Three

  Alyssa pov. 

 I know for certain that I have been a positive girl all my life. I know I was a little spoilt when I was younger *okay maybe a lot spoilt* and I know that my world was at my fingertips. I know all these things because my parents always ensure that I have the best of everything I ever wanted. So what if it made me a little spoilt or can't I be a positive girl when there is no real reason for me not to be one and don't get me started on my world I was queen and I ruled it and now I don't. As simple as that, it is was horrible to learn that I was living in a fairytale and now I have been jolted and taken to the real world. My life feels like it is not mine to live any more. I feel like stumping my feet and saying I want to go back to my life but that is just going to be me throwing a tantrum and in the real life. People who throw tantrums are not taken seriously and are ignored. Why did my life take this ugly turn? I always imagined that I will be close to my parents even when I am married. It is not as if one of them died. No, nothing of that sort happened. What happened was that if I want to be close to my family I would have to be close to two different families. My parents are divorced. I wish I could answer the question, who cheated on who. I wish I could say that it was that easy. That I could end up hating one of the party for cheating but no, I can't because no one cheated. What happened was that they simply fell out of love with each other and they have being living like that for a while now... because of me and my mother could not do it anymore, so she closed her schedule for the next three months, filled out the divorce papers and had a family meeting just before school started to destabilized me although she didn't know and I know for a fact that, that was not her plan but she would have thought about it but no, she was too busy setting everything in place. 

  In the family meeting, she told me that she loves me and my father but she cannot continue to be unhappy, that she had been for a long time that she had even forgotten how happiness felt like. She wanted to be free and experience life as a happy person and if she meets someone who make her happy, she doesn't want being married to hold her back. Of course I was trying to convince her that, that wasn't the right thing to do that she should sit down and let's discuss the situation like normal adults * after I thought they were playing a prank on me,* when my father reached for the document and started reading it then he told my mother that he agrees with the document and told me that he has been feeling the same way too. He signed the document and hugged my mother while I stood watching them tear my life apart when my mother finally turned to face me. She tried to reach for me but I snapped at her to leave me the fuck alone. If there is one thing my mother hates is language like that. She always try to make me act like a lady at all times but then again, my best friend is a guy so figure out how well that went for her. I took great relish in the flinch she made. It was a childish thing to do I admit but I wanted her to feel an atom of the pains I was feeling. It was not a nice thing to do but I was okay with it. I needed to hurt her and I could not say that I did not love her. That is a lie because no matter what my mother will do. I will always love her, she did gave birth to me. Nothing could diminish that bond except if it is cheating, that is what I cannot stand. 

   My dad snapped at me for making her flinch then I decided that he was just as responsible as my mother was for the divorce so I blamed him too. That it was his fault why my mother felt like she was unloved. That it was his fault for not fulfilling his marital obligations that was supposed to make her happy then I drive the nail in the head by saying that I would never forgive them for ruining my life with this divorce and for making me be the outside child when they start their separate families, they can bet on the fact that I will leave them at the earliest chance I get which is on my 18th birthday and that when my Trust fund matures, when I am 21, that they will never see me again. With that I stormed off to my room while my mother broke down and my father comforted her. Why can't they see that they fit each other so perfectly? Why can't they see that they love each other even when they say that they have fallen out of love with each other? And why can't they see that they are making me sad. They promise not to do that. They promise to always love each other. I know because I read their marriage vows and now they broke it and broke a something as sacred as marriage. I am not religious by any means but what they did is against God. Yes I believe he exists but I don't want to push the envelope but I will if it will bring them together again. Can't they see that they are prefect for each other? Can't they see that their type of love is the type that fairy tales always talk about, it is the stuff of legends, and the one that always seem to last forever. Saying that love has faded is like saying that Cinderella died when she was 28 and made the prince to be a widower and to raise their children alone when it should be that they died when they are old and even on the same day if it was possible. It was the type of love I have always wanted for myself and my future husband but that was before. 

  If their kind of love can fade then I want absolutely nothing to do with it. 

  Right now I just want to be with Micah. He always make me have a good day. 

Where is he...?