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2020-10-30 13:13:26Micah pov.
I knew something like this would happen. It might have taken two months but my heart broke for those two months since all I could do was just stand by and watch it happen.
I am crushed.
Alyssa and Jake are talking again, she forgave that bastard easily. Too easy in my dictionary. If it was up to me I will never let him back in her life but it isn't up to me. It is never up to me.
All I will ever be with her is just friends, why can't she see that it kills me. I tried, I tried for two months, I really tried to make her see me in a different light, to make her see me in another way than just a friend but she doesn't even notice. I will always be looking in from the shoulders of whoever she decides is the lucky guy who gets to share her life.
I hate that fact. Still with all this that has been happening you would think
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