CHAPTER 77 UnpreparedUnprepared- not properly ready mentally or physically for some experience or action77I glanced at dad, "We still haven't talked about it." I said coldly."Well, the sooner the better." Dad says.I take a long sip from my drink and just thought about Nick. Everyone talked about the wedding and I was just sitting on my chair. I smiled whenever they would ask me something and I would talk when Damon would say me something to me. It's as if I was a robot and all of them are controlling me.When dinner was over, Ingrid decided to sleep at my apartment together with Cameron while my parents were at their hotel room. As I fix my pjs and entered the room, I found Cameron fixing the bed sheets with Ingrid. She jumps on my bed and Cameron whines about not getting it done yet. I walked to the bed and joined them."Are you okay?" Cameron asked me.I moved my head to him, "Why wouldn't I be?""Oh come on Annie. We know you still love Nick." Ingrid says.I smiled ruefully.
CHAPTER 78 The Heart Wants What It Wants The Heart Wants What It Wants- She's saying that there's a lot of reasons she should finally leave him, and her mind knows it's not right, but she can't get her heart to stop wanting him. It's a mind over matter dilemma.78"Yes." I answer firmly.My heart breaks into pieces as I answer him. My lips are saying words that I don't want to say in front of the man I love. As I answer him, I could feel his pain living inside his eyes. I was surprised that Dakota didn't tell Nick about it. I guess she didn't tell him about how she walked inside my office and humiliated me in front of her."When?" He asked."It's on the invitation card.""No." He snapped.He exhales heavily and walks in little circles while massaging his temples."I meant when did you plan this? Tell me, when was it? Savannah you knew how I felt about you and I told you the whole truth." He adds."Nick." I snapped, almost sounding like a yell. I took a deep breath in. "I can't. I ju
CHAPTER 79 AmourAmour- a sexual relationship or a secret love affair: usually an illicit love affairOrigin: Latin79NICK'S POVA few days before Savannah's bachelorette party...I could still hear Savannah so clearly as I close my eyes when she told me she's marrying someone. I gaze at the invitation card disinterestedly. I still couldn't believe she's getting married. I just don't want her to marry yet, I know I am being selfish right now because Damon is already making her happy and Damon has filled the empty spaces that I left.I know I'm selfish when it comes to Savannah. I know I always want Savannah all to myself but at the same time I also push her away because I always end up thinking that I will never be good enough for her because of my past. I'm scared about the future that she's gonna have with me.My life has changed since I left her and even though we're far away from each other, she's all I think about all the time. She doesn't know but I come around NYU before just
CHAPTER 80 MatrimoniumMatrimoniumTranslation: MarriageOrigin: Latin80SAVANNAH'S POV"Need help here!" Ingrid screams.All of the bridesmaids started rushing closer towards me and we were obviously hurrying everything up."Stomach in." One says.I did so."Goodness Savannah!" Another one whines.I exhaled."You gained weight in just a week my dear!" The make up artist added."Look at your gown. It doesn't fit you anymore." Mom says to me.I exhaled heavily and took a deep breath in as I feel my wedding gown finally zipped up. I don't know why I've gained weight on just a week's time."Stress eating." I answered.Everyone in the room went back to what they were doing after helping me fit my dress. I just wish it won't peel off of me cos of my past. They were all in a hurry to finish with their make-up and their hairdos before the time of the wedding ceremony. My girl friends were all asking where is this and where is that. I didn't really feel any rush at all. Seeing everyone in th
CHAPTER 81 PursuitPursuit- the act of pursuingOrigin: Middle English81While I was busy grabbing all of my stuff to get myself some lunch, there was a sudden knock on my door."Hi." Nick greeted as he opens it wide.I froze for about five seconds when our eyes met and then I recovered. I gaze at my watch and it was twelve five noon. I'm starving for some steak and he's making me starve if he stays longer inside my office. He walks inside while every employee behind him was looking right at us. He slowly closes the door behind him but I could still see heads peeping out."Hi." I cleared my throat.He glanced at his gold wristwatch, "It's lunchtime. Wanna go grab something to eat together?" He asked.I bite my lower lip. Together."Nick, your employees think something is going on between the two of us after what you did for me. It's better if we avoid each other." I say."Grab a pad and a pen, we'll make them think we're going for a lunch meeting."I sigh. "Nick. Why are you doing t
CHAPTER 82 SolivagantSolivagant- wandering alone82EnglandComing to England and living in England wasn't really what I had plan in life. Yes, I wanted to come here, a visit or two maybe but spending a life here isn't what I had in mind. I didn't want to just be a household wife. I wanted to work for my own and earn my own living but Damon doesn't allow me to. I want to receive money so at least I can save up when me and Damon are going to have a divorce in a future's time. Though I'm sure he doesn't want it but I know it'll happen someday.The fact that he doesn't want me to work anymore cos he wants to show me that he can give me everything I want and he doesn't want to stress me out cos of the baby and our future babies isn't right for my part at all. My mom told me that the husband doesn't need to be the knelt one who's working.Though it's true that Damon is the one managing their new company expansion here in England and he receives even bigger amount of salary, Im still bug
CHAPTER 83 QuarryQuarry- one that is sought or pursuedOrigin: Middle English83I quickly covered my mouth with my hand. Shit. Damn it. Why are you very goddamn careless Savannah? My heart just went wild on my chest as it beats faster but I try to calm myself down after realizing that Nick was the one who I called and not Aries. Goodness, Aries and Nick are totally different person Savannah. And letters A and N are far from the alphabet. How in hell did you end up calling Nick?I take a deep breath in and closed my eyes. Relax. You'll find a way out to this. Just take it easy."Savannah.. Is there something wrong?" He asked softly.I hurriedly ended the call. I'm too ashamed to talk to him right now and I didn't want him to hear me crying. What if he's with Dakota right now that's why he's talking softly?I gazed at my watch, it's already eleven in the evening here in London. It's probably six in the evening there in New York. I wiped my tears away and walked to the bed. I sat down
CHAPTER 84 VelleitieVelleitie- a wish or powerful desire for something that nonetheless is not or cannot be followed by actions meant to pursue itOrigin: Latin84SAVANNAH'S POVThe following days in England, I was living a harmonious life at home because Damon won't be around all the time. I would still go out to shop but I could feel some people following me secretly wherever I go and I know they're Damon's people. Aries would send me some gifts too and I won't let Damon know about it because he will go nuts again. He's very hard to handle when he's intense and it's very unusual of him to be this strict and so jealousy.We were even invited to this birthday celebration of Mr. Mikel Edwards. He's one of Damon's closest family friend. I'm not really in the mood to go there tomorrow because I don't know the people who'll be attending. I don't wanna see fake people pretending to other fake people but Damon keeps on forcing me to go. We even fought about it last night too so I had no
CHAPTER 97 EPILOGUE LISSA'S POV "Mom I'm going to be late for the orientation." I whined. My dad was smiling. He finds it funny when I'm rushing mom and Vance. "Vance come on!" I yelled again. I see Vance running down the staircase, as he puts on his shirt. "Stop screaming early in the morning Lissa!" "Mom!!" I whined again. I watch as my mother rushes her way down the stairs, "Jesus Christ Lissa, calm down." "It's first day mom. I need to hurry up." I answered her while she fixes her earrings. My dad was busy putting on his blazer on himself and fixes his tie while he was on the phone with someone, probably work related. It's my first day to go into college and my folks are worrying about me. Well I am nervous too cos every teenager would pass through this transition, high school to college then college to real world. But my parents are always so supportive of me and they trust me in everything I do and all the decisions I make. They're proud of me cos I always top everythin
CHAPTER 96 EternalEternal- having no beginning and no end in time; lasting forever; existing at all times; always true or valid; seeming to last forever96NICK'S POVWhen I think about the day that I married Savannah, I couldn't help but smile at every detail of it.I would always and proudly say that it was indeed one of the greatest and most fulfilling days of my life.One of the best days that I would say I'm proud of having been through.I still remember how The Plaza looked that day with all the wedding decorations Savannah wanted, I let her choose all the things she wanted because it's her dream wedding, of course I helped around with the decision making too.I still remember how her hair was done, how beautiful she was on her wedding dress and how amazing she was when she walked down the aisle.God, I still remember how she was amazingly gorgeous that day. She was perfect. Everything was perfect that day.Of course, Lissa and Dani looked pretty on their dress too since they
CHAPTER 95 PerpetuityPerpetuity- the state of continuing forever or for a very long time95NICK'S POVAt first, I never actually believed in happy endings that it exist because based from my past, I thought my happy ending ended when Catherine died. I shut myself out from people and never have opened myself to anyone except my sister and Alec. Sometimes I shut my sister and Alec too. I knew from the very beginning that reality and fantasy are two different things.But as I stand in the doorway of our bedroom and watch Savannah sleep, I knew my happy ending is already happening. She doesn't know I do this, but I do it every morning because she's the reason why I start my day, no matter how busy I am in the office.It wasn't the first incident that I've done this, the first time was the morning that I first met her. I couldn't remember much from that night before because I was wasted as hell but the only thing I actually remembered was her and how I was lying on the floor of Tracy's
CHAPTER 94 Je T'aimeJe T'aimeTranslation: I love youOrigin: French94SAVANNAH'S POV"You bought the company without telling me?" I asked in disbelief.I wasn't mad that I found out about it but I was amused for what he has done to me and my family. No wonder they still kept the house, still have maids around here and have money to buy some things. Mom and dad were even surprised for what they found out. I couldn't believe it myself after all these years, he still helped us."I'm sorry Savannah." Nick tells me."I didn't tell nearly anyone about it because I don't want all of you to feel like you're all indebted to me. Because you're not." Nick adds.God I love him too much."How did you know I bought your company back from Damon?" He asked Cameron."I asked and did some investigations. $50 million is such a huge amount Nick. I don't know how to thank you. You deserve to be the one ruling it. You bought it." Cameron says."No. I'm not suited for the position. You're more knowledgea
CHAPTER 93 MágoaMágoa- a heartbreaking feeling that leaves long-lasting traces, visible in gestures and facial expressionsOrigin: Portuguese93SAVANNAH'S POV"I'll deal with Damon after Tracy's burial." Those were the words Nick said to me.At some point, I have concluded that life really is unfair and uncertain. Unfair, because at some point the good people dies and the bad people lives. Uncertain, because we don't know how our life goes and when the people close to us will be gone or will return.After Tracy's burial, all of us felt drained by how early she left us. I haven't even talked to her when I came here. I was planning on surprising her when me and Nick would fix things between us, but it's too late. She's gone and we won't see here anymore. It just hurts me as much as it hurts Nick because it felt like I lost a sister. A person very dear to me. A best friend and a loved one.Patricia Veronica Wilde1989-2017"You'll always be in our hearts as a daughter, a sister, a fri
CHAPTER 92 LuckLuck- the things that happen to a person because of chance; the accidental way things happen without being planned92NICK'S POVDani and I started walking inside the restaurant and this place is really fancy that I think Aries had really prepared for this. I don't know what's the occasion but he really asked me to come to this place and it is very unusual of him to do stuff like this to me. I finally marched my way inside and the waiter by the door stopped us."Good evening sir. Table for?" He asked.I scanned through the entire place, "I'm with a friend. Found him. Thanks.""Let's go Dani." I tell my daughter.Both of us started walking to the table where Aries was waiting and Dani ran towards him as quick as she could. I don't know why Dani loves him so much, maybe because of the lavishing gifts he sent her every time there's special occasions, most especially her birthdays and Christmases."Uncle Aries!" Dani hugs him."Oh pumpkin. Hello. Let me take a good look a
CHAPTER 91 BrotherhoodBrotherhood- feelings of friendship, support, and understanding between people91NICK'S POVDear Savannah,Hey! How are you? I have been wondering how you've been since it's been roughly five years I haven't talked and seen you. As for me, I was busy taking care of Tracy at the hospital lately. She's been getting her meds and chemo. But don't worry, I still have time to write you a letter though and I promised myself to write you until I see you again. I just hope you're not getting tired of receiving all of my letters.A few weeks from now you're turning twenty-seven. Every time I think about me being thirty-three, and how older I am from you, it just disgusts me of my age. I am really indeed too old for you. But we all know older guys are hotter. Haha ;) My wish for you, if ever I won't see you on your birthday cos I know you won't, is all the best for your future, with or without me. I know you could make it through wherever you go. I wish that I could fina
CHAPTER 90 Scarlet LetterScarlet Letter- A visible symbol of something you have done wrong and regretted, or a stigma of a past mistake you made that follows you90Dear Savannah,Hello my beautiful! I was honestly excited on writing you my second letter and for some reason I think you loved my first one. Don't deny it, I know you did ;) It's been a month and I miss talking to you. Well, you didn't respond to my first letter so basically I'm the one doing the talking.I smile.How's Melissa? Have you received her first month present? I'm proud of those since I was the one who picked most of it. All of it, actually. I hope everything will fit her. To be honest I really had a hard time picking those since I don't know what's her size. I chose the cutest outfits I saw and I've googled some baby clothes for girls so I had a few ideas. I'm sorry for acting like a father to her, I just felt comfortable when I held her on my arms that day.I stared at the baby clothes that he sent me and m
CHAPTER 89 LieLie- statements which are untrue; to make an untrue statement with intent to deceive; to create a false or misleading impression; to bring about by telling liesOrigin: Middle English89There was a huge gift on Damon's hand and I was surprised with it. He bought a gift to Melissa but never dared to give it? Why? This means a lot to me because out of all Melissa's birthdays he never, not even once, gave her a gift. Every family occasion or special holidays like Christmases, he never gave her anything. Never.Even though I hate Damon so much because of all the cruel things he has done to me, this tiny thing he did for Melissa is huge, considering Melissa doesn't even bring his last name. It means he does love my daughter. He's at least beginning to love her. I know Damon is still a nice guy despite what he has become now, and he has his days all the time but right now I am really moved.He looks at me. "What are you doing here?""Is that a gift?" I asked. "For Melissa?"