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2024-10-29 19:42:56Map Of The Soul
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Written by Authoress Kamara
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Chapter 11: Fear
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Finn was awoken by a soft but persistent poke to his shoulder. His eyes fluttered open as he searched around for the cause of disturbance and jumped seeing Jax’s face hovering not too far from his.
The other boy noticed the action and stepped back allowing for Finn to have more space to breathe and wake up, maybe remembering what had happened earlier.
“Good morning!”. He said cheerfully as Finn slowly came to his senses, remembered where he was and what he had been doing before he fell aslee
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