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Love Me, Alpha Innocent
Alvin's eyes were devoid of any rage.Only anguish and disbelief that he was the cause of his child were no longer in this world."Be straightforward about all this..." he continued slowly as he spat blood from his mouth and cleaned the edge of his mouth with the back of his palm.When I looked up, Kevin had a wound on his face as well, although it didn't appear to be very deep.I poked him. "I'll speak."Kevin's gaze was fixed on me as if he wanted to make sure I was okay. He let go of me and stood back after a time of observing.I turned to face Alvin. "I'll tell you everything you want to know."When Alvin opened his mouth, no sound came out."The child. I considered having it." That must have been his primary worry. "But you never gave me a chance.""Do you remember what happened at your Grandfather's place that day?"His pupil contracted abruptly as if he had been hit hard."That day..."“Yes.”That day's sadness was still fresh in my mind. The torture I will always remember in m
Love Me, Alpha Perhaps
I was worried that Kevin would see through my cunning ruse, but I was equally worried that he wouldn't.I hope that in his mind, I will always be a good person, deserving of understanding and affection. I also hope that he recognizes my nasty character and continues to treat me as such.For a long time, I was conflicted, but I decided to keep the lie hidden for the time being.I didn't feel sorry for Alvin. Sometimes too much love can lead to severe hatred, but mine didn't.I simply lost interest in him. I don't care what happens to Alvin. I simply want to be happy.I wasn't sure Kevin would accept me for who I was.It's only that I went too far this time, and I exact my vengeance.Stopping my medicine abruptly resulted in the destruction of Kevin's months of hard work, and I became far more shattered than before. I might have died if Alvin had kept me in his custody for a few more days.The weather was pleasant. Kevin hung a chair in the courtyard that was large enough for two indivi
Love Me, Alpha A Hundred Dreams
Maybe it was love.I was terrified to embrace the love.Every night, Kevin would read books in my room until I fell asleep before going to bed. The most recent bedtime book was a book about some discoveries that I didn't comprehend. He had casually read it to me.When the sleepiness set in, I felt the back of his palm gently touch my face, followed by a sigh.Half-asleep, I asked him what was wrong.It seemed like a millennium until he said, "Will you also give him carefully selected gifts?"Who is 'him'... Alvin?I shook my head instinctively, half-asleep. "He's gotten a few from me. I stopped since he didn't enjoy it."It had been so long that I couldn't recall what I had given Alvin. Most of them were small items like ties, socks, or handkerchiefs, but I recall him remarking, "What's the point of giving me a gift if it's my money?"I was about to counter that I didn't spend his money when he said, "It looks terrible."So I swallowed my words and said, "All right."It's clearly not
Love Me, Alpha Wrong Medicine
Facing the tombstone, I instantly realized that my entire life's pain and happiness were unimportant.In the face of death, everything is a particle of dust.Those who have achieved peace should no longer be troubled by worldly occurrences."Thank you," I said to Kevin after a lengthy period of silence."Jill. Love and family may have let you down, but remember that you were born out of love in the beginning," he murmured quietly.Love... Will someone care about me?Mother may have temporarily loved me, or perhaps he loved that man and his child. It didn't matter who the child was.Alvin had never loved me before. He may think he loves me now, but his love is based on custom and jealousy.Kevin...I was aware of it. He didn't have any reason to love me.When I think about it, I've spent my entire life as a failure.Looking downcast, I inquired, "The graveyard next to it appears to be vacant. Can I get it?"For a little while, Kevin was distracted and inquired, "Would you would like to
Love Me, Alpha Ant's Before the Alpha
The doorbell rang before I could even recover from Kevin's unexpected actions.I went to the door to answer it. I observed a stately old man in a wheelchair with a severe expression, followed by four men who appeared to be bodyguards, on the monitor.I was tense.I could tell from a glimpse that the folks at the door were important people, but I wasn't sure whether I should open it. The guards appeared scary. I was concerned that they would rush in and do anything to Kevin."Open the door, I'm looking for Kevin," the older man said.They appeared to have malicious intentions. I was a little worried. "Excuse me, but are you...""I am his grandfather!" he exclaimed.Then... Old Li? How could he have appeared so unexpectedly?When I opened the door, the bodyguards pulled him inside. He was in his seventies, with white hair and haughty eyes that stared me down.Only in a nook could I shrink."Where has Kevin gone?" He inquired coldly.His expression made me quiver. "Sir is upstairs," I ex
Love Me, Alpha Again
I was uncomfortable delving into other people's family matters, and I had so many questions in my head that I didn't know where to begin."Sorry for having you experience this kind of stuff again," Kevin muttered seriously as we sat in the Japanese restaurant and locked the door to our room."No, I'm sorry as well."I'm not sure what Alvin and Kevin did to enrage an elderly man, but based on what they were saying, it had something to do with it."Do you...have anything you'd like to ask?" He inquired.I shook my head and nodded. I had so many questions I wanted to ask, but by the time they were on the tip of my tongue, none of them seemed particularly significant."Will you be in trouble for what occurred today?" I finally inquired.Kevin did not say yes or no, but rather, "I can handle it."That would be a yes. I was downcast.I'm always causing him problems.But I couldn't keep my emotions from him."Don't hold it against yourself," he said. "Even without you, it would happen sooner
Love Me, Alpha A Star
"Alvin." Kevin was interrupted."Breaking and entering is illegal. You should leave right now.""It's not trespassing because Jill handed me the key." Alvin turned to face Kevin. "What are you scared of? Are you worried that our old love is still alive and well? Or that he is merely grateful and reliant on you?""Has Jill told you he likes you yet?" He let out a small laugh. "You see, beautiful creatures are always devious, enticing you into ecstasy without making any promises.""But he's already said it to me. He's said it a thousand times to me. You can never compare in that area."I couldn't take it any longer.My genuine feelings for him were now his source of pride.For me, all of this talk about change was just ego."Sir, don't worry about him."I led Kevin into the bedroom. The cello and the letter box were prominently displayed. I handed the cello to Kevin and picked up the box on my own.I was aware that Alvin was following us, but I refused to look at him.He blocked the do
Love Me, Alpha A Star For My Beloved
It took a few days for me to figure out what he meant by "okay."As usual, we went for a walk after dinner. Kevin had specifically requested that a coat be brought. I assumed it was to avoid the cold, but I didn't anticipate him to accompany me to the summit of the mountain, which took more than an hour due to our frequent breaks.I walked for less than 30 minutes on my own before he lifted me up behind his back.There was an unoccupied balcony at the top of the mountain where a telescope and tent had been set up ahead of time, and I had a notion of what he was up to.The tent was large, carpeted for comfort, and stocked with basic essentials.Kevin requested that I take a break. He built a fire outside and torched a saucepan of boiling water.I assumed he was well-cared for and never touched dirt or creek water. I wasn't expecting him to be so swift at his work and have such a calm and leisurely demeanour that simply watching him construct a fire was a pleasure.It was already gettin
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Love Me, Alpha Final Chapter
The evening before our departure, I was preparing in my room. The baggage had been pre-checked and consisted of small souvenirs.Kevin bought a little duplex flat there with a view of the Great River when you opened the window.I don't like living in a big house. He joked that I didn't live a rich life since I married into a privileged family and didn't know how to enjoy it.I told him to enjoy himself and that he didn't have to pry into my small quilt if he didn't want to.He bullied me, yanked me up, and threw me on the bed, stating that the kitten was becoming bad.I purposefully tugged his shirt with my toes. "Would you like to give it a shot?""I have sharp teeth but my body is soft..."His gaze was fierce, and it lingered a few times on my waist, telling me to behave appropriately.Why should I be proper if the night would be long?"Sir..." I squatted and walked over to him, nibbling his chin and holding to his neck. " You're not capable? Are you sterile?""Sir" was fantastic.I
Love Me, Alpha After Everything
I was anticipating him to pounce on me... and praying he would.I knew deep down how much I craved his touch, but I was reluctant to show it for fear of upsetting him.But he responded calmly. "Because you will feel uneasy. And it's not good for your health," he held me desperately."I would like to break you, but I'm not ready. Good things are most beautiful when they're broken."I didn't exactly understand what he said. I'm too tired.But that's fine. I didn't hear it, so I'm going to interpret it as "I love you."…Summer has come and gone. A few droplets of rain fell and then the air became suddenly frigid.Adam's exhibition took place at the beginning of November. Before leaving, Kevin gave me a pair of knitted gloves to wear. When I put on my clothes, I noticed that the brooch was a pair and that his tie and my bow tie were the same colour."I'm powerless to stop myself. My little rose is too charming," He remarked as he kissed the back of my ear. "There will be a lot of young,
Love Me, Alpha Playing With Fire
I was still surprised by Adam's feelings for Nora, so I didn't hesitate to tell Kevin about it before heading to bed."I don't think it's unexpected," he said as he encircled me from behind to blow dry my hair."Why?""What happened isn't uncommon since fate is irrational."He talked as if he hadn't said anything. "At first glance, Nora appears to be difficult to pursue." I raised my head and rubbed his face with my half-wet hair."You're also difficult to catch." Kevin bowed his head and kissed my brow. "It's also hard to raise.""At one point, something always goes wrong, as if somebody is worried I'll be too healthy." I exhaled a sigh.Kevin sighed as well, helpless. "At my age, I watch you in anxiousness every day, and if I continue to do so, either good or bad things will startle me sooner or later."I was filled with remorse. "You can't hold it against me...""I don't blame you." He put me into the quilt after blow-drying my hair. "I'm sorry, I discovered myself a little teenage
Love Me, Alpha Towards Happiness
Kevin did not respond right away. After a while, he looked down at me and said, "It wasn't that I don't want to, it is indeed that I am frightened.""I am worried you will realize that he actually loves you and is willing to abandon his old personality in order to become a better individual for you."His hand caressed my cheeks."I said I wouldn't let you go again, and I won't give you freedom again, but if..."He didn't seem to be able to speak further, so I completed the remainder of the lines for him in my head.—If you really want to start over with him, I'll allow you."Liar." I took his hand with my uninjured hand, grasped his hand fiercely, and nipped it hard."Saying this after saying you will love me forever and never leave me again. Liar."Kevin was unexpectedly bitten. He didn't say anything, but his countenance was clearly perplexed.After biting, I started to regret it again. I appeared to have used too much force. My teeth left such a significant mark.Will he mistake me
Love Me, Alpha Over?
"There is one thing I didn't mention to you. In truth, your cooking isn't particularly appetizing."Alvin suddenly shifted the subject, even laughing.But I have always let you cook since I prefer looking at your scuffed hands."I understand Kevin isn't like me. He would love and care for you, whilst I am a jackass who only wants to watch you weep.""You made the correct decision by leaving me."I had no idea why he would be telling me this."I'm well aware that my cooking isn't particularly tasty. I'm always disappointed when you eat so little every time."Now that I was talking about the past, it felt like a dream."I've tried countless times, but I just can't seem to get it right. I'm using the same ingredients and processes, but I just can't get it to taste well."After talking, he stated, "Leave it... when you like someone, you can't wait to show him the entire universe. It's because I didn't quite understand it earlier and felt you didn't really love me enough.""It's amusing t
Love Me, Alpha Aftermath
He asked if I was alright and that the stairs had been blown up and the only route was now lost, which I vaguely remembered hearing from my hazy consciousness.As the fire became hotter and the smoke thicker, Alvin claimed he sought a helicopter, but the structure was too small and tight for it to land."First, wait by the window." He gave instructions.As a result of the fire, roof tiles fell from time to time. Kevin's arms protected me. They both moved slowly since they needed to avoid falling rubble on their heads and keep a close eye out for unforeseen fires.When the hollow shaft collapsed to the floor, I instinctively reached out to shield Kevin.A single stroke should be enough for the scorching metal to scorch the skin of my palm into a blackened pulp, and the agony caused me to sob.It hurts ten times as much as a cigarette burn...Kevin and Alvin both exclaimed, "Jill!" at the same time. I'd never heard them yell at me with such intensity.I tried to act normal, but all I co
Love Me, Alpha Who Comes First?
"How foolish that Alvin deserted his marriage and wealth just because of a beta.""What was even more ludicrous was that he didn't keep you when he took this step. He lost both his lover and his money.""Do you know what I was thinking that day when I saw you in Kevin's apartment? I actually laughed out loud. Alvin had been cold-hearted for more than 20 years. The only gentleness he had was used on you, but you didn't give a damn.""He didn't have the heart to harass you during his susceptibility phase, however, you went with some other alpha during his susceptibility period. HAHAHA!Zen erupted in laughter. His charming features turned vicious and contorted, and his eyes darkened and became icy.I could now confidently state that he was not in his right mind."You have no clue how frightening Alvin was during his susceptible time. It was too much for even an omega. He might have killed you during sex if it had been you."He scowled. "Do you believe he was harsh to you? No, because
Love Me, Alpha Kidnapped
I couldn't be stopped.My hands continued to turn the page of the journal without hesitating."Don't interfere with his life.Don't meddle with his decisions.Don't do anything that you shouldn't.The most critical thing is Jillian's happiness.Don't act rashly.Put aside all of your crazy ideas.Never, ever, ever hurt him.If anyone is going to be trapped, it'll be me.He should be freed.'Time stood still four years ago. Kevin penned the final sentence before departing abroad.‘Goodbye.’There were numerous photographs in the diary. He had never missed a period in my life, from childhood to adulthood.I should have been terrified, but instead, I was relieved.It gave me the confidence to pick up the phone and call Kevin.The call was immediately connected, and there were a few rummaging sounds on the other end before Kevin's exhausted voice came through. "Jill?""Sir..." I didn't want to look anxious, so I didn't turn on the video. "Are you finished? When will you be back?""I..."H
Love Me, Alpha His Diary
Before inserting the disc into the projector, I waited for a moment. It would have been way too embarrassing if it had contained Kevin's adult collection.Thankfully, it wasn't.After a few seconds, the screen turned black, and a little stage appeared. I paid attention to what the presenter stated."Now, please welcome Jillian from class F. He will perform 'The Snow Prince' as a solo. Please have fun!"Class F?Oh, yes, this was my high school graduation recital.The curtain parted to expose my 16-year-old face, considerably younger than it was now, with a sombre expression and an indescribably funny tinge of baby fat.My eyes sparkled. I wasn't always as ugly as I am now... Maybe Kevin fell in love with the old and lovely me?The footage, which the school kept for archive purposes, was in high definition. I recognized a familiar face as the camera went across the audience.I returned to pause the footage. It was Kevin.In his twenties, he looked much different, with bright eyes and
