Have you ever found yourself so utterly lost or tired emotionally? Well I was, because I realized I was wasting my energy trying to chase what my heart was down for... which I had no idea if it still felt the same.Valentia wasn't okay, she's just gotten divorced and she was trying to get herself together and I on the other and was unknowingly trying to force things... I was pushing her. I needed to chill and leave her alone. So I'd stop feeling like this. Because right now I felt like everything I was doing was wrong and that ended up resulting in draining me emotionally. I ended up feeling like she was just tired of me or whatever and I was thinking why even bother... why even keep on trying when she has staff to deal with. Why bother when she looks like she ain't even interested... I should stop telling her I love her or I miss her or I'm here. I should just treat her like my boss and just be me at work. Never even try to hope for something because she wasn't her old self. I shou
Life... Is so full of fucken surprises. I found myself sitting in my bed and staring blankly at the wall in front of me. I felt so empty, so numb and lost. My ears suddenly felt so hot and my whole body felt ice cold. I had no fucken idea what was happening to me but it made me sick... it made me feel nauseous.. like I was going to vomit all the food I had last night. So he was dead... Dead..! I knew I always used to say he can go die for all I cared... but now that he was dead I felt odd.. I felt...nothing. I thought if something like this was to happen while I was still breathing maybe I'd feel okay, maybe I'd feel glad and be happy that a person who's caused me so much pain finally doesnt exist anymore. I thought I'd be okay with it and finally breathe now that he was no more. But the more my mom's words sank in was the more I got confused... It was the more I remembered one little birdy that was going to suffer from all this.My sister... her father was dead... I knew how s
At the funeral... I felt like a zombie. I felt out of place and emotionless or even lost. My mother cried, my little sister was a zombie like me. She only cried once when she saw me and since then she's been cooped up next to me. I was there mentally... but not with my heart. It didn't exist at that moment.. it was ice cold...My dreams were literally getting worse. I was just happy I didn't wake my sister while sleeping. You know I watched during the funeral as the pastor spoke, praising him and telling us how much of a good husband he was and what a great father and family man he was. It made me sick to my stomach... His family sitting there crying yet they knew the shit he put me through... But I tried to calm me down, they didn't experience what I did. Therefore they didn't know how I felt. So I just kept quiet and held on to my sister. I thought by now, a week later since he died I'd be okay... that I'd be feeling better and getting my old self back. I hardly talked to Vee, s
So just like that... the talk wasn't going to be talked about anymore.It frustrated me how Valentia was acting. Made my mind run wild but I kept my cool. I wasn't going to run after her honestly, I've been doing that for a while so now if she wanted to talk, she was going to be a fucken bigger person and come talk to me. I was done running after her. The week went by painfully slow.. we met up with the printers and asked for 2000 copies.. great deal in the pocket... and Vee still hardly talked to me. I was getting mad now. Honestly getting mad. She was just being an ass and very childish. Acting like my life was a cruise the past few weeks and I was honestly enjoying Jasmine's attention. But in other things, I was a bit surprised that Walter haven't showed his face lately... and his sms's threatening me stopped. But I was thankful he did. On Wednesday I finally answered Jas's phone. 'are you that busy or are you avoiding me?' was the first thing she said when I answered. "I'm a
You know I fucken felt like I was in a fucken movie. Forgive my fucken swearing.. I'm just fucken happy.. okay enough swearing. So I felt something shake me while I was still in deep. Shit.. I sighed and turned around to be met by a very hot looking Vee with a tray in her hand. I couldn't help the smile that grew on my face, "Baby..." She smiled, "umh.. I don't do this shit but I made you breakfast.." I laughed, can she be any cuter, "thank you so much.. but what did I do to deserve this..."She bit her lower lip, "well.. midnight when we were fucking you kinda said you were hungry and after sex we were both lazy to actually get up to make something to eat. So here's your breakfast.." I got up into a sitting position. My heart was beating faster than the speed of light and my mind was screaming Marry me Valentia. It was just fucken amazing I swear."Baby....you didn't have to, but thank you for doing so.. now let me go wash my face and come eat." She put the tray on the headboar
I opened my eyes and took in one deep breath and then let it out. I couldn't believe she just fucked me and left. Goodness.. I sighed and hopped off the counter then made my way to the bedroom. The shower water was on so I knew she was bathing. I got these blankets ready since I was honestly feeling fucken sleepy and tired thanks to that quickie Vee gave me. I went back to the kitchen, dished up her and then put the food on the microwave.. I took a pen and a paper and wrote down.. "Your food is in the microwave. Sleep well❤.. and I'm sorry again.. really sorry. I love you" Then I got in bed... I tried to stay up so that she and her can have a talk. I honestly needed to sleep knowing that I was forgiven but before I knew it, sleep took over and I was in dream land. ..I was woken up by a door. I opened my eyes and turned to Vee's side of the bed, which was the side I was sleeping on and she wasn't here. I furrowed my brows in confusion and looked at the window, the sun was up so
I couldn't believe what I just heard. She left me flabbergasted. That wasn't Jasmine my ex. That wasn't the girl who used to come visit me and make stupid jokes..I mean I understand she lost her mother but what the fuck happened to her after that? Did she take classes at the school for Psychos after that..? Did she just refer to herself as a 3rd person? "Ma'am.. would you like to order something?" A waiter took my mind off my thoughts. "Can I have an appletiser please.." "Anything to eat?" "Not yet I'm still checking..." He nodded and left.I took out my phone and texted my boss... Or should I say my girlfriend... ME: Please come fetch me. I honestly was freaked the living shit out. What if I get out and she's waiting for me. I didn't even understand what she meant... if she can't have me then no one else will? Fuck! My phone vibrated making me jump a bit.. fuck.. VEE: What? Your date sucks that much? I wished I found this funny, but under the circumstances it wasn't at all
So that day... when we got home.. I got a freaking sms from Jasmine which read..."If Valentia wants me to go through her to get to you... tell her that her wish is my command..."I showed Vee as soon as possible and she hired someone to watch Jasmine.The first month I was paranoid as fuck but nothing happened. Vee didn't even seem phased or scared and what was funny was that it was now, five months into our relationship, and I was spending so much time at her place.So Jasmine disappeared after that text and I finally managed to be less paranoid and free a bit. Vee then could let me go buy food alone without being scared that I'll freak out at any sound and get hit by a car.Yeah.. I was worse.So three months down the line, everything was perfect and my book was getting published."I can't believe your book is coming out in November.. like that's amazing baby, we have a lot to be thankful for this year..." Vee said holding the sample of the book. She read it over and over again and
14 MONTHS LATER.....VALENTIA'S POV I made a weird face looking at the twins, Zhavia laughed and Kai cried.. I laughed, God this kid...I sighed and looked towards the door, "moooom..."'What?' My mom responded from her room as Kai's cry became louder and filled the room we were in."Kai is crying again.." I said.'stop scaring that child Valentia..'I laughed, "but Zhavi loves it.."'Valentia stop it...' she said walking in, "let me take him.."Then she took Kai from bed and talked to him, "is momma showing you those scary faces right after waking up baby?""Yesss..." my son said with a sad face and I got up from the bed and went to him and my mom, "babyyy your momma loves you okay.."He frowned and I kissed his beautiful eyes as Olwethu says."I'll go make food for them coz they are now awake. Olwethu's mother is on her way with Lizzie.." my mom said walking towards the door.I opened my eyes wider for Kai, "did you hear that babyyyy? Aunt Lizzie is on her way...""Lizzie...." Zhavi
OLWETHU'S POVI was woken up by a splash of water on my face..I opened my eyes and they met with the devil herself and then my mind started replaying what happened yesterday or earlier... fuck.. what day was it today? I couldn't even recall. My body was tired and I felt like I been sleeping forever. I suddenly turned to the man who was talking to me at the mall and he had this stupid look I couldn't put what it really meant. I looked at Zai remembering that she fucken used something to make me sleep, I touched my stomach "whatever you used to get me to sleep better not harm my babies.." She ached her brows before laughing, "your babies? Honey.... please." I ignored her and looked around where I was. I was sitting on a bed and my ankle was tied with a..... chain...? The bed was the only thing in here... I turned back to her, "Where am I?" "You don't have to worry about that. You're awake now, you need to eat." She said the last part passing a plate with bread and butter. Yark..
VALENTIA'S POVI drove to work looking forward to today's meeting at 10. Things weren't that easy but I was glad to be back but mostly glad to be alive. It took a lot of work to get myself back. I had totally lost me and I think finding out that Olwethu was pregnant brought me back. I mean when we first talked about it she didn't seem interested and she said she was a bit young.. which I fully agreed with and understood... but when she said she was pregnant I was taken off guard and later the happiest woman alive. Two kids aren't any child's play, so I needed to get my shit together so I can be with her and there for her too.The drive to work didn't take much. I got out of my car with my bag in my hand and limpered up to the ground floor to get the lift. It arrived in no time and I went up. I made myself tea and then went to my office. I smiled when I got a text from my fiance around 9 saying: ❤WIFE❤: Good morning beautiful woman of my dreams.. I'm finally at the mall, I know I
"I look like a fucken whale..." I groaned stuffing another spoon of ice cream in my mouth..."My hot fucken whale.." Vee said and I rolled my eyes and stuffed another spoon full of ice cream in my mouth.Vee took the bucket, "baby this is too cold.. don't get my children cold..."I rolled my eyes again, I think my hormones were messing with me, "are they the only thing you care about?" She laughed, "are you jealous of your own children woman?" I shrugged, "no.. it's just how you made it sound like." "Well, they are a me.. and you're mine. I can't live without the three of you guys..So stop letting your hormones take you all over the place.""I'm hungry.." I said dismissing what my fiance said and she got up and took the crutches she was now using to help her walk.It was like a miracle how fast my soon to be wife was recovering. But I wasn't surprised, she was determined and set to actually being okay before I could give birth. "I'll go make you food..." ..The following weeks we
"What?" Vee asked looking at the guy confused.. "Zai got bail today so yeah.. I came to say that.." "How Matthew? How did she get bail?" Vee's mother asked seeming mad. "Wait.. mom calm down, I don't even understand why we are told this. Shouldn't you tell her family so they can celebrate..and leave us out of it, she ain't connected to us anymore." Fuck.. I didn't regret the fact that we hadn't told Vee about Zai being the one responsible for her accident, I just felt like shit because of how she was about to find out. "Umh Valentia... I'm telling you this because Zai is the cause of your accident.." My fiance furrowed her brows in confusion, "what do you mean...?" "She tampered with your breaks.. you couldn't stop your car and then another one collided with you.." Vee looked at us and our faces said it all. We didn't need to audibly admit that it was all true. "Why am I only finding out now?""Valentia...""Why am I finding out now? I need to know that.. I been out of the h
I waited anxiously on my bed after that brief phone call with Vee's doctor.My fiance got back to our bedroom from the bathroom.. "What's going on?" "You still don't know?" She made a face and held her waist. "Fuuuuuck my waist is painful..." I laughed almost in tears, "you still don't get it..." She shook her head and I went to kiss her cheek and then kneeled in front of her, "baby..." "Yes..." I pinched her legs and she hit my shoulder, "baby ouch!!" I laughed again, this was just fucken amazing. She could feel.. She could fucken feel. "You are seriously fucking with me babe... why would you ask if I still don't get shit and then pinch me..?" I smiled at her. I was so darn happy. "That was fucken painful baby..." she said cutely and I ached my brow, "so baby I was pinching you where and it was what?" She looked at me and then suddenly her face changed.. when she realized why I was acting weird.. "Oh fuck!"I laughed.. "Oh fuck.. why didn't you say it. I feel so fucken
I stood there listening to my heat beat as I watched the woman I love look at me confused. She shook her head still looking all confused, "Olwethu... are.... are you pregnant?" I swallowed nodding my head a bit, "y...yes.. I'm pregnant." She looked at me. The way I was feeling so emotional right now I was near being teary. I wanted her to say something or else I was going to lose my mind. "Umh... why?" I swallowed. This was where I was going to come out as this huge ass idiot I am. "Because I was losing my mind." "So being pregnant fideal?" "I don't..." I said and wiped the tears that were threatening to escape. I sat on the side if the bathtub and started playing with my fingers nervously."I... it's not easy to understand but I get why I did it." "Well.. I wanna get it like you too.. how far along are you even?" "Approaching three months. Okay.. so a lot of shit was happening... and when your mom supported Zai in switching off your machines I thought I was going to lose yo
I tried to close my eyes but it was just hard. Her words kept on playing in my head. I wondered if I should tell her I was pregnant. Was that going to add on or just make her happy? What if it added her stress and she beat herself up because she couldn't take care of me? I was so conflicted and time was running against me. My baby bum was starting to show.. I was surprised that it was taking time but it was starting to be visible but only when I was fully naked. I sighed.. "Baby..." I heard her voice and kept quiet. "Baby I know you're up.. please talk to me.." So after my bath I came straight to bed and by the looks of things Vee was still outside in the balcony. I fixed her place to sleep in and I climbed in bed. "Baby I'm sorry..." she said in almost a whisper and I removed the blanket that was on me and turned towards her. She was still sitting in her wheelchair... In honesty, I understood Vee's frustrations.. She was going through a lot and it was just getting to her that
I felt my throat grow dry... like God this couldn't be happening. I waited four fucken years for Valentia.. how long should I wait in order to finally have her as mine? For the rest of my life? My mind was racing and I honestly was telling myself that this was it. I was going to go home, pack my bags and move to the US or Australia.. anywhere but not here. I wouldn't be able to watch her and Zai again. I couldn't just sit here and watch the woman I love love someone else. It was going to rip me up and I'd probably lose my baby too... This was it. I wasn't going to be here anymore. I looked at her one last time and she smiled, "baby come here..." I turned around and didn't see Zai behind me. "Baby I'm talking to you.. come here.."I shook my head and took one step back away from her again... "Tia can you stop my fiance..." My heart skipped when she said that and I looked at her. She smiled, "come here Olwethu... can't I get a hug.." "You are not funny..." I said and she laug