CHAPTER 57
GLENNMoments —They talk about moments being the best memories you never forget but for me it was more than that .All I wanted was for this one chance I had with him to last forever, we stood there still looking at each other, his gaze settling on me and setting me on flames."What do you really want?" I asked.Guess he might never get to know how bad I wanted him to speak and voice out whatever was it that was buried deep in his mind.All that followed was silence, silence that was so engrossing.I sighed. "You won't believe it if i tell you.""Well, the world just seems different after I wake up."A thick atmosphere hung in the air that I wouldn’t have expected in such a confined space.For starters, there were still those goosebumps every now and then and I didn't know how in the hell to control it or stop my mind from spinning.Or rather, the truth was I hadn’t exactly figured out what I would say, the world was at the back of my mind all jam-packed into a big hold of a mess that I was trying to find my way out of.I could literally hear his heartbeat from where I was standing, the way he was looking at me didn't look like he had forgotten him, or like I was some kind of faded picture in his mind, I still felt the connection."Why did you even call back here?" I asked.." Well I told you, I can't really say but you are in my head. "" Haven't you thought it is because you might know me? "As I said those words, It left a heavy weight that felt too much like lifting a heavy weight that had settled in my chest.My body thrummed hoping that he'd get the details, that he'd see—my heart beating with a speed that made me feelalive in his presence as I stared through the core of his eyes."I don't know, I am just so confused."I stared at him not knowing the exact way to comfort him, should I hold him? Whisper in his ear that he would be fine.I shut my eyes not knowing how best to deal with all of this."I saw you talking to my wife the other day and felt it would be best to just hear what you have to say. "It pained my heart deeply that he called her that. I felt deeply hurt by his words. I tried as much as I could to search my mind to see if there was a way I could study his face and find out all that was buried within.Too bad there wasn't, all I saw was the mad painting of a confused man by an insane artist painting with the refined sweep of a brush.I wasn’t artistic but I knew all this was false, I knew he was broken and was trying to make his way home.Would have lent a hand but how could I? When I don't even know what to start with.Won't I turn the fool at the end?Perplexed, we stared at each other, both of us not knowing what to say.The gross majority of what filled my mind was when he was going to recover from all of this, the fact his mind was so messed up, the fact that he didn't know who I was, just complicated things.I looked around at the ward that was a perfect square of blue,my clutch was still right there on the bed as I stared blankly at his face like it was a wall of concrete, like one piece of artwork."I—"I was about to speak but was disturbed by a loud cry that came from outside the ward.From what it seemed a woman was outside firing questions at the nurse and looked to be furious, still wondering who that could be. The door opened and Martha walked in.She opened the door an inch as something pounded in my chest."What are you doing here?" She asked, sounding so pissed.I walked toward him. " I have to go now. "He looked at everyone surprised and confused." Good, that is the right thing to do, walk away and never come back. "I totally ignored her as I walked out of the room.Right there in my mind was the fact that hadn’t lived a picturesque life, he added colors to it, he had always done that since I met him but then having him missing in my life struck me differently.My heart stilled for a split second before I narrowed my eyes. I stood by the park waiting for my cab, from the corner of my eyes I could see the figure of Martha making her way down the escalator.I have had reasons for putting up with her in the past, but I didn’t have to deal with this from a different point as I was at that moment.I took a step to leave, but she called my name. "Glenn." making hasty steps to reach where I was.I rolled my eyes. " What do you want?"“Stay, I need to speak to you..” It wasn’t a suggestion but neither was it demanding.Why did she want me to stay when it was obvious we had nothing in common?In a way her tone sounded rude andconfusing."We need to speak."I let out a shallow breath and Stepped back from where I was standing. I looked stupid waiting, but I was going to stay. I was going to listen to what she had to say.Not because I wasn't irritated by her merepresence or that it made something hot unravel inside me. It was the fact that I wanted to listen to what she had to say."We need to speak about Santi and what is good for him.""What do you want? "" How much would it take to stop seeing him? "CHAPTER 58GLENN"What? I don't get you." I grimaced.I was trying to process my mind through whatever she was saying at the moment, still feeling stunned in a way that she had offered me money in exchange for me to leave him."Please, I know you want this deal so bad." She closed the rest of the space between us."I made my findings and I know you are in need of money.""But not your money."She shrugged. " Well. "Looking at her, I could say that she was the most impossible person. Here I was thinking of a way to ignore her but then she was coming up with this."Well, I know this is a very hard decision to make so I'd give you this." She hands me her card. " Call me when you make up your mind. "It was a long bus trip home, I sat with my head glued to the glass in deep thoughts about the entire situation.One part of my mind saw all of this as a lost course, perhaps taking the deal felt more kind of awkward.I sighed, at that moment I wasn't even thinking straight, my mind was cloude
CHAPTER 59SANTIAGOBeing traumatized came with it own demon and literally I could feel mine breathing down on my neck —Each night had been eventful on its own part after the accident, each left me stricken with fear with every bit of fear to face reality.It was as though I was staring straight into the eye of my own fear, the deeper I looked the more I was starting to know what all the craziness was about.I gasped suddenly, a thunder clasped across the sky as I woke up panting. It was only ten hours back home at the motel and already I was being tormented by these frequent nightmares over and over.The dream all starts the same way, I find myself walking in a path when suddenly I am dragged away and forced into some kind of path where I was being trailed by the shadow of a wolf.From a far away distance, the wolf sounded as my mind tried to get a hold on reality …Right there on my way every bit of everything else looked to melt away , fragments by fragments till it formed just o
ÇHAPTER 60SANTIAGOSaying that name went like a kind of relief, it was almost as if my mind had been waiting to scream it out , yet no matter how sweet it sounded it left me wondering why the name of that strange woman that saved my life was right there at the tip of my lips."Why did you say that name?" Her voice was calm and collected as age tried to know, it left a dangerous feeling behind." Why, I don't know… I just felt like .""Do you remember anything?" The name did strike a bell but remembering felt like something far- off.The conversation was going in a totally different way from what I expected, here I was trying to apologize for acting all rude and she was totally freaking out .This conversation should have been easy, perhaps relaxed, though I couldn’t help but notice her movements were slightly tense just before she asked the question."Santiago why did you say that name?" This time she sounded rather infuriating and I was on the verge of losing it again.It was as tho
CHAPTER 61GLENNLove is selfish —When it chooses you, it does regardless of class, gender and in my case specie. It gives you no chance but consumes you completely, till you are a part of its body, spirit and soul.I was a victim to this same fate, this love or whatever it was called. The thought of Santiago consumed every part of me till I felt no part belonged to me any longer . No matter how hard I tried it was almost impossible to shut him out of my thoughts.He took it over completely, so much that my soul travailed In search of him while I slept.At first, the lucid dreams appeared to me as unreal and unrealistic, but the fact they left the same feeling of thrill was what seeked to consume my own soul.I woke up in bed every morning with the memories of being at the window again, this time he was there as usual, right there standing at the edge of the window looking at the soul of my wolf.It occurred to me that something must be special about this man, I was left wanting to kn
CHAPTER 62GLENNWe were right there in her car and I couldn't believe she actually waited twenty minutes. I rang Ann before I made my way to her telling her about the whole situation just as I was leaving the apartment.The last thing I wanted was to share a bus with someone I so much hated, but at that moment it seemed like she left me with no choice.I had my heart right there in my mouth all this while, all this moment felt restless —right from the moment she got into the car till the car was Ignited.Martha remained silent as we drove, the sunlight flickering and fading into the car as we drove past the civilization.There was still that unreadable expression in her face each time I tried to look and guess what it was all about, she withardly said a word to me.During his silence, I let my mind race through all that she possibly wanted to say. I knew the bottom line would be the money, but I still wanted to know what she would say.Each turn she made, each sound if her fabric
ÇHAPTER 63SANTIAGOThe wind blew through the room as sweat dripped down my back under the scorching heat. I had woken up to an empty room and to make things worse she went with my phone.The feeling it left in me was irritating, as I was totally pissed—I was a free man yet I wasn't being treated as though I was. If there was anything humiliating it was definitely the fact she had me on lockdown and disappeared into the thin air without telling me where she was going to—The damn woman.I roamed around the room aimlessly, at one point I tried to wonder why she had acted so absurd.She actually had been acting weird since the previous night, but never would I have been able to guess that she would lock me indoors.With the heavy thoughts creeping through my mind, I could feel every pore in me break out in sweat.I walked into the bathroom and splashed water on my face as I could feel the tension coiled beneath my skin, the sudden urge to smoke filled my mind but even that seemed impo
ÇHAPTER 64SANTIAGOI would do anything to get away from her craziness. I tried putting the string in my mind together as I wondered how I got to be in the shoes I was in.There was that feeling of confusion In my mind that was coming from the fact that I Still couldn't remember much about myself, at least not the main things.Recently, my dreams we're still filled with mental pictures. I kept seeing the face of the woman that I had invited to the hospital a few days ago, the one that was acclaimed to save my life. For reasons I couldn't explain, her picture kept filling my mind.And so when Martha had brought the topic of her up , the best way for me to escape was to walk away.Now I was in the streets, with no destination in mind . I found that more peaceful than having to spend my day with her.Deep down I still felt annoyed about how she had acted, I was still overwhelmed with that feeling of frustration that looked to take over every part of me.Lights, I saw them everywhere… in
CHAPTER 65GLENN.I went still as soon as I was alone in my mind, I could feel the energy swirling in the air around me as I sighed .I couldn't make out a lot from the short meeting I had with her but if there was anything I could take out of it, it was the fact that she did strike fear into my heart.I decided that I needed to clear my head. I needed to put everything in theright perspective. It was a time to tell myself I truly wanted and set the pace for it.For a minute, I stood still,and couldn't even breathe or think clearly. I needed to speak to someone so badly, but unfortunately this person I needed to talk to the most wasn't here.The sad part about it is I never asked for it or even knew what it was. I didn’t even want it but it felt like it was imposed by a certain norm. The undying love I felt for Santiago was here, I have no choice but to accept it.I opened the bathroom room where I had been for the past minute sobbing—As if she could read the energy around when I ha