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Chapter 73

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•Nikolai•

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I wasn't afraid of anything in this world—guns, knives, threats, none of that could shake me. But those damn feelings? Love? That scared the living shit out of me. The idea of being vulnerable, of giving someone else that kind of power over me, made my skin crawl. I could face down any enemy, but the thought of love made me feel like a goddamn coward. It was the one thing I couldn't control, couldn't predict, and that pissed me off more than anything else. The way it crept up on you, making you weak, making you care—it terrified me to my core.

When she asked me if I loved her, said the words out loud; fuck, that was scarier than having a ticking bomb attached to your chest.

I stood in front of her like a fucking idiot. I had never been speechless before anyone, I always get the last word but Evangeline has managed to do that as well.

I grabbed my fifth glass of whiskey and downed it. I couldn't say it, I don't fucking know what I feel for her. I wanted her, I lik
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Dawn Cochran
No, Juicy Miss!! He knows he's just to afraid to voice his WEAKNESS remembering what his mother went through!!
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Elin Kähäri
thank you for the update I cant wait for the next one :D
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Juicy Miss 🥰
Niko too stupid to see what love is.
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