Chapter 4: A Secret Love
Lola can’t describe how she feels right now, she is feeling happy, though her secret trips to the city has been unsuccessful, and last night turned out to be a disaster, she is glad she met Matthew, whatever his last name is, she couldn’t forget his handsome face, and what a gentleman he was.
She sat in front of her computer and pulled up her baby daddy file. She typed in his name and started ticking the criteria boxes, and wrote at the bottom of the page, perfect Match the chosen one.
She has finally found the right one, the problem is how will she see him again, she was so embarrassed earlier she couldn’t even ask his full name, could hardly utter the word thank you, should she go back to his apartment? she knows the address now, but what reason does she have to try to go back?
Maybe he is a frequent goer at the bar where she was at last night, that is her best bet, she’ll try to go back hopefully they’ll meet again. And maybe do what needs to be done!
She stood in front of the mirror took off her clothes and checked herself out, she doesn’t look so bad!
Actually she looks really sexy if she was to be asked, she is lean, toned in the right places, what is not to like about her? She smiled at herself and proceeded to take a shower.
It is Sunday, time with the girls, but it is still early, they usually meet at the shop around lunch time,
so she has time to kill, she can go early and lend the guys a hand in serving coffee, Sunday mornings
are usually very busy, everyone seems to want to have breakfast outside, so she will be useful there today, and also she can check on the menus for the next event they will be catering to, this one is going to have a huge crowd, so they need to add more to the menu and the host has sent in some request as well. She and the girls can later finalize the list for the food and beverage, the dessert will be her own responsibility, all desserts, she will be baking, especially the centerpiece cake. The decorations are lily’s forte, all flowers and decoration are from her shop she just need to know what theme the host’s wants and she will do it. It’s gonna be a very busy week they have 3 more weeks to prepare, she will will only have time to sneak out to Manhattan on Friday or Saturday evenings. Her partners has totally no idea, of what she’s been doing, And this made her smile. She is feeling like a young teenager going after a young man she likes.
The coffee shop is now totally full, she greeted everyone seated at the outside tables, they know her by name already and she knows most of them as well, she proceeded inside and greeted her crew, she always loved to be the one serving food and drinks when she is there and when she has time to help, she takes this time to get to know the customers, she is one chatty gal, and they appreciate her for that.
She stayed downstairs until almost lunch time, when lily entered and like a celebrity waved at everyone in the shop while shouting a loud hello to everybody, Lily is the youngest in the group and the most innocent acting one, she has this sweet personality and very jolly, she makes everyone smile, no wonder people flock in her shop for all kinds of flowers and plants, she knows how to make a sale, you enter her shop in a somber face she will not allow you to leave without a smile, she is that kind of person, her happiness is contagious. They proceeded upstairs and called Samantha to Pick up something for lunch on her way there, but she told them to wait a little bit longer she has to drop by the hospital first to check on the kids, Samantha is that kind of Doctor, even though she knows her patients are perfectly taken care of by other physicians she takes time to go say hello even on her days off. Not long after, Katie arrived with a huge smile on her face, “you seem to be in the mood?’, lola asked, “uh huh” she replied, Katie and lola have been best friends way before they met lily and Samantha, they are totally opposite when it comes to personality, Katie is a carefree girl since they were kids, a que sera sera kind of personality, Maybe because of her wealthy back ground, Lola is simple and timid, disciplined and calculated in everything. But it work for them, they had grown to respect and love each other for who they are.
“What is this thing that is making you happy girl”? Lily asked Katie, but they were interrupted when Samantha entered the room, with a huge box of pizza in her hand. Their once a week treat to themselves, a big box of pizza and a bucket of buffalo wings, and the raspberry tart from downstairs.
They set everything down on the conference table, in the room and started, digging in, when Katie announced he just broke up with Brad, her present boyfriend, “You seem happy for someone who just broke up with someone” said Samantha, but it is no longer unusual to hear her breaking up with
someone, it happens almost every week, she’ll switch boyfriends like she switches her shoes, nothing new actually, “ Well, actually I had to because the man I have been waiting for is finally back, can you imagine, He is still single, we are meant to be” she said with a twinkle in her eyes and with a giggle. “well poor man, someone you have been waiting for just to break his heart”? Said lily, “ No, no, no this one is for real I promise” she replied while raising her palm in the air. “It is true he is gonna be the one”. “Uh huh you’ve been saying that for the past fifteen years”. And they laughed in unison, But they can see her eyes are quite dreamy, “well we can’t wait to meet him,” Lola said. “Well how about finding someone that Lola would be interested in”, said Samantha, and they all laughed because they’ve done that quite a few times in the past and it always ended in a disaster, her friends understand but they like to tease her once in a while with her single by choice mantra. Lola is laughing inside,
if only her they knew what she’s been up to. “ We never know she might be hiding a secret love” said Katie and they all laughed!!!
They spent the afternoon, going over the plans for their next event, and once they were done, they gathered their stuffs headed out for Porky’s, their favorite barbecue house in town. After dinner and some drinks they will then go their separate ways and head home. It had become a regular part of their lives to get together every Sunday. Lola was thinking that once lily gets Married things will change, and soon Katie or Samantha they will surely be next they will all get married, except her!
They said their goodbyes, and they started to walk in different directions, their homes are all in a walking distance from there. And as Lola walks towards her house she couldn’t stop thinking of Matthew. What is she gonna do, her only option right now is to take her chances and go back to
the bar again, hopefully he is a regular there, and maybe she can finally accomplish what she’s been wanting to do. What will her friends think of her if they find out what she’s been doing and planning to do, will they think of her as cheap and desperate, well she already think of herself as cheap and desperate, what difference does it make if they think she is. What is important is her goal, she has to achieve it. For sure once they find out, which they definitely will if she get pregnant successfully, They will still love her and will understand her. And she is sure of that.
As she was about to retire for the night she remembered Katie’s words, Secret love! What if she’s hiding a secret love! If they only what she is really hiding!
Friday afternoon, Lola said goodbye to her crew earlier than usual, She has to go home early and get ready, she plans to take an earlier train tonight instead of taking the 7 pm schedule like she usually did in the past weeks she will take the 6, she just want to go early and do some walking around the city to calm her nerves before she goes to the spot. While she was getting dressed she looked at herself again in the mirror making sure that everything is perfect, she wants to make an impression and make sure that she is attractive enough not to be refused. She smiled back at her in the mirror, she actually looks good, she never looked at herself this way before, but she realized she can be sultry if she wanted to. Tonight she will give her best, hopefully he will be there.
Once the elevator closed behind them, He started to kiss her deeply and she responded with the same intensity and this pleased them both and as they entered his apartment and closed the door she responded to his kiss she is making him feel that she likes what he is doing, she is finding pleasure in this, she dropped her purse and wrapped both her arms around him, as his arms started caressing her and exploring her body, she moaned in pleasure. Matthew carried her to the bedroom while their lips are sealed in a kiss, she gently laid her down and kept on kissing her harder, their heartbeats are so fast and loud it seems to fill up the room, She is getting hotter and flushed and she has this desire to be held and touched, their lips parted for just a few moments to take a deep breath and for Matthew to take his clothes off, she watched him do it and she is enjoying the view, she allowed him to take hers off in silence and he seemed pleased
It was a busy Monday at the coffee shop, Lola’s schedule to man the kitchen are on Mondays, she make sure everything is ready all ingredients are prepared and nothing is missing, It is very important that everything is complete a little extra is always preferable, she doesn’t have to do the baking herself anymore she already has staff in the kitchen and she has a baker and a cook employed already but she still prefers to man the kitchen on Mondays, she schedules this day for cheesecake making, She loves making cheesecakes, she has her own twist to it, she has a few recipes, but her favorite is her own lime cheesecake, she loves the aroma of lime and with the little bit of tang on the cheesecake makes it special, she loves everything citrusy, so it’s not a wonder to find all kinds of lemon and lime flavored products in the shop, and customers loved them, another favorite of hers and people come to the shop for it is her key lime pie, she
No matter how busy Lola gets she can’t stop thinking of Matthew and every night she can’t help herself from thinking of him and fantasize of the things he can do to her in bed, of how he caressed her and touched her in places that gave her so much pleasure, as if he knew her body well enough that he knows the right places. Everyday she desires to be with him, and the feeling of him beside her. She had started daydreaming of him already. She feels like a teenager who just had her first time. She can’t understand the desire that he has for the man, it is not suppose to be like this, she is not suppose to enjoy it too much, she scolds herself sometimes and rebukes the fantasizing but she just can’t help it, fortunately the guy is too charming and really good in bed, and she likes it! But she constantly reminds herself that this is temporary. When she is done it will stop.
Katie was at the coffee house when Lola arrived at nine, She seems to be a little chippier than her usual self, they hugged and kissed, then she sat down opposite her and they chatted over coffee, Katie reiterated what she had said on her text earlier, that she wants her to make the cake herself because it is for a special dinner, she said dreamily. Lola laughed at her friends childish attitude, she looks really silly. “Of course I shall do what you ask your highness” she said still laughing. And what is this special dinner that you seem to be so excited about hmmm!! anything I need to know? Something you wanna share? Tidbits here and there?” “well, not really, I don’t want to spoil anything. do you remember what I told you last time? He is finally back, My parents and I are invited over for dinner, actually originally it was just my mom and dad, but I asked my mom to mention that I
Katie’s uncontained excitement for the dinner invitation for tonight is oozing from her every pore, she never realized how much Theo meant to her until now, she never felt so excited to see an old friend like this before, and she definitely knows why she feels that way, somehow Theo has always been special in her heart since their Manhattan days. And She is hoping he will feel the same too. Their families have always been close since those days when her dad and Mr. Adler were working in the same banking firm in Wall street, they used to have a residence in Manhattan her dad stays there all week and she and her mom preferred to stay in their family home in Stamford. She and her mom would drive on Friday afternoons after school to visit he
Matthew left Manhattan early in the afternoon to avoid the Friday afternoon traffic, and he has been looking forward to visiting his parents new home, He feel a little bit Guilty because hes been back for a few weeks but has not found the time to visit, His work had demanded so much of his time since he is new to his company. But tonight he is hoping that he could make his parents happy, It’s been a really long time since they had a real family dinner, they’ve been visiting him often in the city the past weeks, but it is always a very short time, but this time he will spend the weekend with them. He is
It is already Friday afternoon and Lola has been anxiously waiting for a message or a call from Matthew but until this moment she has not received any. She is feeling a bit annoyed and frustrated with herself for expecting the man to keep in touch with her, he doesn’t know her at all, and it was just sex, nothing special at all, a one night stand, and she reminded herself that one night stand doesn’t get repeated, that is why it is called as such. And why is she bothered by him not messaging, she already got what she wanted, all she needs to do now is wait if she got pregnant from the encounter.
Katie needed to call Mrs. Adler right away, How could she have forgotten the details regarding food allergies? But it is still early thankfully, at least now Lola will have an opportunity to check out the venue herself and most of all to meet the Hosts. Thankfully The Lady has always been accommodating specially when it is her who is making the request. And on top of that she was informed that Theo has been talking about taking a break from the city this week end so He might just be there on Saturday.The thought of Theo just bring her girlish feelings of joy, she can’t help her excitement every time his name is spoken of. She is just so giddy happy. She thought it would be such a pleasant surprise for Lola to introduce him finally to her if they will get to see him this Saturday. The man of her dreams the one she had been speaking of for so long. And it will just be fitting to have Lola meet him first since she is her best friend in all the world. The sister she always wanted.
Lola knows their presence had made so much difference in her life today, Their happy and worried faces that greeted her earlier and their tight hugs had opened a window in her darkening world letting a warm ray of sunshine in. That overwhelming sadness and heaviness in her heart is somehow alleviated with the presence of those three. What would life be like for her without them? They enable her to to always put one foot in front of the other.Life has been tough and rough but having her friends had made it bearable specially not having any family around. She pushed herself to stand up and move around do a little tidying up moving and keeping herself busy would take things of her mind. She picked up the cups they used for tea and brought it to the sink, it warms her heart to know her friends remember her mom through the sweet tea. This makes them a family indeed. Once done with her cleaning she went up the stairs to her bedroom, she intended to do some work on her laptop but real
Katie was the last one to leave, they didn’t talk a lot, but Lola knows her friends understands her silence. They are aware that when she keeps things to herself, she is struggling and trying to work things out, that she is in the process of gathering herself together.Now that they are all gone, she realized that, making her friends worry was selfish on her part, and this makes her feel really guilty, she didn’t realize early on that she will make anyone worry. When she got up this morning all she had been feeling was her frustration, and hopelessness, she felt suffocated that is why she felt the need to go out and get some air, her mind had wondered so far that she did not bring anything with her, not even her phone, she took a light sweater and got out the door and just started walking to any direction to where her feet chooses to take her, she walked and walked thinking of all that she had done in the past weeks, was everything had been worthless and pointless? Will nothing come
Its been more than a month since She and Matthew had met last, but until now Lola is not getting a positive result, she’s been getting a little bit depressed, she will again try it this morning, because again according to what she has read online it is best to check in the morning when you just wake up, so she went again and peed on the stick, she sat their and waited for both lines to show, but again just like the result yesterday, she stared at the stick in like forever, praying for a second line to form, until her eyes got tired and started to blur with tears, Her heart again disappointed and broken, she let herself cry, she stood under the shower, and turned the cold water on top of her, and she sobbed like a little girl, she cried like when she lost her mother, she cried under that shower for a very long time, She prayed but how come it didn’t happen, a lot of girls do it once and they get pregnant not even wanting the baby, but her! she wanted an
Lola had been taking things really seriously for the past two weeks, Matthew had sent him a few messages already, but she has not given him a definite answer yet, just as she had wanted, she will stick to her plan wait and see! She has the urge to say yes sometimes, and it requires so much will power from her to prevent herself from replying yes. She is finding it really hard to refuse the mans invitation.There are times when she wanted to see him again really badly, she admits to herself that she misses him most of the time, there are no days that she doesn’t think of him. But she is always wary of what would be the outcome if she lets go of her emotions. She will never want to be like her mother. You fall in love and end up suffering, that will not happen to her. For now, she will concentrate with the business, she will figure out the next step when she gets there. As they usually say. You cross the bridge when you get there. She will think what to do next depending on the result o
When morning came, like last time she woke up to the smell of brewing coffee. “this guys likes his coffee” she thought.She got up and got herself ready to go. She already knows her way around the apartment so, she went to the kitchen directly and indeed he already has breakfast ready. This impresses her every time.She said good morning to him. “Breakfast is ready, I hope you are starving” he said with a smile, she looked at the table and there was already an array of breakfast stuff prepared like he prepared for an army. He got eggs, bacon and already had fresh baked croissant delivered to him early. And fresh bread. There are also a selection of yogurt set out.“Are you having people over for breakfast?” she asked “No! Just us! Why?” He asked .She gestured to the pile of food on the table.“Oh, well I don’t know what you might want to have so I just put out and prepared some choices” he explained “come on sit down and eat” as she pulled out a chair for her
Matthew was very vocal of her admiration of Lola tonight. She wasn’t wearing anything special she was actually wearing that Zara dress they bought a few days ago, she though it would be an appropriate time to wear it. Sexy but not too much. Deep inside she is now at war with herself, The man is just so gorgeous and sweet and as much as she is holding herself from admiring him she can’t help it. When dinner was over, he again held her hand as they walked outside back to his car, and before he opened the door, he faced her and held her chin up to him and gave her kiss, it was a gentle unhurried kiss, a non verbal invitation to be with him tonight. She responded willingly.Once they arrived at his apartment, This time there was no hurry. Matthew making small talks, and this time she was not timid at all, she actually surprised herself how she can engage in such conversations Their topic are nothing serious, they talked about the food in the restaurant, if h
Thursday afternoon and Matthew is debating inside his head if he should send a text or should try to call Lola, what is he gonna say to her, without sounding too excited to see her again.He finally settled with a text, and to make it more casual and not too friendly, he did not even say hello,He settled for the more casual “Hi are you gonna be at the pub tomorrow night?!” and hit sendnow he waits!!!–
Lily and Lola had gone to Manhattan to pick up some materials for their next catering events, and they know that Katie is also there to pick up something for her mom, so the two decided to send her a message if they could meet later for a little girl shopping in time square. They received an immediate reply from her saying she will be able to meet them around two pm, they invited her to join them for lunch, since they were finished with their chores early, but Katie declined she said she will meet them at two, in Time Square. They didn’t bother to insist.Katie was actually on her way to lunch with Theo, they agreed to meet at a restaurant near his office. She decided to go to the antique shop downtown first to pick up her early gif