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MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Sweet Arabella
By the time Arabella stepped out of the bath Zoe had already set the table for dinner.She walks to the closet only to freeze on her spot, worried, Zoe asked"What's wrong?" She was concerned about seeing her posture.Arabella turns to her with a pitiful gaze, feeling embarrassed. "I... My dresses" she stutters.Zoe didn't need her to say another word as she could understand. Of course, Arabella stupidly took all her belongings to Rowan's place."It's ok" Zoe pushes herself off the bed and walks to her, she grabs a t-shirt from her closet and hands it to her, "you can have mine" she offers happily.Nothing is more satisfying than seeing Arabella in her clothes covered in her smell."Really?" Arabella asked, blinking at her."Of course, we are no newbies here." She forced the dress on her, "whatever belongs to me equally belongs to you" she assured.Arabella opened her mouth to speak but then, she was cut off."There are no exceptions" Zoe adds to make her point clear.Arabella couldn'
Last Updated : 2023-04-12MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Meeting Ms Patricia
"What are you looking at?" Arabella asked, staring at Zoe's smiling face. She looked so happy but her gaze spoke of things she couldn't understand."You" Zoe points out still smiling, she's been watching her for hours now but it feels like seconds.Arabella blinks at her, perplexed. "You shouldn't do that" she grumbles in her stomach."Why not?" Question Zoe with a raised brow. "I've missed you" she confesses. No matter how much she tries to bring herself to believe Arabella is right there, where she belongs in her arms she can't help but feel like it's all a dream.That's why she chooses to wake up as early as she could even before sunrise just to watch her, maybe then, her heart will agree with her that their Arabella is finally back."Jerk, get off me" Arabella pushes her away.Zoe laughs out heartily, "That's my line, not yours" She reminds Arabella of the fact that she was the one lying to her.Arabella hums faking an angry face, just when she was about to get off the bed, Zoe pu
Last Updated : 2023-04-12MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you not always a win-win
"Zoe, satisfy us with your amazing coffee" Ms Patricia didn't want Zoe hanging around while she tries to have a one-on-one chat with Arabella.Zoe hasn't told her anything related to her feelings for Arabella but she could see through her smiles and silence, her possessiveness over Arabella defines her intentions. "Sure" Zoe walks her way into the Kitchen."She's such a darling, always putting orders, feelings and needs above hers" Ms Patricia voice out smiling while staring at the empty door Zoe walked through.Arabella knew who she was talking about, "yeah, that's what I admire most about her." She adds.Ms Patricia hums in response, "How long have you known her?" She asked, with a frown as if trying to remember something. "Since we were kids, long before I could reason things about the world," Arabella chuckles at her joke."That's such a long time, no doubt you guys are this close. Let me gossip a little, I've known of your existence before you came, Zoe never stops worrying abo
Last Updated : 2023-04-17MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Luca
"She's fun to be with" Arabella exclaimed, smiling at her thought."Told ya," Zoe beams, hands buried into her pants. Her gaze fell on Arabella's hands, the urge to intertwine their fingers together was so much but she held it, not willing to give in. Instead, she forces herself to smile more."Yeah, you did," Arabella agreed. "I'd love to visit some times," she adds.Zoe smiled at nothing but her smiling face, she looks more than beautiful."I see you" Arabella whispers, reminding Zoe she isn't senseless to feel her hot gaze on her."Of course, you do. I know" Zoe chuckles and turns her attention ahead of them."Zoe?" Luca called from behind and grabbed Zoe by the wrist, hoping to get her to listen to what he had to say.Ever since he left her place, Zoe had never spared him a glance talkless of giving him a chance. And then, now, all of a sudden he sees her with Arabella and they look just fine.For some reason, he felt his stomach grumble in disagreement. The possessiveness and jea
Last Updated : 2023-04-17MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Confession.
Song recommendation: Thousand Years Christina Perri. "What a boring day!" Arabella groans as she walks out of the hall they just had a class in. One of her worst times ever, lectures. But she had no choice but to attend. She walks to her locker and pulls out a textbook she was to read later at night. Exams were fastly approaching and it is better she starts reading early."Jesus!" She yells out upon seeing a certain someone that was made visible the moment she closes the locker."WTF! Stop being a ghost around" she complains, holding onto her chest to calm her raising heart."Wait, I remember you" she points out, "you are the guy from yesterday, the one Zoe doesn't want to talk to" She puts on a thoughtful face sizing the guy up and down.No matter what she said, he didn't respond. His gaze at her was intense as though he would eat her up if given the chance.This got her frowning, "do you perhaps don't talk to strangers?" She raised a brow demanding for him to say something but he
Last Updated : 2023-04-17MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Friend Zone.
"Why must it always be like this? Why must my love always bring me unending pain and sorrow?" Zoe asked no one in tears, she stared at the bright evening sky in pain and agony.Just when she thought things are falling into place, another comes up and drifts them further apart than they already were."It hurts so much" She clenched her chest, and the pain was unbearable.All this while, she has been able to handle it knowing she will be able to stay with her as always but then, she can't anymore.Knowing how much Arabella hates gays, this is the beginning of the end of their relationship."I've always loved you, more than I loved myself but you never saw me," She said in between her sobs, "Can't you see? My heart is weary, yearning for your love and my head keeps seeing no one but you. Why can't you take a step closer and feel it all? Just a step closer, to hear how loud it screams for you" "Love is indeed pain, your love hurts but I can't stop walking deeper, seeking to reach the end
Last Updated : 2023-04-17MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Competition.
Three weeks laterZoe stood behind the stage, sweat dripping off her face and her palms getting moist. Even when AC was available, she still felt hot.It was time, the day she had been preparing for but it felt like she had never been ready for it. She walks and takes a seat on the sofa, with a deep sigh, she bows her head trying to keep her cool.She is the next step on stage after the ongoing contestants are done and she is trying her best to be her utmost best but things seem to be taking a different part.There is nothing she could think of but Arabella, ever since that incident happened, they haven't had much to discuss and it's pretty frustrating.She isn't sure if Arabella will attend, but deep down she hopes she does."You'll get there in five minutes!" A brown hair man of about his thirties informs.Zoe nods, "Thanks" She grabs the bottle of water by the side and gulps it down.A few minutes passed and it was time for her to go on stage, As she walks in, she never stopped gla
Last Updated : 2023-05-01MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Goodbyes
"Zoe?" Arabella calls running up to her, "hold on, please" she pleads Zoe, who wasn't expecting anyone, was stunned to see her chasing breathlessly. "Rabella!?" She calls out, surprising evidence in her voice."God!, I feel like I just ran a thousand miles," Arabella exclaims, hands resting on her thighs."What's up? " Zoe asked, with a slight frown on her face.Arabella flashes her a smile, " that was pretty awesome back there " she starts, standing up straight.Zoe nods, lips forming a thin line. " Thanks" she had nothing to say."Did you have to risk it all? " Arabella couldn't help but ask, she isn't a fool not to know what Zoe did back there."Somethings are worth risking " Zoe force a smile, " and I don't regret it, never will" Arabella nods in understanding, " thank you" she voiced.Zoe Bobs in response, turned and was about to leave when Arabella spoke out" I'm sorry!" She breathes out."You shouldn't be ...And I'm ok with your decision" Zoe didn't want her feeling bad and
Last Updated : 2023-05-01
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MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you I LOVE YOU.
"what are you thinking?" Zoe asked, walking out of the bath with a hand towel as she wiped on her hair."Nothing" Arabella denies, running her hands through her hair. She stood up and walked to the cupboard by the side, pulling out the hair dryer."Let me," Zoe offers, takes the hand dryer and starts to blow dry her hair."There is nothing to worry about, everything has been taken care of" Zoe assures.Silent engulfed the room for a few seconds before Arabella demanded, "Did Ms Amanda understand the situation?" She is worried they might be offended by their relationship."Hmmm, she is always understanding," Zoe explains.Arabella nodded but didn't say anything even though she so much wanted to.Zoe could tell from her look that something is eating her up, she spines the chair over making her face her completely."She is understanding as well, but not as forgiven as her aunt. I don't blame her, I'm pretty sure everyone in her shoes would do the same." Zoe starts."I hurt her, Zoe. " Ar
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Goodbyes
"Why did you lie to her and make her believe she was the one you loved? Why did you do all those things only to let her down at the tail end? Why Zoe? " She yells, demanding an answer." I'm sorry aunt," Zoe said, tears running down her cheeks. She understands all that it means, the feeling of being lied to and she is more than sorry."I honestly thought I could keep her, that we could be something more but then, I realized I am not deserving of her love. " Zoe explains, "It was never my intention to hurt her, I swear, aunt, there has never been a thought in my head other than protecting her and taking care of her" she said with all honesty." Is that so? Why then did you hurt her this much? " Amanda demands furiously."The heart doesn't lie, you can be the judge of that yourself. I can't choose whom to love and neither can I tell my heart whom to beat for. I sincerely apologize for everything, most especially for toiling with your trust and love. I know how important Evie is to you,
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Apologies
"I'm sorry for hurting you all these years, for judging you and leaving you when you needed me most" Arabella cries in pity."You did nothing wrong" Zoe tries to coax but Arabella is way too out of the league."No, I'm a bad person. I ignored your love for another, I bluntly hurt your feelings saying there will never be an Us. I caused you pain for years yet you never curse or judge me. I walk away from your life but you always stood by me and never made me feel less of the person I've always been to you" she explains in tears."You were doing just fine without me, so I was until I saw you after years of distance looking so happy with Evie. I didn't know why but I felt jealous, I felt hurt. Maybe I'm just selfish, maybe I just want everything for me" she cries."I never realized until I saw you two, just then I understood how egoist I am. Seeing you two made me feel things I've never felt before, not even for Rowan or Jack. I couldn't stand you two, that's why I left when you were sin
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you My Arabella
The truth is always hard to accept, and difficult to come to terms with.Zoe thought she could make herself come to terms with the idea of wanting to move on but it turns out feelings are not just something one can erase.Realizing she can't live without her one true love, she decides to go for it, it's her last chance anyways.If she gets accepted, it'd be a miracle and if she gets rejected, it'll be no surprise though she will be hurt.On the other hand, Arabella lay back on the couch staring at the white ceiling above all lost in thought.Nothing had ever been the same ever since she left Zoe's apartment. She's lost everything, her fiance whom she thought loved her until it turned out the opposite and her best friend whom she has always ignored her love until things start streaming from within bringing weird feelings she's never thought she had.A knock came at the door pulling her off her thoughts, she frowned wondering who it might be.Deciding to see who it is, she carries her t
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Letting go!
Evie sits on the table not far from the door as her gaze stays fixed at the door. "You've been sitting there all day, why not take a break?" Amanda questions walking to the table."I don't want to" Evie denies, "she promised to be here today" she adds.Amanda sighs, taking the seat next to her, "what if she's tied up with something important? She can't just rush to you because of a mere promise" she explains.Evie didn't respond, her gaze never left the entrance. Zoe promised to come over and treat her to lunch and it's almost time she hasn't shown up yet." She's gonna make it" Evie grumbles in her stomach, not willing to accept something that might be so important to keep Zoe from fulfilling her promise." So positive "Amanda chuckles." Hmm, she will come," Evie repeats, with an optimistic face.Amanda stares at her for a long time before saying, "Why not try finding out what's keeping her rather than waiting? I'm so done with that face you have on" she grumbles and leaves.Evie
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Pretends.
It's been close to a week now and Arabella was still trying to accept herself and her mistakes. Like any other day, she was busy with work at the office while hoping the day runs off in a blink of an eye.But as it turns out, the day was against her wishes and hopes but she didn't let it get to her as she forces herself to work till there is no more strength left.It was around three in the afternoon when she decided to visit Jack, it has been a normal thing for her.She grabs her bag and carries herself out of the company, enters her car and quickly drives away.Her car slows down before a large building, and she steps out and walks in. There wasn't a doubt in her identity as she was quickly led to the elevator leading directly to the fifth floor where Jack's office is.She steps out of the elevator as soon as it stops, walks through the corridor and only stops when she is before his office door.She takes in a deep breath, calming her worried and anxious mind. There is no way she c
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you Why do I choke on your joy?
Can you let go and see me instead? Can I be the one you see and want to be there with all the time? Can I?" Evie asked in tears, staring at the frozen Zoe."Of course, it's a no. I've known long enough and I wonder why it hurts" She turns and starts walking away."Why me? I can't be all you want" Zoe cries out, staring at Evie's excited back."I've never wanted you to be enough or perfect 'cause I neither am... I just want you to see me, accept me and love me... Is that too much to ask for?" Evie retorts."What if it doesn't work? What if we never get an Us in this?" Zoe wasn't sure of her feelings and desires and she was scared of hurting her.Evie turns around and takes counting strides toward Zoe. "Why not try and see if we are good or not? You never know what awaits us" Zoe had always known Evie to be an optimist but never would she have thought she would willingly throw herself for an experiment they both ain't sure of the end product." But it's ok, I get it... You don't wish t
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you you never see it, do you?
The entire room was engulfed in total silence, everyone staring, waiting for Zoe to start.Zoe glanced at Arabella before she locked gaze with Evie, the smile on Evie's face was enough to bring a simple and genuine smile to her lips.She turns her attention to the crowd, "hi" she speaks out unsure of what to say. "I-i am honored to be given a chance to sing to y'all, hope you enjoy the song".With that, she walks to where the piano lay, her long slender fingers dancing on the keys immersing the room with the sound of a beautiful melody as she sings.It was the song titled " Falling " by Harry Styles.It's been like forever since Arabella heard her best and childhood friend sing and hearing her now made her realize just how distant they've become.Without realizing it, tears rolled down her cheeks, she stayed glued to the girl on the stage. Her heart aches for unknown reasons and she can swear she never thought she'd feel this hurt.Usually, Zoe always stares at her while singing but i
MY ARABELLA: Thousand years of loving you not a baby.
"more like Zoe" Arabella mutters under her breath, eyes glued to where Zoe stood."I guess your closeness is more than just a friend" Evie blurt without thinking."Excuse me!!" Arabella was taken aback by her questions.Evie clears her throat at the realization of what she might be thinking, "not like that, what I mean is, you guys look more like sisters than besties" she explains."Oh!" Arabella exclaimed with a sigh of relief, "You can say that our years of friendship define our bond." She gave a sweet smile.Evie returns the smile, "Right"."Here is your drink" Zoe spoke out, handing Evie a soft cocktail drink. "Simple non-alcoholic drink for a softy" she teased.Evie couldn't hold her blush, "I'm not that soft you know, " she complains."Says a baby" Zoe chuckles and sips down her drink.Arabella on the other hand silently watched them talk with an expression that couldn't be described."I'm not a baby!" Evie pouts and hits lightly on Zoe's arms feeling embarrassed."Sure?" Zoe ra
