CHAPTER 81
GLENNA deep sigh escaped my lungs and for some reason I appreciated the fact that he was human and standing about fifteen feets away he wouldn't most probably hear it…At another instance I thought he did, he turned to look at me for a while with his gaze settling on me before getting into his car.Was this a sign that he was in on what I had done?My heart wouldn't stop as it echoed from deep within me, soon after I got back into the room I leaned against the door, feeling the toll of the day all at once.It was a silly thing to do right?The event of the day before flashes through my mind, I took advantage of the moment he stepped out to refill his gas to slip the envelope into my bag.I jumped when her hand came down on my shoulder as she jittered me back to reality, I could hear the beeping sound of the oven and the fresh scent of cake thatfilled the kitchen.My heart pounded, and I turned to see the expression she had on her face.“You seemed all stressed up” she said with a sardonic tone that left a thrill deep inside of me.With my blood flowing, In a strange way I could feel as heat pooled deep inside my chest.The fact that I had to keep the truth away from Ann as well to me, as I tilted my head until I was looking at her deep, soft, yet laced with curious eyes."I thought you left." I said with a sigh searching my mind for excuses I would use to bury the truth."You lied to him." She muttered.Her words shattered the temporary façaded cocoon I had around me leaving a dark aura hanging in the air.I turned my gaze in her direction and gave her a questioning look. "What do you mean?""It is easy to tell that much I can promise you, Glenn,”she muttered. "You are lying and you know that, but why would you do that… That file looked like it was important to him. "" I don't know what you are talking about. ""He trusts you, I can see it in his eyes but why would you break such … ." She ran a hand through her hair in frustration as he was short of words."Why would I do what?" I asked hoping that the look in my eyes was dead whatever thought she had."Goddammit Glenn we both know you took that file but why, is it to get back at Martha?"In a way her words found their way into my chest, seeping into the cracks andfilling it with a type of bitterness that looked as though it might consume me.Mere thinking about the words alone turned my resolve to ash. Burning it up right from deep within me.If Ann could read between the lines and see my lies, how much Santi, was I that transparent?I didn’t know why it mattered—it wasn’t like It was her business what I did anyways but for some reason her words left a feeling of guilt.This conversation between us that should have been easy and relaxed left a tensed aura behind, it was though I couldn’t help but notice each of her movements that seemed like they were slightly tense."Can we just forget about this issue?" I grimaced.I chewed my lip, while padding back into the kitchen. I grabbed two plates from the cupboard and after filling two cups with water from the faucet, I cut a slice of cake for us both.She studied each and my every move, as it turned out if I did anything, any abnormal thing around this woman it would give me totally away—So I acted cool, I was filled with anxiety.In reality, my spine tingled with a violent awareness of how delicate the matter was becoming.I was aware of the fact that she had her gaze on me watching each and every move, I kept quiet all through while trying to think of something to say, my attention caught on the cake that was still on the table untouched."You are not eating ?""I don't feel like… " she countered almost immediately.Something heavy sank in my chest.“Why are you this angry, is there more to this? " I questioned.“Can't you see what I am trying to avert, it is thoughtful of him to ask you in person. " She rolled her eyes and dropped her hand in frustration taking two steps."I just hate the fact that you lied, remember the last time he did that to you, tell me how did you feel? " She asked.I swallowed the lump in my throat.“I took it. " I confessed.********I walked back with the file that was still unopened and dropped it on the table, all this while she had a look of shock on her face almost as though she didn't expect that I would do that."Werewolves?" She looked at me shocked."Who believes in his right senses believes in werewolves? "We both shared a look and I shrugged even as my heart echoed loudly.She flips the file between her hands before dropping it on the table. "This is crap…A perfect one.”“Perfect, huh?” I drawled and gave her a questioning look.“Uh-huh.” she muttered. "This does not justify you stealing the file anyways.""I didn't steal it, I merely took it and returned it."The conversation suddenly went from being tense an hour ago to being a bit more calmed."Well it is a very expensive joke .” sherewarded me with the tiniest smile. "Santiago looked stressed."“Course it is, I just wanted to see his face when something of the sort happens." I lied again.Considering how many lies were being told, It wasn’t as if its price had any bearing on my decision. I was barely doing all I could to keep my identity hidden.I had my reservations about when and how I had wanted to tell him and uptill this moment or rather up till yesterday , I had not thought of the true implications.I realized what I was going to be throwing away, the love , the trust… knowing my true identity would shatter everything they believed in.I wasn’t ready to throw all that away… At least not now." But how are you going to return this. " She asked, looking concerned. " Trust me, you wouldn't want to give him this in person. "I couldn’t help but think about a way this wouldn't be a problem, I had to agree with her that he looked very worried when he asked me.Was he not? Why had he even thought of me in the first place while searching.Almost immediately I could sense the deep concern in his eyes when he had asked, he most certainly would feel disgusted if I showed this to him in person.“You are right." I muttered. " I need a way out."" Yeah And I think we both know youI don't want him knowing you took it as well. "I never did have much faith in accepting people's opinion fully but at this moment, I believed I needed all the help available.If I found a way to his car and dropped it, it would be the most foolish action I could ever make as it wouldn't take even a dumb person to understand the situation.I was ready to be out from the feeling of guilt I was having and bury this hatchet once and for all—If Santiago could treat the file with so much importance, if he had looked at me with suspicion while asking for the file, how much more when I opened up to him that I took it."You don't need to worry about it, we will find a way to return it."That sickling feeling crawled deeper into my subconscious with each second that tickled.I had no idea if I was making a mistake, but as much as I liked to believe that it could be fixed, I had to listen to Ann's plans.She’d been the one to unwind many issues of late and would have died a detective in another world."This is easy. All we need to know is Martha's free time. She had lied to him about things in the past. All we have to do is pin this on.Maybe her words should have been depressing to the old Glenn but certainly not this new version of myself, to me it just seemed convenient.I sighed, taking a deep breath while running the advice through my mind again."Are you doing this?" She questioned.In a part of my mind, I thought of all the implications if this goes wrong at the same time it was worth taking the risk."Yes, let's do this—" I muttered.“CHAPTER 82SANTIAGO.I was totally annoyed at the entire situation, looking deep in her eyes I could see the fact that she was lying but why then to my face.Still I couldn't understand why she would. .. The entire situation looked confusing to me even as I drove out of the car park in fury.My heart was pounding heavily from deep within, I slammed my hands against the steering wheel of the rented car In frustration.For a minute, my mind reflected on what had happened the night I picked her up for dinner. She was the first ever person to ride in the car with me since I rented it newly and if the envelope had gone missing that day it was most definitely her.While I knew without conviction that it was seized by her, I had to tell myself it might be wrong as well. There were chances that Martha would have taken it as well.As such I was in a foul mood while parking the car at the garage. I found Martha standing by an Suv as I was alighting, she looked to be having a deep conversation
CHAPTER 83SANTIAGOI dropped the cup on the wooden table, and poured another shot, then drank up. The music that was being played wasn’t helping my mood in any way as I continued to worry about what I had done at Glenn’s place.I sighed heavily, and drank the last shot, then stood up to leave. I only drank half a bottle, so I didn’t feel tipsy or wasted. I couldn’t endure the horrible feeling anymore, so I decided to head for Glenn’s house.I walked out of the pub, and the night breeze howled, and caressed my skin, making me feel a bit relieved, but it wasn’t enough. I got into my car, and started the engine, then drove off to Glenn’s place.It was best to apologize for dashing out of her house angrily. At least, if she was going to forgive me, I would feel much better than drinking to forget the horrible feeling and then remember it after I’m all cleared up.In no time, I got to her house, and parked my car outside. I got out of the car, and exhaled, hoping that things would work ou
CHAPTER 84GLENN"Thank you very much for your patronage shop with us next time." I gave the couple my brightest smile and watched as they left the counter.I was still there watching them walk hand in hand and imagining that it was Santiago and I when she walked up to me.She had a smirk on her face and I tried to imagine what it was for when she slide the phone toward where I was—"No excuses, make the fucking call!"It had been two days since she had been trying to get me to do that but I was still right there at the counter still deciding if I should do that all or not, as it turned out it was the stupidest thing anyone could ever do, thinking about it again reminded me of how crazy it was."I don't think this is a good idea." I hollered pointing to how serious it was getting involved in what I would term as a risk."Do you have anything else planned?" She asked and I shook my head ."Or would you rather face Santiago yourself and come out to tell him what you did?"I could te
CHAPTER 85GLENNSo it all came down to time, I listened to them speaking from the distance and tried eavesdropping but it wqs made more difficult by the noises around, I could hear everything from their rasped breath to the sound she made each time she moved.All I was waiting for was the signal, at some point it felt like that moment might never come and I was starting to give up when I saw the signal from Anna —She folded her napkin…In the next moment, I was waiting for her to make the move. Martha adjusted in her seat and stood up but while we had thought she would leave her behind she went with it.Immediately I saw the event unfolding, I groaned loudly with a frown coming up on my face, it seemed like the situation was about to get more serious when Martha caught Anna making faces.Martha looked back and our faces would have almost met if I didn't duck.Damn… Did she see me?My mind kept replaying through the scenes as I was left there still uncertain if she had or not.“Hello”
CHAPTER 86GLENNAs expected Martha was dead drunk…The next moment was frustrating as hell, I was forced to listen to her thrash talking about how she was going to deal with a certain —In her own words —opportunist.It took a while for us to get her cab, good enough we used her phone after unlocking and stumbled on the same driver that had brought her here.The cab was soon driving Martha down the West lane and with the envelope tucked somewhere in her bag that would be too hard to suspect.As I watched the cab driving down the road I was filled with that kind of regret again, perhaps I shouldn't have done this and pushed all the blame to her.Somewhere deep in my mind I was having a kind of remorse as we drove down the other way.Martha was no fool and I was most certain she would remember who she had been with, what If she decides to make more findings…All these thoughts filled my heart and it was made more difficult by the silence that engulfed the cab—It was enough silence that
CHAPTER 87GLENNAs it turned out, for the next couple of weeks, I was pretty much alone with her most of the time, still searching for that one chance to tell her about my hidden secret.It seemed more difficult as the day passed, each moment right from the time we spent at work till the moment when we did everything from going to the mall to having lunch together, each of these moments was filled with that desire to tell her.Something kept the words back in my mind however, it was hard to tell what but that desire to tell her was shrouded by a fear of the outcome.This Wednesday however proved a different point and provided the perfect opportunity for me to do that—Anna and I started going to the movies twice a week. Once, on the weekend and the other Wednesdays, Anna had thought it would be the perfect chance for me to distract myself away from the fact that he still hasn't called after the misunderstanding we had.While I felt pained and hurt In a way that he might have suspect
CHAPTER 88GLENNCall it a tug of war between my human and wild side, but we were battling within my senses, I could hear voices, through my heated vision I could see the two other ladies as I walked out the window.There was one more thing I was battling with deep within and that was my demon, humanity felt strained within me, all that I could hear from my soul were snarls, gnarls and several other forceful sounds.If my human soul was the beauty then I was the beast, the beast unchained as it seeked redemption that wasn't forthcoming.My wolf walked in the only path I should be used to now, the dark path that led to my abyss —The wood.At the back of my mind I thought about a way to explain the situation to Anna, how in the hell would I explain this madness to her.It was only a matter of time before I sense she would would walk into the bathroom, it was difficult to tell how I then my secrets would be save when right there on the ground were my ripped clothes.Darkness shone on th
CHAPTER 89SANTIAGOThey say when madness is never just the state of one psychological state, it is the state of the heart as well. At this moment I wasn't even disputing the fact that I was totally insane.I was insane about everything, I was insane at the speed or was going at and I couldn't even stop it — I was insane about life, love and my lust.Everything looked like it was stuck in one part of my brain and I had to deal with it.A lot of things changed from the last night I was Glenn and if I was to start reading them out it would be numbering to a hundred— literally.At first it was as though my thoughts were in two ways: First was perhaps the fact that I was starting to accept the fact that the child was mine and secondly because I was still mad at Glenn for no justified reasons.As the matter became more clearer, it turned out that it came down to my self esteem. After the test for the pregnancy had turned out positive in some way all i felt was this kind of guilt that cou