It was warm and dimly lit. Quiet. I could hear something beeping faintly in the background, but it was far away and didn't bother me. I went back to sleep.
But I had the strangest dream. I was growling on my hands and knees in a hospital bed. The guy from the basement, the one who forced me to drink his blood, was present. He was assuring me not to worry because no one was going to harm me. He continued speaking to me in this calming, gentle tone, but I was furious. Why? What has gone wrong? But he advised me to sleep again, which seemed like a nice idea, so I cuddled up on the bed. My tail beat a few times on the bed before I fell asleep again.
Wait. My tail?
I pushed my eyes open again, perplexed. White walls, shady windows, a faint beeping, and a stench could only be described as a hospital. When I glanced down, I saw an IV in my left arm. My right arm seemed to be in a cast. I tried wriggling my butt in the bed, but nothing moved. Even yet, I couldn't detect a tail. Just a dream, I thought as I fell back asleep.
I wasn't as drowsy the following time I woke up. I wasn't high as a kite on whatever they were giving me for pain relief.
He couldn't have died then. What in the world happened?
I rummaged through my recollections of that night, and the more I thought about it, the stranger it seemed. There was no way a vampire could have attacked me. Is there anything like that? And whence had those two men appeared? There had been a wolf there as well. That couldn't possibly be what occurred. I must have been involved in a vehicle accident on my way home. That made perfect sense. A car accident. The other thing had to be a dream because of all the drugs I felt in my system.
Vampires don't exist, I told myself emphatically. It had all been a dream. If it had been a vampire, I'd be one too, right? Did I have a strong want for blood? I gave it significant thought before concluding that I didn't appear to be interested in it. Although I was starving, blood did not seem to be my favored food. I could need a pizza, which I doubt I'd be able to find in my hospital room. I considered looking for a call button, but it seemed like too much work.
But he bit my neck, didn't he? I groped tentatively for my neck. The entrance to my room opened just as my fingers brushed over the gauze bandage. A charming young guy walked in, holding a binder that had to contain my chart. He has dressed in pastel blue scrubs beneath a white lab coat and had a stethoscope around his neck. He should be wearing a neon sign that says, "Doctor here!"
"Ah, you're finally awake! I thought perhaps you might be." He smiled at me as he put my chart down on the bedside table and sat on the edge of my bed. "I'm Dr. Scott. How are you feeling today?"
"Everything seems to hurt, but it's not too bad. But I'm not in a rush to go out and party." My stomach grumbled angrily. "I'm guessing you don't have pizza around here? I'm pretty hungry, as I'm sure you just heard."
He burst out laughing "There will be no pizza for you for the time being. When they brought you in, you were a very ill young girl. Before we order the pizza, I want to be sure you'll be able to keep it down. To begin, how about some orange Jell-O?"
"Yes, certainly," I wrinkled my nose, "that sounds utterly delightful." "So, who precisely brought me in here, and what happened to me?" I worriedly bit on my bottom lip.
Dr. Scott stopped, and I saw him carefully considering his response. "You were brought in by some friends. Do you have any recollection of what happened?"
I began to shake my head, but the agony caused me to rethink "No, not at all. I mean, I believe I recall some of it. But it seems so strange that I'm not sure I recall it accurately. What occurred?" There was no way a vampire could have attacked me. Telling him that would very certainly place me in a mental institution.
My hand was gripped by the doctor "Don't worry about it. In situations like yours, some disorientation and memory loss is common. I'm sure your pals will be able to clear everything up for you. Let's have a peek at you now."
He took my pulse and looked me in the eyes with his penlight. Then he walked around the bed, poking my feet and insisting that I twitch my fingers and toes. I considered giving him the bird with the hand that wasn't in a cast, but it didn't seem very nice, so I held back. I was scared to inquire what was wrong with me, but I needed to know.
"Dr. Scott? Am I going to be okay? Is any of this permanent?"
He smirked slightly "You had several fractured bones and some internal bleeding, but those injuries are mending and I don't think there was any lasting damage done. You have a dozen stitches in your neck and will most likely have bruises all over for a time. When you arrived, you were in fairly bad condition. You may express gratitude to your friends for saving your life. You would not be here if it weren't for them."
What friends? He must be referring to the two guys from the basement who dragged my attacker away from me. Without the anguish and panic of that night interfering with my capacity to think, I didn't even recognize them, though one of them looked slightly familiar. However, I was unable to positively identify either of them.
"How long have I been here and when will I be able to leave? No offense intended. I'm sure you're great, but I'd prefer to go home."
He grinned, but it never reached his eyes. "Keep the orange Jell-O down, heal a little more, and I'll see what I can do. Looks like you'll need another pint or two." He touched my IV stand's empty bag. There had been blood. A large bag of transparent material hung next to it. "You sustained some significant injuries, not to mention the fractured arm and blood loss. Give it a couple more days and see how it goes, okay?."
With a put-upon, dramatic sigh, I replied, "Alright, but the orange Jell-O better be damn tasty."
He laughed and adjusted the drip on the small, clear bag, "I'll see what I can do. For now, get some rest, and the Jell-O will be waiting, I promise."
As he walked out of my room, I was already dozing off. That transparent bag wasn't only saline; it also seemed to contain pain relievers. With no other option, I squirmed about a little till I was largely comfortable. I was falling asleep when I remembered he hadn't informed me how long I'd been in the hospital.
The next time I woke up, I felt very well. Much of the overall ache had subsided. My arm and head were not aching, which was a welcome relief. My IV had been removed from my arm, and my left knee was no longer braced. I was more attentive, and I had the impression that I could think again.
The bed adjustments were simple to locate, and it felt pleasant to stand up a bit. The shades were drawn, so there wasn't much of the outside world visible. As far as hospitals go, it was a private room that appeared adequate. There was no television, which was unusual. A quick look revealed that there was also no bedside phone. Hmmm. There was, however, a call button. Could the nurse provide me with a phone? At the very least, I owed a call and an explanation to my supervisor.
The nurse arrived a few seconds later. Before pouring me a cup of cold water, she clucked at me and straightened my pillows.
"How may I help you, Dearie?" She reminded me of my old third-grade teacher. Gray hair, broad hips, a pleasant smile, and a calming demeanor. I liked her right away.
"Dr. Scott promised me some fantastic orange Jell-O the last time I woke up, and I was wondering if you could wire up a phone in here? Or is my phone somewhere? I need to contact my manager and explain why I haven't been showing up to work recently."
"You had nothing with you when they brought you in. Your clothing was torn, and you had nothing in your pockets. Dr. Scott must authorize the phone, but I will notify him that you have requested one. I'll have your supper ready in two shakes. Do you think you're ready for visitors? There are two guys outside who have been waiting for you for some days now."
Some days? Probably, given how much it felt like I'd improved. It was likely the police. They would need to fill out some kind of report, wouldn't they?
"Sure, I think I can handle that."
She tucked the blankets around me and patted my shoulder, "I'll send them right in. If you get tired and want them to go away, you just call me and I'll take care of it."
"Thank you."
But when my guests arrived, they weren't the cops. They were the two guys from the cellar. And one of them was not just familiar, but a coworker as well.
"David? What about David Jones? I hadn't even noticed you before. Everything was very painful. I couldn't think clearly.
He gave a faint smile as he led the other guy inside the room. They pulled two chairs from the corner and sat close to my bed. When I glanced at the other guy, I realized I faintly recognized him as well.
"Wait. You're the consultant, the special architect, right? I recall filling out the paperwork for the project."
I'd seen him around the office from time to time, usually with David. He was tall, well over six feet, and had the lean, muscular figure of someone who worked out daily. I could tell his eyes were a rich blue now that he was seated so close to me. His hair was dark blonde with gold highlights that extended nearly to his neck. As I stared at him, his gaze never left mine.
Finally, he nodded, "Yeah, that's me."
David cleared his throat and adjusted his chair so I could see him better. "Elizabeth, what do you remember about that night?"
His question snapped my attention back to him. I couldn't decide if I should tell him the truth about what I remembered or not. It was all so weird.
"I'm not entirely sure what I remember. I think maybe the pain and the drugs the hospital pumped into me have messed up my memory."
"Well, why don't you just tell us exactly what you think you remember, no matter how strange or unusual, okay?"
No matter how strange or unusual. Okay.
"I was working from home when I realized I needed some work invoices. I initially looked in my office, but when I couldn't locate them there, I proceeded to the basement file room."
David listened and nodded his head. The other guy kept his gaze fixed on me. "I recall the rear door not being entirely locked. I didn't think much of it at the time since that lock is difficult to latch properly. So I slammed the door and walked downstairs. When I arrived in the file room..."
I took a breather. I'd tried not to worry about this portion too much. I wasn't sure whether I could go on. I inhaled deeply, sucking the air in through my teeth. My heart was racing. I focused my efforts to get the words out.
It's over, I told myself, finished. Nobody here will ever harm you. Accept it and tell them.
"The padlock and hasp on the file room door had been taken off when I arrived. That terrified me since it had no right to be that way. I reached for the doorknob to open it, but there was someone in the room. He yanked the door from my grasp and tossed me across the room."
In my mind, I was reliving it all. Sweat was running between my shoulder blades, and my heart was pounding in my chest. My hands clenched into fists, and my fingernails slashed into my palms.
"He flung me about and sat on my back. I managed to headbutt him, which enraged him, and he flung me about some more. Then he took me in his arms and..." I raised my hand and felt the gauze bandage around my neck "He grabbed my neck and bit it. He seemed to have fangs. How is it possible, David? He couldn't possibly have fangs."
"Was there anything out of the ordinary about the file room?" My mysterious guest posed the inquiry.
"I'm sorry, I don't remember your name."
"Michael. Derek Michael. The room?"
I considered his question. "It didn't strike me as very significant. Because it didn't flood like the rest of the basement, we utilized it as a filing room. It also lacked windows, making it simple to lock and secure. Because the corporation keeps all of its financial information there, keeping access limited is critical."
Derek gave David a nod. "That makes perfect sense. He'd like to sleep someplace where he wouldn't have to worry about the sun."
I stared at David with interest. "So why not? What's all the fuss about sunlight?"
David groaned and massaged his thick, black hair with his hands. "Elizabeth, the guy that assaulted you was a vampire, and I use that term loosely. That's why he sported fangs. He hid in the file room throughout the day to sleep since sunlight would have killed him. He was draining you dry when we yanked him off of you. He'd drawn so much blood from you that if you died from it, you'd have turned into a vampire like him."
A part of me was scared that my fears had been validated. The other half felt oddly relieved since the thought of being attacked by a vampire made me doubt my sanity. At the very least, I wasn't insane. But was I going to turn into a vampire?
"But I'm not, right?" I looked at Derek, "I remember asking you to stake me so I wouldn't be one. But you said that wouldn't happen and that you would fix it."
The nurse entered my room just as he was about to respond. "You've been in here long enough, gentlemen. Don't think I didn't see her monitors going crazy earlier. She needs rest. You are welcome to return tomorrow to continue the conversation."
They began to get up and go, but I caught Derek's fingers as he turned away. "Please respond to my question first. Will I end up like him?"
Derek and David shared a glance, and I was curious about what it meant. Finally, Derek softly gripped my fingers "No, you aren't. I fixed it. You're not going to turn out like him."
Then he dropped my hand and they walked out of my room, my overprotective nurse herding them out like a mother goose.
So I'm not a vampire after all. Derek kept his word. But I'm not human anymore. I'm a werewolf, apparently, but I'm not sure I believe it.A werewolf, indeed.The day began routinely enough. Dr. Scott came over and informed me that I'd done such a good job with my Jell-O and applesauce supper that he was promoting me to solid meals. And what about my broken arm? It's almost healed. He believes the cast will be removed tomorrow. He said I'd be allowed to shower later today since my knee was as good as new. I asked him how long I'd been in the hospital, and he skirted the topic once again. It enraged me to the point where I let out a serious-sounding roar. That was a little frightening.He removed the bandage from my neck. Dr. Scott hesitated when I asked for a mirror to see it."I'm not going to lie to you, Elizabeth. Right now, your neck looks awful. That man ripped you to shreds. You have many stitches that will fall out in a day or two. Just trust me when I say that the scar will di
My dreams that night were sweat-filled nightmares filled with wolves and the bastard vampire that attacked me. He repeatedly shoved me against the wall and taunted me. He laughed more the more I bled. The wolves circled, growled, and attacked at random. Derek loomed over me, earnestly telling me things that screamed at me. I had died. I used to be a werewolf. I used to be a vampire. I'd never be able to return. All of my friends and family are no longer with me. Throughout it all, I was engulfed in a vortex of agony that enveloped me. My monitors must have given me away because the nurse came in and injected me with something that put me under so deep that my nightmares couldn't reach me. Dr. Scott removed the cast from my arm in the morning, and I spent over an hour in the shower washing my skin and hair until I couldn't smell anything except soap. The only thing that remained hurting was my neck, so I washed it. I was shaky and trembling at the end of the shower, but I made it on
Dr. Scott kept his promise. A half-hour later, an orderly arrived with a wheelchair, and we were going. As the elevator doors closed and we descended to the below-ground laboratory, I felt a shiver go down my spine. Part of me worried whether I'd ever be able to come back up.The tests were not painful. An X-ray, a CAT scan, blood samples, and an MRI were all procedures I'd had before. When they returned me to my room and I crawled into bed, something inside of me calmed. I nearly sobbed with delight when Derek arrived a few hours later. He was holding a huge pizza with cheese and pepperoni! I grabbed a handful of his shirt and yanked him down for a loud, smacking kiss on the cheek as he placed it down on the bedside table."Sir, you've made my week. Thank you very much!"He laughed and made a courtly bow that, in his jeans and t-shirt, should have looked ridiculous, but he did it with grace. "I am just yours to command, whatever the Lady wants."I laughed and grabbed a lovely piece.
Dr. Scott gave me two gowns so I wouldn't flash anyone on the plane. He tried to hide his snicker of amusement, but I saw the look that passed between him and Derek. I ignored it, put my gowns on, and stomped off toward the main entrance.The driver didn't blink, but the pilot openly grinned at my attire. I sighed and settled in for the flight. It was a pretty snazzy little plane. Large, leather captain's chairs (that swiveled!) in elegant bone color, a small round cherry table bolted to the floor on one side, and plush navy blue carpeting set off the inlaid wood accents on the walls and the hand-blown glass light fixtures. I buckled in and thanked Derek for the blanket he tucked around me. I don't remember much after that until Derek shook me awake as we were getting ready to land."I called ahead. One of my pack will be waiting at my house with some clothes for you. We can go out shopping tomorrow if you like, but you seem pretty beat. Let's get you home and settle in for the day, o
I was only vaguely aware of being carried up the stairs and into my new room. I was warm and comfortable and safe, that was all I cared about. When I was put down on my feet, I protested and tried to snuggle back into that warmth."Kimber, can you just stand there for a second? I need to turn down the bed so I can put you in it."I mumbled a protest in a sleepy, childlike voice and leaned against Derek. He held me against him with one arm while turning down the bed with the other."Okay, into bed you go," and I scooped off my feet and slid into the sheets.I blinked up at him owlishly, "What'd you call me?"Derek grinned at me, "Kimber. Kimberly is a mouthful and Kim is too short. You seem like a Kimber to me, sort of unusual and elegant. Is that okay with you?"It was already too warm in the bed. I pulled the sweats off and tossed them on the floor, leaving me in my t-shirt and panties."S'okay. You're weird, but I like it. I'm going to sleep now." My words were slow and sleepy. Talk
When we arrived at Derek's place, it took several trips to haul everything to my room. Noelle helped me unpack, talking casually about the shopping and how much fun it had been. Once everything was hung and organized, she went back to her place to get ready for the party that night. Before she left, I apologized."Noelle, I'm sorry about today. I didn't mean to pry into your head that way. I can't control it. I'm so sorry I made you remember that day and made you sad."She looked at me in astonishment and drew me into a firm hug. "You stop being silly right now. I was already thinking of that day. You didn't cause it, seeing that man who looked like my brother did. There's no need to apologize. Now try to relax and get some rest before the party."I could feel her absolute sincerity and it helped put me at ease. Noelle was an extraordinary person. I nodded in agreement, but after she was gone I drew myself a hot bath and climbed in for a soak.I was floating lazily in the tub, making
When I woke up the next morning, the house was quiet. I couldn't hear Derek moving around. My whole body ached from sleeping in the same position all night. I'd been so tired that falling into bed and falling asleep had been pretty much simultaneous. Suppressing a groan, I rolled over and mentally reviewed everything that happened last night.Marsh and Tasha were nice. The rest of the pack wasn't bad. I was just too uncomfortable with all of the speculation to see it last night. I knew the time would help. I just needed to get to know them. Except for John; I wasn't much interested in getting to know him. I couldn't fault him for his interest, but the way he went about expressing it was completely wrong. Intimidation and entrapment were not the way to a woman's heart.Then again, Derek had been pretty damn possessive. "She is mine and doesn't ever forget it," is that what he said? Something like that. Did he mean it or was he just claiming me to get the others to back off and leave me
I woke up once in the night, shaking and sweating. I didn't remember the dream, but the panic and fear stayed with me. The urge to go climb into Derek's bed was strong. But doing that would be inviting something I wasn't sure I was ready for. Instead, I turned on the lamp and read for an hour or two. Eventually, I calmed down, turned out the light, and went back to sleep.The next time I woke up, it was light out. The first item on my new shopping list: are curtains. Other items soon followed. Computer, cell phone, car -- why did everything I need start with c? Amused with my silly list, I decided to go have some coffee. I could hear something clicking softly in the basement and realized it must be someone working out. Derek, maybe? Or had the pack shown up again?There was a fresh pot of coffee already brewed, so I helped myself. I looked around for the phone, but as I picked it up, I realized I didn't know Noelle's number. I'd have to ask Derek for it so I could call her. I hoped an
"I would have asked you that first night if I didn't think it would have scared you silly. Kimberly, I love you. There's never going to be anyone else for me. But I don't want to rush you. You've had a lot of change and adjustment in the past month. Don't stand there and think for one minute I don't want you. The minute you think you're ready, I'll have you standing under the moon so fast it will make your head spin. I was going to wait until Christmas day to do this, but I can't wait anymore."Derek pulled a small velvet box out of his pocket and handed it to me. My heart stopped dead and then started beating wildly as I looked at it in my palm."I bought it for you in Las Vegas. Open it," Derek whispered.My fingers shook as I reached for the lid and pulled the box open. Inside was an engagement ring. Three emerald cut diamonds set in platinum that sparkled and flashed under the kitchen lights; it took my breath away."I love you, Kimber. Marry me. Be my mate, my partner, my lover,
I wanted to go straight home to Oregon, but in his rush to find me Derek hadn't stopped to pack our bags or check us out of the hotel. So we flew back to Las Vegas, instead. We stayed there overnight, simply to catch up on sleep. Derek had called Robert before the SUV had even pulled away from the curb at the Bellagio and they'd spent the next ten hours tracking Samuel and me down. All in all, he'd spent nearly forty hours awake. There was no way I was allowing him to get on a plane to Portland without some sleep first. Noelle had decided to stay in Las Vegas for a few more days and I had a sneaking suspicion it was to spend time with Samuel . Derek and I were finally on our way back home after flying to Portland. "Derek, did you know the President was a wolf?" He grinned at me, "Nope. Didn't have a clue. CanUS doesn't publish a membership roster. I imagine we're supposed to keep that piece of information to ourselves. I know we have wolves in high places, I just didn't realize how
We met up with Noelle and Sid, who were at The Mirage. I was a little surprised that Noelle wasn't shopping, but then I saw why. The Secret Garden was absolutely breathtaking. I could stand there for hours watching the white tigers play in the water. There were lions, tigers, and dolphins in an amazing park-like atmosphere. Derek grinned at me as I cooed to the adorable baby tigers. They were so cute! "Do you think they would let me take one home? I promise to take good care of him." "I don't think they're going to let you take one home, Kimber. Sorry." I sighed. I would be a good tiger mommy, I just knew it. I held Derek's hand as we walked over to the dolphin exhibits. Noelle and Sid wandered a little ahead of us, taking pictures of everything. "Derek, what was all the fuss about you giving me some of your blood that night? Robert asked you a lot of questions about it." "When people like us decide to get married, there's a special ceremony that takes place. They stand outside un
When we were back in our room, getting ready for our respective dinners, Derek asked me about Samuel. I didn't see any reason to lie."I've known him for a while now. We met online, playing a video game. Eventually, we became friends. I was going to be in his part of the country on business, so I asked him if he'd like to go to dinner and he said yes.""We dated for a few months, and did the long-distance thing, but neither one of us was happy. I was downright miserable. Turns out he felt the same way, but we were such good friends that we were both more upset about losing the friendship. We made a vow to make it work as friends.""It took some time and it wasn't easy. We had a couple of really nasty fights, but we worked through it. He's been my best friend for a long time now. We used to see each other three or four times a year and talked every day on the phone. When my mom died, well, Samuel got me through it. He's my family, not by blood, but by heart."Derek nodded, but I could
The next day, we flew to Las Vegas. Derek lived a couple of hours from the Portland airport. Since Noelle was going, too, she hopped on a ride with us and we all traveled together. It was a quiet trip, at first. I was exhausted from the day before and my relatively sleepless night. Every once in a while, Derek would look at me, squeeze my hand, and smile. I knew he was worried about me, but I was just tired.The flight was uneventful and the cab ride to the hotel took less than twenty minutes. While we were in the cab, Derek handed me a couple of sticky clear discs that looked to be made out of silicone. "Put these in your ears," he murmured, "It will help with the casino noise."I raised an eyebrow at him. I'd been to Las Vegas a couple of times. The noise in the casino had never been overly loud. But the cab stopped before I could ask him why and then we were on the sidewalk. "I'll go check us in. Why don't you both wait in the elevator core?"I knew what he meant and led Noelle ins
When I woke up the next morning, Derek was spooned up tightly behind me. My legs were tangled with his and one heavy arm wound around my waist. I snuggled back against him and thought about everything that had happened the day before.I wasn't quite as panicked about our impending trip. Being with Derek had calmed both me and my wolf about what might happen. Surely he wouldn't be sleeping this soundly next to me if he were worried. He certainly had more experience with the Council than I did. If he thought things were going to be okay, then maybe they would be. Either way, I resolved, I was going to enjoy the time I had with him.Derek might be sleeping soundly, but parts of him were awake. I wiggled my butt against him and he wedged himself even more firmly against me. I pulled one of his hands off my waist and settled it firmly on my breast. His hand twitched, but Derek was still deeply asleep. Maybe I could change that.I reached behind me and slid my hand up the back of his thigh
Once we were all in his office, Derek shut and locked the door. Something was wrong. I sat in one of the squishy leather chairs and hugged my knees to my chest. I had an uneasy feeling about what was coming.Derek was standing with his back to us, looking out the big picture window into the night. His shoulders were tense and I could feel worried and anxiety coming off him. "That was the head of the Council on the phone. They want Kimberly to present it to them at the next conclave."Now Marsh looked upset and worried, too. "That's in two days! Why? She's only been a wolf for a few weeks. Generally, they're given a full six months so they can settle in and join a pack before being presented. She hasn't even seen her first full moon, yet.""They want her presented so she can testify about her attack and how she became a wolf."Marsh went completely white and sank on the sofa. His eyes were locked on Derek's back. "They're putting you on trial, aren't they? For attacking a human, for at
I woke up once in the night, shaking and sweating. I didn't remember the dream, but the panic and fear stayed with me. The urge to go climb into Derek's bed was strong. But doing that would be inviting something I wasn't sure I was ready for. Instead, I turned on the lamp and read for an hour or two. Eventually, I calmed down, turned out the light, and went back to sleep.The next time I woke up, it was light out. The first item on my new shopping list: are curtains. Other items soon followed. Computer, cell phone, car -- why did everything I need start with c? Amused with my silly list, I decided to go have some coffee. I could hear something clicking softly in the basement and realized it must be someone working out. Derek, maybe? Or had the pack shown up again?There was a fresh pot of coffee already brewed, so I helped myself. I looked around for the phone, but as I picked it up, I realized I didn't know Noelle's number. I'd have to ask Derek for it so I could call her. I hoped an
When I woke up the next morning, the house was quiet. I couldn't hear Derek moving around. My whole body ached from sleeping in the same position all night. I'd been so tired that falling into bed and falling asleep had been pretty much simultaneous. Suppressing a groan, I rolled over and mentally reviewed everything that happened last night.Marsh and Tasha were nice. The rest of the pack wasn't bad. I was just too uncomfortable with all of the speculation to see it last night. I knew the time would help. I just needed to get to know them. Except for John; I wasn't much interested in getting to know him. I couldn't fault him for his interest, but the way he went about expressing it was completely wrong. Intimidation and entrapment were not the way to a woman's heart.Then again, Derek had been pretty damn possessive. "She is mine and doesn't ever forget it," is that what he said? Something like that. Did he mean it or was he just claiming me to get the others to back off and leave me