat yung luto niya, animo'y bihasa na sa gawaing ito. The last time I remembered, halos hindi na nga niya matapos-tapos yung niluto niya kung hindi ko pa tulungan."Masarap?" He chuckled.I nodded. "Sobra!""Well I took cooking class, one of the best class." Pagmamalaki niya. "Why?""Para mapagluto nga kita," He smiled. "Dapat lang alam ko na kung paano magluto kapag ikakasal na tayo. We will be sharing the same house, baby."Mapait akong napangiti sa sinabi niya. Ikakasal nga kami. Don't get me wrong, I want to spend everyday of my life with him. Kaya lang naaalala ko yung ruse. Now that he told me the way he feels, matutuloy pa ba ang ruse? Will we get divorce after a few months? Iniisip ko palang yan ay parang gusto ko nalang manatili kami sa ganitong sitwasyon. A situation where we don't have to be separated. Napansin ni Lev yung pananahimik ko kaya lumingon siya sa akin na nakakunot yung
I woke up because my phone is ringing. Nang buksan ang aking mga mata, naninibago ako sa nakita. This isn't my room. Definitely not my bed. Saka ko lang naalala ang lahat nang makaramdam ng bigat sa aking tiyan. I look at the person beside me and I saw Lev. Napangiti ako. He's sleeping soundly as his arms are possesively wrapping my waist. Narinig ko na namang magring yung phone ko kaya dahan-dahan kong tinanggal yung kamay niya para maabot ko yung phone pero bigla siyang umungol. "No..."Napangiti ako. "Someone's calling.""Dito ka lang," reklamo niya."Saglit lang, Lev. Kukunin ko lang phone ko," Sagot ko dito.I received a groan from him pero niluwagan niya naman yung pagyakap niya sa akin. "Fine. Hurry."He lets go of me kaya tuluyan na akong nakabangon pero napahinto ako nang makaramdam ng hapdi sa pagkababae ko. I bit my lower lip when I remembered what happened last night. I gave in. I also realized that I am fully naked. I shrug my shoulders. Nakita naman niya lahat sa akin
"That's incest, my dear. Very immoral," Iling ko sa kanya.Kumukulo na talaga yung dugo sa babaeng ito pero gusto kong cool pa rin akong tingnan. How dare she ruin my morning? Sobrang ganda kaya ng gising ko! And she just ruined it by saying that she likes my fiancé. To think na magpinsan sila, that's not right!"We are not related by blood," Iling niya. "I am adopted so liking him wouldn't be a problem. Do you really think you are fit to be his wife?"I shrug my shoulders. "I know that I'm not perfect but I also know that he loves me. Is that a good enough for you?"She scoffed. "I don't believe you. Something is really off about this set up but I just can't point it out. Kadalasang tama yung hinala ko ang believe me, hindi ko gusto itong nararamdaman ko.""Siguro I can point out what you are feeling," Ngisi ko.Tumaas yung kilay niya. "And what is that?""Jealousy?" I guessed. "Envy?"Mas lalong nagdilim ang kanyang paningin. I saw how her jaw clenched with her fists. Mukhang isang
I stared at myself in front of the mirror. I refuse to let a single drop of tear ruined my make up. Today is the day, the day when Lev is going to wed. Ewan ko ba kung bakit ako pumayag na pumunta. I told myself that I would never attend his wedding. Kaya nga ako nangabilang-bansa kasi umiiwas ako. But he crossed borders just to see me. Just to invite me to his wedding.Minsan naisip ko na may galit ba siya sa akin. Does he want me to suffer? Or did he assumed that I was okay with this, that I moved on? Does it look like that?Pero kahit pa anong pagkamuhi ko sa mga nangyayari, I still invited myself to be hurt. Talagang sumang-ayon akong dumalo. For what, Kaia? For respect? For you not to look pitiful?"Are you ready?" Tanong ni Kali sa akin.Mapait akong ngumiti. "Yeah.""Tara na!"Kali's invited as well. Akala ko pa nga pipigilan ako ni Kali. But no. She's supportive on my decisions. Hindi ko alam kung saan yung kasal kasi I didn't bother looking at the invitation. Kali knows.Mari
Four months later, I busied myself. I went to Italy to follow my dreams. This time, hindi tumutol si Auntie. She supported me together with Kali. Masaya ako kasi ito lang naman ang hinihiling ko sa kanya, to support me. It took a lot of obstacles just to get here and it is all worth it.Sabay na kami ni Kali pumunta ng Europe. She have a project within the area at sakto namang papunta ako dito. We stayed in the same apartment and supported each other. Si Auntie naman ay naiwan sa Pinas. I told her that she should start meeting men. She will not stay young forever."Kaia, I'll go ahead. Baka hindi agad ako makauwi mamaya so kumain ka nalang nang wala ako," paalam ni Kali."Okay, Kali. Mag-ingat ka!" I waved my hand at her."Bye!"She then closed the door behind her. Naiwan na naman akong mag-isa. Tapos na kasi yung class ko sa morning and so I have the afternoon all for myself. Napalingon ako sa bag ko ang something was peeking from the inside. Lumapit ako dito at kinuha yun. Napahint
"C-Come join us!" Utal na aya ni Kali at agad tumayo. "Kukuha lang ako ng extra plates.""Maraming salamat," ngiti ni Ms. Santos. "Pero kasi, basa kami. Nakakahiya namang umupo sa chairs niyo na parang mga basang sisiw."I blinked twice, realizing that it must be freezing for them. Fully airconditioned pa naman yung bahay. "I'm sorry for that," sabi ko at dali-daling lumapit sa AC para hinaan ito."We only have three rooms in the house," sabi ni Auntie."Okay lang. Pwede naman kaming matulog sa sala, diba?" Sagot ni Ms. Santos."No," iling ni Auntie. "I won't allow you to sleep in the living room.""You can stay in my room," presenta ko. Napalingon silang lahat sa akin. "My room is spacious enough to cater all of you. Doon nalang ako makikishare kay Kali."Tumaas ang kilay ng dalawang kapatid ni Lev. Nakangiti naman sa akin si Ms. Santos as if she's very thankful of what I've said. Si Lev naman ay napatingin sa akin na puno ng paghanga sa mga mata. What? Just because they hurt me doe
"Auntie, we need to go," sabi ni Kali.Hindi ako makagalaw. I can't seem to function well now that I saw him. Mas lalo ko nang hindi maintindihan yung nararamdaman ko. Masaya ba ako kasi nakita ko siya? Malungkot ba ako kasi alam kong hindi ko siya malalapitan. Fück!"Go? Saan?" Tanong ni Auntie habang nakahiga pa rin sa sofa. She seems really tired. Sobrang comfy na kasi ng pagkahiga niya at naabutan pa naming nakapikit ang kanyang mga mata. When she's in this state, hindi dapat namin siya dinidisturbo pero dahil sa pagmamadali, hindi na iyon naisip ni Kali. She wants us to go back home."Uwi na tayo," sagot ni Kali.Kumunot yung noo ni Auntie at napaupo, hinarap kaming dalawa. "Umuwi? Bakit? Hindi niyo ba nagustuhan yung lugar? May mga pupuntahan pa tayo bukas. It's part of the itinerary."Umiling si Kali. "The place is good, Auntie. It's one of the most beautiful places that I've been to. Pero kailangan na talaga nating umalis.""Why?" She asked. "I thought you liked it here?""We
"Are you alone?" Tanong niya.Ilang segundo din akong nakatitig sa kanya. Ano ang ginagawa niya dito? Does she needs anything from me? Wala akong maibibigay sa kanya so why is she here? "I'm sorry," iling ko. "I'm with my Auntie today. Why? May kailangan ka ba?""I wanna talk to you. It will be quick, I promise," sabi niya.Kumunot yung noo ko. "Ano?""May I take this seat?" She asked.Kahit hindi ako sigurado kung ano ang pag-uusapan namin, iginaya ko sa kanya yung bakanteng upuan na nasa harap namin. "Go ahead.""Thank you," sabi niya bago umupo. "Before we start I would like to say how beautiful you are today--""Ano po yung pag-uusapan natin?" I asked, cutting her words. She's not here to compliment me, is she? Napansin niya siguro yung pagkawalang gana ko kaya she compliments me first. Hindi niya ba ako kilala? Hindi ba nakarating sa kanya yung mga rumors kung anong klaseng tao ako? I am a snob, unfriendly, unapproachable, and definitely a person who doesn't beat around the bus
We heard the gates open. Halos magkasabay kaming napalingon dito. I heard the wheels making impact on the pebbles outside of the house. Si Auntie."Quick! Pumasok ka na sa kwarto mo!" Pagmamadali ni Kali sa akin.As I was told, I ran upstairs before Auntie could get in. Dali-dali pa akong nagbihis ng pambahay at winasak yung buhok. I immediately went to bed and covered myself with the comforter."Nasaan si Kaia? Alam kong wala siya dito!" I could hear Auntie's voice echoing in the hallways."N-Nasa silid niya lang po!" Sagot ni Kali."I am not a fool, Kali. Narinig ko na magkasama sila ng batang Laurier at nagtanan pa raw. Kaya pala you two are becoming suspiscious." Sabi ni Auntie."Nagsasabi po kami ng totoo!" Kali insisted. "Hindi pa rin niya ginalaw yung pagkain niya. Hindi din namin nakitang lumabas ng silid kaya imposibleng nakipagtanan yun.""Siguro hindi niyo napansin o di kaya'y alam niyo pero nagbubulag-bulagan lang kayo." Auntie paused. "Kapag wala si Kaia pagkabukas ko ng
"A-Ano?""Hindi na naabutan ni Lev si Mommy and it is all because of you! Grabe! Ang lupet mo no? You ruined my brother's reputation and where were you when everyone was bullying him? Wala! Nagtago ka at sarili mo lang yung iniisip mo!" She shouted.I was left in shock. People were bullying him? Hindi ko 'yan alam! Damn! What happened while I was gone? Was it really my fault? Yes, it was. Kung hindi sana ako gumawa ng tanginang ruse na ito edi sana hindi kami nagkilala ni Lev. I wouldn't have to ruin his life. He told me that we should runaway. Pumayag naman ako kasi siya naman kasama ko. He mentioned how his family started disowning him and I didn't know the deeper meaning of that. Bobo mo, Kaia! Hindi mo man lang naitanong sa kanya kung kumusta siya. Siguro tama mga kapatid niya— that you only think about yourself. "Nasaan si Lev?" I asked. "Is he okay?""Lev? You think papayagan ka naming makipagkita sa kanya? Sa lahat ng ginawa mo?" The other sibling scoffed."Alam mo na may ma
"What?!" Nagising ako dahil sa boses ni Lev. Unti-unti kong minulat ang aking mga mata at nakitang umaga na pala. Siguro nasa 9 am na. But what made Lev shout like that?Napalingon ako sa kanya and he's already standing. Nasa tenga niya yung phone niya. He's talking to someone and I can tell that something is wrong. Nakakunot ang kanyang noo at pakurap-kurap na din yung mga mata niya. It seems like he's in a hurry. Dali-dali niya din kasing isinuot yung lower niya na nasa sahig."I'm coming."Binaba niya yung tawag at dali-daling nagbihis."Lev? What's going on?" I asked.Napalingon siya sa akin at pilit ngumti. "I'm sorry, baby, but we need to go.""Go? Where?""I'll explain while we're on the way. Magbihis ka na at ihanda yung mga gamit mo." Sabi niya at pumasok sa banyo.Naguguluhan man ay ginawa ko yung utos niya. Pumasok na din ako sa banyo para maghilamos at magsipilyo. After that, I prepared my things. Buti nalang hindi ko inilabas lahat ng gamit ko sa bag. It took me a few mi
How am I feeling? I am devoured by jealousy. Paano nagawa ni Lev na talikuran ako only to face the other woman? Lasing siya, Kaia. Hindi niya alam ang kanyang ginagawa.Pero sabi nila, you are most honest when you are drunk. What is this, Lev?"Nagkagusto ka sa akin?" Tanong ni Patty na halata namang namumula na. Ewan ko ba kung sa alak o dahil sa biglaang pag-amin.Lev nodded. "Oo. Well we were young and I had to admit how I admire you."Huh! In-explain pa talaga!"Ano?" Tumawa si Patty. "Dahan-dahan lang, Lev. Hindi kita maintindihan.""Wala!" Iling ni Lev. "Ano lang. Hinahangaan kita noon. Ang bait mo kasi sa akin at minsan lang ako makakita nang babaeng lulusong sa ilalim ng araw. Walang kaarte-arte."Hindi ko mapigilan ang sariling ikompara sa kanya. Maarte ako. Ayokong naiinitan at mas lalong ayokong amoy-araw ako. I was raised to be prim and proper and adventures like what they did when they were young don't interest me. Napaisip tuloy ako. Iyan ba ang mga tipo ni Lev? Yung hi