Valerie
Silence filled the hall. Nobody said a word as they looked at me. “What are you saying! Are you stupid?” My father suddenly snapped, making me turn back, “I've already thought over my decision father, mother.” I said before turning towards Tristan. “Alpha Tristan, I reject you as my mate. The Moon Goddess bears witness,” I said, Instantly, the bond snapped painfully, but I managed to remain still. The burning sensation lasted as I looked at him completely winded as he stumbled back. “What the-” he breathed out, looking utterly shocked. “I know it wasn't your intention to ever be with me. Not when your true love was by your side. I'd been a barrier to that, but not anymore.” I said. “The rumors were right. Our bond was a mistake from the Moon Goddess and I have to rectify that. Now you can be with the sister you wanted all along.” He looked dazed, like he couldn't understand my words, but I knew he would agree. ‘You never loved me anyways,’ I thought. I was a fool to keep on trying for so long. Now, it was time I moved on. Looking at him hurt, so I focused on Alyn. I met eyes narrowing as if she was trying to read my intentions. It only made me smile wider. ‘Not everyone is like you Alyn’ I thought silently. If anything, I'd just made things easier for her. “I wish you both happiness.” I said before turning away and leaving the hall. Tears escaped the moment I was out of sight, but I held them back. This was what I'd prepared for. What I needed. Staying in this pack any longer would kill me otherwise. Rushing to my bedroom my luggage was already in order and a discreet car was waiting for me outside. Looking around at the lavish place I felt nothing. There was no love to be found in this place. Gathering them, I turned away to leave when I stopped at the sight. “Luna” Mina greeted me, carrying a bag with her. I looked up in shock. “What are you doing?” I whispered in shock as she moved closer. Hadn't she heard? “I had a feeling when you asked that strange question. I was shocked, but I have an answer .” “I'll leave with you. You've always been good to me so I'm ready to stay by your side, Luna.” she said, My lips trembled. Without hesitation I hugged her tightly. “From now on call me Valerie. I'm no longer your Luna.” I said, sniffing. She nodded as we separated. “Living outside the pack may be difficult. Are you sure?” I asked, “Yes L…Valerie,” she smiled. Letting out my breath I held her hand. I was going to the unknown, but at least I won't be alone. … TWO MONTHS LATER “Thank you for visiting us.” Mina waved at the leaving customer. Once the store was empty she relaxed on the counter. “Finally it's time for a break,” she groaned before stretching. “Don't get your hopes up,” I chuckled, leaving the counter, “I'll get tea for us.” “Goddess yes,” she sighed like I'd offered her a lifeline. Rolling my eyes at her dramatics, I stepped out of the shop. In two months, everything had changed. We'd moved to a completely different city, miles away from the pack. It was situated in-between borders where no packs would notice us. I'd chosen this area and spent half my savings to buy an apartment and the small building below it. Together, we'd started up a flower shop business which grew within a small time. Despite my initial worries, I'd adjusted well to the human world and the anxiety faded away. Here I was finally free from the burdens I suffered. There were no risks, no scrutiny or pain. I was free. The lingering ache of the broken bond still twinged here and there when my mind flew, but I managed it. “Thanks,” I murmured, winking at the staff before leaving the neighboring cafe. As I neared our shop, my instincts spijef. Something was wrong. True to my thoughts, I stepped in to find Men surrounding the shop. WEREWOLVES. Mina looked at me fearfully. Thankfully she wasn't harmed. “Who are you?” I asked cautiously, eyeing the men surrounding my shop. “Luna Valerie,” one stepped forward, “we mean no harm, but Alpha Alistair would like to see you.” I froze. “Alpha Alistair sends his regards,” Alistair, Alpha of the Shadow Moon pack. The same pack that had a conflict with the Eclipse pack. The pack that tried assassinating Tristan in my past life. The same pack that killed me. Fear caught my throat, but I swallowed it back. This city was near his border, but it was far enough from notice. This wasn't supposed to happen. “Okay.” I finally said, Mina whimpered as they released her and moved towards me. I tried to pass her an assuring glance before as they led me out. As I entered their car, I shut my eyes, steeling myself for what would come next. After driving for nearly half an hour, we'd arrived in the infamous pack. Worry filled me. There was no reason for me to be afraid. I'd left before the conflict between the packs started and even then it wasn't caused by me but Alyn, who had disrespected the pack during a meeting between multiple packs. What could have been solved by a simple apology had escalated when Tristan had taken to her defense, fueling the tension. That was months away from happening and there wasn't a certainty that it would happen again so it didn't answer the question; How did he find me and why did he bring me here? None of the men had tried to hold one since I followed them, likely because of my easy acceptance. I simply followed their guide until they led me to the room. As I stepped inside, I faced the man I was meant to see. I had only seen Alistair once— in the meeting that fell apart. My thoughts of him were fleeting and anxious when the pack and by extension, I was on the end of his rage, but as a rogue lone wolf, I didn't know how to feel. I felt the same suffocation the day he'd declared to destroy the Eclipse pack. But I wasn't sure why. “You're far away from home Luna Valerie.” His voice boomed, sending shivers through me. His long dirty blonde hair glowed golden in the light, filtering against his cheekbones. ‘He was handsome’ I noted. Handsome and unpredictable. DANGEROUS. “I'm not Luna anymore. You should know that by now,” I retorted, trying to keep my heart stable. “So it's true then, you abandoned your pack?” he asked, tilting his head. “Why did you call me here?” I asked instead of answering his question. He leaned forward before speaking, “Since you've become a rogue wolf near my border I would like to make an offer. Join my pack and become my personal advisor.” I looked up, shocked. That was the last thing I expected him to say. “Why?” I asked, dumbfounded and he chuckled. “I've heard of your skills in your pack. You're praised as an effective Luna hence why I'm surprised they let you go so easily. More than that, you're…interesting.” he smirked. “So what do you say Luna- sorry, Miss Valerie?” he asked expectantly.Valerie I hesitated. If I refused, I didn't know what he'd do. But joining his pack… After minutes of thinking, it finally came to me. “No,” I finally spoke, making him frown before I rushed out “I won't join your pack, but I have an alternative deal.” He raised a single eyebrow, scrutinizing me but I persisted, speaking while hiding my nerves. Once I finished, he chuckled but I stayed firm. Even though I could tell it wasn't what he wanted, he finally nodded. “You make a fine bargain. Fine then,” he agreed, raising his hand to shake “Pleasure to work with you…Valerie.” he purred, I didn't reply, shaking his hands. The moment I touched him a sharp zing courses my senses. I couldn't barely process it as I let go, meeting his icy blue eyes. “Likewise,” I only managed to muster. As I left the hall my mind circled the sensation. Had I done the right thing? …. ONE MONTH LATER That day, I had set up an alternative deal, one that was enough of a compromise b
Valerie “Enough,” I spoke, using a tone that quieted them. I felt like I was a Luna again. Fighting the penetrating stare by my side looked away before continuing. “Lets resolve this issue.” As a mediator I was meant to listen before making my judgment. Both of them stated their case, the latter being one of the Beta's daughter getting injured by Alyn before a break was proposed. I was free to walk around as I thought over my judgment but stopped when I overheard murmurs from a corner. It was my former pack members talking. “This is so annoying. Alpha Tristan barely said a word.” one of them hissed which I frowned at. I noticed it and was equally confused. How did the man who supported Alys suddenly fall silent? “Is he still sick? The pack doctor didn't say there was something wrong with him though…” Someone whispered, making my ears perk up. “Alpha Tristan hasn't been the same since he suddenly fainted.” the other hummed, “It's been two weeks since that happened and suddenl
‘Impossible’ I wanted to say if my breath hadn't been caught. But it wouldn't feel true even if I wanted it to be.How else then, would he know that I died?I wanted to shove him away, but his hold was firm.“Valerie,” he called out his eyes in the same emotions.“Answer me. Why did you come here? Is Alistair holding you?” he asked, the same strange sad desperation written all over his face. This couldn't be happening.“No,” I breathed out instinctively. I wasn't answering his question, but the effect was still the same as he reared back. He looked hurt.But I couldn't care less about him. Not when I couldn't understand.Why? How did he know? Was this some sick joke from the Goddess?“You have to go. Leave me alone!” I finally bursted, pushing him away with all my strength. I stumbled in shock but quickly recovered. He still looked like he was in a daze.“Valerie.” he called out.“How do you know?” I snapped, frightened.“I don't…” he said, shaking his head, “I don't know how, but I
ValerieI twisted back as fast as I could to search for the voice. The moment I found the person all the tension left me. I knew I recognized that voice.He walked out of the shadows, his silvery blond hair glowing in the moonlight. As he approached us, I felt tense for a completely different reason.I felt him beside me, his gaze focused forward.“I asked a question, Alpha Tristan.” He said arrogantly, making me stiffen, “what are you doing here with my Advisor?”Tristan still looked pale, but I was surprised when his gait suddenly changed into something narrow.“I was talking to Valerie. My mate,” Tristan said, “Ex mate,” Alistair corrected, “you have no rights over her, so you shouldn't be cornering her in my garden. You do remember that this is my pack, right?”“Alistair,” I broke out, interrupting whatever they were going to say next. Both eyes turned to me but I focused on Alistair. I never said his name out loud in public, constantly deferring to his title, but over the past
ValerieI gaped in shock. I could barely feel it when my jaw fell.What?“Be my mate,”Alistair was still facing me, the same serious look on his face. He had to be joking. Only after a loud bout of silence did I recover. Laughter burst out of me , easing the silence. The sudden heavy weight had dissipated along with it. What was I thinking? For a brief moment panic had filled me for no reason before I could recognize that it was a joke.“That wasn't funny. Goddess, you gave me a scare for a moment,” I huffed, rubbing my palm on my chest. I still had to be careful. Although the stress in my past life hadn't done any good to my baby they still survived well until our death but even then I doubted this amount of shock was good either-“I'm not joking,” Alistair's voice cut me off, making my mind stop.The sound of a chair scraping against the floor and followed by footsteps before I looked up. He was walking towards me with that same serious look on his face.“Alpha Alistair,”“Alista
Valerie I looked out the window throughout the drive. Today had gone better than expected and way worse. I'd been finally able to help the conflict in the pack die. It should have been the end but I left more conflicted than I arrived. The entire day had been a rollercoaster and I was in the middle of it. What was I supposed to do knowing that Tristan somehow knew of our past life? Why did it even happen in the first place? Why did the Moon Goddess let it happen? And then there was Alistair who had just suddenly confessed and proposed to me at the same time. Throughout my time for the past month I'd never thought of him in that sense. Yes, I still felt uneasy about him but he had become an acquaintance and good partner. But as a mate? I bit my bottom lip. I couldn't even consider myself being married ever, much less to him. After leaving my pack my mind was set on living peacefully as a nobody. The initial plan had crashed with Alistair's discovery of me, but I adapted.
Tristan Three months ago “Alpha Tristan, I reject you as my mate. The Moon Goddess bears witness.” Her parting words echoed in my mind after the failed anniversary celebration. That same night, I sipped a glass of whiskey alone in my office, completely irritated. I could point out the day she started acting strange was after she stormed out of the dining room which she had never done before. I felt like something was different, not just in her actions but her. I pushed it away however. As far as I was concerned, thinking about Valerie was a waste of my time and she hadn't acted abnormally since then. Until today. The day of our anniversary. Despite the look in her eyes and the change I could sense, I still couldn't believe it. But on returning to the pack house it finally sunk in that she was telling the truth. All her belongings were gone along with that of her maids. I took another swig of whiskey. Her abrupt exit made the mood of the party unable to recover. I was l
TristanWhen I woke up, nothing felt the same.Flashes of sights and visions rang clearly in my mind. I could visualize it even hours later, feel every emotion. Snippets of days on end passing by and it was so similar to my actual memories yet so DIFFERENT.I saw the same events of our anniversary play out differently. After spilling the wine she refused to apologize. How I bitterly pulled Alyn away angrily blaming Valerie. Then more months passed, my constant indifference towards her. Her remaining in the pack and life going on as usual.Then the meeting. Packs being invited. Alyn slighting the Shadow Moon Pack.I saw myself defend Alyn despite all odds. Alistair's threat against the pack before he left. Valerie continously arguing with me and every single time I opposed her, everyone did in favour of Alyn. The stubbornness I felt in believing that Alyn hadn't done wrong and scolding Valerie further.And then…A loud gunshot, commotion. BLOOD. Valerie’s blood.She was wearing a whi
ValerieAs soon as I reached my room I slammed the door shut, trying to not break down. My breaths came out shaky. I didn't know how I was able to keep myself composed for the rest of the day, but as we reached the pack house I was already nearing the brink. Guilt. Pure guilt gnawed at my conscience.‘No more secrets or things from the past.’ The weight of my secret bore down on me like a physical force, making it hard to breathe.I had agreed so damn easily when I knew it wasn't true. I'd made a promise I'd already broken.Because our child was still here, tying us together but I hadn't said a damn thing in the last two weeks.Since the confession it constantly came to mind. Every single day felt like a dream. I spent time with him and helped with his duties. We were working towards healing, towards a future together. Everything felt like this was how it was supposed to be.I'd never been happier, and it was especially in those streaks of pure joy that the thought came to mind th
TristanI could feel her eyes penetrating me without looking at her. I knew what she was thinking even without her emotions seeping through the bond.Shock. Confusion. I kept my face completely neutral, grasping into her hands more firmly and offering a tight squeeze.‘Trust me,’ I tried to convey through the simple gesture, hoping it seeped in through the bond. She didn't say a word or return the gesture, but she didn't pull away either. Her silent assent was clear.A knot formed in my throat as I grazed my eyes over the headstone. For years on end, I'd constantly visited their graves throughout every anniversary, whether it was their birthdays, their death and on my birthdays. All four occasions were still months incoming. This was the first time within the year that I'd had visited them and it felt like a far cry from the last time. I wasn't the man I was a year ago or even months ago. I was different now.An amalgamation of the past mistakes and present decisions. I was blind ba
2 Weeks LaterTristanIt was said that dying or having a near death experience was life changing. It was no doubt the same for having twice the amount.Life had become good to say the least. Nothing could probably compare to the high I was in now. It seemed to make all the weeks of limbo worth it Valerie was with me. We were together.Now, I was waiting for her to arrive.It was a date.This one however was going to be important, because I had a surprise.“Tristan?” The sound of her voice brought me out of my thoughts. I looked up and my world stopped.Valerie was at the head of the stairs. Her silvery blonde hair was let down, letting it rest in its soft waves. The blue dress she wore flattered her frame perfectly, sending a twist of desire through me. She was…“Beautiful.” The words left my lips before I could think it through, but it was worth it to see the flush rise on her face.“Shut up,” she muttered, loud enough to hear, yet whatever snarky she was holding muddled underneath
ValerieThe pack hall had cleared itself in no time. My final glance at Alyn was a final hollow look she gave. As the guards dragged her out, she looked indifferent, completely unresponsive to everything around her. Like she was catatonic.Perhaps some things…some people weren't capable of change.I pushed the thought aside. After talking to the servants to help clear the hall. I turned away, ready to leave-“Valerie,”I froze at the voice behind me. The urge to run away pricked at my skin but this time I turned around. For the first time in days I met the gazes of my parents. It seemed like they had aged nearly ten years with the way they looked at me. Their faces held more wrinkles, their expressions weary and stricken. It felt like deja vu. Once in this same hall I'd escaped before they could see me. Now as they walked towards me this time I wasn't going to try to escape.They moved closer, stopping a few steps away from me. A weight formed my chest as I saw their expressions, a
Valerie The remaining two days flowed by like water. I hadn't realised how exhausted I was until I'd practically fallen dead asleep after returning from the hospital. Immediately I woke up that day I made all the provisions for his return in the meantime. Sophia and the other maids helped attend to me during that time and the rest of the servants deferred to me for orders. For the past few days I had been making any arrangements I could. I was no longer Luna yet it felt like it while I gave orders, organising things. I hadn't realised how much I missed it until now. I felt more at peace, the weight of the responsibility lighter, more welcoming. I constantly moved between the pack house and back to the hospital whenever I was done, staying with Tristan throughout. Whether it was talking, joking or staying in complete silence, I remained with him as long as possible. Throughout those two days, we never talked about Alyn, my parents or the trial that was looming. Perhaps th
Valerie 'What?’ A sharp prickle rose up my skin in shock. Of all the things he would say this was the most unexpected. “Tristan, You can't…” “It's fair and lawful.” He said, his voice neutral, “The consequences for the attempted murder of a Luna is death.” “I'm no longer Luna,” I countered, heart racing. He frowned for a moment, looking at me “Former Luna then. And no matter Alpha,” Something in me clenched. His words were correct, but still. He, who had protected her for most of her life. Even now that he'd cut all ties with her and didn't regard her anymore than as a pack member, Tristan wasn't cruel. But to easily decide this? ‘To kill her?’ “Tristan…” “Valerie,” he responded, turning to me. My breath hitched at the ashen look in his eyes. The shadows of memories I knew nothing of were reflected in them in a way that made my heart clench. “I know everything now.” He breathed out, “The maliciousness in her heart is too deep.There's no way I can let her stay in this pac
Valerie Sitting at the far corner of the room, I watched as Dr Gerard gave light orders to Tristan, checking on him. Despite the high from moments ago I'd still called on the pack doctor to check on him. I had to look at the floor to keep myself composed. I'd been staring too long, and there was only a limit when minutes of tracing the lines of his face, would seem too much. I couldn't help it though. It was proof. Proof that he was alive, with me. That the past few minutes were real. He LOVED me. The feeling settled inside me. After weeks of the strange limbo we were in, it felt like it had finally rested. I thought I could have time to think things over. Seeing him bloodied and pale, sacrificing his life for me, it all became clear. The thought had stated with me for the entirety of the wait. Sitting alone as his sole visitor and tracing his features over and over again, I'd prayed countless times with that one thing in mind. He couldn't die. I couldn't lose him witho
TristanI vaguely heard myself groan as blinding light pierced my eyes. A faint pain dulled my senses, yet as I adjusted to the brightness I could recognize where I was.The hospital.The blur of Alyn's threats, Valerie and the gunshot remained in my mind. And what happened after I lost consciousness…I shifted, attempting to sit up only to halt at a heavy sensation. Turning to my bedside I realised I wasn't alone. I would recognise that hair anywhere.'Valerie...'She was asleep, her arms intertwined on the empty space on the bed to pillow her face. Her platinum blonde waves swam across the blue matress. Her eyes were flushed, and I quickly understood why as I noticed the dried sheen tracking her cheeks. Tear stains. “Tristan! No! Stay with me!” the echo of her frantic voice remained in my mind. A knot formed in my throat. I remembered everything now. The remaining memories of my past life following her death. The burden in my chest felt even heavier.Just like now, I had realised
Tristan After that day, everything changed. Alyn had returned to her parents home and I barely saw her. The few times I did, I couldn't find it in myself to look at her, the memory of what she'd tried to do- attempting to take advantage of me- was still fresh in my mind. She grew more erratic over the next few days after, often making up an act. Unlike the past however, I could see it clearly now. The clear victimhood. The image I had of her was cracked, and now I couldn't help but wonder; why? I ignored her, simply distancing myself. I was too piled up in waves of guilt and self loathing to fully entertain her actions anyways. Perhaps it was naive, but I forced it aside. Surely that was a sole incident that would eventually be forgotten. That was what I thought until one day, I woke up in the middle of the night to find her naked atop me. I'd opened my eyes with an uneasy feeling. It wasn't until I saw her frame in the darkness that I realised what was happening. What Alyn w