Sarah
The whole day was crazy after Nate showed up. Focusing on work was a new challenge I’d never had before.
He’s been gone for hours now, but I still flush when I think about how he smiled at me. How many times have I dreamed about him smiling at me like that? I can’t even count.
My mind is full of questions, though. Why is he here? How is it possible that he looks even better? Are we really going to meet today? What am I going to say to him?
Hi, you look sexier than ever. … Hey, long time no see… Hi, I’m Sarah, remember me?... Yeah, like any of that would lead to something good… It’s been like ten years since I last saw him, and I almost forgot how it feels to look into his deep blue eyes. With a flick of his smile, my well-built confidence disappeared just to transport my body back to that shy 14-year-old girl’s mind and heart. The memory of the last time I saw him floods my brain:
While packing my bags to leave my home to study in a boarding school, I look out the window to see Nate running into the woods, still in human form. I put down everything and run after him as quickly as I can. I know his usual route, which path he runs back, so I head in the opposite direction to catch him later. I sit down behind two bushes and wait for him to show up. A small clearing is in front of me with a fount, where he always stops for a drink.
I hear his wolf running before I see it. The ground shakes as he thunders closer. I strain my eyes, searching through the trees until I finally see him. His silver-white fur looks like it shines when the sun’s rays reach it through the canopy of the trees above.
I overheard some girls talking about him the other day. His wolf’s name is Dante. He looks like he jumps in joy as he does a slalom, running and weaving around the trees. I can’t stop myself from smiling at the sight and find myself whispering his name, ‘Dante.’ He suddenly stops and starts smelling around, curiosity shown in his eyes. He looks directly at me, and I slide down to the ground even more.
His big blue wolf eyes look sad when he doesn’t find what he is looking for. He smells the air again and runs away.
My colleague walks in, tearing me from my last memory of Nate.
There, in the woods, he was so different. And I liked to imagine that we were running and jumping together. I mean, we could if I had a wolf. But I didn’t.
And I still don’t. So that is it. I left Black River the next week without him knowing I existed and loved him.
It was a strange feeling seeing him again. I’ve never seen him so up close as today. And I, indeed, have never received that cocky smile from him. Was it even cocky now?
I remember how he smiled at girls with such confidence and mischief, but this was different. Today he was sweet and kind. Was this really an accident that we ran into each other? Do they want to take me back? Why would they want to take me back?
There is no logical reason for that after all of these years. I should stop daydreaming and focus on this email I’m writing. I look down, my fingers are spread over the keyboard, unmoving. They’ve been like this for minutes as my mind has wandered.
I must work. That is why I'm here.
He said they had a meeting, so maybe it was just an accident. They were dressed like they were here on business. Oh man, I’ve never seen him in a suit. This was a treat, for sure. The way that jacket hugged his shoulders.
AAArggg. Working... remember?
Can I trust him? I haven’t seen him since I left the pack when I was 14. Left? More like they kicked me out because I wasn't good enough to be a pack member.
Even though he is taller, bigger, and even more muscular than he was, his eyes are the same, although maybe wiser a bit. Oh gosh. It took me years to get over him and start looking at other guys. And now he is back in the forefront of my mind.
He was with Gabriel. I assume his brother is Alpha now. How old must he be? Around 30? This is crazy. And Lissa… I bet she had no idea who I was; they didn’t seem to recognize me.
I hope she isn’t coming today. Nate didn’t say it would only be him and me, but he didn’t say Gabriel and Lissa were coming too. I hope they aren’t.
Was I stupid for agreeing? But if they came to deal with pack business, why did he want to catch up so much? Maybe I should call my mum and ask. But I never ask about pack stuff. They’ll know something must have happened. Do I want to tell them that Nate is here and I’m meeting him after work? Probably not a good idea.
“Bye, Sarah, have a great evening,” I hear Amber. She looks at me like she knows something. I bet she heard about Nate. I received so many questions from everyone during lunch, especially after Catherine told them that he didn’t plan on staying in town at all.
“Bye, Amber,” I reply when Brittany shows up.
“Are you ready to leave?”
“Yes, I’ll grab my coat.” How has this day gone so fast? I feel like I couldn’t finish any work today. Not even this one email. I’ve tried to focus, but my conversation with Nate just kept repeating itself in my head. I even typed some of it in a letter accidentally.
Then possible scenarios for our date flashed through my mind. There were no free brain cells left in my head that I could use for work.
“I can’t wait to see that man you’re meeting. Everyone is drooling about him. I’d be surprised if there weren’t a gathering at the door.”
“What? Nooo, no, no, no.” A chill runs down my spine once again. “That just can’t happen. It is already too embarrassing.”
“I’ll keep the crowd inside; I promise if you introduce me later,” she says with a mischievous smile.
“No, none of that is going to happen. I’ll leave through another door, and we can forget about it.”
“There is no way I’ll let you do that. Was that your plan?” she asks, and I nod. It wasn’t my plan until now. But I’m in panic mode and need a way to escape this situation.
My hands tingle as I step from right to left, looking for an escape. He is not my boyfriend to parade him around or anything like that.
“Well, that is a shitty plan,” Brit adds.
I don’t say anything; I have no idea what to do or say. Shaking my hands out, I’m taking calming breaths. I want to see Nate and know what this is about, but I’m scared of what I’ll find out if I meet him.
“Look at me, Sarah.” Brittany is trying to catch my sight. “Do you want to see him?”
“I don’t know,” I say with a desperate shaky voice.
“Ohh oh.” She has just realized that this is serious, and I can’t meet him in front of our colleagues. “Who is he?”
“Someone I grew up with,” I reply quickly, hiding some of the truth. I feel like I’m about to cry. Why did I agree to meet outside of the building? I should have told him to meet me at a restaurant or something.
“Ok, calm down.” She says while hugging me. “I have an idea. You leave by the back door. You go to the pub opposite the street. Take a shot of tequila. Calm down a bit. Get your courage back and decide if you want to meet him or not. I’ll send everyone home and talk to him. You’ll text me if you want to meet him. Then I’ll take him to the burger bar a few streets down. Or you text me to tell him to fuck off.” She hugs me again. “You’re shaking, honey. What’s wrong? Are you scared of him?”
“No,” I reply. “I’ve never talked to him growing up. I’m surprised he knows who I am and actually recognizes me.”
“Ok, then, go get that drink. I’ll text you when I talked to him. And I’ll proceed as per your reply.”
“Yeah, that’s a good idea. I need a drink. Thanks, Babe.” I smile back at her and take a turn to the back door.
“Wait. What’s his name? I don’t want to get the wrong guy.” She laughs as she steps back.
“Nate Blackwood,” I shiver as I say it out loud. Can I actually do this? Talk to him like a normal human being? Have a coffee with him like two people who haven’t seen each other in a while?
My knees buckle with the realization that I will sit at a table with him. What will I say when I can’t seem to say his name without shaking?
Brittany clasps my shoulders. “You’ve got this. He can’t be that sexy,” she raises her eyebrow at me.
I only shriek as a reply, and she bites her lower lip to keep her laughter silent. “Oh my … I can’t wait to see him now,” are her last words before she leaves me alone with my crazy thoughts.
When I walk into the pub, Bobby instantly sees something wrong. By the time I sit down at the bar, he has a bottle of tequila in his hand and pouring it for me. “Hi Sarah, you look like you need one,” he says, and I just nod at him and drink it up.
He’s been working here for a while, and we often come here after work. “Hi,” I try to smile at him.
He is a cool guy. We have left the bar together a few times but never moved on to anything more serious. “Are you okay?” his forehead creases with concern.
“Yeah, yeah, I’m fine. Someone from my past showed up today, and I don’t know how to feel about it,” I bury my face in my palms.
“Uhh that bad? Is he an ex-boyfriend or something?”
“No, not at all. We just grew up in the same place,” my voice is muffled by my palms. I look at him again when I hear the tiny glass filling up. "Thanks."
He nods his head, and I drink up again. “Is that the place where you learned to drink like that?” He asks curiously.
“No.” I laugh. I can’t stop laughing. I went from shaking to crazy laughing. My emotions are everywhere. I really needed this drink. I hope it can calm my nerves.
My phone buzzes in my bag, so I get it.
BRIT: I found him; he says he’ll meet you anywhere, at any time.
Geez, he really wants to meet.
Bobby wants to pour another shot, but I stop him. “No, thanks, that is enough; I have to be able to walk properly,” I say with a smile.
ME: Is he alone?
I type with shaky hands. I don’t want to chat with Lissa if I can help it.
BRIT: Yes
BRIT: He looks like he genuinely just wants to see you and talk to you.
BRIT: Should I take him to the burger bar?
ME: No, bring him to the pub, pls
BRIT: OK
“Give me a beer and a pear cider, please. I’ll sit down outside to meet someone. And make a long island for Brit, please; I’m sure she’ll be here in a minute.” I say to Bobby and reach for my purse.
He hands me the bottles; I give him the money and get up to find a place in the garden. I drink an awful lot here because I know how much I have to pay without asking.
I'm itchy with anticipation when I turn towards the door. Brit steps in with Nate in tow. His eyes land on me, and I let out a shaky breath when his lopsided smile adorns his face.
Am I dreaming? My brain can’t seem to process the possibility of this situation being real.
Commanding the muscles in my legs to hold my shaky knees in place is something I haven’t done in a long time.
He walks closer, and I sneeze and sneeze again.
Really? Could my body betray me even more?
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Sarah The way he strides toward me shakes my whole world. The last shred of denial that it’s happening breaks when his smile creates a dimple on his left cheek, making butterflies flood my stomach. He is here. Here to meet me. To smile just at me. Even if the world exploded around us, I wouldn’t notice. My brain slows his movements like slow motion in a movie as he bypasses Britt to stand on the other side of the chair where I left my jacket and bag. My mouth has gone dry, and I can’t seem to form words, standing there stupidly with a bottle in each hand. “Hi, Sarah,” he says, and the gravity of his cheeky gaze slices straight through me, shutting up my thoughts. “Here’s a beer.” I croak out awkwardly, handing the bottle. “Thanks, I thought we were having coffee,” he says casually, with that cocky grin still present. It looks like he successfully woke up from the shock he seemed to have in the law firm when we talked. “Oh yeah, I hate coffee, but you can get one.” I mo
Sarah The afternoon sun emits its last rays, but we barely catch any between the area’s skyscrapers. Brit’s arm is still looped over my own as we walk, balancing our work- and gym bags in the sea of people rushing to catch the next subway or train. “So, tell me, how did it go?” Brit implores me ending our silent walk to the gym. “I don’t know. I’m still processing.” I sigh heavily as I wipe my face with a hand. She has no idea where I'm from, what secrets I have to keep, has to hide to protect others. “Ok, then tell me who he is," her voice jumps an octave at the end of that sentence as she inclines her head towards me. “Arrr. Why is he here?” I let out a growl in frustration. “Maybe if you’d talk to me, I could help figure that out.” She stops in front of me, blocking my way on the pavement. “Ok, ok. So, we grew up in the same town. I lived there till I was fourteen," I tell her the truth, keeping it as simple as possible. "He is five years older than me, and we never hang out
Nate I feel ecstatic about how our date went. It’s good that she remembers me positively because that is clearly not her feelings toward the pack in general. The way she stopped as our eyes locked was everything I had hoped for. Seeing her again was the best thing. She was way more relaxed, and we could talk freely. Her feelings were over the roof. I saw everything on her face, from happy smiles to unshed tears in her eyes. The few hours I spent waiting for Sarah to show up was torture. Topping that with the moment I thought, she stood me up. I have no idea what possibly goes through her mind. It was not the ideal way to meet her. If only I could stop myself and wait to maybe approach her, not at her workplace… But I couldn’t think; I just followed my instinct- more like Dante’s instinct. This was a complete intrusion into her life. I didn’t even knock on her office; I just walked in on her presentation. I couldn’t do worse than that. Making a simple conversation was hard when al
Sarah I’m in the forest. Running and running. This feels like the only thing I’ve been doing for a while. The surprisingly chilly weather already made my face sensitive and my feet numb. Running. The untouched nature in this forest would be dangerous for hiking, but I can safely travel on the ground full of leaves. Every color the fall weather can bring surrounds me as the seeds and leaves from the trees cover the ground. I love this season. Not as much as I love winter, but its beauty is undeniable. It is then that I smell wolves around me. I bend down to smell the ground, seeing my paws sinking into the leaves. How do I have paws? I look down at my body and my brown fur. Since when do I have fur? Then the realization hits me. I’m a wolf. I don’t even have a moment to think it through because the wolves I smelt have arrived. They surround me before I can blink. I look around, seeking an escape route. When I turn to run away, a silver-white wolf approaches me. His eyes lock wit
Sarah We sit in silence for a while, and I start eating again as a cover for my awkwardness away. He finally loosens up and continues with his food too. “Do you go to that gym often?” Nate asks, and I brace myself to look at him again. “Yes, I’m a coach there and take classes as well. I teach krav maga twice a week," I nod, and the memory of last night's encounter surges through my brain. Dante's angry growl, then his puppy eyes, before Nate's confusion. “That sounds interesting. How did you come to do that?” he puts his forearms on the table, keeping his gaze on me once again. Being his sole focus still makes me squirm in my seat. “I loved training back in Black River. After I left, I missed the exercise, so I tried a few different sports, and krav maga is something I really enjoy. I became a trainer two years ago.” His face lights up at my answer, and he dives in with questions about training and teaching. He obviously has much more experience in both but seems interested in
Nate “I think we should go. I have to take Abby home,” Sarah says while standing up. “Can’t you stay any longer? She is still having fun with her friend,” I reply. My heart stutters from her sudden coldness. “We have to get home before her mum leaves for her date," she averts my gaze, picking up her bag and searching in it. “I didn’t mean to make you sad.” My curiosity took things too far. She looked indifferent, not a tiny sign of hurt or anger, and I pushed forward with more questions. I know now that I shouldn’t have done it. She was clearly masking her emotions. “It’s okay. What happened has happened. We can’t change that. Plus, it is definitely not your fault. So, don’t worry. I’ll be fine. I’ve been fine for years,” she says, slightly lifting her chin at the end. I try to look into her eyes, but she avoids my gaze successfully as she motions for Abby to come closer. “Yes, but I feel like I just tore up old wounds.” “Well, if you put it that way…” she sighs, and her shoul
Sarah As we step into the apartment, I glance from Nate to Eleanor and back, waiting for their explanation. “We are related – second cousins, I think,” Nate answers first, and Eleanor nods. “What?” I ask as my face scrunches up in disbelief as the thoughts this means storm my brain, rapidly increasing my heartbeat. Beth always told me that Eleanor doesn't know anything about werewolves. But she knows Nate. Was she lying? “My mother and Nate’s mother are cousins,” Eleanor clarifies, glancing from Nate to me from a crouching position in front of Abby. Words get stuck in my throat as I’m gaping for air. I turn around and step back to the corridor, closing the door behind me. What the hell? It can’t be a coincidence that I won a scholarship to the same school Eleanor attended. That means all my suspicions about the previous Alpha and Luna kicking me out of the pack could be true. They knew Eleanor’s mum. They are cousins. The clicking sound of the door interrupts my whirling thoug
Nate The barbell rolls away from me as I let it go wincing from the burning in my muscles. I stretch my shoulders, one after the other, sighing heavily. I did an extra round because I was too agitated to stop. Early morning workouts are what I like the most, and because of the lack of nature here, the gym is the only place where I can burn up my muscles. In the last few years, I developed a feeling that meeting my mate would change my life in a significant way. It will be worth it if I have to wait for someone that long. This is what I’ve been telling myself. This is far from how I imagined meeting her and spending the first few days. Since Sarah’s eyes met mine, I’ve been trying to figure out what that change will mean for me, for her, or even for Black River. My mate should be the Beta Female and take a significant part in the pack leadership. I’ve come to the realization that she might not want that. What am I supposed to do, then? I’m not forcing her to do anything except mayb
Sarah My hands shake in the cold as I hide them in my hoodie’s sleeves. I’d say it’s my nerves because they are on the last thread for sure, but as I plan to undress and shift in a few minutes, I chose not to wear enough clothes. That was a wrong move on my part - the early morning of February day in Black River is freezing. Slipping on the frozen snow for the hundredth time, I curse at my clumsiness today. I’m heading to my childhood hiding spot to meet up with Nate. He convinced me to meet him there, as all I wanted to do was hide somewhere and go through my first shift alone. I don’t really know any other way to deal with things. I would’ve met him afterward, but I wanted to leave the bed before he woke up. Obviously, I failed with that attempt. The hurt I saw in his eyes when I told him about my plan washed over me, guided by our bond. I couldn’t leave him there. So, we settled on me shifting alone, but he’ll be on his way by then. So, here I am, attempting to shift at 25 when
Nate With Sarah’s embrace, the pounding in my ears disappears, and her words soothe me back to reality, where the only thing that matters is that she is beside me. More so in my lap, wrapping me in her intoxicating scent. She must have felt my sudden change in emotions because the featherlight kisses she was leaving on the top of my head, moved to my face and jaw. I couldn’t wait till she connected our lips. I took advantage of our proximity and swallowed her moan as I kissed her fiercely. My tongue searched hers, tasting the soft skin on it. Her hands glide down my chest slowly, teasingly, jumping over my belt to gently feel the length of my shaft, making it pulse. I groan with approval, searching her gaze as she separates us for a moment. A cheeky smile spreads through her face as she bites her bottom lip, and I dive back to capture them again. Yesterday she was adamant that I wasn’t healed perfectly for anything more than cuddling. I didn’t complain. Having her in my arms in m
Nate The pack meeting took an unexpected turn, leaving me seething with anger. Gabriel’s actions went beyond outing and humiliating Sarah when he commanded her in front of everyone. Each word he uttered fueled my fury. I had no idea I could be that mad at him. On top of my own emotions, I had to hold back Dante, who grew increasingly enraged as he sensed Sarah’s distress. He had always respected Gabriel’s wolf, but now, he was ready to attack him if he would anger our mate any further. "Was that really necessary?" I ask as I catch up to him. "Why did you use your alpha tone?” "Yes, it was necessary,” he cuts in, turning back to me swiftly before I could finish my thought. “She has to know I won't tolerate rogues on the territory." Won’t tolerate it? Where is his head at? Even if she was a rogue, that’s not enough reason to demand anything or humiliate her. I close the door behind me. I don’t want to have this conversation in front of everyone else. They already feel Gabriel’s ang
Sarah Being in Nate's house feels surreal. The place is simply perfect, with a cozy style in each room and warmth coming from the logs everywhere. Today, I was overwhelmed by the visits from many pack members. I was pleasantly surprised by how kind and friendly everyone was towards me. Many of them reminisced about our childhood and shared stories about our time together, whether it was practicing together or having something in common at school. Once inside, the world seems to come to a halt, and we swim in happiness. However, the moment we step out, I'm reminded of the other pack members, who are not happy with the recent developments. I see their scolding, hear their murmuring behind me, and I’m back to being the little girl who doesn’t belong here. Even with Lena inside me, I still feel out of place. Some even stop to ask Nate about his recovery, only to ignore me completely. Lena watches everything through my lenses and has her guard up, especially around Gabriel. She doesn’t
Nate Getting back home has proven to be more difficult than I anticipated. I'm concerned that climbing the stairs to my house may reopen my wounds. Leaning on Sarah for support makes me uneasy. This is not how I had envisioned showing her around my place. I’m unable to give her a tour, and even standing seems to be a daunting task. Although I manage to make it to the kitchen, I feel dizzy and realize I'm not as healed as I thought. I spy her facial expressions and movements carefully like a hawk. I want to know what aspects of the house she enjoys and what needs to be changed. Although I trust her honesty and doubt she would mislead me, I’ve been waiting for a long time to witness the genuine joy on her face when she really likes something here. "I love it; it’s perfect," she says, disappearing to look around in the bedroom. Just when Sarah comes back to the kitchen, the doorbell rings. With a bright smile, she gives me a peck on my lips and leaves toward the door, skipping on the w
Sarah This whole situation is absolutely unbelievable. They did everything we suspected. They deliberately wanted to separate us. I’m genuinely at a loss for words. How could any parent do this to their own child? What possible reason could they have? As I lean in to kiss Nate, he pulls me closer to his chest. The tingles rush through me with full force, and I’m speechless by how they spread through my body, waking up every inch and nerve. I find myself leaning against him in an awkward position, desperately yearning for his comforting presence. However, a surge of concern fills my mind, hesitant to get too close, worried that he may not be well enough for such intimacy. Despite putting up a brave front for me, I know his wounds must be causing him pain. Just in time, I pull away as my mum brings food for both of us. I hadn’t realized just how hungry I was. I missed breakfast and lunch, only having a few biscuits Mama packed for me. He whines throughout dinner that he wants steak
Nate The old chair creaks under me in my father’s office as I fidget nervously. We listen intently with my brother and Mark as my father, his Beta, and the pack’s head of security discuss border patrolling. This is the first summer our father asked me to join him and see what it's like to lead a pack. Gabriel has already spent his last three summers with him, training to be the next alpha. He is 14 years old, and I’m 11. As the second-born, I’ll never be the alpha of this pack, so sitting here is a privilege, as my father puts it. The head of security turns his head to the side. His eyes glaze over - the tell-tale sign of mind-linking. “Alpha, someone has entered our territory on the east of the forest,” he informs all of us a moment later. “Just one rogue?” my father asks with a suspicious face. “Yes, only one they could detect,” he answers, eyes glazing over again to get more information. “Who is in the area?” My father stands, and everyone follows. “We have three guards sur
Sarah I’ve never been to this part of the hospital—a long white corridor with many doors on each side. OR1, OR2, and so on. An opening door stops me as two people rush out, discussing a surgery. Then I cross to the area of recovery rooms, and it isn’t just busier; the walls are covered with paintings and photos, and the rooms are filled with chatting relatives. I follow Lena’s instincts to find Nate as our bond pulls me to him. Knowing that the bond is there gives me the greatest comfort and reassurance, strengthening my optimism that he will fully recover. Still, my palms are sweaty my heart is pounding as I quicken my steps again. I reach them just when they push the bed into a room. My heart is about to break out from my ribcage. When my eyes land on his pale face, I let out a huge sigh—probably one I’ve been holding for hours. I stand at the door, desperately waiting for them to set everything up and give me a sign that I can go in. Maybe running from the doctor was not the bes
Sarah It’s been a while since they took Nate for surgery, or at least it feels like it. I pace back and forth in the busy hospital's waiting area, receiving a few confused looks, but I'm too scared to look at anyone. The hospital staff hurries to help everyone, but the waiting area remains empty. The families are just about to leave the safe rooms, and I dread the moment when Nate's parents see me. I hear my name, and someone hugs me tight. The scent of lavender fills my nose, taking my mind back to a long-forgotten childhood, and I realize it is my mum, Amy. “Hi, Honey. I’m so happy to see you.” I feel myself easing a bit, and I finally hug her back. The care and love I received from her those years ago overwhelm me, and my brain is foggy again with all my emotions running through me. When she pulls away to look at me and I see her, I immediately start crying. I see her tearing up as well, and she hugs me again. “I heard from Daniel that you are here.” “Yeah, I finally met my b