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Author: C. Hazlewood
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I feel disoriented for a few seconds, time standing still as reality sets in.

I told him not to kiss me again earlier today, then our Lycans went ahead and did the act for us, leaving us in a very awkward position.

“I’m sorry,” he pants, his hands still resting on the sides of my face. “I was yelling at him to stop, but he just ignored me.”

I press my lips together, still feeling his warmth and moisture on them. I can’t really blame him when Val initiated it as much as Killian did.

“That’s okay,” I mumbled, pushing my body away from his and kneeling at the end of the bed, “Val is to blame as well.”

He looks disoriented and lost, almost, as he stares at me, still lying on his back on the bed. I felt self-conscious, wondering what he was thinking.

That was the first willing kiss I had ever had. The thought is wracking my brain. It may have been Val, but my body was still a willing participant. The thought is humbling, and makes my stomach feel like a bottomless pit.

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Emily von Pfahl
Poor Ela! What she went through was so traumatic and she can’t tell anyone about it. Her father should have made those memories be forgotten, or at least the details. I hope the necklace heals her.
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