I felt like it should be raining. On TV, whenever someone dies, and there’s a funeral, everyone always wears black, and it’s raining. Even the umbrellas are black. People stand around a hole in the ground, weeping, as a coffin is slowly lowered inside. A priest crosses his chest, and everyone says amen.
That’s not at all how Grandma’s funeral went.
I wanted to talk to Sam before I mentioned anything to my parents. Since my family had been served first, we were done eating while most of the other guests were still finishing up their lunches. Mom was conversing with some of Grandma’s friends, so I took the opportunity to sneak away.My pack was seated together at a table across the room. There were a few ot
I waited until we were back at Grandma’s house to tell my mom I had a solution to our problem. I told her I needed to talk to her, and we all went into the living room--Mom, Max, me, and Sam. Grayson didn’t need to be there. She’d just cause problems. Sam and I sat on the couch, about two feet apart. Mom sat in one of the extra chairs in the room, and Max sat down in Grandma’s knitting chair like it was no big deal. I cringed but didn’t say anything because I was trying to be as agreeable as possible. I wanted them to approve of my sugg
It seemed a little odd sitting on Ben’s swing with Sam, but that was the best place to sit in the yard and wait for Mom’s verdict, so that’s where we went. It wasn’t as if we were in a making out mood, anyway. The last thing I needed was Mom seeing us kissing and assuming that, if she granted Sam guardianship, he’d move in, and then we’d practically be married. It wouldn’t be like that. I wasn’t thinking he would never sleep over or anything like that, but I wasn’t getting married any time soon. Hell, I couldn’t even decide which of the three guys I wanted as my Alpha.
Max had to get back to work, but Mom stayed for a few days. I went with her to the school to meet the principal and sign the paperwork. Sam had to come, too, so that he could agree to be legally responsible for making sure I attended school and completed all of my work. The principal, Mr. Short, was nice enough to me, but he made it clear he thought Mom was making a mistake giving Sam any legal responsibility over me.
As soon as I got home, I went upstairs to take a shower. I needed to get the feeling of Dr. Warner’s old man fingers off of my body. I tossed my birth control pills on my nightstand, grabbed a change of clothes, and headed down the hallway to the bathroom.I wasn’t even done drying off when I heard Grayson and Mom shouting at one another. Gray’s voice was
I didn’t want to stand outside and watch my mom and sister ride away. I felt like I’d just done that. Saying goodbye to them, twice now, and then saying goodbye to Grandma, permanently, left me feeling all alone. I knew that wasn’t really the case, that I did have a family sill, a new one, maybe one that would take even better care of me than Mom and Max had, but it was still a lonely feeling.
I woke up to weak morning light filtering into my room, half expecting Sam to be gone, but as I became conscious of my surroundings, I realized that the hard surface beneath my cheeks was his chiseled chest, and he hadn’t gotten up in the middle of the night or just before dawn and fled the scene as I’d assumed he might.Aware that I was awake, he smoothed back
I spent most of the day in the woods, recharging my energy, though I did go inside for lunch because that seemed like the responsible thing to do. I had to get used to the idea that I was the only one who was going to take care of me now, without my parents or my grandma around to do it. I wanted to be as much like an adult as possible, and that meant remembering to eat three meals a day and all of that jazz.