maybe regretfull

My steps towards an uncoloured world. Can't deactivate it. If I tried myself unbottled...I'm gonna become a fish in a floating river of blood. 

Aunt Selina griped in a way that, I already had backup planned to run away in public with a heavy beautiful dress which I had seen only in movies and also remains in reality once in life for an ordinary girl like me. Well she was my step mother-in-law. Although I signed a contract with her, her stress level was at peak. My chuckling jokes are gonna bust her so easily. It's really very funny for me. 

Seeing Jaiden; anxiety stuck me. I was the only bride who had seen her groom in such a condition. Jaiden starred as he didn't know anything about counterproposal. Jaiden was a twenty-eight year old man who was one of the richest billionaires. 

My mind was stuck in the stars of my imagination, which was blinking so fast, I tried to capture them but did not succeed which reflected me as I was welcoming my hell. 

The Weather turned so suddenly. Invisible messages in drops of water can't also let me change my decision. It's so sudden with such speed. Beauty with the beast was a perfect example as rain used to represent love but those drops hurt too much. We can protect ourselves but still it's an immense pleasure for mother earth. 

Outfit was very opposed to me, it's completely wetted. I tried to comfort myself; suddenly Jaiden resolved my discomfort with his Jacket. I never thought my finances would be loyal enough or if it was a showoff then also I was happy. 

We completed the ceremony as fast as Father could. Only family members remain, the rest of them leave because of undefined weather conditions. Aunt Selina can't postpone it. 

I did not do any positive deeds. With this marriage my grandma was gonna have a satisfactory life. How long unannounced words remain till, still brust on last breath. Only difference was I knew earlier than and didn't have courage to expose the truth to her. 

After dinner we went back home. In this way we both are invisible to each other. It irritates me too. 

Who thought that much… ? I started to look over my bank after I glanced at home. It's very sad for a girl like me. I hate Cinderella more than anyone. 

I didn't imagine Jaiden in my life as a partner. I can not tell him the truth. These thoughts of that time also still meet me till now. 

We both had coffee. He moved into his study room. I was relaxed that he wasn't going to ask me anything. 

Just the first sip with relaxation also made my lips and hands into hot burn flames with his staring. My volcano cools down … by his kiss.

"Wait! Wait! for a second… please try to under…", I was just counting his steps towards me which in result burned my lips and hands too. 

He was so close. I never thought of killing my identity by myself. He held my both hands with one and another one took over my waist. Pushed me back on the couch. He was completely over me, the hook of my shapewear also broke. I was just trying to manage that. His eyes were reading my mind maybe or not. He tightened up my hands and stole my rose. 

I didn't have the courage to push him back. I became a statue which can't feel bleeding on the waist. Till now I had that heart shaped for which I asked the doctor to remove but it was impossible for me to gather that much pain again. 

After minutes I was silent, just trying to recognize his intention…

He took me to the kitchen, holding me so carefully unless I fell. I was just sitting and he gave me ice to rub on tongue but I threw it on his face but it's a reflex action. He was so angry that he put ice cubes in his mouth. 

I was laughing so hard that I was in need of ice and he filled his mouth. He gave me ice cubes with his mouth. My big eyes become so bright all of a sudden. I thrust him but it didn't work. My immunity was too low as I didn't have food for the whole day. I felt unconscious and slept tight. 

He took me to bed and also treated and gave me medicines. His bracelet was heart shaped which just imprinted on my waist. 

Next morning ; I got up by his voice, he was already dressed. He told me, "I can't wait too long, mind it", which reflects that I need to hurry. 

My mind was already in trouble to find out where he slept last night? 

He was standing on right side of stairs, my steps was so slow, I got message from grandma at meantime my full concentration on it and I just fell down but it's my luck to be in his arms. He held me so tight this time with disgusting looks. 

"Good morning, I am fine", saying these words I was confused as to who could have such a grip so suddenly. 

He came too close , "How was your waist?", by putting hands, he knew that I already had too much pain. I moved to the kitchen right away as my eyes filled from tears. 

I joined him and said, "Can we have a good conversation as we didn't know anything about us".

I asked him before, as he was going to ask me the same question, " What's your reason for sudden marriage… !"

"I thought you already knew me as you are so close to Aunt Selina, isn't it!"

Repeating words confused me more. He told me in a very clear format, "Look I didn't care, I need to marry as it's the only way back to this country and I already had a girlfriend who was in my heart. You are free from my side. You need to do chores at home. I won't allow you to continue your profession."

When he was already in love with someone why he forced me to and what's the reason for the kiss. Is that kiss a joke..? I didn't express anything. 

He gave me a contract to sign and he moved right away for work. 

Before reading his contract, I was already irritated as I already signed a contract with Aunt Selina. 

She wants me to have a baby with him within a year. They both treated me as they wanted. 

I knew why Aunt plump me for that. Aunt Selina wanted to deactivate my grandma's smile. 

I wanted that file to be invisible but I couldn't. He was inconceivable as he had given his heart in another country, I was blanked… !