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Go kill yourself

Author: Happy
last update Last Updated: 2020-07-21 02:35:54

Flashback 7 years ago

There's no one else to be blamed but himself.

It's all his fault.

From how his mother had lied to him because she knew he's a fool who's going to believe any word that she would say because he had loved her.

His father who had hidden the truth from him because he knew he's weak and incapable of handling the pain of knowing the truth.

To Justine who had left him because he had treated him like someone who's less than human.

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Temilola Munah
oh Ray... he really went through a really rough time
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Deezory
What happened to his mom
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Deezory
🥺😭Ray... my heart is aching for him
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