Briar's POV
"Get ready quickly, dolly day dream." Ariana said ruffling my hair and Gretchen laughed.
I threw my hairclip at her and she ran out the door laughing.
“You’ll come by yourself, right?” Gretchen said and I noticed everyone had already left.
“Yeah sure.” I said smiling.
“Don’t be late.” Gretchen said tapping her wrist watch, walking out the door, closing it.
Another reason for us being best friends is because we're roommates. We shifted to the new dorms when we were promoted to high school. And us being six girls, we ended up getting one of the biggest rooms on our floor. Obviously, being together practically all the time, we are more like a family.
Suddenly while dressing up my mom's face came in my head. It's been months and I haven't met my mom and dad. Being a single child, I am pampered thoroughly. But the family legacy of sending your children to boarding school has been a part of the family traditions. So, I was admitted to the school by my parents. But originally belonging from Canada, I meet them once in a year during my vacation, when I get to go back to my home city, Vancouver.
When I was a kid, I used to cry a lot, always asking my parents not to leave. But as I grew up, I became used to living in this school. It's my second home now, though I miss my parents a lot. But I couldn’t escape the tree of familial traditions keeping in mind how even my grandfather's father is a boarding school graduate
When I was born my dad wanted to continue this chain so he got me admitted into this boarding school and Culford Rempten senior secondary school, was one the best school to pick. It's reputation for its academics, sports, dance and music is famous enough for my dad putting me here. My mom wanted me to study in somewhere in Vancouver, but dad insisted for me to study here. He surely didn’t make a bad decision.
My thoughts were suddenly interrupted when I heard the morning bell. It was almost a quarter past eight, the starting time for morning service. I quickly took my badge and pinning it to my uniform, went to the door. I took my hand forward to open the door and it jammed. Again.
From past ten days this door has been troubling us. I've put so many complaints and requests to get it fixed but no one came. I tried very hard trying to pull it. I saw the clock again. Time was running fast like bolt, today.
Fuck! I can’t be late.
Pulling the door with all my strength but the lock was stubbornly fixated in one position. Only one option was left. Scream. Call out for someone, if available. So, I did it.
"EXCUSE ME! HELP! IS ANYONE THERE?" I shouted, banging on the door.
"PLEASE HELP ME!" I shouted again.
I screamed while constantly trying to open the door, praying simultaneously maybe some fairy will whack their magic wand and this gate will open. I had almost lost hope but after a few seconds I heard footsteps. I shouted again and I could sense the footsteps getting clearer and faster.
"Who's there?" The man outside asked.
It must be a teacher. Oh! My lifesaver.
"Yes, sir. This door is stuck and it's not opening." I said in panic.
"Wait I'll try." He said and I could sense the pressure on the door.
We both were trying hard for the door open, one pulling from inside and other pushing from outside. My palms were almost red applying so much force on the door handle. But I could feel the door jerking a bit, I knew it would open soon enough. But we both didn’t really look at the consequences and foolishly put the pressure in the same direction.
The gate opened but the person pushing from outside landed right on top of me, as I was right behind it. Lying flat on the floor with a heavy body on top of me, I grumbled in pain and opened my eyes seeing someone unexpected. I was shaken to the core, with butterflies making a feast in my stomach.
Mr. Wilson’s rose with hands on either side of my head and our faces inches apart. The close proximity was enough for his cologne to surround my mind with a lovely mist of the fragrance. But realising the position we were in, he quickly stood up scooping back, while I couldn’t stand up, because my revival from the shock was yet to be confirmed.
He came towards me lending me a hand to get up, “Are you okay?”
“Yeah, t-thank you.” I held his hand getting up.
"Is the door always like this?" he asked, pointing at the gate.
"I don't know sir. I've put the fixing request in the office as well, but I didn’t get any response." I said, furrowing my eyebrows, getting embarrassed whenever I catch a glimpse of him looking at me.
"Hmm. Okay, don't worry I'll get it done." He said and I nodded, letting out a weak smile.
"Also, why are you late?" He asked furrowing his eyebrows.
“Actually sir, last night I was doing my work so I slept late and today I woke up a little late and my friends don't let me use the bathroom so I wasn't able to get ready quickly and then they all left me here saying that get ready quickly but when I got ready It was already past eight and I realised I'm late but when I hurried the door jammed but thank god you came and saved me otherwise, I would've gotten late." I said all of it one breath. I was rambling, something I do this when I'm tensed.
“Okay.” I looked up and caught a smile on his face and he left the room, hinting me to follow him behind.
I absolutely hate him.
Luckily because I entered after Mr. Wilson, I wasn’t asked any questions for my late advancement for the assembly. He stood at the right end, with a few teachers, standing out in the crowd. I don’t mind losing my focus, when he is the one, I’m distracted by. But I didn’t like the idea of him teasing me, so my dislike for him was higher.
"Where were you?" Bianca from behind whispered, when I stood in front of her in the hall.
"I'll tell you later." I replied.
"Have a nice day everyone." our teacher said, after giving the last announcements of the day.
"Thank you, ma'am!" Everyone said in unison.
After the dispersal, coming out of the hall I united with my friends. "Who asked you to shut the door so hard? You know, it got stuck again!" I almost shouted.
"It wasn't me. It was Ariana." Gretchen said, looking terrified seeing me angry.
"Why always me? I remember it was Bianca!" Ariana said with her eyes wide pointing at Bianca, a little scared.
"Shut up, I didn't do it, the fuck!" Bianca said irritated.
"Wait, if the door got stuck then how did you come out?" Rosé asked.
"Don't ask." I said making the most horrible face.
They all pulled me to the garden area forcing me to tell what happened. As uninterested I was, I still had to tell them the entire scene and as expected they all laughed.
Bastards!
"So, you guys almost kissed." Bianca said between her laughs.
"I wish I was there to encounter it." Rosé said pouting.
"Me too!" The others said in unison.
"Shut the fuck up y’all." I said going away.
I was so damn irritated. My anger and angst were at a stage where it was ready to be dropped out of my eyes in form of tears and I hate crying, making my eyes go puffy. Maybe it was a funny situation seen from a third person’s perspective. But me being the main protagonist, it was nothing even close to enjoyable.
Weirdly it felt strange because something happens in my stomach every time he's around, but the intensity was a lot higher today. Was it the close proximity? I was not sure, but my heart was beating unnecessarily fast. Especially when he gives me that teasing smile it irritates me and this tickling sensation starts.
I don't like it.
"Sorry, Briar." Ariana said, pulling me towards her. I hugged her, letting out an exhausted breath, resting my face on her shoulder.
"Let's not think about that. It's not like you deliberately wanted that to happen. Right?” She asked and I almost on the verge of tears, pouted.
“Aww, my baby. It was just a coincidence. Don’t think about it much." Ariana said trying to calm me, patting my back, hugging me tightly. I hummed and nodded.
I won’t think about him.
Can I?
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Briar's POVI held her tightly, burying my head further in her neck. I tried pouring out all that I had inside in the form of tears, but unexpectedly lamenting didn't change the dense feeling. I felt my chest filled, and the feeling of guilt was still the dominant one. Mom made me sit on the bed, taking a seat in front of me. The environment was a bit better now. Her soft hands touched mine as she made slight circles with her thumb on the top of my skin. I was calm and collected, definitely better than what I was a few hours ago."Since when do you him?" mom asked looking at me curiously.I gulped to make my dead dry throat a little soft. But even after trying to come up with an answer to her question, nothing but air came out of my mouth. I looked away, slightly biting my lip trying to gather some courage to answer."Uhm a f-few months." I said in a low voice."I see." Her usage of minimal words made my nervousness build up even more. I tried to hide it but who can possibly shield th
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Briar's POVMy mind was occupied, I couldn't think about anything. I felt like my inner self was becoming numb as even the smallest sound in the room was ringing in my ears. It was an odd sensation. The fear was too strong. But I was also worried for him at the same time. Yes, it was illogical of me to worry about anyone other than myself at that time, yet I was unable to stop thinking about it. My hands kept shaking as though my body had lost all of its vigour.I could hear heels stomping on the wooden floor and the room felt chilly. Because of the deathly silence, I was sure of what the rumours were about and could hear every word in the area. Everyone was at leisure and had a current ‘hot’ issue to discuss. But I couldn't possibly care less. I had something more important to think about. My parents.I have no idea how I will respond to their questions. It would be an understatement to say that I was frightened because the thought of not being able to look them in the eyes while we
Briar's POVNext morning, I woke up all refreshed, expecting that a new day would be better. Although my body hurt, my mind was renewed, giving away how lazy I felt. It appeared as though my weekend's fatigue was still with me. I still continued to push myself as the memory of the last weekend hit me. I missed our little date, just when I woke up.Gretchen tapped my shoulder from behind as I was combing my hair. I turned around and grinned at her in anticipation of her asking me to mend her shirt or inform her of whether or not her uniform was in good condition, but she gave out a different vibe with her expression.I arched my brows in an effort to decipher the meaning behind her look. She was horribly composed while also being shocked. I was frightened since I couldn't read her face. As my breath became uneasy, a sudden feeling of unease crept across my entire body."Gretchen, what is it?" I asked her and she looked at me as her breath became deeper.It felt as if she doesn't know h
Briar’s POVIt had been a few days to our argument and even now, whenever Gretchen finds me going to meet him, a sheer displeasure on her face sits like a crown. Obviously, she wasn’t satisfied with the conversation we had that day, but her situation was helpless, because I wouldn’t stop, and she couldn’t stop me either. Though, a huge part of me felt bad for not being able to talk to her nicely ever since, at least now my relationship wasn’t totally hidden.Gretchen managed to cover up for whenever I went missing and I was taking good advantage of it. I didn’t lie to myself and shamelessly admitted how this temporary arrangement in my head seemed like a beautiful fashion. I was succumbing Gretchen to my plan, and everything sat pretty in my brain and he was becoming a part of every word I had with Gretchen.Like a lost being in a dense forest following a sole energy in order to escape the chaos of life, I was floating in his addiction. Within a stretch of over a month and a half, Gar
Briar's POV"Are you crazy?!" Gretchen frowned at me. She clearly looked extremely annoyed.She was the one who knocked on the door and as assumed by my intuitions, she knew about me and Mr. Wilson's relationship. I wonder how? But if I ask her at the moment, she'd probably beat the shit out of me. Yes, she would, not even kidding. I had nothing to defend myself with, because no matter how much I try to normalize this, our relationship can never be accepted by people. At least not initially."Do you have any idea what you are doing?!" Gretchen asked angrily and my face was down in embarrassment. "Answer me, Briar! Your silence won't clear my confusion." Her voice reflected the motherly disappointment and sisterly concern.I struggled to find the right words to respond, but it was impossible. What was there left for me to say to her? Who is she to comment on my relationship, should I say? I would go ahead if I wanted her to scream and possibly murder me in the process. She was simmerin
Briar's POVSince it was the weekend, I was in the dorm. Never have I wanted a weekend to end so soon. However, this time was unique. I tried to meet him—but was unable to. I tried to see him—but was unable to. I kept checking my phone as I tried to get the will to text him but did not want to bother him. Why would he make time for me when he has so much else to do? Even though I know he cares for me, I do not want to bother him only because I missed him because he might be busy. A little too much.I sat on the desk, completing my history assignment because everyone had already submitted but Mrs. Jones had granted me two more days to submit my work because I was busy with other student council duties. Though I had time, I was determined to do my work before time as to maintain a good reputation in front of her.It had always been my utmost admiration for her that interests me in the subject even more. Perhaps my everlasting crush on her just never seems to stray me off my path. I stil
Briar’s POV“Do you like churros?”“Hm?” He looked up at me, while I was leaning on his desk in front of him. Almost ten o’clock late at night and he was still working in his office. He usually asks me to hang out with him, even when he has work, which makes my heart warm.“We can make them together.”“You want to?”“Hmm.” I smiled and he chuckled.“You need to stop being so cute.” I could not help but chuckle when he poked my nose. “Have you made them before?” He asked.“What if I say no?”“Then I’ll have to order a pizza as well.” He said making me chuckle and continued, “ugh, I love making you laugh.”“Do you?” I said and made my way over to him, while he just watched my movement and after reaching near him, I sat on his lap. Wrapping my arms around his neck and noticing his arms circling around my waist like an automatic movement made me blush.“I actually love it more, when you do this.” He said and I kissed his cheek.“Oh, this is my favourite part.”“Really?” I said and kissed