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Chapter 10
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2024-10-29 19:42:56*trigger warning adult content*
Images of my family came to my mind, I just couldn't bring myself to hurt them this way. It wasn't their fault with what was going on in my mind. I placed the blade down, curled my knees to my chest and just sobbed for hours. All I wanted was for the pain to go away, I wanted to forget about everything.
I found what little strength I had left and pulled myself out of the cold water, I felt dead inside, nothing mattered, I didn't care about the cold air hitting my skin. I grabbed the towel and only dried my hair.
I crawled into bed, and I was out...
I woke up the next day with a major headache, my eyes were swollen from all the crying. Yet, I still didn't care. I got to the kitchen made my tea and took some advil.
I grabbed my phone, walked over to the couch and wrapped my body in my throw blanket. Just then it hit me, I brought the blanket to my nose and smelled his cologne, it still smelled
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**Adult Content**I could not wait any longer, I had to talk with her, and she wasn't answering any of my calls or texts. I did the only other thing I could think of, I left work and drove over to her apartment.It felt like hours on my drive to her, I was running through what I would tell her when I saw her, maybe she was regretting what we did together, but I knew I would never regret anything! What if she was not home? What if she would not open the door for me?I knew in my heart she felt something for me, we had a real connection this I was sure of..Before I knew it I was in front of her door again, I just needed her to know I am here for her, always. I knocked, my breathing increased, I was always a collected person, but she brings out the nervous and fear in me.My heart was pounding in my chest as I heard the door open, our eyes connected, I could see shock on her face. Her eyes were red as if she were
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I saw how silent everyone in the room got as Marianna and I walked in together. I felt her hand tighten around my arm once she noticed everyones attention was on us."Emmanuel?" I heard my father's voice call out from the group, "Marianna?" were his next wordsI saw my father walk over to us with a drink in his hand, ever since my mother passed away he's been drinking every day, I was just silently praying he wouldn't make a scene, "Hello father, sorry I am late." While giving him a hug, I smelled the alcohol roll off of him."Marianna, what a lovely surprise, I didn't know my boy was inviting anyone" He exhaled as he gave Marianna a hug and kiss on the cheek, while taking a step back to admire her, "my dear you look as beautiful as ever"Marianna's cheek started to turn pink, God I could watch her blush all day " Thank you Mr. Jennings, you are too kind" I heard her angelic voice say"Come, lets all sit down to eat, do you want anythin
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"oh God what is it?" I asked as I tried to steady my voice so I wouldn't sound too nervous." how would you feel if we just got takeout and went back to your place?" He asked with the biggest smile on his face.As much as that sounded amazing to have another night with him, I did not want to be alone with him just yet, not after the conversation of giving secrets, what if he pressed on about me giving him a secret of mine, it was extremely sweet of him to tell me something so personal but mine wasn't sweet like his I didn't want to end this day on a bad note."Oorrr we could go out to eat somewhere and sit down like normal people" Returning the smile. I couldn't help but to notice a glimpse of sadness that came across his face, but in an instant it was gone.I did want to let him into my life but, I just wasn't ready, I was scared he would reject me, and in this point in my life I don't think I could face rejection by someone who was bec
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"Ciao ,il mio nome è Ariel, Tu Sei Pierre Russo?" (Hello, my name is Ariel, are you Pierre Russo) I asked hoping he understood what I was asking."I do speak english if that makes this easier for you Ms. Ariel, but yes I am Pierre what can I do for you?" his accent sounded thick, but it was understandable, thank God."Oh yes please that would make this conversation much easier for me, so Mr. Russo, we do not know each other but I wanted to ask you about someone that we both may know, I am calling in regard to a Marianna Milano, do you in fact know her?" I asked hoping he had something on her that I could use.All I heard was silence on the other end, I let a few more seconds pass, I looked down at my phone to make sure we were still connected, and we were."Mr. Russo? are you still there?" sounding nervous at this awkward silence."Ms. Ariel, I do in fact know her, can you please tell me from where you are calli
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"Aren't you going to invite me in Marianna?" Ariel asked with a smirk on her face."I don't mean to be rude Ms. Peterson but I am on my way out for work. What can I do for you? Wait how do you know where I live?" I asked trying to control my voice."Oh, I hope you don't mind, I looked at your profile at the office. I wanted to apologize for the other day, I did not want to do it while you were at work. Look Marianna, I was out of line, I should not have lied to you like that. It was very childish of me, but I'm not sure if you knew that I wanted Emmanuel and I let my jealousy get the best of me." she sounded sincere."I would really like for us to put this behind us" she said with one of her beautiful smiles.I looked at her with a bewildered expression, I wanted to believe what she was saying was true, but I could not trust her. Something in me said not to, but my soft side wanted to give her a chance."Ms. Peterson I understand. It's no worries. I
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My heart was beating rapidly as I looked around her apartment I noticed glass on the floor, the table was flipped over, it looked as if there was a struggle. My heart stopped when I noticed blood on the floor and walls leading into her room.I called out to her frantically "Marianna!! Where are you?!!"I began to look around the first thing I noticed were her legs coming out of the bathroom. I lost complete sight of all my surroundings; I froze as I saw her laying on the floor motionless.I fell to my knees next to her and prayed to God she was still alive. I saw blood coming from her lip and a bruise forming around it. There was a cut on her forehead. I put my fingers on the side of her neck searching for a pulse, I felt a huge relief wash over my body as I found her heartbeat."Marianna baby please wake up!" I lifted her up on my knees, I took out my phone and called 911.Suddenly my attention was brought to other side of
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My heart raced trying to make sense of everything, I tried to get out of the bed while many hands tried to hold me down. "Why am I here?!" I began to Yell."Ms. Milano please calm down!" I heard a man in a white coat say towards me"Who is Ms. Milano! Why am I here?! what is going on?" I continued to shoutNothing was making sense to me, I looked around to everyone around me, my chest felt tight I couldn't breathe, I felt myself falling down an empty pit, I didn't know who anyone was.The man in the white coat looked over to the other ladies that were in the room, they all looked at me with concern in their eyes, which only fueled my fear, how come I couldn't remember anything or who I was. I tried to get out of the bed again, I needed to leave this place.Suddenly I felt my body relaxing, I couldn't figure out why my body felt so heavy, the last thing I remembered before closing my eyes was the man in the white coat was injecting something i
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Memories flooded my brain in an instant...His face was staring down at me, smiling, words... many words... bits and pieces of holding hands, kisses, touching me repeatedly, ....I tried to snap out of this trance, and held my head as a headache began to form...His voice jolted me out of my thoughts, "Marianna? are you ok? do you need the doctor?" he said"No! no I am sorry sir, or I mean Emmanuel I just have a slight headache, I hope you don't find me rude, but if you wouldn't mind, I would like to be alone right now?" I could barely look at his handsome face, but I managed to see worry plastered all of it. Something about seeing this man worried had strings tugging at my heart."As you wish Marianna, if you need anything I left my phone number on the notepad by your bed, I'm only one call away ok." he said as you he laid his hand on my shoulder.I tried to hide the chill it sent through my body. Why is a man who is supposed to be my boss
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Memories flooded my brain in an instant...His face was staring down at me, smiling, words... many words... bits and pieces of holding hands, kisses, touching me repeatedly, ....I tried to snap out of this trance, and held my head as a headache began to form...His voice jolted me out of my thoughts, "Marianna? are you ok? do you need the doctor?" he said"No! no I am sorry sir, or I mean Emmanuel I just have a slight headache, I hope you don't find me rude, but if you wouldn't mind, I would like to be alone right now?" I could barely look at his handsome face, but I managed to see worry plastered all of it. Something about seeing this man worried had strings tugging at my heart."As you wish Marianna, if you need anything I left my phone number on the notepad by your bed, I'm only one call away ok." he said as you he laid his hand on my shoulder.I tried to hide the chill it sent through my body. Why is a man who is supposed to be my boss
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My heart raced trying to make sense of everything, I tried to get out of the bed while many hands tried to hold me down. "Why am I here?!" I began to Yell."Ms. Milano please calm down!" I heard a man in a white coat say towards me"Who is Ms. Milano! Why am I here?! what is going on?" I continued to shoutNothing was making sense to me, I looked around to everyone around me, my chest felt tight I couldn't breathe, I felt myself falling down an empty pit, I didn't know who anyone was.The man in the white coat looked over to the other ladies that were in the room, they all looked at me with concern in their eyes, which only fueled my fear, how come I couldn't remember anything or who I was. I tried to get out of the bed again, I needed to leave this place.Suddenly I felt my body relaxing, I couldn't figure out why my body felt so heavy, the last thing I remembered before closing my eyes was the man in the white coat was injecting something i
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My heart was beating rapidly as I looked around her apartment I noticed glass on the floor, the table was flipped over, it looked as if there was a struggle. My heart stopped when I noticed blood on the floor and walls leading into her room.I called out to her frantically "Marianna!! Where are you?!!"I began to look around the first thing I noticed were her legs coming out of the bathroom. I lost complete sight of all my surroundings; I froze as I saw her laying on the floor motionless.I fell to my knees next to her and prayed to God she was still alive. I saw blood coming from her lip and a bruise forming around it. There was a cut on her forehead. I put my fingers on the side of her neck searching for a pulse, I felt a huge relief wash over my body as I found her heartbeat."Marianna baby please wake up!" I lifted her up on my knees, I took out my phone and called 911.Suddenly my attention was brought to other side of
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"Aren't you going to invite me in Marianna?" Ariel asked with a smirk on her face."I don't mean to be rude Ms. Peterson but I am on my way out for work. What can I do for you? Wait how do you know where I live?" I asked trying to control my voice."Oh, I hope you don't mind, I looked at your profile at the office. I wanted to apologize for the other day, I did not want to do it while you were at work. Look Marianna, I was out of line, I should not have lied to you like that. It was very childish of me, but I'm not sure if you knew that I wanted Emmanuel and I let my jealousy get the best of me." she sounded sincere."I would really like for us to put this behind us" she said with one of her beautiful smiles.I looked at her with a bewildered expression, I wanted to believe what she was saying was true, but I could not trust her. Something in me said not to, but my soft side wanted to give her a chance."Ms. Peterson I understand. It's no worries. I
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"Ciao ,il mio nome è Ariel, Tu Sei Pierre Russo?" (Hello, my name is Ariel, are you Pierre Russo) I asked hoping he understood what I was asking."I do speak english if that makes this easier for you Ms. Ariel, but yes I am Pierre what can I do for you?" his accent sounded thick, but it was understandable, thank God."Oh yes please that would make this conversation much easier for me, so Mr. Russo, we do not know each other but I wanted to ask you about someone that we both may know, I am calling in regard to a Marianna Milano, do you in fact know her?" I asked hoping he had something on her that I could use.All I heard was silence on the other end, I let a few more seconds pass, I looked down at my phone to make sure we were still connected, and we were."Mr. Russo? are you still there?" sounding nervous at this awkward silence."Ms. Ariel, I do in fact know her, can you please tell me from where you are calli
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"oh God what is it?" I asked as I tried to steady my voice so I wouldn't sound too nervous." how would you feel if we just got takeout and went back to your place?" He asked with the biggest smile on his face.As much as that sounded amazing to have another night with him, I did not want to be alone with him just yet, not after the conversation of giving secrets, what if he pressed on about me giving him a secret of mine, it was extremely sweet of him to tell me something so personal but mine wasn't sweet like his I didn't want to end this day on a bad note."Oorrr we could go out to eat somewhere and sit down like normal people" Returning the smile. I couldn't help but to notice a glimpse of sadness that came across his face, but in an instant it was gone.I did want to let him into my life but, I just wasn't ready, I was scared he would reject me, and in this point in my life I don't think I could face rejection by someone who was bec
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I saw how silent everyone in the room got as Marianna and I walked in together. I felt her hand tighten around my arm once she noticed everyones attention was on us."Emmanuel?" I heard my father's voice call out from the group, "Marianna?" were his next wordsI saw my father walk over to us with a drink in his hand, ever since my mother passed away he's been drinking every day, I was just silently praying he wouldn't make a scene, "Hello father, sorry I am late." While giving him a hug, I smelled the alcohol roll off of him."Marianna, what a lovely surprise, I didn't know my boy was inviting anyone" He exhaled as he gave Marianna a hug and kiss on the cheek, while taking a step back to admire her, "my dear you look as beautiful as ever"Marianna's cheek started to turn pink, God I could watch her blush all day " Thank you Mr. Jennings, you are too kind" I heard her angelic voice say"Come, lets all sit down to eat, do you want anythin
Marianna’s Secrets Chapter 11
**Adult Content**I could not wait any longer, I had to talk with her, and she wasn't answering any of my calls or texts. I did the only other thing I could think of, I left work and drove over to her apartment.It felt like hours on my drive to her, I was running through what I would tell her when I saw her, maybe she was regretting what we did together, but I knew I would never regret anything! What if she was not home? What if she would not open the door for me?I knew in my heart she felt something for me, we had a real connection this I was sure of..Before I knew it I was in front of her door again, I just needed her to know I am here for her, always. I knocked, my breathing increased, I was always a collected person, but she brings out the nervous and fear in me.My heart was pounding in my chest as I heard the door open, our eyes connected, I could see shock on her face. Her eyes were red as if she were
Marianna’s Secrets Chapter 10
*trigger warning adult content*Images of my family came to my mind, I just couldn't bring myself to hurt them this way. It wasn't their fault with what was going on in my mind. I placed the blade down, curled my knees to my chest and just sobbed for hours. All I wanted was for the pain to go away, I wanted to forget about everything.I found what little strength I had left and pulled myself out of the cold water, I felt dead inside, nothing mattered, I didn't care about the cold air hitting my skin. I grabbed the towel and only dried my hair.I crawled into bed, and I was out...I woke up the next day with a major headache, my eyes were swollen from all the crying. Yet, I still didn't care. I got to the kitchen made my tea and took some advil.I grabbed my phone, walked over to the couch and wrapped my body in my throw blanket. Just then it hit me, I brought the blanket to my nose and smelled his cologne, it still smelled
