Hard resolve

Regina

"Dad, you're not listening to me. Life would be ten times harder if I proceed with this marriage." Tears streamed down my eyes as I knelt, almost bowing while my father sipped on his glass of coffee like there was nothing else he cared about in this world.

"Dad!" I yelled trying to get his attention and he pivoted to stare at me for a few seconds before clearing his throat and accompanying it with a sigh.

"Regina, come off it. I've already told you that there's nothing you can do. The marriage is happening." That's exactly what he had repeated to me for like the hundredth time and it seemed sour hearing it from him.

I was at loss as I stared at my father. Seriously, he was going to let me go into this marriage without considering what I might be going to face, the hardship and hatred and all.

"Dad, please listen to me. He rejected me as his mate, there's no way he would love me as Luna." My dad grunted as he dropped the cup of coffee he was sipping on angrily on the table.

"Everything isn't about love, Regina. Especially not this marriage! This is about duty, responsibility and I'd have to break it to you for the last time! You are getting married to Alpha Lionel and that's final." I crawled over to where he was sorted, my eyes a blur of hazy darkness as the droplets of tears blurred my vision.

"Dad, please." He kicked me off and stood up almost immediately like he was pissed by my presence and headed towards his room upstairs.

Clutching my chest, I buried my face into the ground as I sobbed my eyes out. Why was he not seeing reasons with me? Why was he not seeing that this marriage is going to be an absolute catastrophe?

There was nothing I could do, my hands were tied and even my father wasn't on my side.

I went back to my room and looked out the window, being as immobile as I could ever be in my entire life.

Staring at the woods suddenly sparked an idea into my head but that wasn't going to be worth it.

If I ran away because of an arranged marriage, there was a list of things that was going to happen to me and being a rogue was just one of them.

I'm not sure I was going to be able to handle that kind of life.

Memories of how he had rejected me flooded right back into my memory and I blinked back the tears that were already falling out while tapping my temples slowly.

Life is just too cruel!

Smeone remind me never to believe that life is a fairy tale ever again, that was such a fucked up shit!

I picked up my phone and decided to scroll through social media hoping it would help me get off the burst of emotions that was swelling within and around me.

My muse had uploaded a photo of herself on the red carpet. That was enough to bring a smile to my face but the smile didn't last long as other intrusive thoughts barged in.

What if I got married to Lionel and he never allows me to pursue my dreams as an actress? Okay, that would definitely not happening.

I shook my head like I was trying to wipe off the thoughts and liked the photo as I scrolled to see other actresses. I particularly loved watching the behind the scenes of their acting process and it brought a certain light to my mind.

They could be whatever they wanted when they were on set and the outside world didn't really matter.

*Knock* *Knock*

The knock was kind of distant and I had to use the back of my palm to wipe my eyes as I stood up. That's when I realized that I had slept with my phone in my hands.

I dragged myself lazily to the door and opened it up to see Gwen.

The time on my phone read 10pm and I raised my brows as I set eyes on her.

"Gwen? What are you doing here by this time of the night?" I opened the door wildly so she could walk in and she sat on my bed pulling off her shoes.

"Umm, forgive me but I couldn't let you stay alone tonight after what happened. I know you might say I'm acting like a pest but save it, I'm here now and I'm not even leaving." A coy smile appeared on my lips and I stared at her sweetly before shutting the door.

"You came from your house to this place in the dead of the night, silly girl. What if something happened to you?" She fell into my bed and sighed before sitting back up and staring curiously at me.

"How are you feeling?" To be honest, that was a question that I had tried to ask myself as well but couldn't hold an answer to. How could I answer her if I didn't know the answer myself?

"I don't know." I shrugged and bit my lips softly. It was enough crying for me already, my dad had already made it known that nothing was going to change. Not even if I wailed and create an ocean with my tears.

"It's understandable but you'll be fine." Gwen rubbed my shoulders softly and then took a peek at my phone.

"Watching actresses again? That's good." It helped me release stress and she knew that.

"What if he doesn't let you pursue your dreams?" She didn't need to scream his name for me to know who it was and I shook my head in negativity.

"That's definitely not happening. I let them decide my marriage because I have no say in that but I do have a say in my career choice." She stared at me somewhat —pitifully but I'll ignore that.

"Infact, I'm thinking of applying for an audition at Sun entertainment." I declared and Gwen's eyes widened.