LOGINShare
At The Brink Of Losing It
Last Updated:
2022-03-14 18:28:39**CAMILLA RENEE**
~Tuesday Evening~
~9:34 pm ~
Since this was becoming something like a bathroom face-off, I turned my head and faced her. Convincing her that my next words were nothing but the truth will be easier if I'm looking directly at her.
I'm trying not to falter in my features or let my lips quiver with fright since those two emotions were the only thing I felt.
Eva could either be messing with her words or truly be aware of what happened.
The latter is a catastrophe.
I want to believe it's the former, if I was innocent it's only logical to deny all allegations. If she's tripping, I'll see it in her face and drop it down on her so hard she won't recover.
With that being said. I could mutter these words.
"Absolutely no clue what you're talking about, I'm not interes
Crystal OduwaDrop a word of encouragement on the story so far, it'll go a long way and I love to hear what you think always.
Related chapters
Living With The Player Multiple Personalities?
**CAMILLA**~Tuesday Evening~~9:43 pm ~I grabbed a fist full of his clothing, I wasn't sure what part. I hoped it was his shirt as I intended, if I ended up reaching for his pants, that will be very embarrassing and confusing at the same time.In response, he held my hand and squeezed it tightly allowing the warmth I received to provide some comfort in this impromptu panic attack. It's all that bitch's fault!"Kyle can't find out, Dylan can't find out. No one can find out. Oh shit, she's going to tell everyone. I'll die if that happens. I should die now because I can't take anyone finding out the truth."I debate internally, struggling to catch my breath and hold on to Kyle without fainting or worse getting a stroke if that's possible.He tilted my head towards his face, forcing me to look at him.I kept wheezing, h
Last Updated : 2022-03-14Living With The Player True Or False?
**CAMILLA**~Tuesday Evening~~9:49 pm ~ I held the jacket firmly, he stood behind me breathing on my neck. Truly breathing, I could hear his inhale and exhale at intervals.Okay, annoying Dylan is back in full action. I curled my fist knowing he was doing this to rile me up.It's working like clockwork."Could you not do that?"I furrowed my brows while trying to make my voice sound cold, it came out raspy instead.I guess his breathing affects me as well. He was aiming for that angle. I knew that much."Do what?"He asked feigning ignorance.He even pursed his lips and shrugged at the end. I'll slap him before I get back to his place. That's happening."Breath on me"&
Last Updated : 2022-03-14Living With The Player Weird Wednesday [I]
**CAMILLA**~Wednesday Morning~7:09 amI rubbed my eyelids stretching on my bed, I opted to stand up, but pulled back instead, turning over, placing my head underneath my palm, finding my swear spot, then finally stretching the duvet to cover my upper legs."So fucking soft."I moaned in delight, chewing on the insides of my lips, wishing I could stay here for the rest of the day. I do not want to get out of bed.Sadly, I had to.Snapping my eyes open, I lifted my weight, seating on the bed, stretching my arms wide.I let out a frustrated groan when I figured it was a school day.That's over seven hours of boring nothing.I already know half of what the teachers are saying, I can't understand why I'm not allowed to just skip classes.It's boring listening to what's already in your brain.I removed the blankets from my skin, the cold weather slapping against my bare body, I shuddered and looked downw
Last Updated : 2022-03-14Living With The Player Weird Wednesday [II]
**CAMILLA**~Wednesday MorningAs I said, the tension was awkward, not to mention a little strange. I ignored it, ignored him.The ride was overly silent, I got so used to his witty comments every five seconds when he didn't make any, I felt empty. Different even.The drive felt longer even. It was usually ten minutes tops, but with the lingering silence, it felt as though I was there for hours.Still, we arrived at soon in one piece.On the bright side, yeah there's a bright side. I don't have to walk a slightly long distance when he pulls over and parks somewhere. Since everyone had seen us arrive together, there was no need to hide it anymore. Dylan parked his car in the lot and I stepped down.Unlike the first time, the surprise on most students' faces was just plain and forced.Although the nasty comments they made were quite the opposite. I could hear them, but it's not like they cared.
Last Updated : 2022-03-14Living With The Player Drunk Or Not Drunk?
**CAMILLA**~Wednesday MorningUnlike my original plan of storming out to the garden or seating in the cafeteria and getting caught by a teacher, I ended up going to class arriving a few minutes earlier, pouting like an angry lion starved of food.Anyone who dared mess with me gets anything they receive.Anger is the one thing I can't get a grip on and my levels are off the charts.The teacher did arrive as soon as the bell sounded. Most of it then was like that.I was currently in English class learning about the various stress patterns.How ironic considering how relatable I am to the first word.Sadly, I wasn't paying any attention. Can't afford it at this point not to mention I covered the topic last week while reading ahead.Ugh.Safe to sat, my mind was somewhere else. Very far.The teacher would throw random questions at students to check if we were following the topic, I'll freeze if she cal
Last Updated : 2022-03-14Living With The Player The Garden Talk
**CAMILLA**WEDNESDAY.Anyone could walk in. They'll meet a girl with puffy eyes shedding tears non stop for a guy who not only slept with another girl, but he also lied to her about it.This is stupid.Why would Kyle do that to me?We've had issues in the past. It's been two fucking years of course we've argued and even spaced each other.He hasn't resorted to sex or flirting.Maybe he has and I wasn't aware of it. Those girls didn't inform me, but he's always been screwing around."Then again, maybe I deserve what's happening to me, Eva was probably right. It's not his fault for craving those things, everyone has sexual needs and for so long I neglected it. The topic didn't appeal to me, it's popped up a few times but I shrugged it away, he eventually stopped making advanced, I figured he understood my side, but in the end he's just a horny teen who couldn't keep his dick in his pants much longer. It's not his
Last Updated : 2022-03-14Living With The Player Mixed Emotions
**CAMILLA**WEDNESDAY.After that little moment of genuine happiness, the awkwardness dissolved a little.In time, it disappeared and we seemed to have a normal conversation, the time two people who attended the same school would have.Weird right?I know.It got to the point that we started talking about random things such as pet peeves, likes and dislikes, I got to know Dylan Emerton a little not than when I walked into this garden.I forgot all about Eva and everything that occured this morning.The smile on my face was there to stay, at least until I leave here and get back into the real world.Which was now. The bell rung and what was nearly half an hour felt like two minutes.That's how being with Dylan felt.Wow.I forced a smile to mask the disappointment in me for leaving this place, if I wasn't such a nerd I might as well just skip classes, but I was. I am a nerd.
Last Updated : 2022-03-14Living With The Player What Does He Know?
**CAMILLA**WEDNESDAY The weirdness didn't end.Arriving at his place, I hopped off the motorcycle and rushed instead, walking faster than I usually would.When he made no efforts to reach out, I lowered my head and shut the door behind me.I ran upstairs, locked myself in my room and sucked in a harsh breath. The walls felt as though they were closing in on me, not to mention my airway feeling clogged all of a sudden."Things are turning out terribly for me. For starters, I caused a fire in my house, I lost my boyfriend, my parents are away. I don't need a soothsayer to let me know that I'm bad luck." I whispered to my hearing.My shoulders began to shake in light sobs. Tears streamed down my cheeks. I got to my bed and laid flat, burying my face into my pillow, screaming out all my frustrations and then I cried even harder.****Half an hour later, I pulled off my clothes and went i
Last Updated : 2022-03-14
Latest chapter
Living With The Player Author's Note
Firstly, I want to thank everyone who read this book with me. Honestly I didn't think it'll make it this far at all. it's my book but even I admit it's not that very good ｡◕‿◕｡ But even at that, I got support and I'm super happy. it makes my day reading the comments and for the mistakes and errors, I'll edit the book in my free time. it might take a while because of the word count, but I'll get it done. Thank you for finishing it despite the errors. You spent money on it ʘ‿ʘ It makes my day. If you're into a fast paced enemies to lovers, then you might want to check out my new book "A VOW TO HATE" I assure you, it's splended. Thank you for reading! So much love from my end, C.
Living With The Player EPILOGUE 02 - The Finality
CAMILLA RENEE LINCOLN MEMORIAL. It's three pm and there's hardly anyone around. I can't see Harper or Dylan. I'm inside the memorial. My phone began ringing again. "You listened. Now keep walking. You'll get your reward soon." "What do you want?" "You. Forever." He answers in the same computerized voice. Me? I thought his obsession was Dylan. After seven years, he's still psychotic. "W-What are you talking about? Why won't you leave me the fuck alone?" I step forward, checking around. "I can't, even if I tried," I furrow my brows. "Where is Dylan?" "Closer." I shiver "Why did you take him? What do you want?" "I told you, Darlin, you and I. Forever." I search the entire place. It's no longer scanty. It's empty now. Completely empty. I walk out and try trailing the surrounding. Even security has vanished. Wait, a minute. Dylan calls me Darlin. Did Harper take that up now? Has he gotten even more crazy? "Have you figured it out yet?" "Dylan." I whisper. "Darlin."
Living With The Player EPILOGUE - 01 [A Kidnapping Guide}
CAMILLA RENÉEEIGHT YEARS LATER.WILLIAMS MEDICAL CENTER, WASHINGTON."Camilla? Are you done with that patient?"Athena peaked her head in, checking the room to be certain. I nodded my head, stifling a laugh. She strode in, pulled a chair and chuckled while seating."How long did he stay this time?""Two hours. Two pure hours of torture. Listening to him ramble about a woman who's probably shaking her ass on a yacht with another man. It's sad. Funny, but truly sad."Athena poured two glasses of wine for each of us."You deserved it."I bobbed my head in agreement. Sighing, she took a seat across as though she were my patient. I have no clue why his wife suddenly picked her bags and flew half way across the country leaving him devastated. Poor man still loves her, he'll heal. Hopefully.Until then, it's my duty to sit and listen. And he's like a two out of my tough patients. There are some who haven't gotten over dead daughters. Others who are depressed. God I love my job. It's like a
Living With The Player Loving The Player [II]
CLAIRE MITCHELL Sixteen days. So much has happened in over two weeks. So much has changed. Before I'd be begged to shut up, now everyone keeps gawking and idling for a word or two out of me.My parents flew out of Cal-U yesterday. They did their best, but I wasn't ready yet. Dylan's mother got close though. All she did was hug me and I sobbed.Yesterday I saw him. Camilla's ex. He knew about everything, so I choose to give the doctor's words a chance and then open up about this entire shit.So here I am, sitting across from him, peaking at his notepad while he scribbles my first and last name."If I gave you a choice between your blood and the one person you loved, who would you pick?"He gawks in shock. Half expecting me to keep quiet throughout. "Is that why you're withdrawn? Because of what Harper did to Dylan?"I chuckle."No. Of course now. I just don't see a reason to talk much unlike before. I'm curious, so I'm asking.""No. You're trying to convince yourself that you're nobod
Living With The Player Loving The Player [I]
MIRANDA COSGROVESATURDAY.“The audacity of you to come here! You animal!”I shriek, knocking my nose, which forces me to step back. “Why does everyone keep hitting me today?”Rocking my head, I disregard the comment he made and what he might mean. He deserves all the punches in the world. “Get the fuck out of my dorm. You better not try to speak with Camilla. Not after what happened. I refuse to let you get close to her.”Shoving a finger in his face, I propped my shoulders to seem taller and more intimidating.“Where is Camilla? Dylan came to my place screaming about how I tried to get her into the dorm. I came back here to make sure she was okay. He got a call and ran off. Have you seen her?”My bag drops to the floor and I panic.“What? He hasn’t found her? He hung up, and I thought, maybe...”I lower my knees and retrieve my cell, dialling Dylan’s number first. Straight to voice mail. I did the same to Camilla. Voice mail.What the hell is happening?“What did you do? What did y
Living With The Player Everything To Lose [III]
DYLAN EMERTONSATURDAY.The shot landed beside Camilla's leg, making a dent in the wood. I saw my entire life through my eyes, and Camilla was the only thing I could see.I almost lost her. Harper would've shot Camilla if I hadn't howled. The bullet was inches away from hitting her."I do not have all day D. I would've opted for initials, but they both have Cs."His goons all laughed as he waved the gun in the air. I stomped forward, lifting my chin."You almost hurt her. I would have killed you!""Aww D, we're brothers, remember?"He clicked his tongue, then lifted the gun again."Enough stalling. Choose."I eyed both of them. My family. My whole life. I love them both. I may not love them. I'd be a fool to deceive my brain by saying I loved both of them at the same level. Camilla means more. Camilla will always mean more. But that does not justify killing my cousin. I can't live with that. I'm done thinking about just my needs.She has friends. Parents. May have a boyfriend who also
Living With The Player Everything To Lose [II]
DYLAN EMERTONSATURDAY"You had her for two days, give or take! You couldn't allow me to spend a day with her!"I check the ID. it's unknown, but I recognize Miranda's voice. I'd figure out how she got my number later. "What are you talking about?" The more obvious question."Well, Camilla texted, "I had to run." I assume she's with you?"My brows knit together. "She isn't here."Standing up from the bed, I toss a T-shirt on, alarmed."How long was that text?""About three hours ago, I had to watch the movie. Now I can't reach her, and I called you to rant. You better not be fucking again!""Miranda slow down. I haven't seen Camilla since this morning.""Huh? But she texted me that...""Maybe she's at the dorm?""No. I called the landline there. No one answered."My heart skipped a pace."Dylan?""Wait a minute, Camilla never texts in full with me. Much less use words like "Run" Why am I just noticing this?"My heart jumped at another one."I think something happened." No shit. "Whe
Living With The Player Everything To Lose [I]
CAMILLA RENÉEFRIDAY."You scent, It's better than I ever imagined."Dylan grunts fill the entire room as he kisses me up to my thighs, snugging his nose over my skin and then pressing his mouth on my inner skin.I moan, giving little regard to how loud I must sound, or who might be attracted to what we were doing.I'm clad in my panties only, which soon meet their fate on the floor. Dylan steps away, holding my gaze as he makes quick words of his shirt.Kneading my legs, I crawl to the edge of the bed, attempting to reach his belt buckle.He passes me a knowing look, chuckles, and then tosses his head back, allowing me room to his body.I peel the pants off his skin, reaching for the waistband of his boxer briefs.His hands meet mine and he halts that movement."Not yet."He grumbles, concealing his head in the corner of my neck."Lay back."His gentle commands ring in my ears. Obeying, I straighten my legs and return my back to the bed, all without breaking his gaze.Smirking, he be
Living With The Player Till Whenever
CAMILLA RENÉEFRIDAY."How fucked up do you reckon the outside world is now?" Dylan dissembles the subject for a few seconds."We've been in isolation for twelve hours give or take? I'd like roughly two per cent more."Simultaneously, we break into laughter."What do you expect to do after graduation? P. I or you're going to work for a firm?""Well Darlin, I like my space, so I don't think I'll be under any company. I'll freelance." A delicate smile jerks my lips."Don't you think it'll be stressful? Having all those limited resources?""I'm very resourceful."He soothes me, pressing several kisses on the side of my head."And you? What are you going to do?""Hospitals. I want to work in a hospital. I'll be able to reach and help more people that way.""But that's a long time from now, we still have three-plus years to go. A lot could occur""You'd expect to change career paths?"He taunts. I shrug both shoulders."No, I'm just striving to keep an open mind. I infer my house got destro
