Still tongue-tied and at a loss with the turn of events, Principal Churchill brooked no room for protests as she continued, her demeanor morphing from the soft-spoken lady of two seconds to her usually authoritative, demeaning persona. “This little tiff is not to leave the walls of this room under any circumstances. Do you understand, Mr Cartwright?” She thrusted the cheque at me, face taut with annoyance. “If you have any objections to all I've said, you can tell me. Or rather, tell us. You're too silent for Christssake. You're a man, not a dumb.”
What in fuck's sake does the witch expect me to say? What does she want from me? Here she was, practically begging me to save her son's reputation and yet, she was still gutsy enough to force me to it by paying me off like I'm some goon who'd gotten his hands dirty for her. It was most ridiculous!
Her hate for me was so stifling, it made me mad! Was it my fault, that, I wasn't born into a wealthy, well-to-do family? Was it my fault that we weren't vastly known in little Todos Santos because we didn't originally belong there, and that we were poorer than peasants? Was it my fault I was an underprivileged outsider, contaminated and mortal with wretched parents?
“I appreciate the levity with which you handled this,” I finally found my voice, not sparing a glance at Ryan or minding his possessive hand clamped down hard around my thighs. In any case, if it was meant as any consolation, the last person I needed it from was him, being a Churchill. “Thanks, ma'am.”
She let out a heavy breath and recoiled from the cheque which had fallen on the table, in front of me. Despite my reservations and her ill-mannerisms, I picked the cheque up and flattened it. A fifteen-thousand dollar cheque. Way more than necessary. Bribe.
It wasn't todayay corruption began, but a long way back. It made me a lot less remorseful doing all those dirty things with her son in the parking lot yesterday.
Ryan was doing this for something. Hell, he was baiting me. I wondered if it was related to his request to me yesterday.
While, I was blackmailing his mother. Sorta. Kinda. Zilch.
My nonna always warned me of money's sly ways. How evil was deeply rooted in that mere paper and how it made people twisted. I used to think she was just making a fuss out of nothing. Money was always needed and that's why people do the things they do. Now, I was starting to think she was oh-so right.
And goodness knew we needed that money, in any case to save ourselves from a homelessness situation and get Dad his normal drug prescriptions. The responsibilities of the family all fell on me and at this point, I didn't mind stooping to any new low to get some cash.
I stood up sharply, though with tired muscles from sitting in one place for long, and smothered my tie, jutting out my chin. I wasn't about to let her think she'd won me over by just a few thousand bucks hence why I fixed her a fierce, analytical stare, noting her hesitancy. With each new day, my respect for this woman diminished, and to think it was all her fault.
“So, we're all good, heh?” She tugged at her ear as she held my gaze, seemingly holding back her breath. “You're not gonna file any case against him?”
“No,” I said curtly, walking out of her office with a solid $15,000. I was tons richer.
And what's new? I drove straight home and settled the pesky landlord who looked aghast at how much advance I was offering. I paid the rent for the next year and even bought him a drink. See that thing about money changing people, Nonna was right. I witnessed the transformation firsthand that day with the landlord all because I was generous enough to part ways with a few hundred bucks apart from the rent. Dad was the only one who asked me where I got the money from and I had to lie to him. How do you tell your father that you technically blackmailed his employer through her son who wanted a lot more than meets the eye?
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To my consternation and utter delight, I found out while stalking his F******k account the next day after school had long dismissed that Ryan Churchill had celebrated his nineteen-year-old birthday in a grand style four days prior to the parking lot incident, which left me with no clue whatsoever. I couldn't place thought to the Genesis of this whole new infatuation he had with me, having never met him before then. Could he be working for someone close, my gay high school sweetheart perhaps? But Chance was married and happy with Royce, and I heard from a reliable source that the two men were expecting a pair of twins from surrogacy in the near future. Yay for them.
And even if Chance wasn't married and Ryan was working for him, why would Chance want anything more to do with me? We weren't exactly dating back at high school either. More like a fuckbuddy relationship that had existed between us.
And what's more,his timeline was a cutting reminder that he was oh-so younger than me by three years. Now, I don't know about anyone else but age mattered a lot to me in relationships. I hated being the elder. It made things just so uncomfortable for me as a younger partner was frowned upon by society, and in gay relationships, the elder was condemned and branded a devil. Not that I cared a hoot what anybody else thought but I liked my partners safely a year or two older than me. It made me feel secure and things more fun.
Moreover, due to raging hormones, young partners were notorious for having multiple sexual partners, and with the rave of sexually transmitted diseases, I had to keep my pants up and stick to the safer part of the lot. With ladies. Being bisexual was a bliss.
But it felt wrong to my body, denying it the thing it most wanted to have a feel of Ryan's youthful cock and know if a Churchill could be all that perfect even in bed. Ryan had nothing to lose if he decided he wanted to fuck me. In any case, he'd always have dear Mummy Dearest to throw money about to keep his record stainless while I rot behind bars cause she was sure as hell telling everyone that I forced her darling son to sleep with me. We didn't make any sense, Ryan being all set and polished for NHL and me battling to keep my father's job with no solid future ahead.
I was too selfish to let him go. Besides, having her son fuck me, the imperfect little wimp whom she detested and saw as wretched would really be a glorious payback now, wouldn't it?
I was still deep in thought to not notice the tall silhouette slowly making it's way over. I only looked up when the figure scooted a chair back and pushed the dazzling mass of golden hair back before flashing me a lopsided smile that made my heart skip. I could make out that smile even in my dreams. It was that damn perfect.
“What in hell's name are you doing here?” I tried to feign annoyed, putting on a stern look in a bid to scare him off but it seemed to have a resultant effect as his smile only widened cockily.
“You sure do have a feisty temper, Mr. Samuel.”
“Right. And my bite is way worse than my bark. I wouldn't come too close if I were you.”
He licked his bottom lip ever so slowly, and I followed his movements like a lost puppy. “I like it when my prey tries to convince itself it's stronger. Makes it all interesting, don't you think?”
“Here's what I think, that staying away from me is probably going to be the best decision you've ever made in your youthful life. Nobody likes a failed man, and you'd be doing yourself a favor not chasing the likes of me. We only got acquainted yesterday.”
“I don't need to know you too well to know you're the one I want. The one I fucking want.” he snarled, his bright-green eyes darkening menacingly. When he saw how shaken I was by his outburst, he smiled, drew his legs up across the table so he was sitting with his waist in the air, and said with all the confidence an egotistical jerk could muster. “Mr. Samuel, this is going to happen.”
“Well, I'm lost by what you mean by this. ” I gestured between the two of us. “We're having nothing together. It's something much too shameful to even think about.”
Ha. Like that would convince him. It was like telling a snake to be nice and not swallow a rat you kept with it.
I promised myself that after today, I'd take a hard look at my life and try to find out where it all went wrong. Maybe I was cursed for pushing that girl off the slide at school in kindergarten or stealing my younger sister's toys when she was barely six months old.
Ryan took his legs off, pulled his chair close, and leaned forward on his elbows, his large arms spanning the entire desk. The devious twinkle in his eyes reminded me once again that his age was merely a figure. Hell, he'd probably banged more females than I'd ever kissed in my entire life.
“Is that what you want, for this not to happen is that what you really want?” he looked so laid back I'd die to have that type of peace of mind. That self-assurance that you could get away with just about anything. “You know you don't mean that.”
My eyes dropped to the dirty, worn-out leather watch I was wearing, as I struggled for a steady breath. I was nervous and oh-so fucking turned on. It was such a combination that had my stomach tightening in knots for two different reasons. “Why me? There are many other openly gay teachers here that they'd be happy to have your attention.”
Ryan suddenly became rigid, his stare potent enough to nip my neck in half as he crooned in a somewhat robotic voice. “Because,” he said slowly, his soft pink parting as he drank me in. “It's my wish to fuck a male teacher before I go play for NHL, and you Mr Samuel... you're the chosen one.”
Ryan suddenly became rigid, his stare potent enough to nip my neck in half as he crooned in a somewhat robotic voice. “Because,” he said slowly, his soft pink parting as he drank me in. “It's my wish to fuck a male teacher before I go play for NHL, and you Mr Samuel... you're the chosen one.” Stunned, surprised, confused, all but morphed into one dangerous feeling that clawed at my guts, pooled in between my quivering thighs and sparked in my glassy eyes. I was beyond mad. Scooting my chair backwards blindly, I loomed over him with a sneer that contrasted with the sheer delight in his eyes on how his revelation had riled me up so bad. It took all I had in me not to punch him on the face right there. “My deepest apologies, Sir Ryan.” I managed in the calmest tone I could muster yet I could tell he could hear the rage rippling underneath. “I haven't enough brain cells to understand exactly what you're driving at, but to the best of my knowledge it seemed you're looking for every opport
I didn't go back home immediately just as Ryan instructed. I knew I was digging my own grave. I knew what he very well had in mind to do to me behind completely closed doors. I knew the wrecking implications it'd have on my future and career as a teacher — that's if I was lucky to get another teaching job after this — and also, I knew it was a stab to all my principles and self-dignity as a mature adult. I knew it all. But I was stuck. Stuck in between the devil — Ryan Churchill and his dirty-hot mouth — and the deep blue sea — his irritably, hypocritical mother and my forbidden passions. I decided to spend the afternoon window shopping. Normally, whenever I had a lot on my mind to think about, the sight of nice things I could buy as decorations or gifts helped me relax. And what was more pretty was that I still had a lot of cash to burn from Principal Churchill's bribe paycheck. I'd paid father's medicalbills for an entire year, and a six-month rent advance. The rremainder; a whopp
“What the hell!” Ryan hissed as he tumbled onto the smelly, red-carpeted floor of my room. I dove out from the sheets in fear, eyes narrowing in the realization of what I'd just done. Oh shit. “Oh shit, that's right,” Ryan growled, standing up. I shrank underneath his stare, but then again who really was the eldest in the room? “What the hell did you do that for? You could've broken my waist.” “I'm sorry...it was just... your fingers, three at once... it's too much, you were basically splitting me in half!” “Well, newsflash: my dick is more effective than my three fingers combined so you bloody better get used to it 'cause I'm not leaving this room without fucking you. I would've done it slow and sweet but you kept me waiting. The consequences? Rough and mean. Get on that bed right now with your head turned down and spread that booty like a whore. My whore.” he ordered, his signature smirk not at all matching the hardness of his eyes. “Now. Mr. Sam.” “No,” I replied flatly, a sud
The next week at school was unbelievably too good to be true. The students were so well behaved and attentive that I realized I'd underestimated the influence of my new fuck-buddy. He'd obviously spread the word around not to mess with Mr Cartwright, and to think he wasn't even a student here. No one was smart enough to ask why, not even Mummy Dearest who was avoiding me like the plague. Everyone naturally assumed Ryan wanted to make me happy because he ran me over at the parking lot. No one ever suspected that we were running each other over in our free time. It became like a routine each day; school, home, fuck. School, home, fuck. I taught all my classes then ensured I left the office last. Apart from office work, Ryan kept me distracted with his haunty form poised at the door, his smile bewitching as he teased me to blow him or for us to do a missionary position. Each time, I reminded him of the implications of getting caught on school grounds but his persistence erroded my insis
The days that followed were filled with loads of chain orgasms, kiss bites, and ass squeezing in old storerooms and deserted classrooms. A whirlwind of bliss and grave consequences, addictive lust. How I survived my prickling conscience was not to dwell too much on the moment but to bask in how pleasurable and wrong it felt. I didn't allow myself to think about how my actions would paint a gory future, not just for me but for the air-headed kid who still had a lifetime of dreams and college football to get to. Getting more and more tied up with family dinners and football practice, Ryan found other creative ways to stick around after school each day and spend time with me. I never knew how he did it, since Principal Churchill was obviously getting suspicious of his movements and passed me the stink eye each time I walked out of the school block three hours after dismissal. I swear, she was up to something. Or she knew something. Either way, I couldn't bring myself to care right now. W
Lordee took out a pack of Benson cigarettes and a purple lighter from his pockets. He lit up one smoothly, rolling up his sleeves and steadying his oversized hoody. Inked images of ferocious looking cats graced the back of his arms, up his biceps to his shoulders though it was mostly hidden by the thick fabric. His eyes were bloodshot, hovering over his victims with the preciseness of a cat. He squatted down, exhaling softly, the smoke whirling in fine circles into the face of one of the boys who was now sobbing quietly, dreading the verdict. The guy gasped and choked on a cough, tears streaming down his cheeks as he wheezed hard but didn't dare move an inch. It looked like a public execution and I knew I couldn't let things escalate past this point. The police chief was Lordee's uncle so involving the cops would have gotten me nowhere. Besides I had a personal beef with George Adams years back when he'd tried to talk me into drugs and I reported his fat arse to the Sheriff. Threatenin
“You think I'm kidding?” I asked coolly, trying all I could to look tough and not give myself away of how scared I suddenly felt. “Let them all go now before I involve Sheriff Palsby. You very well know what shit went down the last time he came running.” I added that subtle threat hoping it'd bug him a little. He was neutral at first, but then when he took a step forward and I saw the menace burning in his irises, I suddenly realized that I was the one in fact getting threatened. His eyes were black and void; an empty space filled with doom and anger threatening to pull me underwater. I strengthened my stand and tightened my fists, raised my chin up to him defiantly. Crap, this was happening. I was standing up to Lordee Adams once again. “You think I'd budge under your flimsy threat?” he barked out a burst of maniacal laughter. “Do it, fucker. I fucking dare you. Go ahead and test me. I'd love you for that. It'll get you faster behind bars and I wouldn't have to see your sour-ass fac
I spent the entire weekend wondering what happened to the poor bastards the Kingfishers had interrogated at the lake and whether my meddling with football politics by instigating a face-off between Lordee and Ryan would change the pact between me and my fuckbuddy. I had his number, and absolutely nothing was stopping me from texting him. But I also knew it was risky. Texting would lead to obsessing, and obsessing would lead to complications, and complications would lead to..well, the end. Was I mad at him? Was that incident a wake-up call I desperately needed to remind me that we were worlds apart? That we were so different to become a thing even if we wanted to? He was still a budding teenager, taking small baby steps towards becoming a full-fledged man and there was simply a whole shitload of questions I didn't want to deal with. No. I was counting my days, clinging by a thin thread of hope that before the weekend would be over, distance and time would wash away the fog of lust and
“You're back so soon.”“I don't understand,” Ryan pushes me down on the bed in one effortless movement and attacked my lips. “I thought you wanted me to always return even earlier.”“Yes but still.” I giggle against his hot mouth. “I didn't expect you to take my words for it.”“What can I say? You're my undoing.” He breathes into my neck while his hands work my shorts off, causing my cock to spring out free, head smeared with precum. “God, I love your body.” Breathless giggles escape my lips and I arch my back while he trails hot kisses down my chest down to my navel then cock. I whimpered when he began sucking the tip, bobbing his head up and down to build up to deep-throating. God, the things this man does to me.“R-r-ryan...aster...” I moaned like a slut.He pulled back, mischief gleaming in his eyes, and the corner of his lips curled in an evil smirk. “What? What was that you said?”I rolled my eyes, my hard, needy cock making it difficult for me to negotiate with him further. “O
Ryan didn't come back to my apartment that day. He didn't text, nor call either. Well, I half expected it, seeing as his mind was all truly made up. He was leaving for New York for good, without me.I couldn't sleep, nor did I have an appetite to eat anything. I just sat, moping into the distance, a million thoughts racing through my head. Where I'd go from here, if what I'd done was right, if Ryan missed me, if I'd never see him again...so many things. My chest lurched painfully whenever I thought back to the last time he held me in his arms, and that seem to trigger the tears to keep coming. God, I was so stupid. Really, really stupid.I'd reduced him to nothing. I'd overreacted and allowed Principal Churchill to truly emerge victorious. Now, as I recalled back our moments together, I realized I hadn't been a good lover, nor would I make a great boyfriend in the future either. I always wanted things to go my own way. I'd always disobeyed his instructions, despite the fact that he wa
“Fucking hell,” Ryan muttered, his arm extended above my shoulder, propped on the wall I was leaning on. He ran his other hand through his hair, frustrated. I nodded, rounding off my take on what'd just transpired between me and Mummy Dearest in her office. My breaths were unsteady, I couldn't get her threats out of my head because I very well knew what she was capable of. Ryan had to act fast. He couldn't give in to his anger at this crucial time, and he knew it. Rubbing his face and shaking his head, his gaze moved between me and the school building. We were in my car, behind the biology lab, close to the student parking lot.“But what the fuck, man. I told you not to follow me. that you could get dragged into this whole shit.”“Look, I was worried okay? Besides, you didn't give me cogent reasons why you needed to leave minutes after midnight. That sparked my curiosity and I had to follow you. After all, you know practically everything about me. Where I live, what I ate for breakfa
“Mr. Sam, I need you to come down to my office in the next five minutes. It's urgent.” Principal Churchill's voice was curt and clipped at the other end of the line. Almost like she was thunder about to crack.My brows shot up as I swung my legs off the sofa to the floor, pushing the bowl of ice-cream I had on my lap on the center table. “Wait you're serious? I don't work for you anymore.”“This isn't about working for me, I need you to get the hell down here as fast as possible. You've got a lot on your plate to explain.”As soon as she'd said that it dawned on me. That the reason for this urgency could be connected largely to the fact that I witnessed her son commit a serious crime last week, and did nothing about it. She was going to serve up a whole shit-storm on me the minute I stepped into that office and I'd be dumb if I allowed her treat me like dirt even after I was no longer working for her. I'd already applied for jobs in New York and had interviews piled up next month.I t
There was no way my cranky, old jalopy wouldn't be spotted across the road overlooking the dirtied, almost hidden path that led to the lake, so I parked it at the back of a deserted gas station on Devil's Hyde Street, near the water and bolted into some thick beanstalk through which I had a good view of Ryan jogging towards some shadows discussing in low tones on the lake's bank. I couldn't make out Lordee's features at the hem of the gang's circle, the swirl of smoke pouring out his nostrils and ascending slowly upwards till it disappeared.The tough beanstalk was the only closest place I could hide, observe and hear every little detail they were saying. It was so conspicuous and thick that even if I made a sound, the boys would dismiss the noise as a rabbit hopping off somewhere. But I stayed quiet, internally justifying my spying on him.He's my boyfriend after all. And he left me in the middle of our amazing sex with no reasonable explanation whatsoever. I deserve some answers. I
A few more days tickled by. My relationship with Ryan became alarmingly intimate and too promising to bother if we'd be caught. But we still took precautionary measures, even though it was difficult, seeing as we couldn't keep our hands off each other. He moved most of his personnel stuff to my place since he spent most of his time there and slept over ninety-nine point nine percent with me in my bed. I could not tell him no after he'd professed his love for me and promised to be beside me if shit went down. And damn right I felt right, cause while we carried on enjoying full mind-blowing sex, pizza and ice-cream dates, movie nights, and what the near future held for us both, we certainly weren't being discreet enough — and the hypocritical, surprisingly observant locals of Nowhere, Todos Santos were beginning to raise their brows.Lordee caught us pants down, blowing each other off while hidden behind Ryan's vehicle in school after dismissal a Monday ago(We hadn't expected him to lur
"You need to get back to football,” Ryan said amidst sloppy kisses, his fingers untangling the elastic rope holding my shorts together on my waist. I moaned as he cupped my arse cheeks, squeezing hard. “Oh fuck.” I muttered, tightening my arms around his neck and grinding down on his groin.“You're all fine now,” he pulled away, leaning back with his arms at the back of his head and staring up at me in childlike adoration. I huffed at the loss of contact, holding back a sniffle. “I'm twenty-three, Ryan. Even if I manage to get in, the chances are slim by the way, I'll be retiring in less than three years. I'm old.”He chuckled, pecking my lips. “Don't say that. You're far from old. Well, seeing as you've made up your mind, I'd suggest you settled for something outside football. What other passion have you got?”“Hmm,” I gazed up at the ceiling thoughtfully. “Lately, I've been thinking of going into writing...you know, smut?”He quirked up a brow, holding back a laugh. “You wanna be
“Let's play Truth or Dare,” I suggested after what was bound to be my fifth beer bottle for the night. The world seemed to tilt as I sat up and leaned back in my drunken state. God, I was so fucked, and horny. “Okay,” Ryan agreed almost immediately as if he'd been contemplating a suitable distraction from the shitty 80's movie we'd been watching. He leaned over and switched off the TV, rubbing his thighs. “Whoah, you seem drunk. I'd suggest you head up to bed instead.” “No.” I belched, brain fuzzy. “I-I'm completely fine. Let's just get on with the damn game. You ready to milk my secrets out of me?” He chuckled, leaning back and giving me room to crawl up onto his thighs. I purred as I rested my head against his chest, while he pulled his arms around me, drawing me even closer. “How did we get this far, Ryan...” I mumbled out of nowhere, small dots appearing in the line of my vision. “How did we end up like this?” “The answer to that, Sir Sam is simple. I blackmailed you to it.” I
A couple more days passed before I finally admitted to myself that yes, indeed, Ryan Churchill had claimed not just my body but stolen my heart as well. Ironically, it was the day I was stepping down as substitute teacher since my Dad was stronger now. And it was also the day that I moved from home. Not wanting to sit around any longer and bear the scathing scrutiny of the Todos Santos locals, I'd found a small place in a beach town just on the outskirts of Todos Santos. Since I no longer taught, I had a lot of time to pack up my things. However, I couldn't miss the smile that crept up Witch Principal Churchill when I turned in my resignation note. She didn't even fake her dislike for me and happiness at seeing me leave in front of my father. But I couldn't care less. I knew she saw me as a threat to Ryan's bright future ever since he lied to her about running me over. Well, guess what, I didn't want to see her horrible face any more than she wanted to see mine. Since I didn't want t