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Lovely Secrets And Lies LET HIM GO
"It's really nothing." I stood up from the bed with a reply. I don't care if my head is still hurting because I can bear the pain. I went to the kitchen to see if Jack had made anything to eat because I had smelled something good while sleeping and I can still perceive it. "You can't just tell me it's nothing, Johan?" He said this as he stood by the kitchen door. "Why can't I tell you that? It's entirely up to me whether I tell you or not. I just don't want to say anything, Jack.' I stated solemnly. At the very least, that should indicate to him that I'm not in the mood to talk and even if I want to tell him, he wouldn't understand and where do I even to start from. He stood there for a few minutes while I was taking my plate to dish up some food that Jack had cooked. Oh, sorry my bad. His mother prepares the meals. I noticed him walk away as I was serving myself some food. I'm guessing he understood the language, but I know he will bring it up again, and I thi
Lovely Secrets And Lies YOU GOT ME
"That's right, man. Come on, we have classes tomorrow, and the teacher is going to scold us until the earth falls down,' Jack grumbled. Ava and Charlotte burst out laughing. When I looked at Haru, he was staring at me as well, but I turned my head and left them to talk about boys, girls and such."Where are you going?" Charlotte inquired as she sat down at the table."I'm going to lie down for a while because my head is still hurting a bit," I said."OK, please take care," she said as she blew me a kiss, but I just laughed and started walking away."You didn't blow me a kiss, and you didn't tell me you loved me," she grumbled.I felt embarrassed, but it's not the first time I've done this, or is it because Haru is staring at me while sitting at the table."Hey, do the same thing to her or our eardrums will burst." Jack rolled his eyes as he ate his food at the table, and Ava joined him. I was curious as to when Jack brought his food to the table."Can I do that later?' What is wrong
Lovely Secrets And Lies THE OFFER.
As soon as Haru walked away. I sat down on my bed, staring at nothing. He proposed sex. I'm not sure what to think or do about it. How can I say no to him when he is so enticing? Charlotte is still my girlfriend, and if I agree to this, I'm cheating on her and, worse, betraying her. He stated that he doesn't care if I'm dating her or not. He only wants me, there are no romantic feelings involved, and he simply wants to have fun. And I want it as well. My body screams for his touch. I scratched my head in frustration, telling myself to stop thinking about it all. He said he gives me two days to accept his offer. I'm the worst person ever; am I truly gay or bisexual, as he claims? No, I don't want to be any of those things. I got out of bed and went to the door, which I opened. I got out and walked over to the dining table to fix my clothes. Charlotte dashed over to me. "Babe, we're having a party today, would you like to come over?" I raised an eyebrow at Charlot
Lovely Secrets And Lies DUMBFOUNDED
I stormed furiously out of the classroom, Charlotte has no right to speak to me in that manner; who does she think she is? Without our friendship, I would have become even more enraged with her and insulted her as she deserved. I was just venting about Haru. Because they are my friends, my best friends. I'm envious of Haru, he's attractive and attracts a lot of attention from people and most especially girls, he's wealthy too. Anyone in my shoes will be envious. I sometimes wish he hadn't come to this school because every girl I ask out always says *I'm sorry, I like someone else, and that's Haru. I'm sorry* It's annoying to hear those things from them. It makes me feel inadequate because Haru excels in academics while I am a mediocre student. He's so good at everything that even I can't beat him in sports. He's got everything a lady looks for in a man. That's why it irritates me; I wish I was wealthy, handsome, or even beautiful like him. If that's the righ
Lovely Secrets And Lies LIFE IS NOT FAIR
"Not sure. We immediately closed and he just left the class in a hurry,' Ava replied, and Charlotte's mood turned nasty. When I saw that, I knew she was still upset with Jack. Something must have happened for Jack to leave the class like that, or did he go out with a girl without telling me? When I looked at my phone, there was no sign of a missed call or text message from him. "Why didn't you go to the infirmary, instead of coming here if you are not feeling that good?" Shit! Charlotte and her questions, I should have known, she wouldn't let this slide. "I just don't like the smell of that place, it makes me queasy.' I lied, shrugging my shoulders. It isn't exactly a lie that the infirmary makes me nauseous, it wasn't the reason why I didn't go there, it was because of Haru. I noticed he cleaned me up and everything, I wish he could have woken me up and told me he was leaving but instead he left me in the damn Lab. What if the teachers had seen me an
Lovely Secrets And Lies CAUGHT IN THE ACT
"Suji de no ga knish, suji de utau koto ni, so," he smirked at Keith, trying to change the topic, from making Keith think he was worried. "I miss it too." Keith shrugged and sat down on the drum. "Singing on stage?" He sighed."We will soon go back to singing on stage, and this time I'm leaving everything behind and no one is stopping me," Haru said, clenching his fist."Are you talking about your ex?" Keith inquired.Haru's expression abruptly changed. "Nido to Kare ni tsuite hanasanaide kudasai?" Haru stated solemnly, as he warned Keith not to bring it up anymore."But your face is all red, and it appears you were crying earlier," Keith said, frowning as well. Keith pretended he hadn't heard what Haru had just said. He was well aware that Haru despised discussing his ex. And if he should prolong it and keep asking questions, this conversation will turn into a fight."I'm not crying, and please stop talking nonsense. I just want to finish school, forget about everything,
Lovely Secrets And Lies DAMN, HE WAS A SLUT.
"Like a book, Johan, I know you very well. You'd like to deny it. You don't want me to know because you believe I will treat you unfairly and despise you. Okay, I'm not that kind of person, and I will never be that kind of person. I know I didn't talk to you because I was angry, and I felt like I wasn't as important to you as your best friend. At the very least, I'm the first person you should consider telling it to.' He elaborated."I predicted that you would snap and be disgusted with me. That is why I didn't tell you,' I admitted."Nonetheless, I still snapped and became disgusted. When will I find out about it, in the future or when you are old or dead?' He began to laugh as he said this."Stop laughing, it's not funny,' I said."Come on, Johan, stop pouting.' He said, still laughing."I'm not,' I said, and we both burst out laughing, before he looked at me."So, are you...?""I'm still straight," I replied quickly. I knew what he was going to say."Johan, you're not straight.
Lovely Secrets And Lies OVERWHELMED WITH LUST
I returned to where they were, keeping my phone in my pocket. Ava and Charlotte had already left. I approached Jack, who was pressing his phone, and asked him where they went. "Where have the others gone?'He stood up and turned to face me. "The school has closed. They said they were going shopping, and Charlotte said she would buy something for you as well.' He elaborated."What for?" I inquired."The birthday party I mentioned earlier is today, dude.""And who is invited?" I questioned."Everyone is invited by Ava.' He said it cheerfully."Oh?""Haru will be there as well." He tapped my shoulder, and I locked my gaze on him."Why are you telling me this?" I sighed."Because you look happy and besides what did you two discuss when I left.' He asked and both of his hands were in his pocket."He just wants the same thing?' I answered."Oh, so you're going to agree to it.'"I have to and I'm worried about…'"Charlotte. You want him and I can see the way you look at him?' He said
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Lovely Secrets And Lies THE END.
I came back late at night, walking tirelessly to my apartment when I heard a couple of noises and laughter coming from my apartment. Curiosity got the best of me and where my strength came from, I can't exactly explain as I ran and opened the door and what I saw in front of me almost gave my feet away and at that moment, I knew.Johan's Pov.I've been in a toxic mood for days, because of what I saw on that poster I know that you are going to call me pathetic but I've been that way since forever, traumatized, trying my best to be strong and face whatever comes for me and never back down. That's what been keeping me all these years, hoping to never see Haru again, yet, deep inside me I secretly crave to see him again, I don't blame him, if he had forgotten me or found someone else he loves now but he will always be in my heart, it hurts but that's just the truth and I love him so much, it hurts, besides he is my first love, even though he never loved me back but I loved him.And that's
Lovely Secrets And Lies GRIEF.
I couldn't believe this.Was I dreaming? Or in some other world or was this real?Was this real life or something else, I felt this chill, this dread down my bones as I almost lurched and when I heard the footsteps of Johan coming towards me, he walked up to me and fretted and then, he looked up as well and was stunned, he went pale that instant.His face turned blue or rather white, it was as if his blood was being sucked out of his body and I still couldn't believe this.What was I seeing? Johan's legs gave out and fell on the cold floor still looking at the poster and tears began streaming down his face without blinking his eyes as he stared blankly at the poster without making a move and I just stood there, gazing at Johan and then at the poster.What was I supposed to say in this situation? I didn't know what to do either and then, my gaze fell on the other posters as well and I was even more shocked at what I was seeing with my legs almost giving out as I tried to hold myself as
Lovely Secrets And Lies STARTLED.
"Alright,' I said. "But, since you guys are going shopping, I would also like to buy those music videos to see who we are currently competing with,'"We? Naoki seemed confused."Yeah,' I nodded. "I'm on your side and I support you guys a lot." I said."You haven't heard the others sing yet and you are on our side,' Arashi emphasized. "Trust me, if you hear the other singers sing, you are not going to be outside anymore." "It doesn't matter, the song you just sang earlier moved me and I don't hate it, I loved it and I will always support you and I will..." Akira came to my side and tapped me on the shoulder. "Thanks for supporting us and those words you just said inspired me,'' he smiled at me, which made me almost smile as well. " I feel like hugging you right now?'"Thank you,' I said as I nodded and cackled."Now, we are going shopping tomorrow. You are going to come with us,' Akira said happily and smiled.I nodded and agreed to go with them and looked towards Johan. "Are you going
Lovely Secrets And Lies NEW WORLD.
"I am happy and please Jack, let's move,' I sighed. I think I know what he wants to say."Does this place remind you of Haru,' Jack said and his gaze fell on me and I felt so scared all of a sudden. Why did he fucking have to bring that up, damn him?"Jack.' I almost replied nervously."Answer me,' he ordered and faced me. I turned my face away from him, what did he expect me to say to him and come on, I've tried countless times to forget about that jerk. I'm moving on with my life, getting successful in anything I do, so why is he bringing up Haru."I'm an adult and not a kid, Jack. This place doesn't remind me of Haru and besides, I haven't been here before and I don't even know him enough to keep thinking about him. Come on, Jack, the past should be in the past and let's forget about it.' I boldly said. He should just stop talking about him, it's been eight years already, damn it."I'm not trying to remind you of the past, you just seem so moody,' he said."I look so moody, doesn't
Lovely Secrets And Lies EIGHT YEARS LATER
EIGHT YEARS LATER."Wow, this apartment is awesome,' Jack exclaimed as he looked around and admired the whole place. Jack ran towards the window and shouted on top of his voice and felt the fresh breeze up in the air."Chill dude, we haven't even bought the apartment yet and you are admiring it,'' Johan said, as he wore his white jumpsuit with his hands in his pocket as he also admired the place."But, the apartment is a good one and I will recommend it to anyone. Fresh air, comfort and it's also spacious too and besides other people are living here and they've enjoyed the place,' The landlord said as he smiled at them."How many rooms are here,' Johan asked."Will you and your friend sleep in the same room,' he asked."Nah. I want my privacy, we should get separate rooms,' Jack grinned. "Wait for a second, don't tell me, there aren't enough rooms?'"We would like separate rooms, hope that wouldn't cost more,' Johan asked."No, it won't cost more. It will be the same price,' he said.
Lovely Secrets And Lies BETRAYED AND ABANDONED
Suddenly, we both heard footsteps and we went to hide in a dark corner in the class, since the light was switched off and they didn't even notice anything and past the class, Haru and I were in and I knew who just passed, it was Jack and Charlotte.In the dark corner, we were hiding Haru and I looked at each other and we both kissed passionately and went our separate ways. I got home and chatted Haru up and that was how we began our relationship. We talked to each other, every single day, chatting for hours and even when we were both in school, we still chatted and met in hidden corners and bang the fuck out of our asses and it felt so good. Being with Haru felt so good and wonderful. In bed, he was like a different person and knows how to satisfy me and quench my sexual urges, no matter how horny I am, he was always there for me to do anything to help me control my hormones. Sounds funny, right?With him, I was like a free bird, ready to spread out my wings and fly in the sky. He was
Lovely Secrets And Lies UNREQUITED LOVE
"Jack, do you know that guy?'' Ava asked and I looked at him. What are they talking about? I'm curious as well."What guy,' Jack asked confusedly."That guy that asked for directions on where the toilet was at my birthday party,'' she said excitedly."So, what about him,'"Can I get his number, please?'"Why are you asking me, I don't have his number with me. And, what makes you think that I know him?' Jack asked as he raised an eyebrow looking at Ava."I know that you know him. Don't lie to me, you guys kept staring at each other. You must have seen him somewhere and when Charlotte and I were running towards you, he was still there with you. But, the only thing was he entered a car right away so I thought...""Why didn't you tell me that he entered a car, no wonder I didn't see him again,'"Were you looking for him, if you were looking for him, just give me his number and I want to talk to him?'"Oh, I didn't know you had a crush on someone,' Charlotte chuckled."It's not a crush
Lovely Secrets And Lies BADBOY VIBES.
I silently walked towards them and stayed hidden, so they wouldn't be able to see me and eavesdropped on them."You've been here for an hour and you just skipped Class with your boyfriend,' the guy with the blonde said. I had to stretch my head a little to see him. I've never seen him in this school before, is he new here?"Well, if you call him my boyfriend, I don't mind that and you already know we are not dating. Did anyone see us,' Haru asked."No! No one saw you guys, but you guys should be careful and try to control yourselves and don't forget we are still in the school building or premises to be precised. Or else you want to face your father?'"Let's end this discussion here. I have to go now and besides I got a lot of things to catch up dude,' Haru said and started walking away."Alright. I have to go now too and if you know you both want to have sex again. Reduce whatever you say out loud?' He said as he chuckled and walked out of the bathroom.Haru came to my direction and sa
Lovely Secrets And Lies WHAT WAS GOING ON HERE?
"And, what are you going to do, if I don't shut up. We are both in this together and if he has decided to mess with us, I will show him what I'm made of and I don't care who he is, Haru. Mark my words, we are both entering the music industry, I will do anything to get to the top, even if I have to let those big shots fuck my ass. I'm fucking going to whoop his ass and tell him that whenever he hears my name, he should stay out of it and not even dare to mess with me. Because, in that Industry, Haru,' he came close to Haru. "I will fucking mess him up and wish him death and blacklist him from the industry and there's nothing you can fucking do about it." He pushed Haru out of the way, opened the door and slammed it. Haru sat back down on the chair and was still lost in thoughts. He still couldn't believe that he did this to him, after what they've gone through together and done sorts of things with him. He still couldn't believe his eyes and hoped that this was a dream, he w
