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2024-10-29 19:42:56Alyssa pov
Where to, Miss." the cab man asked me when my sobs reduced.
Far away from this place. As far away as possible. I replied through my tears.
What about the park close to town council hall. " he asks quietly. I know that right now he is talking softly because he recognized what is going on. He saw the bastard on his side view mirror and he knows from my tears that I was the girlfriend.
Yes please. I answered in a low tone.
My life is turning into a typical cliché story. What is remaining is that I fall in love with either my best friend, Jake best friend or the school bad boy then we get married and live happily ever after. The end.
I can't deal with this. I just cannot. This day is too horrible for me. It has just been too horrible. Wait... did Micah know about this, is that why he wanted Tiffany off the team and Jake out of my life. No, it is not possible, if it was he would tell me or rather kick Jake ass for me. Then again, my parents broke up, anything is possible in this world now. It is no longer my world. It is no longer perfect and it is no longer under my control. Micah can betray me too, he may already have based on the fact that everyone in my life is betraying me... No, I can't think like that. I need to stop thinking now. I have to stop...
Before we go to the park can you stop me in a liquor store? I asked as he looked at me through the mirror.
Pardon. He askes
If you get the liquor for me with the money I am about to give you. I add extra 250 dollars to your total pay. Just like that, the man shut up and continued driving.
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Micah pov
Those monsters are evil. Okay, I know I probably shouldn't refer to my siblings as monsters or evil but that is exactly what they are. Evil with a capital E. I hate what they do. They think it is okay for them to play pranks on me and not pranks like, remove my seat from under me, no that too small for them, they play pranks like changing shampoo with dye. They did this to Alyssa when she came to visit me last time. They are the reason why Alyssa is scared to come visit. She loves my parents and love my family in general but her love for my siblings is the one of distance.
I can't help but feel worried about Alyssa. I am always worried about her but this is different. It is not like she is searching for excitement, she is sad and a sad Alyssa is an unstable Alyssa. Still, that's not the only reason why I is worried. Alyssa would have at least call me twice. She will be in contact with me based on the fact that she probably hate the thought of being home. * She must be with her boyfriend, there is no other explanation, and you are just worried about her and controlling too. * No, that is not it either. Whenever she is with Jake she usually let me know because the jerk hate it when I contact her so while his back is turned, she quickly shoot me a text which included the contents that she is fine, having fun and a life without me in it and the main gist of the message is usually about how she wants me not to worry about her.
I took out my phone and press the power button to check if I mistakenly have any unread message nope. No message came in while I was arguing in my mind.
I couldn't sit still, from tapping my legs on the floor to pacing around while staring at my phone. I was imagining all situations which Alyssa could be in and if it is too deep for her to come out of by herself. I have to help her. I already made up my mind to leave my house without anyone there to watch my siblings when the door opened and my mother entered with my father in tow.
Micah. How are you? My mother asked as she stretch upwards while I bend absentmindedly for her to kiss my cheeks.
He is not fine. He is worried about his girlfriend. Celine said mockingly.
Oh hush. My mother hushes her and she kept quiet in turn.
What is wrong with Alyssa. Dad asked.
She is not my girlfriend. I replied him
I never said you guys are dating. My father returns.
You implied it.
No you are clearly worried and the only person you are usually worried about is Alyssa. Sometimes I don't think you care about your siblings. My father answered me with his eyebrows raised at me.
How can I love demon incarnates. If they were loveable. I would love them. I replied him.
That hurt bro, since we love you no matter how much you act like a love sick fool when it comes to Alyssa. Michael said then turned his face to another direction when I turned to face him.
I am going out. I will try to be back before 10, mom. I said to my mother as I bent and kiss her cheek, she is the only one that is usually there for me and sides me when the rest are acting like this. Believe me you don't want me to explain the meaning of 'this'.
I walked outside only for me to see, Jake jeep speed to the side walk of my house and stop in my front. A few more inches and the car would be digging into my hipbone.
You want to hit me. I yell at Jake as soon as he came down from the car.
No. Have you seen Alyssa? I went to her house and she wasn't there, is she here? Jake said looking haggard and stressed out.
No. I drew out the word with my eyebrows narrowed. What did he do this time?
Have you heard from her since this afternoon? Jake asks as he runs his hand through his hair.
No, why... I started to ask then I notice his dressing. Jake looked like he was in a hurry to throw on his shirt. This is a guy that rolls out of bed and come downstairs for breakfast looking prefect. What did you do, this afternoon?
nothing. " he said quickly. Too quickly for my liking. I am sure he is hiding something.
Everyone will not believe that, so I ask again. What did you do? I gritted out. I don't want to punch him yet but he is trying my patience and my hand is practically already curling and uncurling into fists at my sides.
She caught me with Tiffany. It was a onetime thing I swear it was... He didn't get to finish, I punched him across the face. First one was for the hurt he gave Alyssa, second was for the fact that he did it with Tiffany of all girls and the last hit was for my own satisfaction. I left him on the floor moaning in pain as I got into my car and drove off.
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Love Letter Eight
Micah povI have been searching for Alyssa for about an hour now. Driving with top speed to get to our favorite spots where we hang out but I didn't see her there. I stop and sat down, * use your brain and think this boy, stop acting like you are insane. Alyssa is your best friend, you know her better than you know anyone else. Where would she go since she had her heart broken? What would she do? * I am supposed to even know how she would think dammit. I need to calm down, I can do this if I just calm down. I slowed down my breathing as I try to think with a clear head, pushing all the worries that have been swimming in my head so fiercely that if me brink I can see them behind my eyelids. She must have been in a situation where she couldn't think and that would have made the taxi man to drop her off in an extremely popular place. I paused that flow. That would be what
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2024-10-29Love Letter Nine
Alyssa pov.Waking up to shouting is not a good way for someone with a hangover. My head was banging and pounding as if they were trying do an operation on it without giving me morphine. I groaned as I sat up in the bed and when I could finally open my eyes without closing it back because of the brightness, I looked around at the room I slept. Sure, I remember last night, the important details like I was dropped off in a park, I drank myself to oblivion, I woke up at night to discover I am alone and I started crying and as he heard my cries he appeared and was there with me. He took me home and dropped me in this room. I don't need to be a psychic to know that Micah will be pissed at me. I don't know what I did but I know that it was something stupid. I know this because the only part of our conversation I can remember was when he was calling me daft for thinking about something. * Oh Alyssa, when will you realized
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2024-10-29Love Letter Ten
Micah pov.Alyssa makes me so mad. Why is she so annoying at times. Sometimes I feel like taking her head off but I know that if I near her I would just kiss her silly. That is me for you. A lovesick boy who is hopelessly in love with his best friend, had been for about four years now. Had known that she was the only one for me for about two years now and I sat still, said nothing about my feelings while she went out and started to date a boy I certainly knew will hurt her. Why did I do something like that? My own heartbreak is not funny one bit. If I could go back in time, I would go back to a year ago when Jake came into her life and the punch I gave him yesterday would have been done then, I would have warned the cheating asshole to stay away from my best friend and I would have told my best friend about my feelings for her in a grand way. I would have made Tiffany to stay away from the squad and I would have made her parents
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2024-10-29Love Letter Eleven
Micah pov.By lunch, everybody had heard of what happened during class today, they were all staring at me while I eat and although I am used to ignoring people attention on me. This one was different. It is like they are all waiting for me to stop eating and turn to tell them that yes, I broke their quarter-back nose and that it is because he cheated on my best friend. Apparently that news started spreading since yesterday evening. Everybody who is anybody has heard of the news already but then again that do not concern me. Why you may ask, and I will reply that Alyssa doesn't care about things like that. She is used to back talk and negative comments. Those don't get to her again. When we were small and she was always getting hurt by what people say about her. I will retaliate by beating that crap out of whoever said what hurt her. When she saw that I was always getting into trouble, she started to build her amour and now anybody who has
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2024-10-29Love Letter Twelve
Alyssa pov.Time for tryouts. Time I have been dreading. I hate the look of pity that people send my way especially girls in the squad. Some openly scoff at me, they think that I will not remain in cheer leading, they forgot how the group was before I became leader, and they forgot all I did for them. I hate ungrateful people. They make me so mad that I seriously consider being bitchy to them but then again I will remember that Micah hates bitchiness.Of all things for him to hate, why does he have to hate that one. I went to the locker room to change into my uniform only that as I got there I saw my things from my locker on the floor and a note on them which said ' we don't need you. Signed T. ' I am officially angry. That is it. I don't mean to sound like a record or like those people who say the most clichés stuff when it comes to revenge but Tiffany will surely regret this.
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2024-10-29Love Letter Thirteen
Micah pov.I knew something like this would happen. It might have taken two months but my heart broke for those two months since all I could do was just stand by and watch it happen.I am crushed.Alyssa and Jake are talking again, she forgave that bastard easily. Too easy in my dictionary. If it was up to me I will never let him back in her life but it isn't up to me. It is never up to me. All I will ever be with her is just friends, why can't she see that it kills me. I tried, I tried for two months, I really tried to make her see me in a different light, to make her see me in another way than just a friend but she doesn't even notice. I will always be looking in from the shoulders of whoever she decides is the lucky guy who gets to share her life. I hate that fact. Still with all this that has been happening you would think
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2024-10-29Love Letter Fourteen
Alyssa povHow can he get mad so easily, what did I do wrong? Is it his life? What I don't get is why my conscience is judging me. Are you sure you don't want to go back and apologize. Jake asks me. Apologize for what. What did I do wrong? He was the one who got angry over something he has no control over. He is the one who needs to apologize for butting into my business and giving me an ultimatum. I ranted.Jake shook his head at me. If you have something to say just say it. I shouted at him. You are acting as if a fire is lit under you. Jake pointed out. I and my best friend are having a quarrel, thank you Mr. obvious. I said to Jake but he chuckles. It is your tell for when you are feeling guilty. Jake said and kept his mouth shut when he saw the look in my eyes.
Terakhir Diperbarui : 2024-10-29Love Letter Fifteen
Alyssa pov.I let out the shrill scream I had been hoping to hear inside the room from another person as I rush to Micah and sank down beside him. My God, what is wrong with him? On getting closer I discovered that he was not really unconscious, he was shaking as if he was cold. His eyes were rolled back in his head as his fist was clenching and unclenching as if he had something in it he was holding and need to decide if he still has to hold it or let it go. Dont worry, I tell him through my tears. I never even knew that I was crying. You are going to get better. I said as I put his head on my laps and reached into my messy school bag for my phone so that I can call 911 but he grabbed my hands to stop me.No hospitals. He bit out as his teeth was still shaking, clattering in his mouth. You need to go, I know you have something akin to a phobia a
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Love Letter Last chapter
This is the end of our story, our love story. The one that started with the letter I wrote for her, the one that started a year ago but burned as fiercely as a raging inferno. An inferno that was put out too quickly. An inferno that died the day Alyssa died. Now she is being laid to rest but as she is being buried so is my heart. I have finally conquered my anxiety attacks. I no longer feel anything. I am now cold and unfeeling. It scares my family. I can see it in their eyes when they look at me and share a worried look between themselves, I can see it when my siblings try to cheer me up, they don't do what annoy me any longer, the pranks have died with Alyssa. Sometimes I wish we never started dating if that means that she would still be alive.Then I would slap myself and stop assigning blames or 'would haves' because it never change anything. Alyssa is still gone and I cherish every moment we spent together. Every kissed we shared, every look th
Love Letter Forty four
**** Within two weeks, I relapsed and now I am back in the hospital. Doing chemotherapy and having a therapist come to deal with my anxiety. I know for a fact that if I am not careful this period I would end up with an anxiety disorder. Alyssa would certainly not want that for me. I can see it clearly in my head, if Alyssa was alive and something like this is happening, she would have hit me at the back of my head and order me to get my shit cleaned up. That is my girlfriend for you.... That was my girlfriend for you. I still can't believe that she is gone. It is too unsettling to discover that she is not by my side or that she didn't go to get something and that is to reason for her not being able to be with me physically. I cannot believe it that she is gone, sure I know that she is gone but my mind can't wrap around the fact that I will never see her face smiling or pouting or giving me that look that is sp
Love Letter Forty three
Micah pov. Even before the doctor came out with the news that Alyssa was gone. I knew that she was gone. I now know what the sharp pain meant. It meant that my soul mate was dead. I have been numb ever since I entered the car, I came out and did everything my family did but my mind was blank... The doctor came out and her parents rushed to him but he just removed his mask and shook his head. My sweet bratty princess was gone and it was confirmed, that was when the first sob teared out of my throat and I held on tight to my mother, I felt people surrounding me but I could not pay attention to them. I am without my soul mate, my best friend. How would I survive? This is all her mother fault, normally I try not to point fingers and assign blame but I have to this time. It is all her fault, if she had let Alyssa do whatever she wants, we wouldn't even be in this town now. If she had not forced Alyssa to be her maid o
Love Letter Forty two
Micah povWill you grow up man? I asked my brother as I hit him with the back of my hand. I am only thirteen, so no, not yet. Mike replied annoying the hell out of me. What did I do to deserve this, right from the moment he was born he has done nothing except annoy me. Mike, stop. Alyssa call put him in a good mood let's hope that the good mood last for a little while. Don't make it evaporate so quickly. Celine said as Mike and dad chuckled at her statement. What is this? Gang up and tease elder brother day? I asked not amused. No, that was yesterday. Mike replied. That is why we annoyed the hell out of you. Celine added. You mean like how you are doing right now and how you also did last two days. I pointed out. You are right. Annoying e
Love Letter Forty one
Micah povWeeks laterPreparing for Alyssa parents marriage is taking a toll out of me, well out of Alyssa, which affect our relationship and in turn, affect me. Sometimes I wish I could kidnap her and hide her away from her mother who has turned into brideizza. I don't get the deal, you have being married to this man for eighteen years only to divorce him saying that you no longer feel sparks or whatever silly excuse she gave eleven months ago only to come back three months later and plead with him that she made a mistake and that she still wants to be in his life then get remarried in less than a year of being apart. Too crazy, she didn't apologize to Alyssa and although she was welcomed by her husband... Ex-husband and soon to be husband again and also my parents, Alyssa and I never did welcome her back. Alyssa was hurt by her leaving and Al never forgive someone who hurt her ea
Love Letter Forty
Micah povI was getting ready to take my car to the mechanic to see if there was anything that could be done to salvage the situation when my mother called me from down stairs saying I had a visitor, I groaned as grabbed a tee shirt and quickly out it on as I hurried down the stairs with my keys in my back pocket only for me to stop at the last step when I saw who it was.Alyssa, someone whom I was clearly not expecting to see. I was even tempted to not believe my eyes because I was certain that Alyssa would never apologize for what happened, the highest I was expecting her to do is to concede to the fact that maybe she was not right with her actions and even then, it would be done grudgingly. Alyssa was not the kind of person to apologize and that was why I was finding it hard to believe.Then my siblings started their snickers in the background, the tv they were watching was long forgotten as they turned to face us.
Love Letter Thirty nine
Alyssa Pov,How did me and Micah go from a candlelight dinner to fighting? I have no idea but what I do have an idea of is that he is irrational and my feelings are rightly justified.And what I am also sure of is that he might not want me again.Yes, I might sound dramatic but it is the truth, Micah cares very much about his car, I think me and his mother are the only ones who are allowed to seat in the front seat and I just keyed his car.I know, I wasnt really thinking. I just got upset because he was not relenting, it was just me saying goodbye to Jake.Jake was going away to college, and based on what happened at his party, I did not really talk to him and although he got on Micah nerves, it did not change the fact that although Jake sting my pride by sleeping with Tiffany but I broke his heart when I broke up with him just to be with Micah.
Love Letter Thirty eight
Alyssa povHello honey, it has been long since we talked. Tiffany stated trying to hug me with a false smile which I certainly did not believe.She had ambushed me on my way to get drinks for me and Micah because since we arrived at the party together, we have been inseparable and have been sitting on the couch together, not making out but certainly more touchy feely than usual, I think it is finally getting into their heads that we are a couple.I have been happy at that and feeling high and staring into the face of Tiffany, that high is slowly being expired and I was not in the mood to feign happiness at seeing her.What do you want? I asked but instead of my tone to come out as hostile, it came out as defensive.I frowned at my words and I was not the only one who caught up on the defensiveness that was in my tone because Tiffany jumped on it by crowding my space.
Love Letter Thirty seven
Micah povApparently, kissing in front of your friends and those who you went to high school with is not enough to convince people anymore that you are in a relationship with your best friend.Granted, it was me and Alyssas fault for always coming up with crazy schemes and being too close outside. It was annoying enough to Jake wanted Alyssa but it was nothing compare to the girls who me and Alyssa went to school with as they all, all of a sudden wanted to hang out with me. Alyssa was not a happy camper at the attention which they paid to me.You know that you look cute when you pout. I teased Alyssa to get her mind off the fact that we were invited to go for a party tomorrow and in Jake home nevertheless.You know, you ought not to annoy me especially since I am in a bad mood. Alyssa retorted as I sighed.I let go of the trash bag in my hand as we were in the process of cleaning the la
