The first rays of sunlight shone down on my face, stirring me awake from my sleep. I blinked groggily as I opened my eyes and tried to take in my surroundings.
The room seemed to blur into focus, revealing itself in all its unfamiliarity. There was minimalistic dark artwork on the walls, and the room was filled with beige and neutral tones. A sleek modern dresser stood against one wall, its surface cluttered with different items.I glanced around the room, searching for any familiar trace, any sign that I had been here before. But as I took in the clean lines and unblemished surfaces, it became painfully clear that this was a place I had never set foot in before until now.Dread filled me, and I tried not to panic. Where was I? What was going on? How had I ended up here, in this stranger's room, on my wedding day?Then, slowly, snippets of the previous night began to flood my memory, a sinking feeling settling in the pit of my stomach.Rodrigo dancing on me. Excusing myself to go to the restroom. Bumping into the hot stranger. Going to a room with him. The images flashed before my eyes—the heat of his touch, the intensity of his gaze, the raw desire that had consumed us both. Although the memories were there, they weren't exactly clear. Some things just didn’t make any sense whatsoever.‘Oh, dear Lumus! What have we done?’ Nia was already panicking within me.What would Asher say if he knew that I had spent the night entangled in the arms of another man?Oh, my Lumus.With shaky hands, I reached for my phone, my fingers fumbling as I scrolled through the messages and missed calls that had accumulated since I’d left the bar.I slowly tapped on Isa’s messages.‘Girl, don’t tell me you took a nap in the toilet stall.’12:34am‘Where the hell are you??? We just searched around the bar and the restroom, and you’re nowhere to be found.’1:15 am‘Okay, now I’m worried. If this is a prank, just let me know now.’1:30 amI swiped away from Isa’s messages and clicked on Asher’s, my heart pounding.‘How’s the bachelorette party going?’11:56 pm‘You’re not answering your phone. You know how I feel about that!’12:36 am‘Isa just called me in hysterics. Where tf are you, Zara?!’1:18 amI quickly locked my phone, the anxiety of the situation getting to me.Suddenly, I heard footsteps from another room as someone stepped into the room. It was the stranger from the previous night; his hair was wet and tousled on his head, and he was just in his boxer briefs, which left nothing to the imagination.I quickly gathered the duvet to cover my body, suddenly embarrassed by what we’d done and how much I’d enjoyed it“What happened last night?” I asked quickly.“Everything,” he said with a small smile.“Oh, my Lumus. Oh, my Lumus,” I quickly got to my feet, clearly panicking.He reached out a hand, his touch gentle as he brushed a strand of hair from my face. “Hey, don’t panic. Just wait for me to freshen up, and we’ll discuss this.”I looked up at him, searching his eyes for any sign of reassurance, then nodded.But as soon as he went back to the bathroom, I slipped out of bed, my movement swift as I gathered my belongings and slipped into my dress. Then I made a beeline for the door and out of the hotel room, hoping I would never see him again.In about fifteen minutes, I was finally able to find the suite Asher had booked for me and my entire bridal train for the wedding. The encounter with the stranger had left me reeling, and I couldn’t think about anything else.Guilt followed me like a cloud over my head, but I shook it off, knowing I had a wedding to attend, vows to exchange, and a future to face, whether I was ready for it or not.I stepped into my hotel room, which had an entourage of my bridesmaids, the makeup artists, and hair stylists. And Isa.“Where on earth have you been?” she exclaimed as soon as I walked in. “I’ve been trying to reach you all morning.”I forced a small smile, trying to ignore the emotions that bubbled within me. “I’m sorry, Isa. My phone died. I just needed some time to myself, that’s all.”Isa regarded me with a knowing look, her eyes searching mine for any sign of deception. But before she could press me further, I changed the subject, eager to move past the uncomfortable topic.“It’s my wedding day, and it can be overwhelming, so I just needed that time,” I added.She nodded. “Alright, but next time, please just send a text so we don’t search the entire kingdom for you.”“Sure. We should probably start getting ready for my wedding,” I said, my voice brightening slightly as I forced myself to focus on the task. “There’s still so much to do before the ceremony.”Isa nodded, her concern momentarily forgotten as we fell into the rhythm of preparation. I quickly shot Asher a text, knowing I couldn’t deal with his tantrum if I called him.*The loud organ played slow music from the side and everyone had rice in their mini baskets which was a tradition in the pack for when mates got married. Yet, there was no feeling of excitement bubbling within me like I’d hoped.I, Zara Emmett Dawson, was getting married to my mate, Asher Clinton Zapata and yet, I didn’t feel happy. Nia and I had been ecstatic about getting married for the longest time, even though a part of me still had my doubts.But now, Nia was extremely quiet; same way I was, because neither one of us has been able to forget about last night and the feeling the stranger had ignited within us.“Are you okay?” Asher asked, dragging me out of my reverie, and I realized I was standing in front of him, holding hands in front of an officiant.“Huh?” I blinked.“The officiant just asked you a question,” Asher said, clearly annoyed.I turned to the officiant, who had a raised eyebrow.“Please, what’s the question?” I asked, my cheeks flushing with heat.“Do you, Zara Emmett Dawson, take Asher Clinton Zapata, your mate, as your husband?”I sucked in breath, my heart pounding. I glanced at Asher, who looked bored of the entire ceremony and wanted it all to be over.‘Do we want to marry him?’ Nia asked me.‘I thought you were all about it two days ago,’ I snapped.‘Well, I don’t know about it now, and this has never happened. We’re meant to be overjoyed because he’s our mate. Ours.’‘But I don’t feel the joy I thought I would.’‘I can tell,’ Nia replied, wagging her tail. ‘It feels odd. Almost like we are making a mistake. What the fuck is going on?’ She hissed, clearly exasperated.But it was too late to back out. Too late to do anything, especially when I am certain whatever it was I was feeling were my nerves. Nothing more than the wedding creeps snagging in.Yet, I knew there was nothing else I could do. “Yes, I do,” I said.The officiant nodded and started. “But before these two are joined together as husband and wife, does anyone here have just cause why these two should not be joined in holy matrimony?”The question hung in the air like a heavy fog, casting a shadow over the occasion. For a moment, there was nothing but silence echoing back, but then, to everyone’s shock, a figure stepped forward from the crowd.I tried to make out who was coming forward, my heart pounding. My eyes dilated as I realized it was Lina, my step sister. She held up photographs for everyone to see.“I don't think the kingdom deserves a cheating princess, Your Grace,” she said, as though she was dreading what she was doing, even though I knew she was enjoying it. “My sister cheated on her mate, Your Grace,” she added, addressing the king from where he sat, with my father beside him.The congregation gasped in unison as the images came into view. Each one is more damning than the last. They were pictures taken from a window view of me and the stranger locked in a passionate embrace from the night before. Our bodies were a tangle of limbs and desire.But what struck everyone the most was the absence of the man's face in the images, his identity shrouded in shadow while my features were open for all to see.I gasped as a murmur moved through the crowd, a revelation of my infidelity the night before my wedding day. I suddenly felt nauseous, the weight of my actions crashing down upon me like a ton of bricks. Of course Lina had photos. Of course I cheated on my mate.Lina left the party early, claiming she was dealing with a pounding headache. She offered me a drink, then a kiss, and left. So how did she get the photos? Did she hire the man? Was this something deliberately set up?I turned to Asher quickly. “I can explain. Please just give me some time to explain; it’s not what you think.”“You expect me to believe this rubbish?” Asher scoffed, his voice dripping with contempt as he sneered at me. “You think I’m stupid enough to buy into your pathetic excuses?”I recoiled at the hardness of his words, my heart sinking with each word he hurled in my direction. I’d always known that Asher had a temper, but I’d never seen him like this… cruel and vindictive, lashing out without a shred of compassion.“Please just hear me out, Asher,” I insisted, my voice trembling with emotion.But Asher was not even listening. Instead, he kept yelling, his eyes filled with disgust toward me. I’d always believed that Asher was the love of my life, the one person I could count on no matter what. But now, as I stared into his eyes, I saw nothing but disgust, and I realized that perhaps, I had been wrong all along.He wouldn't even let me explain. Something had happened last night, something I couldn't understand.And as the realization sank in, a part of my heart broke irreparably, knowing that things could never be the same between us again. But who was I kidding? I mean, I was the one who cheated on her mate. I was the one who literally slept with a stranger the night before her big day. Of course Asher was going to lose his cool!“Asher…”“Shut the fuck up!” He thundered, throwing his eyes around as his eyes turned a shade darker than normal. He was on the verge of shifting, and that could be very bad for everyone. A lycan prince losing his shit wasn't something anyone would like to see. Especially when said prince is my mate.“Is this the wedding gift you mentioned having for me?” He gritted. “Is this it? You breaking the sacred bond by cheating on me?”“Asher it wasn't… I wasn't…”“Fuck!” He cussed, tugging at his once slicked hair. And then he laughed. His body shook with laughter as he pointed at me. “Glad I broke the bond the moment I felt the pain. I was waiting to see if you’d mention what you did last night. It seems in your lustful daze, you’ve forgotten I was your mate and I would know when you cheated!”Shit! Fuck! Dear Lumus, what have I done? What was I thinking? How did I forget about that!‘I knew something was off!’ Nia whined. ‘I knew it made no sense that we felt that way. Yet neither of us was able to control it. Why does this feel like we’ve been set up?’True. It does feel that way. But who? Why? And what did Asher mean by breaking the bond? He didn't cut me off right? Breaking the bond means that while I am still mated to Asher, I have no emotional connection to him whatsoever. I could cheat, or vice versa and neither of us would know. We’d only be mates in a sense, but not experience the full effect of it.“The bond…”“I already broke it off last night. The moment you took another person, I did as well. And then afterwards, I broke it. I just needed everyone to witness it right now!” He hissed.It all made sense now. The brief squeeze in my chest and the way my stomach turned. It all made sense. It was the same time Asher had broken the bond. And while he did that, from what he had just said, it seemed he took another woman into his arms as well.Oh Lumus…“Asher listen…”“I, Asher Clinton Zapata, rejects you Zara Emmett Dawson as my mate. May our bond be severed for eternity in Lumus’s name!”And just like that, the snapping sound. The click of something clinching in the middle, like a dried stick being stepped upon. I felt the thread of the bond break, leaving me in its tatters of pain.Oh Lumus. Just what have I done?“I have always known you would ruin this! Just like you’ve always ruined everything that has ever come your way!” My step mother, Latisha hissed as she slapped me hard across the face.I didn't retaliate. I didn't even move. I was ashamed. I was a mess. I would be branded a whore now. A cheater. And I guess father would never defend me, not that he ever did in the past even as the Alpha Beta to the Lycan king. And now that I have disgraced him, I doubt he’d step up for me. I scanned the hall, watching the disgusting look that crossed the face of every individual as they stared at me. Insulted me. Cursed at me. And I saw him, my father standing with a blank face just behind the altar, the same space he had been sitting in ever since he escorted me into the hall and handed me to Asher.The only person who wasn't judging me or looking at me with disgust was Isa.It was over for me.Then quite suddenly, the door to the hall was pushed open, and a new face stepped in. But I recognized him the moment he stepped in, and my insides coiled, tightening into knotted chaos. It was the stranger from last night.Fuck!What is he doing here?!CHASE.You know what they say about chaos knocking on your door and you falling for it? That was exactly what I did. Falling into the arms of a lycan I had never seen before until yesterday. And now, she has vanished!I’d nearly forgotten that Asher, my nephew’s wedding was today. All because my brain had been fucked with by the woman from last night. Just what was I thinking?I hissed as I hurriedly got dressed so I could rush to the venue.‘So, Whose fault was it?’ I broke the silence between Drew and I. ‘I mean, you kind of went berserk the moment we saw her, and I think you pushed me into taking her. And now she’s gone.’‘We will find her,’ came Drew’s short reply. ‘Nothing to worry about. We need to find her. I need her again.’‘Well, too bad she left no contact details. Or did she leave one with you?’ I snickered, as I buttoned up my crisp white shirt.‘We will find her,’ he said again, sounding more determined. ‘I will find her.’I said nothing to that as I finished dressing u
Zara was our mate? How? I mean…“Uncle Chase!” Asher’s voice cut through my thoughts. “You made it!” He added, bowing before me.“Hello, Asher,” I nodded at him as I pushed my glasses to the bridge of my nose, my eyes still pinned on Zara, who had her head ducked down now, her shoulders slumped in a defeated way.“Sorry. You got here at the wrong time. What a shit show,” he hissed, rubbing his forehead.I ignored him and said nothing as my brother walked up to us, and I bowed in respect. He waved his hand at me, dismissing me like he always did, and stood before Zara.“You are no longer a member of this pack and kingdom. Woe shall be unto you, your family, and your generation. May the wrath and curse of Lumus descend upon you forever for cheating on your mate!” he finished.“It wasn't like I ever wanted her,” Asher grumbled, as he pulled a woman, who had been standing close to him since I arrived, to his chest. “I’ve always wanted Lina, not her.” He added. “The damn mate bond was the
ZARA.“Father, I want to marry Lina,” Asher said, squeezing Lina’s shoulder.Of course he’d say that. Of course he’d want to marry her. After what he had just finished saying to me? Why was I surprised he made his wish clear?Yet, I couldn't do anything as the tears spilled from my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. I couldn't do anything at the slice of pain that shot through me. Couldn't do shit other than to watch my life get ruined.Okay, so obviously, Asher had every right not to marry me, because what I did was very vile, although I had no idea why I’d done that, but I completely understand him. Even if I shouldn't. Even if I now know he and Lina have been doing it. But deciding to get married to Lina on a whim was what I didn’t understand. Okay, not a whim. They have been together for a while now according to him, which totally makes sense.All the more reason to make me believe that this was planned. I had been set up. What I don't know is if both Lina and Asher planned this, or
‘What are we doing?’ Nia asked.‘I have no idea.’ On one hand, I was extremely scared of what was happening, and on the other, I was extremely thankful to Chase for wanting to marry me. Still, my life felt like a scene from a badly rehearsed reality TV show. How did it all turn upside down so badly? “I forbid you from marrying a branded!” The king thundered angrily. “You will not stain Father’s blood with an impure!”“Since when do you care what I do with my life, brother?” Chase asked as he stood up, pulling me to his side and wrapping his arm around my shoulder. “And since when do I take command from you?”“Chase…”“I am a king like you are, need I remind you of that, Clinton?” The biting edge in his voice was chilling.“I am still the eldest and…”“You never took that role seriously all these years. And you want to now? I don't give a flying fuck if I am staining father’s bloodline or not. It is my life, and I do whatever the hell I want with it!” He snapped.“Uncle…”“Not a word
Chase and I stepped forward, ready to exchange tokens of our commitment. I swallowed. “I don’t have a token for you. I’m sorry.”He chuckled, which made my stomach do numerous backflips. “Well, I didn’t expect you to have one. All of this has caught you by surprise.”“Oh, I might have something,” I started with a smile, an idea coming to mind. I reached for the pendant that sat on my neck, and one I’d worn since childhood. It was a precious keepsake that carried a lot of memories of love and laughter. I’d wanted to give it to Asher before the wedding, but I could see why I thought against it. “This may not be the grandest of tokens or a wedding band,” I began, my voice trembling with emotion. “But it carries the weight of a lot of love and memories in my life. The love of my mother. I’d like you to have it.” I pulled the pendant from my neck and pressed it into his palm. “Are you sure?”I nodded. “Yes, I am.”“Well, I don’t have a token here, so I guess we’ll just improvise.”He
CHASE.The wedding had been chaotic, as chaotic as my whole day had been since I woke up. I had Zara’s pendant in my right pants pocket. I was still trying to contemplate what had happened and what I had even gotten myself into, but my mind couldn’t wrap around the fact that the gorgeous woman I’d yearned for was seated beside me on my private jet. As my wife. My queen. My mate.We had left the wedding and gotten to the airport hangar where my private jet was waiting, and now we were on our way back to Betnerd, the kingdom I’d inherited from my mother’s side.“It’s beautiful,” Zara said, dragging my attention back to reality. She was looking out of the window at the forests and landscapes the jet zoomed past.“It is,” I agreed, my eyes on her, taking her all in. She sighed and turned to look at me, and I tore my gaze away. “How are you…a king too?” She asked, and I knew she was trying to find a footing to discuss what really mattered.“Clinton and I do not share the same mother. My
ZARA.“Father, I want to marry Lina,” Asher said, squeezing Lina’s shoulder fondly. As I blinked away the remnants of the dream, or rather, the memory. I couldn't shake the queasy feeling that lingered in the pit of my stomach. But it wasn’t just a dream; it had happened, and I remembered it vividly. The events of that fateful night replayed in my mind like a haunting melody: the bachelorette party filled with laughter and tequila shots, the damning photographs that sealed my fate, the branding of my wrist with the mark of shame, and finally, the hasty marriage to Chase. All of it a whirlwind of confusion and chaos. And now, being here in his private jet, wrapped in his arms? I couldn’t deny that it was the best feeling ever, and it was the safest I’d felt in the past twenty-four hours. His embrace was warm and comforting. I’d probably fallen asleep in his arms, and for some reason, I didn’t want to leave. It felt like I belonged there. So I didn't move, even though I was already a
As we stepped off the plane, my senses were assaulted by the flurry of activity and all the confetti being thrown into the air around us. “All hail the queen!” they called out, their voices ringing with a solemnity that caused me to wince.I hadn’t expected anything grand and big like what I was currently experiencing. I had not even thought of expecting a welcome. And then, as if on cue, they all bowed before me, their gestures a show of respect that left me speechless. “All hail the queen!” They chorused again, head bowed down with one hand pressed to the chest.. I stood there, frozen in place, my mind struggling to process what had just happened. I’d thought Betnerd was just a small kingdom in the north, but I was shocked by the turn of events. Even when Chase told me about being a king here; I never thought it was something so grand. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine myself being greeted with such reverence? It was even worse because now, more than ever, I knew I did n
The moment stretched on, the silence, albeit thick with tension, provided me a bit of reprieve from everything else. The chaos that just happened and one I was sure would flare up once we decided to discuss things. I wasn't going to meekly wait for him to offer me explanations now. I am done with that! "I am so sorry, Snookums," Chase finally broke the silence, his voice sending a rush of calm through my nerves. Again with the very vague apology. One that doesn't seem to have any meaning. I needed him to tell me what he was apologising for specifically, because as far as I was concerned, he'a done a lot of questionable things in the past week that needed apologies. I also knew that for my mental health and his, I couldn't keep pushing this conversation until I was ready. Because the thing was, I had no idea when exactly I would be ready, considering I wasn't one who was ever comfortable discussing her feelings. I was never one taken serious back home, so I got used to bottling my
Zara I watched wide eyed as punch after punch flew between Chase and Ryan. It had all started in a blur. A type of blur that I did not anticipate. Ryan grabbed Chase by the collar punching him and they bumped into the walls, knocked down the coffee table and the tea set on top, breaking the set into a million tiny pieces on the floor. They struggled against each other, both trying to be the one on top, but Chase was currently straddling Ryan and punching him. The fighting made no sense because there was nothing to it. I could tell that Chase was acting completely out of anger because I was talking to Ryan. And Ryan was trying as much as he could to defend himself, while Shane was trying to stop it just like I was. It wasn't going great though, because Chase kept pushing Shane away and plummeting the life out of Ryan. It was a very unfair scene because Chase was ten times stronger than the two men combined. I've never seen Chase this angry and out of control in all the time I'v
When I arrived at her room on the first day, I was confused and borderline depressed. I met Isa in the room when I’d walked in and she had said Zara was taking a shower and wouldn’t like to see anyone. Yet, I could smell her close by and I couldn’t hear the sound of the shower running. I wanted to insist on seeing her because I desperately needed answers, but I also knew that I had to give her space even though I didn’t want to. My mind was still pretty set on the fact that Zara had not done what the consulate said, but it was so hard when the opinion of everyone else was in my head. I mean, she didn’t know we were mates, so of course, she didn’t want to keep the pregnancy. We both knew that this might not last long, so the genius plan was obviously to get rid of the pregnancy. I poured myself a glass of whiskey as Shane walked into the room. “Still no luck?” he asked, sitting across from me and I shook my head. “I don’t know what to do right now and who to believe. I really
Chase I lingered in front of Zara's room after a long day trip. It was the third day since her return from the hospital and my meeting with the consulate, and I hadn’t been able to see her. I thought about barging in and demanding an audience with her, but I was already on Zara's bad list, and I didn’t want to push her away any longer. Yet, even standing by this door, I could smell her, and my entire body shivered with need. I would do anything right now to hold her, kiss her, and tell her that everything would be alright. I paused for a couple of minutes and knocked on the door, hoping for a response. When none came, I pushed it open and walked inside, expecting to see Isa standing watch by the door and ready to stop me from entering. But nobody was there right now, except for Zara, who was lying on the bed, and I was certain she wasn’t asleep. The sound of her heartbeat resounded in my ears as her scent filled me. Somehow, I am more aware of her now and the mate bond, most
ZARA. I walked into mine and Chase's chambers, my spirit down and feeling sadder than I'd ever been in a while. Perhaps ever since I got here. We were expecting a child, and instead of being over the moon and ecstatic, I felt drained and tired. It was heartbreaking that Chase didn't want the child that we were having together, but it was even worse that we might be mates and I had no idea. Because he hid it from me. I sighed heavily and slumped into a nearby chair, my mind a complete mess. These past few days had shown me the amount of love I was surrounded by. I was constantly being doted on, and the one person I wanted to feel a bit of care from was nowhere to be found. Chase and I hardly talk to each other, or better yet, I do most of the avoiding. Learning that we were mates, and he hid that from me broke my heart. It made me question why he chose to hide it, and if I had any right to have the feelings I thought I had for him. Right now, I wasn't sure anymore. First, I was
"I was waiting for you," he said. "Everything okay?" I asked, keeping my voice firm as though nothing was wrong. "The consulate has requested a meeting." I groaned. Dealing with the consulate and their whining was the last thing I needed right now. "Can't it be moved? I'm sort of tied down by an emergency as you can tell." "They are pretty impatient." "Alright then. Get the car ready." Throughout the ride to the consulate, I didn't say a word. I was too beat up to speak, my emotions too raw to make coherent decisions or thoughts. I just hope the consulate does nothing to piss me off cause I'm not entirely sure I'd be able to control myself or Drew. In the midst of everything going on and the shambles in my life, however, I was immensely thankful that news of Zara's illness hasn't made its way around the kingdom yet. I'd told everyone that she'd gone on a trip to her mother's kingdom and won't be around for a little while, so I was certain that this meeting with the consula
CHASE. My stomach rolled and turned as I made my way to the doctor's office, although not as bad as it had been since Zara began to ignore me three days ago. After our conversation on that day, I had no idea what was in store for us anymore. I felt so confused and disoriented. The question she asked me had caught me off guard because prior to that moment, I hadn't really thought about what it would be like to have a child with Zara. Sure, it was definitely the best thing in the world, but I'd chickened out and she had taken my lack of response to mean that I wasn't excited about the child. Plus, while I do want the child, I don't like the idea of tying her down to me with the pregnancy, when she probably doesn't want to be with me. There's still a month left, no, three weeks until three months have passed and that fateful day before she knows I am her mate. But what if she doesn't want to be mine? The conversation with Pearl urging me to tell her about the mate bond had put more
It was the fourth day at the hospital and I was slowly feeling better and a bit happier because the people around me had held me down and had taken care of me throughout the time I was at the hospital. Even if my heart hurts. The days had passed by in a blur of silence and avoidance when it came to Chase and I. I spoke easily to Pearl, Isa, Shane and Ryan, but I barely acknowledged Chase's presence. I don't know how to face him. What to say. How to bring up the conversation of us being mates, so, instead I completely ignored him. Doing my best to avoid him. He stays with me most of the time, and we slept together each day, but I never said a word. Even when he talks, I can't bring myself to answer. The betrayal tore through me, tearing down whatever progress we've made so far. My hand always instinctively reached down and stroked my belly, the mere thought of growing a child within me was too much to even imagine. We haven't spoken about it in depth, and the excitement I had h
He hesitated. "I was careless that night, and a little bit more tipsy than I had known. And the condom tore twice which I found out later. Although, that still doesn't make it easier." And then realisation hit me. That was the night of the bachelorette party and I had been so drunk that I didn't even remember if we used protection or not. I mean, we did use one, but I didn't even know some tore after going more than one round. Shit! 'Oh my Lumus,' Nia screamed within me. 'How did I not... know? How did we miss it?' Beats me. How? I mean, the baby's heartbeat should be the first thing I notice. The first thing Nia notices. That was how lycan pregnancy works, yet we both missed that. My heart pounded quickly in my chest as I tried to take in everything that was happening and it seemed like my brain was moving at snail speed, trying to process it all. "I'm pregnant," I mumbled in disbelief. "You are," Chase agreed. I searched his gorgeous green eyes, looking for any hint of h