From: Kino Sloane
Subject: WHERE ARE YOU COUSIN
Hey, you’ve been out for the whole week. Where are you?
I frowned when I read my cousin’s email. Kino is my only cousin who’s my age. The rest of my cousins are all younger than me for at least three years. Also, Kino is the person my dad trusts the most. He even let him hold one department in his company. My cousin is business minded like Dad. I wonder what’s so good about business.
I like travelling in places more than staying in the office and drowning myself in projects and all.
I put my phone on airplane mode and only used it as a music player when I was riding in the plane. Even in my room, I only used it for music and other applications. I don’t want my Dad to know where I am. He’d come get me in a blink if he knew where I was.
I was the only daughter he had. My mother died giving birth to me, the reason why Daddy has been very protective of me since I was born. I was home-schooled until I reached college. I only saw the world when I was in college. It’s actually one of the best gifts my dad has given me.
I turned my MacBook off. I don’t intend on answering my cousin’s emails. He’s been sending me one every day. He’s been updating me about Daddy and the company even though I don’t really care about the company. If not for Daddy working nonstop for the company, I would not care about it entirely. But it’s important to my Dad.
I got up and prepared to walk around the area again. I’ve been here for a week but I’m thinking of staying here forever. The scenery is nice. The ambience is very good. The staff members are nice. The foods are delicious. Oh! I could stay here for all eternity if I could.
I put on my yellow overall and wore white shorts. I also slipped into my white cover ups. My hair is tied in a messy bun as I put on my aviators. I took my GoPro and my wallet before going out of my room.
I walked to the elevator and was surprised to see Nero standing in front of it. I haven’t seen him for the whole week since he helped my find my suite. The only thing I know about him is he is a surfing instructor. And he’s handsome. Well, anyone can see how fine he is.
He’s wearing casual clothes—a sky blue button-down shirt, khaki shorts and a pair of topsiders. He isn’t wearing the staff’s uniform. I wonder if surf instructors can wear whatever they can wear.
I frowned and walked closer to him. He looked so serious as his brows are furrowed as he read something on his phone. I pursed my lips and silently walked beside him. I don’t really know why I’m uncomfortable around him. I’m good with other staffs but something about him makes me really wonder and curious. And that thought makes me uncomfortable.
I didn’t give him another look when I was beside him, waiting for the elevator. I bit my lip because I couldn’t deny the forming feeling inside my system. Alright, he’s handsome and I haven’t seen him in a week. It is not a reason for me to feel uneasy around him.
The elevator door opened and I immediately went inside, trying my hardest to not be so obvious on the nervous note. I looked way when he went inside.
When the door closed, it was the only time that I was reminded of his manly scent. It’s different from what Kino or daddy uses. This one’s gentler than theirs.
I looked at myself standing beside him from the reflection from the door. He’s tall. Maybe he could pass as an NBA player. He could play one on one with Curry or whoever it is my cousin was cheering on. But then, he’ll also pass as a GQ model. He could stand side by side with Sean O’Pry and I would choose to look at him.
Hell. What am I even thinking?
This beach is clouding my mind, really. I came here to unwind and not find another reason to leave.
He’s still looking at his phone, typing something so furiously.
I chose to look away. I don’t want him to catch me looking at him because that would embarrass me more.
I counted to twenty until the elevator reached the ground. I immediately walked out and straight to the Strand Café where I’ve been spending most of my breakfast for the whole week. The food here is great and I think I would never get tired of it.
Blue, the man who happily serves me every day, came to me as I walked at the empty seat that overlooks the whole area. “Hey, Miss Kinsella! Same breakfast?” He asked with a smile on his face.
I smiled back and nodded. “Thank you, Blue.” I told him. I’ve been eating their chocolate pancakes all week coupled with their sweet milkshake. I’m getting a little diabetic the more I eat here but sweet is my weakness.
I looked around and took pictures of the sceneries from where I am at this point. Everything about this place is good. I could just sit here and take great photos of whatever it is.
I opened my phone to check the pictures I got from my GoPro and smiled to myself. I’m thinking of printing something when I came back home. If I go back home…
“It’s better if you took pictures of the beach from there.”
I was startled when I heard someone speaking from behind me. I looked to where the voice was and was shocked when I saw Nero looking down at me. His serious face is now gone and he’s finally smiling at me.
I frowned at him. He’s only noticing me now when we were even together in the elevator earlier.
“I’ll take some when I walk there later.” I replied and started to shrug him off.
I heard the chair in front of my move. I looked up and saw Nero sitting right across me. He’s looking at me intensely.
I narrowed my eyes at him, curious of what he’s doing right here. “Don’t you have other things to do?” I asked him.
He smirked and shook his head. “I don’t have someone to teach surfing right now.” He said.
I nodded and shrugged. “Then, you’re free the whole day?” I asked while looking at my pictures.
“Hmm… You can say that.” He replied. I still didn’t look at him. I couldn’t look at him easily alright. There are some unknown emotions spiraling inside me that I needed to calm first.
“You? What are you up to today?” He asked.
I shrugged. “Just walk around. Try some new stuff I guess.” I shrugged, still not looking at him.
“How are you finding your stay in the hotel so far?” He asked.
Alright. Maybe he’s just sitting across me because he’s asked to get feedbacks from the customers. Don’t think too much, Kinsella.
I looked at him and smiled. “The hotel’s nice. I’m having fun. It’s only been a week that I stayed. I have seven weeks left.” I told him.
He suddenly frowned.
Is there something I said wrong? I believe I praised the hotel with my statement. Why is he frowning?
He bit his lip before smiling. But this time, his smile doesn’t reach his eyes. “That’s good.” He said.
I smiled and nodded before looking back at my photos again.
“Are you interested in surfing?” He asked me again.
I slowly looked at me and thought for a moment. “I think I’ll pass.” I smiled politely.
“Why?” He asked.
I shrugged. “I don’t want to drown.” I told him.
That’s true. I don’t know how to swim that well. We have a pool at home but I don’t get to swim in it all the time because I’ve spent my childhood swimming in it. I’ve gotten used to it that it made me lose its interest in me.
“You don’t know how to swim.” It was a statement and not a question.
“I know how to swim. I’m just not good at it.” I replied.
“Hmmm…” He mummed as if teasing me and I looked at him.
“I can swim, Nero!” I don’t know why I had to emphasize that.
His eyes widened at my statement. I stared at him and then it dawned on me. It’s the first time I called him by his name. Even when he led me to my room on my first day, I haven’t called his name. Well, it’s not like we really even talked that time. But this…I called him by his first name. I should have called him with a little more respect.
I looked away and pretended that it’s normal for me when in reality, my heart is about to leap out of my chest. What is happening to me?
It took him a while to calm down. “Alright…you can swim, Miss Sloane.” He said in a soft voice.
I bit my lip. He called me Miss Sloane. He can just call me Kinsella but I can’t tell him that. My ego is telling me not to. I don’t even know why.
Silence enveloped our table. Suddenly, I’m wishing he’d excuse himself and leave me alone. Just thinking about eating in front of him brings me horror. I can’t have someone looking at me as I ate.
And just as I thought, Blue came to my table and brought down the food I ordered. He nodded at Nero who just nodded back.
I looked at him. “Aren’t you going to eat, too?” I asked.
He shook his head. “I already ate in my room.” He replied.
I shrugged and nodded. So, if he already ate in his room, what the hell is he doing here in front of me? I don’t want to be watched as I eat! Damn it!
“Your food here is great.” I complimented just to bring something out in this dead atmosphere.
He nodded and smiled. “Yes. We have the best chefs in the state.” He said as he looked at me.
I gulped as I saw him looking at my face. He’s staring at me intently that it gives my whole system a world-shattering earthquake. This is the only time that I’ve noticed how his eyes reflects the color of the ocean. Blue. His blue eyes are so gorgeous.
“Fuck…” He cursed silently as he looked away.
I bit my lip and watched him as he tried to mess his hair. Despite of the stigma of the skin tone of the people near the beach, Nero has fair skin. Not too dark, not too white. He’s just the right color that would make women of all ages swoon. His hair isn’t bleached. It’s brown and is really hot even when he messes it.
I bit my lip and looked at my food. I should stop looking at the masterpiece in front of me right now before everything goes out of hand. I’m not going to stay here. In two months, I’m going to leave.
I tried my hardest to stay away from Nero for the next few days. Every morning, we would bump into each other while waiting for the elevator to come but we don’t share anything but a courteous nod. I would see him creasing his forehead after looking at me but I shrugged it off.Less than seven weeks and I’ll be gone. I don’t need to have any ties stronger than camaraderie and friendship with anyone else. I can’t let my feelings grow for one person. Not when I know that I will leave soon. I won’t stay here. This is temporary.Today, I decided to paint the whole view from my balcony. I’m glad I brought all of my painting materials and my canvas. I studies architecture in college because I thought it would help my dad’s company in the future. I could have just pursued fine arts.I wanted to do free art. Not the one with inhibitions.I looked out at all of the tourists having fun in playing volleyball. They are laughi
I couldn’t sleep at night. I spent my time watching boring YouTube videos to induce sleep but I couldn’t get to free my mind of all of these thoughts.Nero left the moment I finished my food. He did not show up right after.I didn’t answer his question. I couldn’t bring myself to. I denied that I was avoiding him. But then, can one admit that she’s avoiding one man because emotions are stirring up inside her? I don’t think so. I think I did the only choice I have.I opened my email and noticed that I had two emails from Kino.From: Kino SloaneSubject: WE ARE GOING CRAZYHey, Ella! Where are you? Tell me now that I’m asking you directly before I hire someone to find you and get you back h
Today I will jog early in the morning. I feel like I’ve been eating and slouching too much that my fats are about to show up anytime soon.I wore a mid-riff racerback and leggings. I tied my hair in a high ponytail as I faced myself in the mirror. My eyes went back to my body. I’m not curvy. I’m not slim either. I look average. There’s nothing I can flaunt to guys other than my legs. But why would I flaunt my legs anyway?I shook my head and decided to clear my mind for this. I needed to run to clear my mind.I tied my iPod Nano on my right upper arm and plugged my earphones on. I put on my Nikes and went out of the room.For my first week in this place, I’ve noticed people biking and jogging by the shoreline. I heard
I turned off the airplane mode of my phone for the first time in weeks. As I opened it, hundreds of messages came along. From Dad, from Aunt Miranda and from Kino. All of them are asking my whereabouts and on why I am not responding to their texts. Luckily, Kino was the only smart one out of them to reach me through the email.I walked towards my closet and changed into a yellow sundress. I’m going to the spa for massage this afternoon. This is my first time going to a real spa because I was always grounded in the house all of my life.“Good afternoon, Miss Sloane! Looks like you’re ready to go again?” Heart greeted me by the reception.I smiled and nodded. “Yes.”“Well, have fun, Miss Sloane.” She cheered
Nero leaned his forehead on mine. He’s breathing heavily and his eyes are closed. It’s as if kissing me drained and sucked all of the oxygen in him.“You can’t avoid me now, Miss Sloane.” He repeated as he caressed my cheek.I bit my lip and looked away. Now, I won’t be able to stop anything that’s starting to grow inside me. He’s made me crazy for him.But above all, that was my first kiss. I haven’t kissed anyone in my whole life. Not the way Nero kissed me. How will I be able to kiss someone else again when he’s already set that damn standard high up in the pedestal?“Hey,” he called me and lifted my chin to face him. “I’m sorry. Did I freak you out?” he a
After eating breakfast, Nero waited for me to change into appropriate attire before going out of the room. He made me change three times. First, he didn’t like that I wore bikini. Second, he didn’t like the shortness of the skirt. Third, he didn’t like how revealing the neckline was.On the fourth try, he approved. I wore a gray rash guard and a pair of mid-thigh length board shorts. I was glaring at him the whole time but he just wouldn’t budge. He’s so strict with the dress code.I don’t even know why he doesn’t want me to wear bikini. It’s appropriate for the place and for the ambience. Anyone can even skinny dip here and it’s going to be fine because it’s a beach.I was mumbling words under my breath as we went inside the lift. He&rsqu
Nero followed me until I reached one of the sun loungers on the beach side. A lot of tourists are having fun in some of the loungers but we had enough for us. I sat on the lounger and bit my lip.No, Kinsella. He said he wanted you. He said he liked you. He didn’t say he wanted to be with you. He called you baby several times but that’s because he’s a flirt and he’s flirting with you.That was what I was thinking when I reached the loungers. Nero sat beside me and made me face him. He looked at me worried. “Hey, is something wrong?” He asked.I shut my eyes. “Nothing.” I replied. No, more like I lied.Nero frowned in front of
I’ve spent the whole week with Nero. It was fun to be with him. He also taught me to surf and I think I’m getting better and better every day. As for Lucy, she’s so civil in front of me. Well, it’s not like I want to be close to her anyway. She likes Nero but he likes me. The situation’s a bit fouled up.Today, I am headed off towards the beach again. Nero said he’ll be busy but I didn’t bother asking about what would keep him occupied today. Maybe I’d see him by the shore since he’s a surd instructor.I decided to just chill under the heat of the sun to pass time. Besides, being alone sometimes helps me think things through. I’ve made some friends around, like Greg and Leslie, who, apparently are also staying in the hotel for a vacation. They’re with their other close friends.“You’ve been here for a month now?” I asked as Leslie sat down beside the lounger that I am in.
Nero“Mart.” I called my secretary.“Sir, you missed the meeting with the Sloanes. They already left.” He said with a stern voice. It's like he's mad at me or anything.“Left?” I asked and then looked at the calendar before everything dawned on me. “Motherfucker!” I cursed out loud outside the hospital where Lucy is staying.Kinsella and her cousin had already left Hermosa. Fuck my life.Damn it! This is all my fault. I should have told her everything that's happening. I should've told her what the deal is.Lucy had a threatened abortion. She almost lost her baby and because of that she got scared to death that she even asked me to find Jean, the father of her child. I couldn’t turn her down because she was there, in front of me, crying her heart out. I couldn't turn down a friend's plea. Not when she's this weak.But then I was too busy taking care of her request that I f
Nero didn’t text or call me. It’s been two days since that incident in the beach happened and I just stayed inside my room the whole time. Kino is starting to get frustrated at me. I know he would also want to talk to Nero about all this but I told him not to.Heart told me Lucy was fine. She also explained to me that Lucy was pregnant and was a critical case but she insisted on coming to the bonfire. I was so shocked when I knew she was pregnant—and critical, at that—and was so guilty when I realized that she had shouted at me. I shouldn’t have gone there. If I had known, I wouldn’t have talked back either.Everything I did that night flashed back to me and all I could do is hurl up in bed and cry. I know for myself that I am at fault too. But then I didn’t know. I didn’t know she was pregnant. When I asked about the father of the child, Heart just smiled sadly. I wanted to ask if it’s Nero. I wanted to know so bad
Laughter and jokes were the first things I noticed when Nero and I approached the group. Stan was busy doing a body gag making everyone hold on to their stomachs because of too much laughter. Stan stopped doing so when he noticed us approaching.“Oh! Here comes the couple!” He beamed making everyone look at us.Jules and Harvey waved at us while Heart smiled brightly. Lucy just looked at us like she was looking at something disgusting. I wouldn’t have minded if she maintained a straight face but she didn’t. She made it sure that I would see how disgusted she looked at me.Nero’s grip around my hand tightened as we neared the bonfire. I know that he’s aware I’m awkward with them—especially with Lucy. I just hoped his hold on me would help me so much now.“Hi, Kinsella!” Stan enthusiastically waved his hand at me.I waved back at him and smiled. I guess I only need to look at the people who
Nero stopped by my room from his office the next day. He said he’s too tired to even walk to his room so he wanted to stop by my place.I didn’t stop him from doing so. I was only busy drawing designs of the country club and I was almost done with the golf course. I’d only have to design the restaurant and pools next before presenting this to Mr. Bennett and to Nero.“You smell so good.” Nero whispered as he sniffed my hair. He hugged me from behind as we watched the night beach from the balcony.I bit my lip and held his hands resting on my stomach. I wanted us to stay like this. His arms wrapped around me make me feel secure. It makes me think no one could ever hurt me. He makes me worries go away every time he holds me close. It’s like nothing else ever mattered than the both us in the moment.“I missed you today.” He whispered and it sent millions of shivers to my spine.I smiled. “I’m
Nero drove us to one of the most sophisticated restaurant in Manhattan. He’s been muttering things under his breath as he pulled over Heft. And I couldn’t help but notice how his biceps would flex every time he rotates the steering wheel.I gulped and looked away. Inappropriate thoughts are starting to flood my brain so I have to stop looking. I don’t want him to think that I’m the one wanting those things.“I have a jacket the backseat, Kinsella.”His hard tone made me look at him. His brows are still furrowed. He still looked mad. His jaw is continuously clenched.“I think I’m good. I’m not cold.” I replied.He narrowed his eyes at me. “I know you’re good but I’m not. So, please take that jacket and wrap them around your pretty arms and shoulders or I’ll hug you the whole time.”I bit my lip. The latter option seemed so tempting but I guess I need to
Kino was smiling from ear to ear as he met me for dinner that same day. He’s been gone for the whole day that I’ve spent every minute with Nero. I’m sure it’s one of their ploys again. After all, I don’t know whose side my cousin is on.“You’re glowing.” He uttered as he stopped in front of me and sat across me.We’re eating dinner at Bottle Inn, an Italian Cuisine. It’s about half a kilometer away from the hotel which is perfect because I got the time to walk along the shore on the way here. I loved walking near the sea. It’s too relaxing—especially at night.“We talked.” I told him after ordering our food.Kino smirked and leaned closer. Now, he seemed so interested. He was smiling like he was waiting for this to come after a long time. “How’d it go?” He asked eagerly.I smiled. “I think we’re going to see what happens after.” I
Tears are brimming in the corners of my eyes as I walked back to the hotel. Henney greeted me but I didn’t even get the chance to greet her back. I was busy trying to hold my tears back just to not let others see that I am crying.I pushed the button on the elevator and cursed under my breath as I waited for the lift to come. If I wait now then, Nero, if he ever followed me, can reach me from here. I wanted to be away from him. I wanted to be really far from him. He’s not the Nero I loved. That’s not what my Nero would say.I immediately entered the elevator when it opened. My heart sank when I saw no Nero around. The fact that he didn’t even follow after me made me disappointed but then again, why would he follow? He wasn’t interested in me or my plates. He would have anything to do with me.But then before the elevator closed, I was shocked to see Nero’s hand in between, stopping the door from closing and climbing in with me
Kino fetched me the next morning because we were scheduled to meet with the President of the Beach Hotels. He said that the owner wanted to personally take us to breakfast this morning. He also reiterated that the son will be with us so we need to hurry up to not keep them waiting.I wore a floral dress, a white blazer and nude pumps. I hated wearing the pumps, though. But nothing would suit the dress more than this. I curled the ends of my hair as placed a barrette on the side for accentuation. I put on light make up and a softer shade of a red lipstick.I was about to grab my bag and my files when my eyes accidentally glanced at the gray jacket on the rest of the couch. I bit my lip and remembered the words he said to me. My apology wasn’t enough for him. He’s going to need more and I am afraid I couldn’t reach his standards.I shook my head and just left the jacket that way. If I see him soon, I’m going to give it back to him. I don&rs
I took a deep breath as I leaned on the back of my door. I shut my eyes forcefully to calm my nerves down. My heart is beating so fast and the image of him waiting in front of the elevator is going to kill me tonight. It will be etched in my mind and would leave me sleepless tonight…again.I didn’t know how long I was standing behind my door. I didn’t know how long has my heart been slamming so loud and hard against my chest. I only went back to my conscious self when I heard my phone ringing.It was Kino.“Where are you?” He sounded so pissed.I bit my lip and fixed myself. “I’m done. I’m on my way.” I replied.“Alright. I’ll be waiting in the lobby. I’m really hungry, Kinsella. Move faster.” He sounded so authoritative. Maybe he’s really hungry.I ended the call and prayed so hard that he has gone down. He couldn’t be there until now, right? The elev