Chapter 1: Anniversary

I heard the loud sound of Theron kicking the door. Because of my fear I hurried to turn off the music that had been playing. After I danced alone I fell asleep so I was surprised when he kicked the door.

"T-Theron, I'm sorry."

"What's wrong, Athara? I've been calling you many times but you didn't even hear me. What's wrong with you, bitch!? are you deaf or you're just trying to annoy me!?"

"ARGH! Theron, I'm sorry!"

I rubbed my cheek because of the pain I felt after Theron slapped me.

"You shouldn't keep me waiting, Athara! Since you're constantly playing a fucking my music, you can't hear! Damn it! You're useless as ever!"

"Don't hurt m-me, Theron! Have mercy!"

I had my hands above my head and my arms outstretched to shield my face from my wicked husband. I am frightened that I might end up receiving his punches.

He didn't even think about what day it was. He didn't even think that I was hurt by what he was doing.

"Pity? Why should I pity you, woman? You're not doing your job properly! You simply can't open the door quickly! How can I pity a stupid and frivolous woman like you? Tell me, how? Tell me! Damn you!"

I'm crying again. It always is. My eyes are always wet because of Theron hurting me. My eyes has no time resting from producing tears. If it is a job, I might be rich now.

I tried to stand up. Even though I was full of fear now, I used the little strength I had left to look him in the eyes.

Teardrops begin to escape from the lids of my eyes.

"Theron, why are you like that to me? You didn't even manage to respect me! You always hurt me but it's like you don't care. It's so painful, Theron! It's so painful in my heart! It's like being stabbed for the rest of my life because of what you do to me! I'm not asking you to love me. At least respect, Theron! All I ask from you is respect! J-Just that. Is it really hard to give?"

"You don't have the right to ask something from me, Athara. Your parents took a lot of money from me but not a single penny came back to me! Now, you expect me to respect you? Who are you by the way?"

It hurts to hear those words from Theron. I did not expect that the words he would say would be good, but I also did not prepare for what he said.

"Theron, you told me you owned me. I'm your wife, Theron! I'm your wife!"

He approached me. He firmly held both of my arms. He shook me violently.

"You're just my wife, Athara! Just my wife, Athara, and you're not my boss to obey! You have no right to demand from me how I am going to treat you! I have no reason to respect you, Athara. From the beginning I didn't want to marry you!"

"I hope you didn't just took me as pay off of my parents' debt, Theron!"

"And why not? You're important to them and you're all they have. They're all debt and they can't pay it anymore! I took you to punish you. That's what you should stick in your cunt, Athara. You're useless so I won't respect you as you wish!"

He stuck his index finger to my forehead and pressed it hard.

"What about the paper we signed? The certificate that says I'm your spouse and part of your life? If you can't give me the respect I'm asking for, I hope you at least respect that paper."

"Even that paper has no right to be respected, Athara. I did not choose you to marry you. Your parents forced you to me and I did not pray to the saints for you. Stop with your illusion that I will fix my treatment of you, Athara! Nothing will change at all because I will disrespect you…hurt you as much as I want."

"You're indeed an evil creature, Theron! You're so bad! You don't even remember this day! It's our anniversary, Theron! It's our anniversary but you're with someone else! You're with another woman while I'm in the other room and I can still hear your grunts! It hurts, Theron! It hurts! It feels like my heart is bleeding!"

Theron grabbed my arm again.

"What do you expect from me? I will prepare for this day? I will held a feast for this? You are really crazy, Athara! Maybe you expect me to surprise you or maybe take you to another country to celebrate this fucking anniversary? If that is what you are thinking, and you hope, you are wrong. Maybe you're daydreaming? If yes, wake up from your fantasy, bullshit!"

"It's not like—"

"Shut up! Your voice hurts my ears! Clean up the other room and fix up the scattered things there! Stop your drama, Athara!"

"Theron, think about what you said—"

"Don't you want me to treat you like a wife? Do it, Athara. It's a wife's job to clean up a husband's mess!"

I haven't done anything else. Even though I don't want to do Theron's order, I'm here right now in the room where he brought and fuck hus woman.

I took a rag and soaked it in soapy water. Theron's sperm was scattered on the floor, already diluted. I was crying while cleaning the room where Theron and his woman committed that indecency.

I imaged every position they took in this room. My glance went to the chair and the bed. I know they used the bed because the white cloth on it was still wet. The pillows were also a mess and even where the pillows ended up.

My knees rest on my elbows. It wasn't just cleaning the whole room that made me weak. I lost strength because I cried like there's no tomorrow.

When I finished cleaning the room I showered and got dressed. I remembered that I had to go to Theron's office even though it was late already. I have to clean his office. if I will not, he'll get mad on me and yell at me tomorrow.

Theron wasn't in our room. I don't know where he went. As if, he wishes me to know.

I drove to the company building. I arrived at Duffins Enterprises. I headed to Theron's office on the third floor of the building.

Only the guards were in the entire building and around it. They didn't realize I came in. They don't care if they see me anyways.

"Aren't you satisfied, Theron? It's obvious that you've already had sex. Why did you send me over?"

I approached the door with a small opening. I'm just stupid. I know that the pain will swallow me again for what I do, but my emotions are strong so I still peeked.

"You know you're different from them."

"I'm really different, even from your boring wife!" The woman laughed after she said it.

"Why are you comparing yourself to that lousy woman? She means nothing to me. She's just an ornament that doesn't shine. I'm disgusted when I see her all the time!"

"Really? Can you divorce her then?"

"I can't divorce her. I can get a lot of money if his parents take her back from me. I have to wait to get my money. I have to endure her presence even it sucks!"

I thought Theron was satisfied with what he did to me earlier. He went to his office just to meet his other woman.

He used not only one woman to betray me tonight but two. He had two women with him on our anniversary. He is so demonic! Maybe he didn't come from his mother's womb that's why he tortures me so much.

"Theron, your hands are so fiddly," the woman said jokingly.

I saw how Theron's hands went inside the woman's blouse. His hands cupped the woman's mountains as he stared at her lips full of desire.

"You're so sexy that my hands can't take it anymore."

"Oh shit!"

The woman was startled by Theron playing with her nipples.

My knees are shaking. At that time he's cheating on me, I could only hear the grunts of Theron and the girl he was having sex with. But now I can clearly see their betrayal of me. I can clearly see how he makes the girl happy.

I felt more than just pain this time. I'm jealous. I should be the one Theron should make happy because I am his wife and today is our anniversary but another woman is enjoying my husband's caresses.

I hold tight onto the door frame as Theron began to kiss his woman's neck. I started crying secretly again. The View tortures my eyes and my heart.

"Ughmp."

"Am I good, Theron? Am I better than your wife?"

"Too much! You're so hot! Hmp."

My hand moved from the door frame to my cheek. I wiped away the tears and chose to turn away from them.

It hurts too much to see your husband cheating on you. I even heard how they talked about me.

I'm ashamed of myself because I didn't even defend it. I couldn't even protect myself. I'm a poor wife. I didn't even protect the things I had. I'm just so weak letting another woman to pleasure my my husband.

I entered the elevator as if I was floating in the air. I went down. The guard saw me so he approached me.

"Ma'am Athara, I wish you had said you were coming—"

"For what else? For you to throw me away and tell me that I can't come in because it's late?"

"Ma'am..."

"You don't need to hide your boss's shamelessness anymore. From the first day of our marriage, I know everything. I know that he is cheating on me and that he will never love me."

"Ma'am, I'm sorry."

I shook my head and forced my lips to draw a smile even though the truth was that I was struggling.

"You don't need to feel awful for me. It's my fault because even though I knew I was going to get hurt, I did it anyway. It just really hurts, man. It really hurts!"

I didn't wait for the guard's answer. I immediately went to my car and entered it as soon as I opened it.

I leaned my forehead on the steering wheel of my car and started crying again.

I can't get out of my mind what I saw. What's worse is that my mind even creates fake scenarios that are hurting me even more

When will the pain in my heart end? Is this God's judgement for me because I did not fulfill my promise to him that I would serve him and I would become a nun?

I drove towards the unknown. I have no idea where to run and ask for help. It's hard to be alone in life, without allies, and without people to sympathize you.