Valerie
Silence filled the hall. Nobody said a word as they looked at me. “What are you saying! Are you stupid?” My father suddenly snapped, making me turn back, “I've already thought over my decision father, mother.” I said before turning towards Tristan. “Alpha Tristan, I reject you as my mate. The Moon Goddess bears witness,” I said, Instantly, the bond snapped painfully, but I managed to remain still. The burning sensation lasted as I looked at him completely winded as he stumbled back. “What the-” he breathed out, looking utterly shocked. “I know it wasn't your intention to ever be with me. Not when your true love was by your side. I'd been a barrier to that, but not anymore.” I said. “The rumors were right. Our bond was a mistake from the Moon Goddess and I have to rectify that. Now you can be with the sister you wanted all along.” He looked dazed, like he couldn't understand my words, but I knew he would agree. ‘You never loved me anyways,’ I thought. I was a fool to keep on trying for so long. Now, it was time I moved on. Looking at him hurt, so I focused on Alyn. I met eyes narrowing as if she was trying to read my intentions. It only made me smile wider. ‘Not everyone is like you Alyn’ I thought silently. If anything, I'd just made things easier for her. “I wish you both happiness.” I said before turning away and leaving the hall. Tears escaped the moment I was out of sight, but I held them back. This was what I'd prepared for. What I needed. Staying in this pack any longer would kill me otherwise. Rushing to my bedroom my luggage was already in order and a discreet car was waiting for me outside. Looking around at the lavish place I felt nothing. There was no love to be found in this place. Gathering them, I turned away to leave when I stopped at the sight. “Luna” Mina greeted me, carrying a bag with her. I looked up in shock. “What are you doing?” I whispered in shock as she moved closer. Hadn't she heard? “I had a feeling when you asked that strange question. I was shocked, but I have an answer .” “I'll leave with you. You've always been good to me so I'm ready to stay by your side, Luna.” she said, My lips trembled. Without hesitation I hugged her tightly. “From now on call me Valerie. I'm no longer your Luna.” I said, sniffing. She nodded as we separated. “Living outside the pack may be difficult. Are you sure?” I asked, “Yes L…Valerie,” she smiled. Letting out my breath I held her hand. I was going to the unknown, but at least I won't be alone. … TWO MONTHS LATER “Thank you for visiting us.” Mina waved at the leaving customer. Once the store was empty she relaxed on the counter. “Finally it's time for a break,” she groaned before stretching. “Don't get your hopes up,” I chuckled, leaving the counter, “I'll get tea for us.” “Goddess yes,” she sighed like I'd offered her a lifeline. Rolling my eyes at her dramatics, I stepped out of the shop. In two months, everything had changed. We'd moved to a completely different city, miles away from the pack. It was situated in-between borders where no packs would notice us. I'd chosen this area and spent half my savings to buy an apartment and the small building below it. Together, we'd started up a flower shop business which grew within a small time. Despite my initial worries, I'd adjusted well to the human world and the anxiety faded away. Here I was finally free from the burdens I suffered. There were no risks, no scrutiny or pain. I was free. The lingering ache of the broken bond still twinged here and there when my mind flew, but I managed it. “Thanks,” I murmured, winking at the staff before leaving the neighboring cafe. As I neared our shop, my instincts spijef. Something was wrong. True to my thoughts, I stepped in to find Men surrounding the shop. WEREWOLVES. Mina looked at me fearfully. Thankfully she wasn't harmed. “Who are you?” I asked cautiously, eyeing the men surrounding my shop. “Luna Valerie,” one stepped forward, “we mean no harm, but Alpha Alistair would like to see you.” I froze. “Alpha Alistair sends his regards,” Alistair, Alpha of the Shadow Moon pack. The same pack that had a conflict with the Eclipse pack. The pack that tried assassinating Tristan in my past life. The same pack that killed me. Fear caught my throat, but I swallowed it back. This city was near his border, but it was far enough from notice. This wasn't supposed to happen. “Okay.” I finally said, Mina whimpered as they released her and moved towards me. I tried to pass her an assuring glance before as they led me out. As I entered their car, I shut my eyes, steeling myself for what would come next. After driving for nearly half an hour, we'd arrived in the infamous pack. Worry filled me. There was no reason for me to be afraid. I'd left before the conflict between the packs started and even then it wasn't caused by me but Alyn, who had disrespected the pack during a meeting between multiple packs. What could have been solved by a simple apology had escalated when Tristan had taken to her defense, fueling the tension. That was months away from happening and there wasn't a certainty that it would happen again so it didn't answer the question; How did he find me and why did he bring me here? None of the men had tried to hold one since I followed them, likely because of my easy acceptance. I simply followed their guide until they led me to the room. As I stepped inside, I faced the man I was meant to see. I had only seen Alistair once— in the meeting that fell apart. My thoughts of him were fleeting and anxious when the pack and by extension, I was on the end of his rage, but as a rogue lone wolf, I didn't know how to feel. I felt the same suffocation the day he'd declared to destroy the Eclipse pack. But I wasn't sure why. “You're far away from home Luna Valerie.” His voice boomed, sending shivers through me. His long dirty blonde hair glowed golden in the light, filtering against his cheekbones. ‘He was handsome’ I noted. Handsome and unpredictable. DANGEROUS. “I'm not Luna anymore. You should know that by now,” I retorted, trying to keep my heart stable. “So it's true then, you abandoned your pack?” he asked, tilting his head. “Why did you call me here?” I asked instead of answering his question. He leaned forward before speaking, “Since you've become a rogue wolf near my border I would like to make an offer. Join my pack and become my personal advisor.” I looked up, shocked. That was the last thing I expected him to say. “Why?” I asked, dumbfounded and he chuckled. “I've heard of your skills in your pack. You're praised as an effective Luna hence why I'm surprised they let you go so easily. More than that, you're…interesting.” he smirked. “So what do you say Luna- sorry, Miss Valerie?” he asked expectantly.Valerie I hesitated. If I refused, I didn't know what he'd do. But joining his pack… After minutes of thinking, it finally came to me. “No,” I finally spoke, making him frown before I rushed out “I won't join your pack, but I have an alternative deal.” He raised a single eyebrow, scrutinizing me but I persisted, speaking while hiding my nerves. Once I finished, he chuckled but I stayed firm. Even though I could tell it wasn't what he wanted, he finally nodded. “You make a fine bargain. Fine then,” he agreed, raising his hand to shake “Pleasure to work with you…Valerie.” he purred, I didn't reply, shaking his hands. The moment I touched him a sharp zing courses my senses. I couldn't barely process it as I let go, meeting his icy blue eyes. “Likewise,” I only managed to muster. As I left the hall my mind circled the sensation. Had I done the right thing? …. ONE MONTH LATER That day, I had set up an alternative deal, one that was enough of a compromise b
Valerie “Enough,” I spoke, using a tone that quieted them. I felt like I was a Luna again. Fighting the penetrating stare by my side looked away before continuing. “Lets resolve this issue.” As a mediator I was meant to listen before making my judgment. Both of them stated their case, the latter being one of the Beta's daughter getting injured by Alyn before a break was proposed. I was free to walk around as I thought over my judgment but stopped when I overheard murmurs from a corner. It was my former pack members talking. “This is so annoying. Alpha Tristan barely said a word.” one of them hissed which I frowned at. I noticed it and was equally confused. How did the man who supported Alys suddenly fall silent? “Is he still sick? The pack doctor didn't say there was something wrong with him though…” Someone whispered, making my ears perk up. “Alpha Tristan hasn't been the same since he suddenly fainted.” the other hummed, “It's been two weeks since that happened and suddenl
‘Impossible’ I wanted to say if my breath hadn't been caught. But it wouldn't feel true even if I wanted it to be.How else then, would he know that I died?I wanted to shove him away, but his hold was firm.“Valerie,” he called out his eyes in the same emotions.“Answer me. Why did you come here? Is Alistair holding you?” he asked, the same strange sad desperation written all over his face. This couldn't be happening.“No,” I breathed out instinctively. I wasn't answering his question, but the effect was still the same as he reared back. He looked hurt.But I couldn't care less about him. Not when I couldn't understand.Why? How did he know? Was this some sick joke from the Goddess?“You have to go. Leave me alone!” I finally bursted, pushing him away with all my strength. I stumbled in shock but quickly recovered. He still looked like he was in a daze.“Valerie.” he called out.“How do you know?” I snapped, frightened.“I don't…” he said, shaking his head, “I don't know how, but I
ValerieI twisted back as fast as I could to search for the voice. The moment I found the person all the tension left me. I knew I recognized that voice.He walked out of the shadows, his silvery blond hair glowing in the moonlight. As he approached us, I felt tense for a completely different reason.I felt him beside me, his gaze focused forward.“I asked a question, Alpha Tristan.” He said arrogantly, making me stiffen, “what are you doing here with my Advisor?”Tristan still looked pale, but I was surprised when his gait suddenly changed into something narrow.“I was talking to Valerie. My mate,” Tristan said, “Ex mate,” Alistair corrected, “you have no rights over her, so you shouldn't be cornering her in my garden. You do remember that this is my pack, right?”“Alistair,” I broke out, interrupting whatever they were going to say next. Both eyes turned to me but I focused on Alistair. I never said his name out loud in public, constantly deferring to his title, but over the past
ValerieI gaped in shock. I could barely feel it when my jaw fell.What?“Be my mate,”Alistair was still facing me, the same serious look on his face. He had to be joking. Only after a loud bout of silence did I recover. Laughter burst out of me , easing the silence. The sudden heavy weight had dissipated along with it. What was I thinking? For a brief moment panic had filled me for no reason before I could recognize that it was a joke.“That wasn't funny. Goddess, you gave me a scare for a moment,” I huffed, rubbing my palm on my chest. I still had to be careful. Although the stress in my past life hadn't done any good to my baby they still survived well until our death but even then I doubted this amount of shock was good either-“I'm not joking,” Alistair's voice cut me off, making my mind stop.The sound of a chair scraping against the floor and followed by footsteps before I looked up. He was walking towards me with that same serious look on his face.“Alpha Alistair,”“Alista
Valerie I looked out the window throughout the drive. Today had gone better than expected and way worse. I'd been finally able to help the conflict in the pack die. It should have been the end but I left more conflicted than I arrived. The entire day had been a rollercoaster and I was in the middle of it. What was I supposed to do knowing that Tristan somehow knew of our past life? Why did it even happen in the first place? Why did the Moon Goddess let it happen? And then there was Alistair who had just suddenly confessed and proposed to me at the same time. Throughout my time for the past month I'd never thought of him in that sense. Yes, I still felt uneasy about him but he had become an acquaintance and good partner. But as a mate? I bit my bottom lip. I couldn't even consider myself being married ever, much less to him. After leaving my pack my mind was set on living peacefully as a nobody. The initial plan had crashed with Alistair's discovery of me, but I adapted.
Tristan Three months ago “Alpha Tristan, I reject you as my mate. The Moon Goddess bears witness.” Her parting words echoed in my mind after the failed anniversary celebration. That same night, I sipped a glass of whiskey alone in my office, completely irritated. I could point out the day she started acting strange was after she stormed out of the dining room which she had never done before. I felt like something was different, not just in her actions but her. I pushed it away however. As far as I was concerned, thinking about Valerie was a waste of my time and she hadn't acted abnormally since then. Until today. The day of our anniversary. Despite the look in her eyes and the change I could sense, I still couldn't believe it. But on returning to the pack house it finally sunk in that she was telling the truth. All her belongings were gone along with that of her maids. I took another swig of whiskey. Her abrupt exit made the mood of the party unable to recover. I was l
TristanWhen I woke up, nothing felt the same.Flashes of sights and visions rang clearly in my mind. I could visualize it even hours later, feel every emotion. Snippets of days on end passing by and it was so similar to my actual memories yet so DIFFERENT.I saw the same events of our anniversary play out differently. After spilling the wine she refused to apologize. How I bitterly pulled Alyn away angrily blaming Valerie. Then more months passed, my constant indifference towards her. Her remaining in the pack and life going on as usual.Then the meeting. Packs being invited. Alyn slighting the Shadow Moon Pack.I saw myself defend Alyn despite all odds. Alistair's threat against the pack before he left. Valerie continously arguing with me and every single time I opposed her, everyone did in favour of Alyn. The stubbornness I felt in believing that Alyn hadn't done wrong and scolding Valerie further.And then…A loud gunshot, commotion. BLOOD. Valerie’s blood.She was wearing a whi
Valerie “I suppose this is what you've been up to.” Alistair said, his voice carrying visible hardness.It nearly made me bristle in irritation. He had no right to be angry with who I was with,nor did he have the right to snap at me. but my irritation quickly doused in shame. After all, as far as I was concerned, I was only here because of him as his plus one yet I had done the opposite of keeping him company.It was also me that told him that I had nothing to do with Tristan or this pack anymore, yet here I was.“I’m sorry,” I apologized before he could say anything. “This isn't the best way to explain things, but I'm sorry for not being the companion you needed. I can't explain it fully, but something important came up. It doesn't change that.” Once I was done talking, his anger seemed to wane a bit, yet his eyes hardened as he looked behind me.“Is that why you're with him?” he asked, lifting his jaw in the direction of Tristan, Alistair who seems angry that she is associating
ValerieWe went the next day. As the days leading up to the ceremony passed, the fanfare and intrigue of other pack representatives had waned alongside the growing comfort within the pack. It wasn't strange for any of us to skip one or two luncheons or lounge in the hotel for the rest of the day. Not to mention that as most of them stayed within the central part of the city, there was a low chance of seeing anyone near here.Which was why although well disguised, I was more lax with going out beside him. He drove us to the pack hospital.When we entered, the clinic was spare, unsurprisingly. Unlike humans we didn't need hospitals hospitals as much unless to tend to rare but terminal illnesses, wounds or…pregnancies.I swallowed thickly as I walked past several nurses, forcing down any reminder of my baby. The last time I was here in this life was to confirm my pregnancy.With a quick knock on his door, we slipped in.“Lu…former Luna Valerie,” he quickly adjusted, bowing, “I heard of
ValerieOn waking up, I didn't know how to feel in seeing new texts from Tristan.Immediately I returned to the hotel—thankfully still alone— I forced my tears and emotions back, pushing them away in the same way my parents didn't hesitate to push me away. It was the reminder of the treasure in my belly that helped me calm down along with the assurance that there was an end to seeing them. That I would be different and would treat my children with the love they hadn't given me in a long time.Now, waking up in the early morning, I saw this.It was a simple message, asking to meet in the same cafe. The sky was still dark and there was still a chance to go. The only question was: did I want to see him?I'd lost control and he'd seen me in my visceral vulnerable state. And after…“You were my mate, but I barely knew you. And after I did, I realized how much I wished I did.”I shut my eyes tightly at those words played again and again.His words haunted my turmoil far more than the apolog
TristanThe glass of whiskey in my hand looked amber in the dim light of my study.Every single time I was brought here because of her.“Nobody cared about me, not even you,” Her words burned more than the whiskey ever could. It burned hot and lashed out in anger aimed at her parents. For their harsh unforgiving ignorant anf insulting words. But most of all, for myself. A part of me longed for my past life's memories to the point of desperation but the other side of me feared what I would see. If I was going to be just as horrible if not worse. It didn't really matter considering how I was fully aware of how I treated her. Her death was reversed but it didn't change everything leading up to it. Our mate bond was severed and she was free. Yet , despite all of that, she was here, helping me. The pack constantly spoke in my favor, but they were all wrong. It was I who didn't deserve her. I didn't deserve her kindness, this second chance she was giving me. I didn't deserve her help,
Valerie“Goddess, I've been standing for too long. My hips hurt.” “Let's do this quickly then so we can go home.”I stiffened as the two voices moved through. It belonged to my mother and father respectively. Why were they here?There were some rustling sounds I couldn't piece together despite being near the door. Tristan's breathing was thin, but I still couldn't tell what was going on with his being so CLOSE.‘Get your head straight,’ I warned myself, forcing myself to focus on whatever was going on outside.The sound only lasted seconds before footsteps thumped.“Do you think she'll be happy with this? Perhaps we should have bought her something new.” my mother asked, sounding unsure about whatever it was.“Why not? It was formerly your necklace. It's only right that she received this as her wedding gift.” my father said, shocking me to the bone.I knew the exact necklace she was talking about, gifted by my father as a courting gift. Now she was passing on her heirloom to Alyn.M
ValerieThe next day, just as the pack city was waking up, I was already there. My gaze was fixed on the window, watching the dawn break.In the note I had given him were three details, my number and an address to this place alongside a time that was nearing with every second now. His text was enough to tell me that he would be here. I'd picked this place specifically for two reasons, with it being closer to the pack border and because it was the one place I knew opened incredibly early. There was nobody else in sight aside from the one attendant for now but he didn't spare a glance at me and rightfully so. I had taken measures to hide my identity with a hoodie covering my hair and a mask for my face to avoid any spare pack member lurking in this time of the day from noticing. The last thing I wanted was any attention, especially when meeting him. The longer the seconds the more anxious I felt. At the sound of the cafe door ringing open, I whipped my head and all my anxieties fa
Valerie It took several more minutes of thinking before I left the bathroom. “You were gone a while,” Alistair commented as I sat down, “is something wrong?” “Something about the food here perhaps,” I said, barely keeping the acidity in my voice to dismiss him. It took a millisecond after to regret my harshness. He was just worried for me.That pushed me to offer a gentle apologetic smile his way. As I kept on eating my gaze flew to the empty seat beside Alyn.The luncheon was nearing its end and I had no idea where to start looking for him. Even then, it would be impossible for me to approach him without gaining attention from the others.I had to find a way to contact him without letting anybody else notice.My eyes narrowed on Alyn for one last time before I averted my gaze to focus on the food.After we were done, all of us as guests were free to do as we liked and roam the pack. After leaving the hall, I retired straight to my guest room to think.Id come here set on not in
ValerieI was awake by dawn, far too early in the morning than i was used to. I knew there was no way I was getting any more sleep. I picked up my phone immediately after, calling Mina to check on her and the shop. She was no doubt opening as the early bird. For a moment, even speaking with her brought me back to a relaxed state, reminding me of where my home now was.‘Thats right,’ I sighed to myself as I listened to my only friend’s voice through the phone. Staying here was only temporary.Last night lingered in my mind but I didn't tell her. There was no use burdening her with things that didn't matter. We finished talking by the time the sun was up, leaving me to bask in the day. The tension lingered, the instinct to leave the room or anticipate an entrance was there.‘No longer Luna,’ I reminded myself. I was no longer in the pack house and heavy with responsibilities I was free to do as I wished. I could stay in for as long as I wanted.In a rebellion I’d rarely shown before,
ValerieMy mind went blank for the second time.I thought I'd already received enough shocks for today, first with his arrival and apology and now this?He didn't sleep with Alyn or he believed he didn't? If so, what was the whole point of the wedding? Alys' pregnancy being announced?There were no words I could think to say. The silence went on for seconds until he spoke again,“I …I think, I know so, even if there's no proof.” he rushed out, his expression fell, looking the opposite of ‘sure’.‘The latter then,’ I thought to myself. He had answered my own question without knowing it.“Whatever that happened between you two is none of my business as far as I'm concerned,” I said, trying to revive the distance between us. “But simply as an observer, I think it's be if you settle it within yourself. Id never wished this kind of union on you, but if you're making ideas to justify all this-”“Is that what you think of me as?” He bit out, taking me aback.His face was still open, but t