AMBER POVBringing the pain of what I have found seeing Casey in her house is the only thing I got going back,I have been away for almost two days and I didnt get the chance to check on my cellphone.When we got back bringing Grandpa, Nan and I right away brought him to the hospital, I try to call on Esther but she seems not answering, I felt bad as well when I didnt get the chance to answer her call last night after leaving Casey's place.Since she is not answering the call I walk towards her office and right there and then I saw her with Caleb getting out of her office and he seems to be leaving and she kiss him on the lips that really shocked my whole system...Damn! So they are together now, I just left almost two days and they are already has a relationship...Even I want to talk to her, I stop myself and was about to walk away when..."Amber...? Oh Amber!!! Good thing you are already here!"She said which I didnt know she would see me after Caleb left,"Yeah.."I said just try
ESTHER POVAfter the party, Caleb and I still drink a little more and I know I am already tipsy,He still manage to send me home, I try to invite him to get inside and rest before driving home, but he needs to go home since he still has an early appointment for tomorrow.I drop myself to the bed having this kind of feeling, I know somehow I am happy but something within me is crying since I wasnt able to talk to Amber.Damn! I dont like to feel regret but I know I already has feelings with Caleb, and I need to be responsible for that...Feeling tired and exhaust my eyes closed even I didnt have the chance to take a shower and change my clothes.I woke up 4am by the loud ringing of my cellphone, when I check on it, it is Caleb, "Hey love, Good morning""Good morning""Still sleepy?""Yes....I guess I need a full whole day sleep love""Then file a leave and get here, I will let you have a whole day sleep""That is sweet love""With massage and lots of hugs"I kind of want to smile the
AMBER POVAs Doctor Mark ordered a confinement for Grandpa me and Nan finalized what he might need in staying here, I talk to the management and request for one more day leave to fix things with him so I can go back to work properly.We waited for how many hours until Grandpa has his room, right now we are already staying at his designated room.Grandpa keeps on answering my question in related to kitchen and cooking, I know somehow, he can be better again, I can still see hope in his eyes.After finishing and fixing everything, I feel like my body will fall down to the ground and fell a sleep, I am so tired, filled with exhaustion and emotion,It has been a tiring days for me, I cried a lot with Nan earlier but I understand now what she is trying to tell me,Going up to the rooftop, I just sit and relax myself, leaning my back comfortably, I close my eyes and take a snooze...A little minute passed and I can feel a soft palm caressing my face, even I am closing my eyes, her smell i
ESTHER POVCatching those kind of emotions of my patient sometimes drained me so much, My usual thing is to go to the rooftop, I like how the wind caresses my face, it calms me somehow, As I made my step getting in, my eyes were burried to the person calmly sitting there, I walk towards her and look closely at her face, it has been a while since I had the chance to stare at her soft and beautiful face and then her lips...I must admit that I am still feel entizing everytime I look at it, Suddenly my hand moves to caress her cheeks, her soft cheeks that calms me, I miss doing this...While doing it I smile when she holds my hand and lock it with her both hands.I like how she makes me feel special, She always knew if I am around, damn she is being sweet again, she didnt know how much I miss this.I shared a talk to her, those patients situation, she start giving me those kind of reaction again, I feel like she has this hate for me inside her so I triggered it and I am right, she st
AMBER POVThose words...I am stopped by her words, I know what we did is wrong but, it is precious for me...She is now putting back her clothes like nothing happen, I dont want to put a conclusion to this but why does I feel I was the only who treat this thing special?I so miss her, her touch, her skin, her lips...but the feeling I am expecting from her is not what I want, I didnt just make her feel better, I didnt, I make love, I did it for love..."Why? You became silent...dont worry, I am okay now, and this, people and friends do this right?"I am really felt shock to what I am hearing from her, how can she think of this!Even I want to shout and get mad at her I cant seem to do it, damn!"Friends do it? Fine! Then lets do it more often! Make me feel better if I need you then!"I said and now she is the one who get silenced after I speak."You know this is wrong...what do you want me to think about this?""I dont know Esth, but if you will ask me, I didnt just make you feel bet
ESTHER POVWhen Vannie appears at my door and wanting to talk to me, I know it is serious and important.Amber left us alone so we can talk."What is it?""Hmm, they replaced you with me, I am sorry""The Hokins case""Yes, Mr. Hokins found out the issue about you before, the Millars family is so influential, you know how much I cared for you Esth, this kind of life is ruining you, I dont mean bad you being a lesbian and having a relationship with same sex but this is breaking your career!""I already broke up with Amber eight months ago, and I have a boyfriend now! What else they want me to do?""Amber is still here, you are so close with her, why dont you focus on your boyfriend, bring him here, choose him, let the people see you arent the same anymore"I am silenced with all the words that Vannie is giving me, I feel like my head is going to explode anytime!I know she just cared for me but...I cant take those words anymore!"Please Vannie, Please just stop, I know what I supposed
AMBER POVHappines is what I am feeling right now, it feels perfect having Esther with me again,We both get up early and go to work, I know it is too early for her so when I got to the kitchen, I quickly made a beef porridge for breakfast to be serve and bring some for Esther,When I got there commotion is what you can hear at the lobby so I take a sneak, My eyes were widened seeing Ms. Amanda dragged away by those men which they seem to be police, Esther on the otherhand suddenly let go of the guards, so I take the chance of walking towards her.She has a lot going on since yesterday, this is too much for morning greetings, Thank goodness I make her smile by the porridge I brought her but when we are about to go to her office, we were stop hearing that voice...its Caleb,Esther face him, and I guess it is really the time they need to fix thing, Even I want to just pull away Esth from him I have no power to do that so I smiled at her when she look at me, I am gripping my hand tr
ESTHER POVI dont know what kind of act should I express in the middle of Amber and Caleb, but my eyes were shock seeing Amber walk away, The emotion in me is arising seeing her leavin...I didnt know that my feet is now creating a step to follow her but suddenly Caleb hold my hand that stop me...I look at him and reality hits me...damn...what the fuck am I doing now! The silent I am right now makes my mind shouts and cries for no reason...I dont know what should I feel now!"Here, I am sorry for acting shit last night.."I slowly just accept the flowers, I didnt seem to form any words for him, "Can you please wait here, I just need a washroom"I run towards the washroom near by, as I enter the cubicle, I try to calm myself, I am start shaking for no reason, I always felt this when I am being stuck in a situation that I dont like.I start breathing fast thinking of Amber walking away again from me...now my tears is formed in the corner of my eyes..."Oh Esther, calm yourself...thin
No secrets can be hidden forever, truth is meant to be discovered, and that reality is what I am prepared for, I said I am willing to take Amber's hate towards me for not telling everything...but I am...I am scared...looking around me, I feel like I am at the deep of the ocean...I can't breathe and Amber is reaching my hand but I can't move my arm to hold her hand...and then I woke up..."Esther...! Thank god you are awake now!!!"Mom said and I roamed my eyes around and I can see that I am in the ICU.My head hurts so much and I feel like I have slept for how many years!Mom is in tears now until Vannie and Felisa came to me."Esth!!! Oh god!!! Hmmm sob*sob*hmmm oh my, I just can't believe this! Hmmm, you made it hon!!!"Vannie said with tears in her eyes, I have never seen her like this, she is crying so hard and hon? Are they seriously together? But...I am just, wait...Amber...where is Amber?"W-Where is...where is Amber?"I ask and I can see how they stop after asking where she is
After a sort of chaos and rumbling in our life, do we still know how to restart? Does anyone have able to have another chance? Looking at George and Hellen having a good time now, Hellen seems to be a piece of wonderful music in George's ear, right now, I just couldn't believe either that Esther can handle that very dangerous procedure with just Chloe on her side.For that, I have planned something great for her, about our deal, well originally she should fulfill it but I can't just let her do the thing, I need to give her what she deserves as well so I want to surprise her by going on a vacation.She is so busy at the ER right now so I call her mom to bring some of Esther's clothes and bag.I have already talked to Vannie and Felisa as well to take over everything here while we are away.Later Doctor Rupert arrives and handed me Esther's bag and then leaves, I quickly go to the ER to look for Esther and there she is, having a cool moment with the nursing staff."Hey love""Hey""Mhmm
How much can you do for love? Can you kill? Hurt others? Can you be a bad person? Almost everyone knows all that can be done by any person who is crazy about love but there is something even more strange than all, you change your personality as well as your gender just for the one you love.I can't believe what Amber share with me about George Victor who is one of the best plastic surgeons in the US, but he came back to the country for Hellen who was his childhood friend and dearest, he almost ran out of money for Hellen's treatment and had an offer a one million dollar from a gay mad patient that challenged him to something he could do and that changed his gender and he did it for money and treatment for Hellen.Seriously, I also can't believe that he would do that so even though he is a woman now and only a few people know, they just decided to keep it a secret that Georgie was a man then, her parents and Hellen accepted it, it's just too strong and unbelievable he did it for love,
I am really not a fan of being happy literally! I mean it always comes to my mind that once you are happy then sadness comes next but after releasing myself from the hatred that I have been with for a decade, I guess having a peaceful mind can also be called happiness for real.And with that being said, damn! Chief Gilbert is now returning and that means, gosh! We need to face him! I am not sure how to explain things to him but this is Amber's idea so how can I say no!The good thing is that Mom is already fine and I let her go home though her best friend aunt Aida who is a psychiatrist as well finally reaches mom so she will help her with the store and stuff if I am not around, I mean isn't full well to do the heavy stuff.A few minutes and we are now here at the hospital, and I am so nervous about how he is going to react, I mean we had a deal after all!We both head to the chief's office even though I am feeling nervous so much!"Hey relax!""I am scared! What if he won't understan
They say that when you study well, your understanding will expand, and you will be able to understand things and situations more easily, but what if the situation itself is the one that drives you not to be understandable?When I finished crying so hard in Amber's car, I could hardly forgive myself when I saw the tragedy that befell mama's store, the neatest and most beautiful convenience store you'll ever find. here in our area.I just can't believe that's what happened because of those bad people, the Sandoval family, even though I wanted to strike them too I restrained myself, mom was the only one who faced all their allegations and all the shits they did to the store."Everything is my fault, if only I follow her instruction, dad would still be alive today""No one wants that to happen, things happen for a reason, but all that Sandoval's rage to your family isn't right! They should be punished, ask. your mom to file a case and I will support you""That is what I plan to do, I will
When things got broken, we fix it, when a torn paper we buy a new one, when it already cannot be used, we replace it, we can all do something for everything, all our mess can always do something about it, but in reality, in people's lives, not all broken can be repaired over a night, especially if it is a broken soul...a damage heart and mind.Looking at Millie talking to mom, I know she needs it, after all, she has been through, she needs comfort, and she needs a very good psychiatrist that can somehow fix her traumatic experience, though it comes to my mind, is there someone can fix a broken heart and mind? How about a broken soul?"--love! Are you okay?"Amber suddenly asks while I am in my thoughts."Yeah! Of course! Ahem, why?"You are zoning out, I am telling you something but you don't seem to listen""I am sorry, maybe I am just tired, it is just almost one hour left before the end of the shift""Yeah and that is exactly what I am trying to say, I need to go back to the office
They say anything sharp, heavy or fast things can kill you aside from having an illness or being sick. but what if you don't have all the description but rather the feelings you have...Trauma, depression and anxiety that when it will mix all means creating a poison that will easily kill you within.I am looking right now at these couples with sadness on their faces and tears in their eyes. I can feel the mother's pain while explaining what happen to Millie."W-What are we doing here Ma'am?"Mr. Dollan asks which cuts me from my thoughts."Right! Ahem okay, I just want to ask you if you really know or not about what is going on with Millie, because the way we see it, Millie is suffering more than an illness""What do you mean?""This might be very hard to hear and to accept but we think that your daughter is a victim of a bully in the school, this is an act of violence especially if it comes to a point that they will seriously injure her""Bully? Hmmm, I guess you are right, the way th
Determination and pain, they say once you aim for something you need to be determined in doing it but be aware of pain along the way, because not everything we want we'll get...and for that idea, I am now in the middle of deep thought so I seek my girlfriend's advice!"You mean her husband knows that every time they do it, she is in great pain yet he doesn't bother about it?"Amber said."Kind of like that, all this time Kelly believes that her husband doesn't know about it yet she is willing to bear all the pain for him""And once she knew, it may hurt her more""Yes, this isn't about being hurt or what, her life is like a ticking bomb right now, anytime it will explode and that is the end!""I get that part Love but, you can't just tell her he knows without proof that he knows! Medically and physically proof as much as possible!""Should we go investigate first?!""You are being sarcastic! I am just trying to be fair here and to save you from impending patient complaints!""I am not
"I miss this!""I am fucking miss this too!"Amber whisper while pressing me on the wall and kissing me hard on my neck down to the collar bone, she is sucking my skin that made me moan and ask for more!Slowly taking off my shirt and bra and both my mounts are now showing, Amber squeezes it hard and I love it!Sucking and licking my nipples is what I really miss, now she is totally making me naked and lifting me as I hugged my legs on her waist, she starts moving to go to her room and gently put me down on the bed."Faster love...I do miss it when you make me cum!"I said in a very seductive voice looking at her while stripping in front of me, she quickly make a move especially when I open wide my legs."Damn you, woman! You really love doing this to me huh?"She whispers while crawling herself going to me kissing my skin going up and then stopping between my legs.Before doing what she wants to do she gives a spare second to look at me first."It going to be wet"She whispered."I p