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Not ready for death
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2024-10-29 19:42:56ELENA’S POV
Even though Damien had seemed like he understood the explanation I gave to him concerning my relationship with Lukas, I was afraid that he didn’t understand it the way I wanted him to. I kept feeling like I hadn’t adequately explained myself. I wished that he could have stayed a little longer but I also knew that if he had stayed longer we would have gotten caught. I understood how he felt and I knew that I would feel the same way if I was him, but I couldn’t just be selfish in the same way that my parents had chosen to be. Tara didn’t deserve that, she was the only one I considered to be innocent in all of this and that was because when I ran away from Lukas she had tried to speak sense into my parents’ heads. She was the one person that was on my side and if I left Lukas she was probably the first person that he was going to kill, I couldn’t betray her like that.After Damien left my room, I decided to take a bath to try to calm myself downRelated chapters
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