Chapter 036

"Amelia. I was just teasing, you don't have to answer, I have got an imagination, you know. Wait, why do you look like you are about to start hyperventilating?...oh shit."

Ashley rushes to my side and starts massaging my back with gentle strokes and asking me to take deep breaths.

I told my stepfather I loved him. I have been fucking my mother's husband. My mother who is dead. My mother who never once treated me like a daughter because she didn't want to be a mother. He said they were separated before she died but what difference does that make?

I told him I loved him! Oh God. This is bad. I shouldn't have agreed to come back. What was I thinking? I don't even remember how he convinced me. I should have stood my ground knowing I had more to lose. I had something precious to protect. Myself. For fuck's sake, I have loved that man since I laid eyes on him.

I dismissed it at first as a silly teenage crush. Then it was a rebellion against my mother whom I was never enough for. I felt good