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Love that Kills More Sincerity
Amanda told me about her special skills. She wasn't the strongest fighter, but she and her brother, Nicor, had unique regeneration abilities. I wish she had told me about her little secret earlier, but I was amazingly glad that she was going to be all right. I stood in awe, watching the wounds disappear from her body. She shrugged and gave me a crooked smile."Those skills saved my life more than once. Unfortunately, I'm not immune to pain, even if I can withstand more punches."I looked at the bloody puddle around her and inhaled a ragged breath. "He hurt you pretty badly, didn't he?"Amanda chuckled dryly. "Landon might have been old, but he was also stupid. All those cuts he gave me slowed my heart rate to a nearly undetectable level. Since he could no longer hear it, he figured I was dead…" Then she frowned slightly and lowered her head. "I'm sorry, Nala. I thought I could handle him, but that son of a bitch was too strong…""Yes, he was." I smiled faintly. "But it no longer matte
Love that Kills That Crack in My Heart
Calvel took my empty glass and refilled it with wine. "You'll need it," he said, handing it over to me.I didn't object. My whole body was trembling. My emotions were all over the place, and I needed anything I could use to calm down. Calvel sat in a chair in front of me, studying me as if he hoped to find out how much I already knew."Don't do that," I told him, annoyed.He leaned back and raised his brows. "Do what?""Don't try to analyze me. I'm tired of games."His lips twisted into a wry smile. "I'm not trying to play games with you."A dry chuckle escaped me. "That's funny because right now, I feel like I've been played and manipulated from the moment I met you."He frowned. "Now that's unfair. I've never tried to manipulate you into something that would harm you."I groaned in frustration. "Do you even listen to yourself?""Nala, I've been only trying to protect you," he claimed, and, surprisingly, I knew that he wasn't lying about that."How about Ash?" I asked and heard his h
Love that Kills Lesser Evil
"What the hell was that?!" Amanda took those words right out of my… head since I doubted that I could actually say them out loud. I was unable to say anything at all. I simply stared at Calvel as he broke our kiss, his lips curving into a satisfied smirk."Well, that felt pleasant," he all but purred, putting my cheeks on fire.My trembling hand moved to my lips, and I traced the swollen contours with my fingers as I looked into his eyes. I felt the soft tingling, and I barely resisted an urge to drag my teeth through the plush skin. I think my mind might have been in a bigger mess than when I caused the quake. His touch and scent instantly reminded me of the sex dream I had with him as the main lead…I shook my head violently, chasing away all the strange, and highly inappropriate thoughts, before forcefully shifting my eyes to the cracked walls and smashed windows. Finally, my eyes found Amanda, and my lips instantly formed an apologetic smile."I'm so incredibly sorry, Amanda," I s
Love that Kills Numb
I stared at Ash with my lips parted and heart slowly shattering. He averted his eyes from me and shifted his attention to the window. "Are you seriously going to give me that ‘I'm not capable of loving’ kind of excuse?" I all but hissed.He ground his teeth and turned his eyes back to me. His irises were burning. The fire raged inside him, but it wasn't aimed at me. Then he drew a deep breath, putting out the flames in his eyes. "I didn't say that," he said coldly.My breath caught in my throat. "Is it about me then…?" I couldn't restrain my dry chuckle. "Am I not your type, or simply not good enough?" I asked, my voice barely above a whisper.He cursed and dragged his fingers through his hair. "It's nothing personal. I just…" He trailed off and swallowed. "Let's say that it would have come drastically in the way of my revenge."And yet he used the word "never," referring to loving me. I sealed my lips. I didn't want to continue this conversation, afraid that it would make me feel eve
Love that Kills Jealous
I stared at Calvel in shock. Perhaps I shouldn't dwell, but curiosity won, and I finally asked, "Did Ash know...?"Calvel nodded. "It was long after he told Estelle that nothing more would happen between them. Estelle was heartbroken, and I wanted to comfort her. I crossed the line I shouldn't have crossed with her… I resented Ash for engaging in a meaningless relationship, and then I repeated his mistakes by believing I could control her, even when I knew exactly what she was doing. She wanted to bring out jealousy in Ash, and perhaps I should have told her that it would have never worked on him. He can be many things, but he surely doesn't get possessive or jealous. In the end, I was the one who led to the whole tragedy."I inhaled shakily. "I felt her anger and pain on the island... Back then I..." I swallowed a lump in my throat. "I thought I was better than her—stronger. But when I heard Ash's words when he told me that he could never love me, I realized that I was wrong. I am ju
Love that Kills Their Plan
I hadn't seen Ash for a few days, but perhaps it was better this way. I grew stronger, more confident, and definitely in control. It helped me cope. I couldn't say that my heart healed or that I didn't think about Ash every moment I was left alone with my thoughts, but I was glad I could shift my focus elsewhere. I shifted it all to training my abilities with Calvel."You're doing great!" I heard him say as he threw another rock at me.I was blindfolded, standing in the center of the room. Calvel moved around me and threw stones my way. It was my task to hear it and smash it before it could hit me. I hadn't failed even once, no matter how fast my teacher moved or how strong his attack was."OK, that's enough. You can take off your blindfold," he said, and I could hear the pride in his voice.I untied the black strap that covered my eyes and grinned at him. "I'm getting better at this, and I didn't even need a lightsaber!""A what?!" Calvel clearly hadn't watched Star Wars.I laughed n
Love that Kills Weakened
The war was about to begin, and I was going to sit in the front seat while it happened. Formally, I was still Ash's fiancée, and if he sat on the throne, I would also be considered a ruler of this world. As dumb as it sounds, I felt a brief shiver of excitement hearing him refer to me as the Queen—his Queen. That feeling lasted a heartbeat before giving way to a painful stab in my chest. I would never become his Queen, because he wasn't mine. As soon as he sat on that damn throne, our fake relationship would end.Ash, Calvel, Nicor, and even Amanda seemed absolutely confident that the plan would work. I was certain that the Malachious family's army was well-trained and more than capable of defeating those who sided with King Morfran Tenebris. I knew that Ash and Calvel had been preparing for this moment for years, analyzing every detail and strategizing their scheme to perfection. So why could I hardly breathe from the restlessness that gathered within me? My instincts weren't simply
Love that Kills The Gut Feeling
Thirty minutes later, we were in the limousine on the way to the castle. Ash straightened in his seat, carefully glancing through the window and checking our surroundings."Do you expect anything bad to happen on our way?" I asked, a nervous smile curving my lips."You cannot be too cautious," he replied, and goosebumps flooded my skin.My instincts kept telling me that something dark was coming, and even when I rationalized it, telling myself that everything around Tenebris's castle was equally dark and dangerous, that feeling didn't go away. I didn't tell Ash about my premonitions because I wasn't even certain what I should warn him about. Besides, it was enough that one of us was wrapped in anxiety's tight clutches…While we were on the way, I kept concentrating on my breathing and controlling my emotions. Unfortunately, it did nothing to decrease my stress. Suddenly, I felt Ash's hand take mine and tangle our fingers."Relax, Nala," he said softly. "We might enter the ball without
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Love that Kills Heartbeat
NALA A week later Happiness. I think that was what I felt. Bliss and happiness. I woke up naked in our bed. Ash was lying behind me, his naked chest pressed against my back. One of his arms served as my pillow, while the other casually rested on my waist. I would never get tired of waking up like that. I could feel his cool breath brushing the crook of my neck, and a shiver traveled down to my lady parts. "Is my Queen getting aroused?" Ash purred into my ear, and I bit my lip to stifle a moan. "I'm not your Queen yet," I told him, pretending that his voice didn't increase the humidity between my thighs. "You have a crown on your lovely head in my eyes already," he said, kissing my neck. "I think I'm hungry." His arms wrapped around me, pulling me close and melting my body with his. His teeth grazed my skin as I shuddered in anticipation. "How does it feel?" I asked him all but breathlessly. He chuckled and nibbled on my earlobe. "How does what feel?" "Drinking blood," I said.
Love that Kills The Fate
NALA"Wake up, angel. Please, wake up." Ash's voice slowly pulled me out of unconsciousness. I opened my eyes and saw his worried face brighten up with a smile. He held my head on his lap and stroked my hair, and the relief I felt when I saw him made my whole body shudder in sweet relief.Tears gathered in my eyes. "Ash," I murmured, my voice cracking. "You're here… This isn't a dream."He shook his head and chuckled. "Of course I'm here. I had to save you." He leaned down and kissed my forehead.As I retrieved my awareness, anxiety flooded me. "W-where is Drystan?" I stuttered, looking around.Ash pointed at the fountain, and the stone soaked in blood. "He is gone," he said, but I heard restlessness in his tone. Then I felt the ground shaking and small stones dropping from the ceiling.I swallowed and looked into Ash's eyes. "What's going on?"He stroked my hair and took a deep breath. "I need to get you out of here. Calvel should be close to the temple." Before I could say anything,
Love that Kills To Death
ASHWe found the temple, but it wasn't the map that brought me here; it was her. I could sense Nala from miles away as we moved through the wasteland. I ran ahead, leaving the map to Calvel and the rest while I rushed to the temple of Belial. I was the fastest, and I needed to be there as soon as I could. I had to stop this—stop Drystan and stop the apocalypse.I burst the door open, and my eyes instantly found her. Nala was lying by the stone fountain in the center of the hall. Her entire neck and most of her angelic face were covered with blood. The wounds on her neck were fresh and still bleeding. That cunt, whom I used to call my brother, fed from her. He caused her unimaginable pain…My blood turned into molten lava. Fury stormed inside me, ready to erupt. My claws were out and prepared to rip the flesh of those who harmed her. I saw tears falling down her pale cheeks, blending into the streams of her blood. "Ash," she murmured, her voice barely audible, but I could still hear he
Love that Kills The Curse
NALA I begged Drystan to stop, but he didn't. Then I begged him to kill me, but he only chuckled through his teeth as he sucked my blood. Finally, I embraced the sweet darkness around me. Losing awareness was my bitter reward for getting through another night of torture. I drifted through nothingness until the vague sounds reached my ears. I floated toward them, toward the soft light that suddenly opened in front of me. I saw spiral stairs carved in stone. Someone ran up. I couldn't see the face. I could only hear the clanking of the heels hurriedly hitting the stone steps. I followed that person and quickly found myself in a castle tower. The one whom I followed stopped by the window and untied the strap of a black cloak. As the heavy cloth fell down, it revealed a familiar, black-haired woman—Estelle. She wore a white cotton dress covered with blood stains. Her black hair was untied and tousled, and her slender hands and face were dirtied by bloody mud. She looked at her trembling
Love that Kills My Light
ASHIt had been two days since I had been losing my mind. How could I make such a foolish mistake?! How could I not predict that one of our allies might have been followed?! Drystan and Baltazar killed one of the groups that wanted to side with us. They tracked them, murdered the entire pack, and forced their Alpha to give them our location before they ripped his heart out.Drystan knew that he would never defeat us in our territory, but what he had planned wasn't a surprise, full-on attack. He only wanted Nala. I didn't know why at first, but then I learned about the ancient ritual that could give the demon's spirit enough strength for him to be reborn. The strength he needed was in Nala's blood. Now, for two days, I sensed her agony and couldn't do a fucking thing about it."Did you find that old fox?" I asked Calvel as soon as he entered the meeting room.The grim look on his face couldn't mean anything good. "I found that fucker, Jarrod, in two pieces. Someone decapitated him—a cl
Love that Kills Making a Choice
When I regained consciousness, my whole body rattled from the piercing cold. Drystan wasn't lying. Whatever he did when he bit me filled me with raw fire, burning my insides to ashes. Once the pain pushed me to madness, I wished for death. I thought I had died when the relief finally flooded my senses. But I was still alive, and as the scorching flames left me, the slightest breath of wind sent icy needles to prickle my skin.The shackles were still on my wrists, and the heavy chains restrained my movement. The skin around the cuffs was torn and constantly bleeding. I couldn't stand up or even lift my head. I wish I could say that I survived the previous night, but I couldn't even call it surviving. Drystan let me breathe only to finish this three-day ritual.The realization filled me with a new wave of pain… I should die. Not because it was remarkable that I was still in the world of the living, but because only my death could stop the apocalypse. Without my blood, Belial would not b
Love that Kills Pain
I opened my eyes and winced from the pain. Every part of my body hurt, and the fact that I was lying on the cold stone ground wearing nothing but a partially torn nightgown made the pain more vivid and overwhelming. My hands were shackled in chains so heavy that I barely mustered the strength to lift them. The chain was bolted to a large stone at the foot of some kind of sculpture. Struggling, I rose to a sitting position and focused my eyes on my dimly lit surroundings. The place where I was, resembled ruins. I could see broken columns and crushed rocks lying around a spacious, round hall with a dome-shaped ceiling.I turned around and took a close look at the sculpture next to me. It was at least seven feet tall and resembled a terrifying man-like creature with massive horns on its head. His huge arms were armed with stone-shaped claws, while his feet melted into the center of the podium. The stone where my chain was bolted was part of a ring, placed within a three-foot radius of th
Love that Kills Our Bond
I stared at the mesmerizing mark on my neck and couldn't help the grin that curled up my lips. I brushed it with my fingertips, and it seemed to faint under my touch and then reappear once I took my hand away. "Do you like it?" I heard Ash's voice coming from behind me. It didn't startle me as much as before. This time, I could feel his presence seconds before he spoke. I turned around to face him. "Your mark looks beautiful," I said. He chuckled and touched the spot on my neck. "Actually, it's not mine, but ours. It represents our union." Then he leaned down and kissed it, sending a wave of pleasure down my body. "Don't do that," I breathed. "Do what?" he teased. "This?" He traced the mark with the tip of his tongue. I moaned, fisting the collar of his half-unbuttoned shirt. Then I forced him to face me. "You are not playing fair," I told him, frowning. "This mark is… extremely sensitive." He grinned. "I know. As a matter of fact, from now on, I will know your feelings. I will
Love that Kills Weapon
A few hours later, I was sitting in my chamber and combing my shower-damp hair in front of the mirror. Was I truly the only one able to stop Belial? But how was I supposed to do that? Should I attack the Drystan-Belial duo the way I attacked everyone in the auditorium? But the last time I used that power, it drained me, and even now, I didn't fully regain my strength. Perhaps I should concentrate the stream of power on Drystan and Belial without dispersing it, but what if that still was not enough? What then? As a descendant of an Archangel, I could only possess a mere percentage of his power. Could I truly be a match for the true fallen, even in his weak, spiritual form? I groaned in frustration, tossing my hairbrush on the table."You are worrying too much. It's overwhelming, isn't it?" Ash suddenly appeared in my mirror, and I almost screamed."Don't do that!" I frowned at him. "Make a sound at least!"He chuckled and stepped closer, taking a few strands of my hair between his fing
