Chapter 34 | Bleed
It was exactly the same as before... that I'd wake up with no memory of what had happened before I fell asleep. On previous occasions, I'd wake up while lying on the cold floor of our old living room, and on other occasions, I'd gain consciousness inside the bathroom. I couldn't describe what happened; all I could recall was what I was doing before I was in that scenario.
Gaya na lamang ngayon sa aking paggising. Magaan ang aking pakiramdam habang nakahilatay ang katawan sa malambot na puting kama. Sakto lamang ang lamig ng silid na aking nadama at ang liwanag galing sa ceiling ang unang bumungad sa aking paningin sa pagdilat. Hindi ko pa gaanong marinig ang aking paligid ngunit batid kong may dalawang taong nag-uusap sa bandang sulok ng silid.
Sinubukan kong ipikit at idilat muli ang aking mga ma
Chapter 35 | Confess If offered the opportunity to not wake up again, I would gladly accept it. I had already given up everything as my eyes began losing their vision as the wildfire around me burned furiously. I was ready to leave everything behind once and for all, including the memories I held dearest. That night, I realized that this was the end of my life. I was so disheartened to see another day after all those sacrifices. Para akong harap-harapang niloko ng kapalaran. Parang tanga, handa na nga akong mawala ng tuluyan sa mundo tapos matatagpuan ko ang aking sarili na nasagip mula sa apoy na gano’n kalakas? Ni wala man lang akong nakuhang galos, sugat o pinsala sa katawan na akala mo ay wala ako noong nangyari ang
Chapter 36 | Home“Ano?” naguguluhan kong tanong kay Marcus.Noong una ay nagduda na rin ako kung totoo ba talagang sila ang tunay na pamilya ni Arist dahil bukod sa malayo ang pisikal na katangian ni Arist sa kanilang ama ay hindi ko rin madama ang dugong Zorron sa kanya. Wala akong sapat na ebidensya upang patunayang hindi siya Zorron ngunit malakas ang kutob ko noong parang may mali.At hindi nga ako nagkamali!Kalaunan ay tinanggap ko na lang ang mga nangyari dahil napansin kong seryoso talaga silang lahat tungkol sa pagiging half-brother ni Arist ngunit… ang marinig ang katotohanang ito galing kay Marcus mismo ay nagpatunay na tama ang hinala ko noong una.Bakit nila nilinlang si Arist?
Chapter 37 | BedI'd been enduring the same pain, violence and regrets for the past two years. I was trapped inside a four-walled room that almost made me forget about the outside world and the beauties of life. I had been alone with my own shadow since the tragedy ended.No one could deny that I had a tough time, and I had the worst of it. There were no days, just lonely and terrifying nights. I spent the past years blaming everything to myself and embracing the coldness of my own heart. The emptiness inside me felt impossible to be filled again.I never expected that the day I would see the sunlight and feel the warm breeze of a peaceful morning would eventually come. The storm was too long for me, and I'd been floating alone on my small boat with insufficient equipment to help me sail properly. The storm had been
Chapter 38 | BeginningMarcus and I made the decision to leave their mansion after several days of contemplation and double-checking. Marcus had a separate condo in Manila different from before, where we chose to stay for the next succeeding days. I easily agreed on his suggestions because I also believed those were the best to follow this time.We bought a lot of food supplies and other necessities needed at home. The condo he got was larger than the one we'd stayed in before, and it was closer to the establishments. For the past few days, we had been preoccupied with arranging our belongings. Today's agenda was different. We finished organizing and cleaning the entire condo to our liking. We had planned to go somewhere today... and have a picnic there.“Nandiyan na rin ba sa bag ‘yong blanket?&rd
Chapter 39 | FlightKailanman ay hindi ko kinonsidera ang sarili ko bilang mapangarap na tao. Naalala ko noong grade ten kami at paparating na ang katapusan ng taon na iyon, inutusan kami ng aming adviser na magsulat sa one fourth piece of paper ng first choice of senior high school strand na gusto namin kasunod ng second at third choice kung mayroon.Sinabi niya namang para lang iyon sa personal niyang survey dahil gusto niya raw malaman ang bawat choices namin. It was a harmless task, but I had a difficult time writing my choices on the paper. Wala pa naman talaga kasi akong concrete plan para sa sarili ko. Marami na akong na-research at narinig na career suggestions mula kay mama pero hindi ako nagka-interes sa kahit ano roon.Noong mga panahong iyon ay napasabi na lang ako ng, “Gusto ko na lang maging tamb
Chapter 40 | Best Years Tinanghali na ako ng gising kinabukasan dahil nilubos talaga namin ni Kurt ang kumustahan kagabi. Sa isang malaki at sikat kaming club nagtungo kasama si Marcus dahil gusto ni Kurt iyong lugar na pwede siyang mag-relax and at the same time magwalwal. We rented a private and VIP area for us so that we could spend more quality time together. We talked more about Kurt's work and life because he had me curious back when he mentioned Janella Tolentino proposed to him. Like for real? Si Janella na dating may gusto kay Marcus? Si Janella na sobrang taas ng confidence at sobrang yaman… magp-propose kay Kurt? Hindi rin maintindihan ni Kurt ang trip ng babaeng iyon kaya hindi niya ako nasagot kung alam ba n
Epilogue 1 | #LOMEpilogue1 “Hoy, si Lucre ba ‘yon?” “Huh, saan?” I lowered my head a bit and walked faster so they wouldn't catch up with me. When I heard their voices becoming louder, I tightened my grip on the book I was holding. “Sige na, tanungin niyo na! Papalayo na siya, oh!” A guy’s voice convinced one of his girl friends he was with. “Bahala na nga!” Someone was brave enough to call my name despite the chance that I wouldn’t look back. “Lucre!” My shoulders fell as I let out a deep sigh. I knew why they called, and if it wasn't my time to read, I might have considered playing with them. I moved my body slightly to the side to acknowledge the
Epilogue 2 | #LOMEpilogue2 “What?” I unintentionally raised my voice, which made my parents’ eyes widen. My father then continued what he was saying after a minute of silence, “We’re enrolling Minah to a public school in Marikina. It’s not far from here and she has her own driver to take her there every day—” “That’s not the point, Pa. Why do you suddenly decide to enroll her there? Maraming mas magagandang paaralan dito sa Manila. Don’t you think it’s better to enroll her in Syru, too, so that Trojan can also look out for her?” “She doesn’t want to study there,” mom said. I rolled my eyes. “How did you know that? Tinanong niyo ba siya? Or is this because of Abuela’s never-ending hatred towards her? Are you enrolling her in a public school be
Epilogue 3 | #LOMEpilogue3 I went back to our condo the same night with a broken heart and a blank mind. I thought I couldn't feel pain anymore after everything I'd gone through, but the pain caused by Mercian was far more excruciating than any hurt I'd felt. Gaano man ako nasaktan sa mga sinabi ni Ian kanina, hindi ko pa rin magawang magalit at sisihin siya sa biglaang desisyon. Inisip ko na baka pagod lang siya at siguro nga'y may hindi siya naunawaan sa akin na dapat kong linawin sa susunod naming pag-uusap. Kailan naman kaya dadating ang araw na iyon kung sinabi niya nga kaninang huwag ko na siya muling balikan? Hindi ako mapapakaling hindi maayos ang problema naming 'to. Sa dami ng hawak kong responsibilidad, siya lang ang siguradong hindi ko kayang bitawan. Kilala ko si Ian at kung inaamin niya nga ang mga sinabi niya kanina ay
Epilogue 2 | #LOMEpilogue2 “What?” I unintentionally raised my voice, which made my parents’ eyes widen. My father then continued what he was saying after a minute of silence, “We’re enrolling Minah to a public school in Marikina. It’s not far from here and she has her own driver to take her there every day—” “That’s not the point, Pa. Why do you suddenly decide to enroll her there? Maraming mas magagandang paaralan dito sa Manila. Don’t you think it’s better to enroll her in Syru, too, so that Trojan can also look out for her?” “She doesn’t want to study there,” mom said. I rolled my eyes. “How did you know that? Tinanong niyo ba siya? Or is this because of Abuela’s never-ending hatred towards her? Are you enrolling her in a public school be
Epilogue 1 | #LOMEpilogue1 “Hoy, si Lucre ba ‘yon?” “Huh, saan?” I lowered my head a bit and walked faster so they wouldn't catch up with me. When I heard their voices becoming louder, I tightened my grip on the book I was holding. “Sige na, tanungin niyo na! Papalayo na siya, oh!” A guy’s voice convinced one of his girl friends he was with. “Bahala na nga!” Someone was brave enough to call my name despite the chance that I wouldn’t look back. “Lucre!” My shoulders fell as I let out a deep sigh. I knew why they called, and if it wasn't my time to read, I might have considered playing with them. I moved my body slightly to the side to acknowledge the
Chapter 40 | Best Years Tinanghali na ako ng gising kinabukasan dahil nilubos talaga namin ni Kurt ang kumustahan kagabi. Sa isang malaki at sikat kaming club nagtungo kasama si Marcus dahil gusto ni Kurt iyong lugar na pwede siyang mag-relax and at the same time magwalwal. We rented a private and VIP area for us so that we could spend more quality time together. We talked more about Kurt's work and life because he had me curious back when he mentioned Janella Tolentino proposed to him. Like for real? Si Janella na dating may gusto kay Marcus? Si Janella na sobrang taas ng confidence at sobrang yaman… magp-propose kay Kurt? Hindi rin maintindihan ni Kurt ang trip ng babaeng iyon kaya hindi niya ako nasagot kung alam ba n
Chapter 39 | FlightKailanman ay hindi ko kinonsidera ang sarili ko bilang mapangarap na tao. Naalala ko noong grade ten kami at paparating na ang katapusan ng taon na iyon, inutusan kami ng aming adviser na magsulat sa one fourth piece of paper ng first choice of senior high school strand na gusto namin kasunod ng second at third choice kung mayroon.Sinabi niya namang para lang iyon sa personal niyang survey dahil gusto niya raw malaman ang bawat choices namin. It was a harmless task, but I had a difficult time writing my choices on the paper. Wala pa naman talaga kasi akong concrete plan para sa sarili ko. Marami na akong na-research at narinig na career suggestions mula kay mama pero hindi ako nagka-interes sa kahit ano roon.Noong mga panahong iyon ay napasabi na lang ako ng, “Gusto ko na lang maging tamb
Chapter 38 | BeginningMarcus and I made the decision to leave their mansion after several days of contemplation and double-checking. Marcus had a separate condo in Manila different from before, where we chose to stay for the next succeeding days. I easily agreed on his suggestions because I also believed those were the best to follow this time.We bought a lot of food supplies and other necessities needed at home. The condo he got was larger than the one we'd stayed in before, and it was closer to the establishments. For the past few days, we had been preoccupied with arranging our belongings. Today's agenda was different. We finished organizing and cleaning the entire condo to our liking. We had planned to go somewhere today... and have a picnic there.“Nandiyan na rin ba sa bag ‘yong blanket?&rd
Chapter 37 | BedI'd been enduring the same pain, violence and regrets for the past two years. I was trapped inside a four-walled room that almost made me forget about the outside world and the beauties of life. I had been alone with my own shadow since the tragedy ended.No one could deny that I had a tough time, and I had the worst of it. There were no days, just lonely and terrifying nights. I spent the past years blaming everything to myself and embracing the coldness of my own heart. The emptiness inside me felt impossible to be filled again.I never expected that the day I would see the sunlight and feel the warm breeze of a peaceful morning would eventually come. The storm was too long for me, and I'd been floating alone on my small boat with insufficient equipment to help me sail properly. The storm had been
Chapter 36 | Home“Ano?” naguguluhan kong tanong kay Marcus.Noong una ay nagduda na rin ako kung totoo ba talagang sila ang tunay na pamilya ni Arist dahil bukod sa malayo ang pisikal na katangian ni Arist sa kanilang ama ay hindi ko rin madama ang dugong Zorron sa kanya. Wala akong sapat na ebidensya upang patunayang hindi siya Zorron ngunit malakas ang kutob ko noong parang may mali.At hindi nga ako nagkamali!Kalaunan ay tinanggap ko na lang ang mga nangyari dahil napansin kong seryoso talaga silang lahat tungkol sa pagiging half-brother ni Arist ngunit… ang marinig ang katotohanang ito galing kay Marcus mismo ay nagpatunay na tama ang hinala ko noong una.Bakit nila nilinlang si Arist?
Chapter 35 | Confess If offered the opportunity to not wake up again, I would gladly accept it. I had already given up everything as my eyes began losing their vision as the wildfire around me burned furiously. I was ready to leave everything behind once and for all, including the memories I held dearest. That night, I realized that this was the end of my life. I was so disheartened to see another day after all those sacrifices. Para akong harap-harapang niloko ng kapalaran. Parang tanga, handa na nga akong mawala ng tuluyan sa mundo tapos matatagpuan ko ang aking sarili na nasagip mula sa apoy na gano’n kalakas? Ni wala man lang akong nakuhang galos, sugat o pinsala sa katawan na akala mo ay wala ako noong nangyari ang