Blowing off steam

LUKAS’ POV

How could she betray me like that? I considered the fact that she wanted to go back home as a betrayal because she was acting like I hadn’t been good to her. She was acting like I was an abusive mate to her. I hated how ungrateful she was being, I was trying my best to make her feel at home and even going the extra mile of making sure that I didn’t make her do anything she didn’t want to do. I hadn’t forced myself on her as yet, even though the main reason I had brought her here was so that she could give me babies. I felt very betrayed by her right now. It was a good thing that I left the room and ended the conversation because there was no telling what I could have done if I hadn’t.

I decided to keep my distance from her for the rest of the night because I didn’t want anything else that would upset me and I didn’t want to end up doing something that I didn’t want to do. Why couldn’t she just understand that I just wanted to make her happy and I wanted her to be happy with me. Why couldn’t she just let things be the way they were and just go with the flow? She was going to learn to love me eventually and I was willing to be patient and wait for her to.

I decided to sleep in the guest bedroom so that I could be alone for the rest f the night. I wont lie. I was tempted to have someone to keep me company, but I just couldn’t bring myself to invite anyone. That is how loyal I was to her. After I left her, I went to the guest bedroom and even being there angered me. I was angered by this because I now had to sleep in a guest bedroom just to make her feel comfortable. I had to do my best to not make her fear me. If I had done what I normally did in situations like this, then it would have definitely ended badly for her. I didn’t want to be violent with the woman I claimed to love and, in an attempt to blow off steam, I decided to ask my guard to get me a female that I could spend the night with. My pack never ran short of women. As a matter of fact, I never ran short of women who were always willing to spend time with me.

As I waited for the arrival of the girl that was coming, I decided to take a quick bath. I needed to try and calm myself down because having sex with anyone while in the state I wasn't was never a smart move. I had done it before and it had caused a lot of damage. I didn’t consider myself a woman beater, but I had a very short temper and whenever that temper was triggered I often took it out on anyone that was that close by. After taking my hot shower, I headed back into the bedroom where I found the woman already waiting for me.

“My name is Jackie”she said as she spread her legs, exposing her slit that looked almost ready for me. I stood still and watched her as she played with it. She gently rubbed her clit and I drooled over her. I wished this was Elena. I wished this was her in place of this random woman willingly giving herself to me and not irritating me about missing her family.

I dropped the towel that was wrapped around my waist, making it clear to Jackie that she wasn’t there to be pleased by me but the other way around. She slowly got up from the bed and literally cat walkeed her way toward me. She went down on her knees and held my cock and already hard cock inside her warm mouth. I took a deep breath as she started sucking me and images of Elena clouded my mind, I wanted her so badly. I couldn’t stop thinking about all the things that I would do to her if I got the chance to. I couldn’t wait to spread her legs and bury my face in between them. I wanted to know how she tasted and I wanted to feel her warmth around my cock. I opened my eyes as I was about to explode in Jackie’s mouth and pulled it out of her mouth. I pulled her up to her feet and led her back to the bed. I threw her on the bed and as soon as she fell back on it, I climbed on top of her and inserted my hard cock inside of her right after putting on a condom. I started thrusting in and out of her as fast as I could until I exploded.

I swiftly got off her and walked over to the bathroom to throw the used condom in the bin that was in there. When I came back into the room, Jackie was lying on the bed looking like she was very comfortable.

“ Don't get too comfortable there” I said as I put on the spare shorts that I had found in the closet.

“Why not? “she asked me “I was thinking we should continue with the fun” she said in a seductive voice that had absolutely no effect on me.

“I think not” I said, “so get up and go home”, I instructed her.

“I think I should stay here and keep you company because you are clearly lonely despite the fact that you have a mate” she said and I stopped what I was doing and turned my attention to her.

“What did you just say to me?” I asked her.

“I just mean that the fact that I am here despite the fact that you have a mate shows me that she isn't doing a very good job” she said and I couldn’t believe her audacity.

”I suggest you leave before I do something that I will regret” I warned her as I walked away from her and into the bathroom.

“You know I am right” she said as she followed me and I could see that the woman couldn’t get the message.

” Will you just go home” I said as I grabbed her by the shoulders and pushed her away from me. I had pushed her a little harder than I intended to because she staggered and fell back.

” You know she can never give it to you the way I do” she said, brushing my arm and I looked at her hands as it stroked my arm with such disgust. I was disgusted in myself. This wasn’t my first time having sex with a random woman, but it was my first time ever since Elena came here. I was disgusted that I had stooped this low in her presence, but this was all her fault, she was the one who had ruined my mood and that had driven me to come here.

”Get out” I said as I grabbed her arms and dragged her out of the room this time,

“ What about her…” the sound of her voice was cut off by me shutting the door in her face and grabbing the rags she called clothes and throwing them out of the door. I didn’t even wait to see if she picked them up because I was certain that one more word from her would have driven me to strike her.

After I kicked her out of my room, I threw myself on the bed with a deep sigh. I really wished that I was in bed with Elena right now, even if I wasn’t going to be able to touch her, the fact that I could lie next to her satisfied me. I couldn’t stop thinking about and wondering what she was doing. Of course, there was nothing much for her to do in that room except sleep, but I wanted and wished that I could watch her sleep. Anything that Elena did drove me crazy and any minute that I didn’t spend next to her was a wasted moment for me, it was an meaningful moment.

My wish right now was that she would have let this entire thing about visiting her parents go when I go back to her tomorrow. I didn’t want her to visit her family because I knew that she would try to use that time as an opportunity to make a run for it. I would obviously find her very easily if she did, but I didn’t want to take the chance. Elena had only been there for less than six months and she was already acting like she hadn't seen her family in years. I sympathised with the fact that she probably had never been away from them for this long, but she should have known that a time like this would soon come for a woman like her. She was a woman now and as a woman, she was inevitably going to leave her parents' house for her mate’s. However, this was something that she had never been prepared for and I blamed her mother for that, because as a mother, it was her job to prepare her daughter for the duties that she was going to have as a mated wolf.

It took me a while to finally fall asleep because I had gotten so used to sleeping with Elena by my side. I tossed and turned as I felt like there was something missing. Not only was I sleeping on a bed and in a room that I had never slept in, but I had gotten used to Elena warming the bed before I came to bed now that she wasn’t there, I could feel that there was something missing. I needed her and I wish that she would soon realise that. I was a very patient man when it came to her, but my patience was honestly wearing thin. She was stubborn and that was a trait of hers that I only wanted to entertain when we were in bed. I finally rolled off to sleep, and although my night was restless, the thought of seeing Elena the following morning made sleeping a little easy for me. I still had hope that she would have let the whole thing with her family go the following morning, because the fact that I was going to wake up calmer didn’t mean that I would be willing to have the conversation again the following morning. This was something that I was willing to make very clear for her.