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2024-10-29 19:42:56"Say hello to your fiance, medico."
Not once, nor twice, her heart skipped several beats. Fiance. The word was strange yet well-familiar to her. She was well aware of the meaning and the hidden truths this single word held. Edward indeed was her fiance, if things would have been perfect for her, she would have been a married woman. A small family would have been waiting for her when she returned from hospital.
But she couldn't. This man had installed fear with thousands insecurities inside her before she even realise the meaning of it. He hadn't only screwed her up mentally but her twisted emotions were on high alert also.
Edward grinned at her. The one that was supposed to make her feel butterflies but it was years ago, now she felt nothing but loathe for him.
"What the fuck made you think I will marry a psychopath like you? Don't you dare hold the reigns of my life again, Edward." She glared at him. Her fear slolwy turned into anger that she h
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