Six

SANTIAGO

The sky was dark, It breezed through the room slowly as my phone flashed and buzzed where it was.

Tired, I looked up at who the caller was, it turned out that it was my Assistant —Evelyn, calling to check on me.

"You should have a rest, you know, you've been working for so long." She said from the other end.

I rolled my eyes. "You know how important this … "

"Still you should have a life outside the laboratory. " She interrupted.

I sighed deeply.

"Thanks for caring anyways, but I really have to do this."

"Fine then I was just checking up on you. " Evelyn said just as I dropped the call

Her call made me realize how far the day had gone, I soon decided that I had enough for the day and decided it was time to go home.

Walking out of the laboratory, I couldn't help but imagine how the past weeks had been.

At the moment I was at this point in my life where I had to start giving meaning to every little thing that happened to me, starting from each breath that escaped through my nostril as though it was life itself fleeing.

As much as I was telling myself that the little things of life do matter, I couldn't ignore the feeling it left behind.

It was as though I was lost and alone, forging my own path.

I let my thoughts out—staring in the mirror I could see the black circle around my eyes, boldly expressing the fact that I hadn't slept for two nights straight.

Those nights and been spent right here in the facility working my ass off.

Tossing my gloves off into the bin, I splashed some water on my face and took a deep sigh.

Something in my chest rattled with satisfaction as I listened to the sound coming from my chest without hesitation.

I let out a dry breath. As I turned away and made my way outside the building.

The hallway was mostly quiet with almost everyone out, I took a good look at my watch muttering to myself when the door in front of me sounded.

As though my thoughts had conjured him, the security guard walked out into the hallway, his gaze came up from the floor and he noticed me.

At that moment, I thought he was going to turn and leave without a word.

"Thought everyone was closed for the day." He said with a surprise look on his face. "I was not expecting to see you around, doctor." His key jingles as he speaks.

"Had a lot to do today, been busy and didn't keep track of time. " I answered.

"Guess you are getting ready to leave. " He asked.

I merely nodded my head, he walked past me and checked a few of the rooms while I waited.

Making up his mind, he shut the door and headed out as I walked behind him, he shut the door to the facility as we both walked down to the park.

Soon, I was hitting the busy road, already the heavy dark cloud was letting down rain as the streetlights blurred beyond the drops of rain running down my car glass.

My brows arched with one hand on the wheel. By now the rain was falling like it never had before.

I arrived home not too long after, tired and weary I pushed my door open, my eyes adjusted to the dim room as goosebumps ran up my arms.

Deep in my mind was the memory of.what Evelyn had said earlier .

At the moment she spoke it had not really occurred to me the true meaning of her statement till this moment.

In a way, I could say that she was right—I had to find a life outside all of this.

The truth was the universe had not really smiled brightly at me when it came down to love, it had been the other way round.

All through my life, I had fallen in love once In my life and it didn't turn out quite as expected.

Like I have done with every other thing in my life I had given it my all, at the end of the day it had left me with regrets.

Deep down I wished something would wash that part of life away, I had tucked it away in the deepest part of my soul yet from time to time, especially with situations like this, it kept popping up.

I walked down to the bar and poured myself a shot, I took two in quick succession taking a pause before the third allowing the taste to sink in and burn against my heart.

A fan swirled from above as the room felt cooler, as anxiety dripped down my spine.

I cracked my neck as tension coiled

beneath my skin, and I gave in to the urge to smoke.

I grabbed a pack of smokes from a drawer

and lit one, puffing out the smoke as I inhaled until my lungs burned with nicotine spreading through my bloodstream.

In all honesty, I wished all the feelings would go away leaving behind a kind of peace or whatever I could get.

I made my way to the other room with another cup of whiskey right in my hands, turning a corner in the hall near my study to my room.

Unease drifted through my body like a kindled flame as I got in, soon I was stripping out of my still wet clothes.

I walked into the bathroom and turned on the faucet letting the warm water drift down my skin.

I watched as the water trickled down the drain and it was almost as though it took a part of my soul with it.

Yet a part of my soul felt dark and left me wondering if I would stay this way forever.

In all honesty, it was easy to come to terms with myself that I was lonely.

No matter how hard I tried to make myself feel, the feeling was right there unwilling to depart like the dark cloud that was hovering round my soul.

I stepped out of the shower and put on a robe as I made my way out.

Soon, my phone was ringing again.

"Hello?" I answered immediately.

"Hello Doc, something important came up. " The person at the other end muttered.