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Loving a Selfish Lycan Guest of Honor
As we hit the stairs of the pack house Blake came into view. He was in the same charcoal grey suit as my son’s. I hated how handsome he is.“No kids?” He quirked an eyebrow at me then looked to a very pissed off Vampire mutation behind me. Bolton lightly growled at either Blake’s presence or my new name for him. Mutation was more fitting than Siren. I heard his growl again and smiled up to Blake.“No kids. I’m sure tonight will not be of their liking. Besides, you were right, if there is any fighting they should be protected from it.” Blake looked to me in surprise. I was not only admitting he was right, but looking to him like he was an actual person, and not some annoying pest.“Shall we?” I smiled with my teeth and held out my arm for him. “Yes!” He responded excitedly, holding out his arm so I could wrap mine in his. “You seem to be more confident than this afternoon. You’re either pissed or on a mission.”“I think I’m both.” I responded. “I’ll try to hold my tongue with your fa
Loving a Selfish Lycan Dinner of Enemies
“What game are you playing?” Bolton sat at the table and decided to start tearing into me through our minds. I was speaking to one of our warriors and half listened to him rant on and on about me playing with fire.“Enough! You wanted me to play nice and so I am. Armand is here, in my territory with Viktor. I don’t trust either of them, but my pack safety is most important. So pick up your fork, eat your damn food, and let me figure this out. Isn’t that what you want? For me to grow the fuck up and figure it out on my own.” No one could hear us, but my eyes bore dangerously into his. “I said you need to stand on your feet, not flirt with a damn Vampire Siren.”“Flirt? He was flirting, I was threatening.”“He will want you for himself. Viktor knows this and it makes no sense why he would bring him here so close to you.”“I guess we should smile and play along then.”Bolton growled in my head then snatched up his fork. He wasn’t pleased with this surprise and neither was I. “You two ar
Loving a Selfish Lycan Goodbye to the Past
Every pack member gathered in our cemetery early in the afternoon to say our final goodbyes. Caskets were lined in row after row with one deep purple one raised above the rest. Most of the boxes were empty, as there were many we were unable to bring home. I wanted every person to have a tombstone though. This way their family had a place to visit them. Charlotte would be placed in the mausoleum that held the Alpha’s family along with a black empty box for Gavin and all her other children that died these last few months. Bolton didn’t understand why I cared to give Gavin a proper place in the cemetery, but I just needed to think of my children to know it was the right call.They were so small and innocent. I can see the immense good in them and constantly feared of who they would turn out to be if left at the hands of Viktor. I remembered playing with Gavin, watching over him and lifting him in the pool to get the ball in the basket. He wasn’t always evil, and having a shitty father di
Loving a Selfish Lycan Common Ground
My hands kept smoothing out my black shirt over my jeans as I walked through the pack house. I knew I was nervous and I didn’t know how to settle myself. “Fidgeting?” Bolton fall in-line beside me.“Yes, I seem to psyche myself out right before I’m about to do something stupid.”“You’ll be fine.” He leaned his head closer to me as we walked to the conference room. “I know. I seem to find myself more confident than possible when I’m stuck in a situation. Before though, I do nothing but doubt myself.”“It’s just means you’re still human. Wouldn’t want to turn into an arrogant Alpha that thinks too highly of himself.” I giggled at him and shook my head. What am I going to do without Bolton?“You’re going to survive and be the best damn Luna that ever existed.” He said as he opened the door.“Yeah, I hope so.” I gave him one last look then turned my attention to Viktor and Blake. Of course they had already meet to begin their plans. I was putting too much faith in Blake and I knew it. I
Loving a Selfish Lycan Last Supper
Blake stayed by my side the rest of the day, never once pushing our relationship or bringing up the meeting we had earlier with Armand.I would be lying if I said it didn’t rattle me. I watched Blake play with our kids and saw that boy I once knew. The boy I loved so deeply, but so wrongly. I found myself wanting to be that girl once again.I could embrace our bond, rid our family of any threat from Armand and better protect my pack. The problem was, I would lose Bolton forever. I wasn’t ready to give him up and I wasn’t even sure why. He wasn’t sweet or romantic, and he definitely didn’t put my feelings first. Still, my heart wanted him and I didn’t know how to change it.The next day came and I searched for Bolton everywhere. I wanted to talk to him, spend time with him before he left for good tomorrow. Of course he was no where to be found though.I spent most the evening calling him a coward and idiot, hoping it made him stop hiding from me, but it didn’t work. He planned to leave
Loving a Selfish Lycan Saying Goodbye
I watched Blake put the kids to bed and held my tears as best as I could. He gave me a gentle kiss goodbye and I let out a hard breath once he left. This would be every night of my life. I closed my eyes as my heart began beating too fast. I don’t think I was strong enough to sacrifice the life I wanted to be with Blake.I hurried to the bathroom and turned on the cold water to drown out the pain inside me. The second I stepped out I cursed at the man making my life utterly impossible just standing next to my bed with tight shoulders.“Goddess, I hate you. What are you doing here?” I walked to Bolton in just a towel and wrapped my arms around him. “I shouldn’t be here, but I can’t leave without saying goodbye.”I squeezed him tighter from behind, smushing my face into his back. “Admit it, you can’t resist me.”“You’re a brat that makes me do stupid things.”“We had this talk already. I like you being stupid, especially with me.”I felt his hard wide chest rumble with laughter. He turn
Loving a Selfish Lycan Only Mine
His fingers teased my collar bone then slowly peeled my towel away. We stood in front of each other completely bare and completely filled with need for the other. “I know what you want, not just now, but for your life.” His hand roamed over my breast, gently smoothing my soft mound, then roughly tugging at my hard nipple.“What do I want Bolton?” I asked in a breathy moan. The way he touched me was the only thing I wanted.“You want your pack, your family, you want this life you now have.” His hands picked my body up and my legs wrapped around him. His head dipped to my chest and took one breast deep into his mouth.“Bolton, I want you.” I nearly cried, losing myself to his warm mouth devouring my breast so perfectly.“I’m here tonight, and tonight you’re mine.” His voice was so possessive it had me moaning again. He put me on the bed, placing his wide body between my legs and his grey eyes roamed over me spread out and at his mercy. “I want to bring you home, tie you up, and torture
Loving a Selfish Lycan Time Apart
I moaned uncontrollably in bed, fingers dancing along my neck and body filled with his drug. I knew I slept for hours, but I also knew he was inside me, his Alpha seed and Vampire venom coating my nerves and rushing through my blood. I don’t care what he says or thinks, he was what I needed.I rose from bed and my hand ran over the cold sheets. I held my head high and refused to cry. He was gone, but that was his choice and one day, he would regret leaving me. I refused to be upset anymore. I showered then got my kids up to begin our day. We had new routines to began and the pack as a whole was starting to rebuild. Schools were open, hospitals and stores fully staffed, and the pack house bustling with people all about. The second we made it to the dining hall Blake was there waiting for us. Instead of sighing at his presences, I decided to embrace it. “Good morning!” I gave him a bright smile and the kids ran around him. He matched my mood, giving me his charm and playing some with
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Loving a Selfish Lycan History Repeated
Seventeen years in futureMy name is Sasha Lycanic, born a low-level omega with nothing special about a single hair on my body. To make my life infinitely worse, my father was a traitor. My life didn't start out bad, it just kept plummeting downhill and for so long I was too weak to take the wheel. My eyes stared at myself through my vanity's mirror with a small smile tugging at my lips, remembering the days of my youth. I was young and naive. I loved deeply and oh so wrongly. I chose a life that damned myself, and I didn't realize it until it was too late. Now I was grown, no longer a child or so naive."It's time!" My mate called to me and I rose from my chair. Today, I cannot be weak. Today, I would be proud and support my son. My Lycan son, born out of malice and betrayals. I loved him, as I did all my children, but he was the oldest, the first and our future Alpha. "Coming darling." I said in a sweet voice. I may not have become everything I thought I would be, but above all
Loving a Selfish Lycan New Era
I sat beside a lake taking long breaths. I knew I couldn’t plead for my life again. This was beyond the goddess’ power and I’ve cheated death too many times. My hand moved over the small bump on my belly and tears fall down my cheeks. If I die, so do they. Would I ever know who they were, or do they become nothing since they were never born?“My daughter.” The velvety smooth poison nearly cracked my skull open and it made me smile. I wiped my tears away as I looked to the moon goddess. I wasn’t dead, at least not yet.“I never thought I would be so happy to be in this much pain.” I cried to her.Charlotte appeared next me and I hugged her instantly. “I miss you so much.”“I miss you too. We don’t have much time and the goddess wanted to speak to you through me.”“Ok.” I bit my lip, body filling with excitement. This had to mean I would return home soon and I couldn’t wait to kiss my mate’s lips.I looked to the moon goddess as Charlotte spoke her words. “This is the last time we will
Loving a Selfish Lycan And Then There Was None
“This isn’t true.” I mumbled as my feet fumbled over myself. Draconian was pissed and on a mission to get me as far from the pack house as possible. I understood his worry, but I couldn’t just leave. “Where are my children? My family?”“Your mother has them safe and off territory already. We will meet them at an ally pack’.”“An ally pack? They are all here.” I was trying to get my mind to work as we ran down four flights of stairs. I wasn’t even sure how I could survive without Bolton, but I needed to get to my kids. My hand went to my mark, remembering his touch to my skin. I could still feel him. “There’s no pain.”“What?” Draconian looked back at me and the fear that crossed his face was unmistakable.“It doesn’t burn. I can feel Bolton.”“Sasha, he might have not completely died, but we can’t go out there. You’ll be killed in seconds. You have to let him go.” Draconian’s hands came to my arms. He looked at me lovingly, but with a deep longing. “Drac? Something is off.” My eyes
Loving a Selfish Lycan Surprise
“Sasha! Get up!”I woke to Bolton screaming beside the bed. “What is...” before I could ask I heard the bells of war. “Their here!”“Yes! Today we finish this.” Bolton growled at me with red eyes. There was my monster. He was ready and so was I.“Yes. Today we finish this.” I repeated, standing to kiss my handsome mate then went to dress quickly. I was amped and ready for this battle, but I had no idea how it would end. I was always a foolish girl though, believing good would triumph if I just fought hard enough. Today was the true test of my beliefs and I would forever bury that teenage girl raised as nothing but a weak omega born to a traitor of my pack. Today, Sasha Glancia would truly die and I would own my name and rightful place as Sasha Leto. A name that would be known as the greatest and truest Luna of any specie for generations to come. It was the cost that made it all seem unworthy though.“You ready?” Eldora flew beside me on the roof of our pack house.“I’ve been ready f
Loving a Selfish Lycan War is Coming
Three weeks passed and surprisingly four species coexisted on my land somewhat peacefully. It wasn’t without fights or many being locked away for a night to sober up, but it was three weeks that they all bonded.“I like this little village we have here. It reminds me of the fairy land we occupied.” I snuggled into Bolton’s side. “It is like that. Expect we have proper shelter and plumping here.”“Yes, and I do love the luxuries of modern life. Bath?” I looked up to him. He was as a sweaty mess as myself. He woke me before the sunrise so we could have hours naked in bed before our kids woke. “Tempting, but I have to meet Draconian. He heard some rumors of an attack being planned at my kingdom and the witches’ neighborhoods.”“What rumors?”“Dragons been seen lurking about different territories.”“You think they will attack their lands since most are here? If we leave their people unprotected and they are ambush, it will put a wedge between us all.”“I know and that is why we need a p
Loving a Selfish Lycan Something Not Right
“Well, you look... better.” I tried to hide the worry on my face.“I look disgusting.”“It just one little spot. The rest of you is gorgeous.” I gave her a smile.“It’s the only thing anyone can see. Thankfully I’m locked away from the public eye.” Her fingers brushed the dark black ooze on her neck. Something was wrong with her mark and no one knew what. Fortunately, whatever odd growth happening from Blake’s mark it didn’t seem to affect her physically. The doctor cleared all her vitals and said it should have no effect on her child, but even they weren’t sure. There was no record of a mark ever turning into a black crusty wound that occasionally oozed out venom.“It will be ok. You’re perfectly healthy. We just have to be patient. Eldora and... the witch will be here.” I actually didn’t know any of the witches’ names. “I doubt they will know more about a mate’s mark than our own stupid people.” She hit the bars in frustration.“We will figure it out, Cynthia. You’re healthy and a
Loving a Selfish Lycan United
After watching Cynthia be escorted out of the hospital by our guards the mood between Bolton and I was soured. I couldn’t believe Blake did this to her and it made me want his death on my hands so much more.I couldn’t do that now though. If I killed Blake it would kill her. I was debating what to do about Viktor too. I didn’t want Bolton to lose his mom. The rest of the day he barely said two words to me, but I felt his hand to my skin every moment. He knew I needed to think and without his commentary. He made a point to remind me he was still here though.After dinner I put my kids to bed which my mom and Draconian agreed to stay with them at the pack house. The rest of my sibling stayed too and I doubled the security. I knew if Blake or Viktor showed up, my family would be their first target. It was no secret I would give up anything to keep them safe.By sundown a horde of Vampires arrived. I wasn’t sure who was left at their kingdom or even where it was. Watching Bolton greet th
Loving a Selfish Lycan Wrath of a Lycan
“We have so many things to do, baby.” Bolton sighed after we made out for another twenty minutes. “I want to just lock you in a room for weeks and enjoy every inch of your body, but we have two major threats we need to kill.”“Blake and Viktor.” I sighed too, feeling the weight of what they would be plotting now. “Do you think they know I’m alive?”“Probably. I want you to remain in the pack house.”“I won’t lock myself in here, psycho. I will promise to be always guarded though.”“I will guard you and no one else.” He growled.Before I could begin telling him that we can’t be literally glued to the others’ side a knock came at the door. I quickly opened it praying it wasn’t bad news.“Cynthia is asking for you, Luna.”“Cynthia? Where is she?”“You haven’t heard?”“No, what’s wrong. The last I knew she left the arena with her fated.”“She isn’t talking, but something happened. She is at the hospital and in bad shape.”I looked to Bolton with worry. “I’ll go right now.”I practically r
Loving a Selfish Lycan A Moment of Love
The kids ate a mountain of food then ran around talking to almost everyone that came into the dining the hall. They were little social butterflies and felt completely comfortable in our pack. Bolton sat beside me, hand in hand, even as we ate. Once the plates were cleared he pulled me from my chair and into his lap. I could feel his desperate need to feel my skin to his. Before today I would had thought it to be annoying if someone acted like this, but now, knowing I was his only desire, his only need. I felt like the most valuable creation every made. “I love listening to your never ending thoughts.” Bolton’s lips were in my ear. “Especially when they are about giving me every part of you.” “I’m yours now. You can take anything you wish from me.” I gave him a wink and he took my lips like a beast. I giggled over his rough kisses, laying my hands to the sides of his face. “I’m never going to get tired of this. In fact, the more you kiss me the more I want.”“More? I know exactly wh
