A Beta is weak. Ordinary. He didn't have an Alpha's might or strength. Nor did he have the beauty and splendor of an Omega. But a Beta can love too. Jillian is a beta. It was impossible for her to avoid meeting Alvin. The Omega Alvin desired left him for unknown reasons, but Jillian looks strikingly similar to the Omega Alvin adores. So he took a chance and jumped into his arms, expecting to be treated as a toy, a substitute. Jillian fully knew what she was jumping into. Yet it was love. 'I'm hoping for at least a little love.' He was willing to give up his freedom for the love of his life. ... Years have passed. Alvin had never loved her. The millionaire CEO of the city's largest company, the dream alpha of many omegas. He was just a regular beta, so it's no surprise. Nonetheless, he clung to that torturous love, selling out his body for him to use, like a prostitute for love. Will He ever understand? The Alpha he craves does not deserve him in the least.
View MoreI had been suffering from insomnia for several months.
My face shrunk, and I experienced a sudden loss of appetite, dizziness, and palpitations. My outward appearance was becoming increasingly withered.
I didn't want Alvin to see these two sets of unappealing ribs, so I'd beg him to turn off the light in recent days.
Regardless, he asked me last night, as he held my waist, "Why are you so thin?"
'Not bad, he could still tell I was skinny.'
I reassured myself that he was at least interested in me.
But that was the end of it. He then buried his head inside me and pounded it in.
The physical strength of a top alpha was truly terrifying. Because I wasn't a natural-born omega, it would be excruciating every time we did it.
He dozed off after it was over. I was using the wall to guide myself to the bathroom to wash myself when I slipped at the doorway and passed out.
I'd passed out so many times for no apparent reason that I'd figured out the pattern and knew I'd wake up in about two or three hours.
Before I fainted, I thought it was time to see a doctor.
But I despise hospitals.
The surgery half a year ago caused me so much pain that for the first few days after the artificial gland was implanted, every cell in my body screamed in rejection, threatening to tear my body apart.
It was so excruciatingly painful that I went restless, crying and pleading with the doctor to give me morphine. But the doctor simply smiled sympathetically at me, shook his head, and said, "You must endure."
I must persevere.
For Alvin's sake, I implanted a totally fake omega gland into my body.
It was my own free will, so I had to put up with it.
Even though they are unable to change their gender, technology and science have advanced to the point where people can surgically remove or implant glands for reasons unknown.
But, in the end, the hoax was a hoax.
Alvin could enjoy the satisfaction of dominance and possession by tearing into my glands, but he couldn't really mark me.
He, too, did not want to mark.
Dawn had arrived. The first rays of light of spring had always been a welcome sight.
Except for me, everything under the sun was alive.
Alvin had already left when I awoke. He was extremely disciplined and would arrive at the office on time at nine a.m. the next morning, regardless of how intense he had been the night before.
The house was desolate and cold without him.
I resembled a prostitute who would appear and disappear when summoned. I needed to get dressed and out the door before dawn.
For 3 years, I was in love with him.
For years, he fucked me.
I had access to his house because I had the key.
I could also come and go from his company as I pleased.
Nonetheless, I felt like a prostitute.
Simply because he did not love me.
He called me Nora the first time we slept together.
The affectionate murmur made no sense...
Jillian was my name, and Nora was the person he adored.
I was merely a beta, and Nora was the ideal Omega.
It was a difference that I couldn't overcome...
with a fake gland.
It's a shame that I have excellent hearing due to my musical background, I could only endure the pain and pretend I didn't hear it.
More than one person said I reminded them of Nora.
Maybe I should be thankful that if it weren't for the resemblance, I'd never be able to climb on Alvin's bed in my life.
Each of Alvin's partners would resemble Nora in some way.
I was the most similar to him, so I stayed with him the longest, so long that I almost forgot I was only a substitute.
On the first day of high school, I saw Alvin and Nora for the first time. Their photos were pasted next to each other in the top column of honorary alumni.
Alvin was four years my senior. At the time, he had inherited the vast fortune of Ainsley's financial group and was the youngest person at the helm of the business empire that controlled the entire country's financial lifeline.
Alvin's brows were arched in the photograph. He was undeniably attractive.
And Nora, who was standing next to him, embodied his name. His eyes were soft, and his lips were the colour of early-morning red roses.
A month later, I fell in love with Alvin. He returned to school to attend a freshman representative ceremony, and I went on stage to present flowers to him.
In person, Alvin was far more attractive than he appeared in the photograph. I fell in deep with just a glance, and I haven't come out yet.
Face-cons have always had to pay the price for their inability to see.
I didn't want to go to the hospital anymore after thinking about it. I learned about Nora's return to Eden after completing his doctorate half a year ago. I left in panic to perform an artificial gland transplant.
Nora should be back by next month if we count the days. Alvin probably wouldn't need me at that point. So what difference does it make whether I'm healthy or not?
I returned to school after sending a message to Senior Alvin.
He only responded "ok" after more than 30 minutes of waiting.
There was nothing to do at school as we approached graduation. The majority of the senior students had already left the dorm. I didn't have much in school, so it didn't matter if I moved or not.
When I turned in my graduation work last month, my professor asked, "Do you really want to turn down the Academy of Music scholarship?"
I didn't dare to look her in the eyes and replied vaguely with my head down, "I don't really want to go abroad..."
The teacher sighed. "That's unfortunate."
All I could do was apologise. "I'm sorry..."
I've apologised to a lot of people.
Guilt and self-reproach weighed on me all the time.
'I'm exhausted.'
I had delusions in the first year that I shouldn't have had. When I was in a bad mood or had a problem, I felt compelled to tell Alvin.
Not to ask him for help, but to take advantage of the opportunity to act spoiled in the hopes of eliciting sympathy and even heartache from him.
Until he teased me and said, "Jill, I believe you're mistaken?"
I froze and stared at him in disbelief.
"I'm not your boyfriend, and I'm not obligated to notice or care with your petty shit," Alvin said with a light laugh. "I'm very busy."
Yes, being pampered was a luxury reserved for those who were truly loved.
Who was I to do such a thing?
Alvin poured cold water on me. I learned to hide all of my negative emotions and instead offer him a tender smile from then on.
I was probably a well-behaved and obedient bed partner in his heart. Someone who would let him plunder without ever objecting.
Alvin once complimented me on being a beta, saying that my waist was even softer than an omega's.
Only at this time would he be gentle with me.
"Do you like me?" I asked, boldly burying myself in his arms and rubbing my body against his.
He didn't respond. He then leaned over to kiss my hair before pulling the quilt over his head and saying, "Go to sleep."
As a result, I never asked again.
People come and go from his bed. It's exhausting to like every single one of them.
'It makes no difference. You are under no obligation to give me a chance. In any case, I still have a lifetime to squander.'
The evening before our departure, I was preparing in my room. The baggage had been pre-checked and consisted of small souvenirs.Kevin bought a little duplex flat there with a view of the Great River when you opened the window.I don't like living in a big house. He joked that I didn't live a rich life since I married into a privileged family and didn't know how to enjoy it.I told him to enjoy himself and that he didn't have to pry into my small quilt if he didn't want to.He bullied me, yanked me up, and threw me on the bed, stating that the kitten was becoming bad.I purposefully tugged his shirt with my toes. "Would you like to give it a shot?""I have sharp teeth but my body is soft..."His gaze was fierce, and it lingered a few times on my waist, telling me to behave appropriately.Why should I be proper if the night would be long?"Sir..." I squatted and walked over to him, nibbling his chin and holding to his neck. " You're not capable? Are you sterile?""Sir" was fantastic.I
I was anticipating him to pounce on me... and praying he would.I knew deep down how much I craved his touch, but I was reluctant to show it for fear of upsetting him.But he responded calmly. "Because you will feel uneasy. And it's not good for your health," he held me desperately."I would like to break you, but I'm not ready. Good things are most beautiful when they're broken."I didn't exactly understand what he said. I'm too tired.But that's fine. I didn't hear it, so I'm going to interpret it as "I love you."…Summer has come and gone. A few droplets of rain fell and then the air became suddenly frigid.Adam's exhibition took place at the beginning of November. Before leaving, Kevin gave me a pair of knitted gloves to wear. When I put on my clothes, I noticed that the brooch was a pair and that his tie and my bow tie were the same colour."I'm powerless to stop myself. My little rose is too charming," He remarked as he kissed the back of my ear. "There will be a lot of young,
I was still surprised by Adam's feelings for Nora, so I didn't hesitate to tell Kevin about it before heading to bed."I don't think it's unexpected," he said as he encircled me from behind to blow dry my hair."Why?""What happened isn't uncommon since fate is irrational."He talked as if he hadn't said anything. "At first glance, Nora appears to be difficult to pursue." I raised my head and rubbed his face with my half-wet hair."You're also difficult to catch." Kevin bowed his head and kissed my brow. "It's also hard to raise.""At one point, something always goes wrong, as if somebody is worried I'll be too healthy." I exhaled a sigh.Kevin sighed as well, helpless. "At my age, I watch you in anxiousness every day, and if I continue to do so, either good or bad things will startle me sooner or later."I was filled with remorse. "You can't hold it against me...""I don't blame you." He put me into the quilt after blow-drying my hair. "I'm sorry, I discovered myself a little teenage
Kevin did not respond right away. After a while, he looked down at me and said, "It wasn't that I don't want to, it is indeed that I am frightened.""I am worried you will realize that he actually loves you and is willing to abandon his old personality in order to become a better individual for you."His hand caressed my cheeks."I said I wouldn't let you go again, and I won't give you freedom again, but if..."He didn't seem to be able to speak further, so I completed the remainder of the lines for him in my head.—If you really want to start over with him, I'll allow you."Liar." I took his hand with my uninjured hand, grasped his hand fiercely, and nipped it hard."Saying this after saying you will love me forever and never leave me again. Liar."Kevin was unexpectedly bitten. He didn't say anything, but his countenance was clearly perplexed.After biting, I started to regret it again. I appeared to have used too much force. My teeth left such a significant mark.Will he mistake me
"There is one thing I didn't mention to you. In truth, your cooking isn't particularly appetizing."Alvin suddenly shifted the subject, even laughing.But I have always let you cook since I prefer looking at your scuffed hands."I understand Kevin isn't like me. He would love and care for you, whilst I am a jackass who only wants to watch you weep.""You made the correct decision by leaving me."I had no idea why he would be telling me this."I'm well aware that my cooking isn't particularly tasty. I'm always disappointed when you eat so little every time."Now that I was talking about the past, it felt like a dream."I've tried countless times, but I just can't seem to get it right. I'm using the same ingredients and processes, but I just can't get it to taste well."After talking, he stated, "Leave it... when you like someone, you can't wait to show him the entire universe. It's because I didn't quite understand it earlier and felt you didn't really love me enough.""It's amusing t
He asked if I was alright and that the stairs had been blown up and the only route was now lost, which I vaguely remembered hearing from my hazy consciousness.As the fire became hotter and the smoke thicker, Alvin claimed he sought a helicopter, but the structure was too small and tight for it to land."First, wait by the window." He gave instructions.As a result of the fire, roof tiles fell from time to time. Kevin's arms protected me. They both moved slowly since they needed to avoid falling rubble on their heads and keep a close eye out for unforeseen fires.When the hollow shaft collapsed to the floor, I instinctively reached out to shield Kevin.A single stroke should be enough for the scorching metal to scorch the skin of my palm into a blackened pulp, and the agony caused me to sob.It hurts ten times as much as a cigarette burn...Kevin and Alvin both exclaimed, "Jill!" at the same time. I'd never heard them yell at me with such intensity.I tried to act normal, but all I co
"How foolish that Alvin deserted his marriage and wealth just because of a beta.""What was even more ludicrous was that he didn't keep you when he took this step. He lost both his lover and his money.""Do you know what I was thinking that day when I saw you in Kevin's apartment? I actually laughed out loud. Alvin had been cold-hearted for more than 20 years. The only gentleness he had was used on you, but you didn't give a damn.""He didn't have the heart to harass you during his susceptibility phase, however, you went with some other alpha during his susceptibility period. HAHAHA!Zen erupted in laughter. His charming features turned vicious and contorted, and his eyes darkened and became icy.I could now confidently state that he was not in his right mind."You have no clue how frightening Alvin was during his susceptible time. It was too much for even an omega. He might have killed you during sex if it had been you."He scowled. "Do you believe he was harsh to you? No, because
I couldn't be stopped.My hands continued to turn the page of the journal without hesitating."Don't interfere with his life.Don't meddle with his decisions.Don't do anything that you shouldn't.The most critical thing is Jillian's happiness.Don't act rashly.Put aside all of your crazy ideas.Never, ever, ever hurt him.If anyone is going to be trapped, it'll be me.He should be freed.'Time stood still four years ago. Kevin penned the final sentence before departing abroad.‘Goodbye.’There were numerous photographs in the diary. He had never missed a period in my life, from childhood to adulthood.I should have been terrified, but instead, I was relieved.It gave me the confidence to pick up the phone and call Kevin.The call was immediately connected, and there were a few rummaging sounds on the other end before Kevin's exhausted voice came through. "Jill?""Sir..." I didn't want to look anxious, so I didn't turn on the video. "Are you finished? When will you be back?""I..."H
Before inserting the disc into the projector, I waited for a moment. It would have been way too embarrassing if it had contained Kevin's adult collection.Thankfully, it wasn't.After a few seconds, the screen turned black, and a little stage appeared. I paid attention to what the presenter stated."Now, please welcome Jillian from class F. He will perform 'The Snow Prince' as a solo. Please have fun!"Class F?Oh, yes, this was my high school graduation recital.The curtain parted to expose my 16-year-old face, considerably younger than it was now, with a sombre expression and an indescribably funny tinge of baby fat.My eyes sparkled. I wasn't always as ugly as I am now... Maybe Kevin fell in love with the old and lovely me?The footage, which the school kept for archive purposes, was in high definition. I recognized a familiar face as the camera went across the audience.I returned to pause the footage. It was Kevin.In his twenties, he looked much different, with bright eyes and
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