I felt like I lost my voice- from singing and screaming and laughing too hard when Tim sung out of tune and it was really hilarious that we need to stop the van because Sir Flinn can't control his laughter. My cheeks are really tired from laughing and my eyes are crying with the happy tears.
Tim, Miss Mia, and me are the vocalists while Sir Flinn is the one who keeps on singing the instrumental parts and it sounds extremely weird. And to my calculation, we played almost 458 songs and the unfinished one when Sir Flinn said we arrived.
The resort is called "London Beach", and it's funny that is sounds like "London Bridge". And the fact that we are not in London, it made me think how crazy a person's mind is.
I got amazed when I saw how lively the place is even though it's already quarter to four in the morning. There still people who are swimming in the sea, and then others are on their cottage, living life.
We went to the booth where you can get your ticket and book your hotel rooms. We decided to reserve two rooms- me and Miss Mia will share, and then the other room will be for the gentlemen.
Our rooms were just a distance away from the entrance. I walked with Miss Mia while Tim is with Sir Flinn, parking the van first. I help her carry her bag and listen to her telling how funny Tim is when he sung out of tune. I can't help but to laugh again as the moment kept on repeating in my mind.
I quickly jumped to the bed the moment Miss Mia opened the room and turned the lights on. It was a big one-enough for the two of us. I opened the sliding door for the balcony and the fresh air made me feel goosebumps. I watched the sea and how the moon hides and it made me feel new. It feels like I am under a new sky from the sky I've been under for the past decades of my life- those days and nights doesn't made me feel alive like how I feel right now.
I felt Miss Mia going to my direction,then I saw her stand next to me. She closed her eyes, feeling the wind and the sky welcoming her. I stared at her eyes and I can see uncertainty, pain, and emotions only her knew. “You okay, Miss Mia?” I ask making her take a deep breathe. “I just...feel guilty.” She said while staring at the moon.
“Guilty for what?” I stated in my natural tone.
She then looked at me and tears are in her eyes- wanting to escape. “ For living. Merliah just died but it seems like I am not affected by it...cause here I am, having fun.”
I suddenly feel a lump in my throat. I don't know what to say or what to do. I just want to listen to her. “ When I was on your age, I never experienced having fun, I was given a big responsibility at a young age.”
“There's no time for me to have fun and enjoy my youth. I need to work for our family.” She continued and watched the waves crashing. “My parents' wages are not enough for us, it is only enough for our meals. That's why I worked hard while studying. My teacher would scold me if ever I slept in her class.” She giggled and then tried her best to not cry. “ My father was illed and it made me stop going to school, I spend my years in working and kicking shits out of my life.”
It made me respect her even more. She's one of the strongest woman I've ever met. The way she hides her painful battles, the way she embrace her imperfections, it made me realize how lucky I am to not experience those wars she have been to. She have been through a lot, but still here, existing to make me feel blessed. God gave me too much. He gave me a home and now an angel- telling me being alive is precious.
“Merliah must be happy right now seeing her Mom living her life. Miss...showing you are happy doesn't mean you are not battling with your emotions anymore. You are just being strong to hide your scars and let people feel you are totally fine.” I started.
“She doesn't want to see you grieving...life is short and as what you said, life must continue. Miss...time will come you will be with Merliah again.” I continued and hold her cold hands.
“For now, we just need to live. Even if we are dying inside.”
I wore my white cardigan and comb my hair before going out. Miss Mia is already waiting outside with Sir Flinn and Tim. I went to the mirror to check how bad my face is. I narrowed my eyes and big eye bags are spotted.
Miss Mia and I didn't went to sleep. I am not sleepy, either. Tim and Sir Flinn told us that they want to catch the sunrise. I quickly agreed as I miss catching the sun waking up. Miss Mia was the most excited, she said it was already a long long time since she last witness how the sun rise.
We sat by the white sand and waited for the sun to arrive. I hold my cup of coffee while silently staring at the view. Sir Flinn and Tim are talking about the word ' rendezvous', then Sir Flinn would say he thought it was a cousin of the rainbow. I just find him very strange.
I just listen to them arguing and Miss Mia would tell them they are talking nonsense and would suggest to talk about something interesting. Then there's this Timothy Williams who asked what we think about the sun and the moon. It's funny how they talk about rendezvous then suddenly shift to talking about the sun and the moon.
“ I think they are star-crossed lovers.” Tim stated. Sir Flinn's forehead wrinkled and then confusion was being painted on his face.
“How did they become star-crossed lovers when the moon is called as moon and not as star and then the sun is called as sun when they could name the sun as star, since it's a star-is it a star?”
Then they both argue again.Hearing Sir Flinn's answers made my stomach hurt from laughing. Then Miss Mia's anger issues will make them stop talking for awhile then start again.
“How 'bout you Kath?” Sir Flinn spoke to me making me turn my head to his direction.
“What about me?” I uttered in a hush voice.
“What do you think about the sun and the moon?”
I took a deep breathe making them stare at me and wait for my words to fall.
“The sun and the moon, it represents our life.The sun rises and it's a new day, then it continued on shining. But sometimes...there are unexpected rains.But there's always a rainbow after.The sunset, it always reminds us that happy endings are possible, to remind us to stay alive. Then when time comes, the moon will show up, the moon represents the best people in your life, the ones who will give you light in your darkest hours. When the moon felt your okay, it will disappear and the sun will shine again, but the moon will always be there with you when you feel like you are alone.”
They are still staring at me and I notice Tim's lips are slightly open and it seems like he didn't expect it. Sir Flinn then pat my shoulder and he's still staring at me with a smile on his face.
“You are as genius as your Grandma.”
I give him a smile he deserves and then face the sky. The sun is slowly and beautifully rising. Then finally, it shines. I sipped my coffee and hugged my knees. It's been a long time since I witnessed how it smiles at me. Just hoe fast the days passed by. From escaping to being home, but I know there's still a long journey ahead.
We are already on our way to our rooms when Tim grab me by the arm. Miss Mia cleared her throat reminding Tim she's with me.
“Can I borrow her?” He stated with his cheeks turning red.
“Just don't do anything stupid, okay?”
We walked by the shore with the morning air, the sunrays touching our skins,and my feet meeting the warmth of the waves.
“Kathareen, can I ask you something?” he said breaking the silence between the two of us. i can sense he's not feeling emotionally well. He's been avoiding my stares the time we left Miss Mia.
“You are already asking, just go ahead.”
He took a deep breathe and stop from walking making me froze in my position. Then finally, he stared back to me.
“What would you do if.. I die before you?”
“Is this already okay?” Miss Mia asked us as she sets up the two tents. I suggested we could sleep here or talk until sunrise, and these people are always on when it come to not sleeping.I bob my head and gave her a warm smile. It's only the four of us here in this part of the resort. They say this part of the place requires a huge amount of money, I didn't know how Sir Flinn did it, he just show his ID, then we got a free access.The sky is pretty with the stars shining on their own ways,and the moon is hiding behind the clouds but it's beauty still remains. Just perfect for this moment.Sir Flinn and Tim are busy making the fire while I prepared the marshmallows we will eat for the campfire. I glanced at them and they are already arguing where to sit.“No-I said move-you could sit there.” Mi
“Just swim like a frog!” Miss Mia screamed while laughing as we witnessed how Sir Flinn wear his floater. He's face show how scared he is to meet the sea.“I don't know how a frog swims!” He screamed back making me giggle.Then later, Tim grab Sir Flinn to the water making him look like he haven't been to the beach in his whole life. I saw how Tim laughed when Sir Flinn shouted, “I know how to swim,now!”Miss Mia shake her head telling she can't believe Sir Flinn. We stayed in the cottage to prepare the foods. I sat down watching them having fun under the sun. There are also kids building sand castles, lovers flirting, and people like Tim and Sir Flinn.“Did Tim confessed something to you?”My eyes wide
I know he wasn't expecting that. I just felt the sudden urge to call him Grandpa and see his reaction. I know, he wants to hear it, too. He told me that he wants to feel that he is a grandpa, but he told me that I shouldn't force myself to call him as my grandfather if I am not ready yet. Even Tim and Miss Mia can't believe it. And then Sir Flinn-Grandpa, was looking at me with his teary eyed wet face.“Can you say it again?” His voice cracked and his tears will fall any moment.“Grandpa?” I uttered making him look up in the sky to stop his tears from escaping. I hugged him and whispered something into his ear. “Grandma must be happy seeing us right now.”We put back everything we used for the foods, collected all the trash that got sca
After trying most every ride, we stopped by a store that sells mango shake. I felt like my soul left my body riding the Vikings. I suddenly remembered Miss Mia cursing at every second as it suddenly goes down, then after the ride, she never stopped cursing until she got tired. Honestly, it made me feel the happiest.I took a picture of the surrounding and it was nostalgic. I felt like I am a girl and went back to the 80's where people doesn't think too much and just seizing the moments. We roam around the place and bought some stuffs for souvenirs. I bought bunch of hair clips for Kira, and for me. We also bought keychains, some tumblers, and cute head bands.“My stomach is telling me to eat.” Said Tim while overdramatically acting his starving as he put his hands on his belly and frown. We walk straight to the food area and we saw a stall that sells burgers and I was
I want to call him, talk to him-just the two of us and ask him about the things he told me and what I meant to him. Lately, he's been telling me words that a stupid friend wouldn't tell you. I don't want to feel awkward with him and I don't want him to. I just want to clear out things that's been living in my mind for hours now.I never been in love. I mean.. with real people. I only cry over boys who are fictional. I never waste my tears crying over a boy who doesn't think enough about his future-and it's a big turn off. I don't really have an ideal guy, as long as you're hardworking, honest, and most especially- a dreamer.A dreamer who shares his dreams with me. A dreamer that isn't afraid to take risks. The one who would accept me and my 20 other personalities. Too much, maybe he's not existing.But I already had a crush,but I don't consider it as 'love' because it was
Flinn's Bucket List1. Make Tim cry.2. Witness more than 100 sunsets.3. Have a new introduction for the customers.4.Witness how the clouds changes from blue to black.5.Visit Melissa's grave with Kath.I read it again and again. I always get stucked with the last one. I want to visit her, soon.I glanced at Tim who's now writing his bucket list.“Why do you want to make me cry?” he asked while his focus is still on his paper.“Only me knows.” Grandpa replied.“ I'm done.” Miss Mia said and gave me her paper.We gathered together and sat by the lonely seashore. Since this will be the last day of our trip, we want to make it memorable.
I wore the bracelet Tim gave me. He said he haven't seen me wore it since the day he gave it to me. I explained that I care of things that was given to me and I don't want them to expose. That was a white lie 'cause I honestly forgot about it.Things have been clear to me, he's that kid who always wear a Spider-Man mask. They left the village that time when I couldn't find him anymore. And then when he turned into a teenager, they went back to the village. At first I couldn't believe it until he told me stuffs only the seven-year old him and the six-year old me know. And he haven't told me stupid stuffs like what he said these past few weeks. He's been acting normal and like an idiot which is I am used to.We got a lot of customers today-the music track is changed now and there's also new books. There are also faces that I already memorized as they
What if no one will read my book?But what if it will be the bestselling?What if they think I am illed?What if they think I am rare?“Ugh! I don't know Tim.”“Too obvious, Kath. Tim's not here.”I look up to Grandpa who's now frowning.“ I'm just talking with myself.”“It seems important.” He stated as he turned the sign in the door from 'open' to 'closed'.“I want to write a book..but I don't think people will read it.” I spoke the thought that kept on running in my head.He pulled the chair in front of me and sat down, looking at the wall. “ You should write for yourself, before others.”I gazed at him and took a deep breath.“ When you write, write b
Timothy's POV.She looks tired but she looks fine on the inside. I stared at Sir Flinn as she talked with Kath in the kitchen- his tears ar estreaming down while holding his granddaughter's hand. Miss Mia sat beside me and we both watched them with a heavy heart. “ She's too precious, right? ” she spoke and her voice cracked. I smiled at her and eyes stayed still watching the painful scene. “An angel.” I said and stood up when Isaw Kathareen stared at me. “ I am just going to gt some fresh air-just outside.” I spoke and quickly left the room.I walked to the garden and messed my hair. Seeing her trying to bare with the pain is more painful. I stared at the sky and covered my face th both of my palms in frustration. There are billions of people around this world, but why does it have to be her? Why does it have to be the lady I wish I will grow up with?
“ But... if you try the therapy, you'll live longer, right”I flinched with her words knowing she is just 7 years old. I played with the fabric of my dress and faced her with a nervous smile on my face. I took a deep breath before straightening my back to came close to her. I stroked her black hair and darted my eyes on her.“You know...there are choices you are going to make and only you know why you choose that. You are still young..there's more adventures you are going to face. But I want you to...be strong. You may not understand the decisions I made, I know one day you will.. and this may be the first we talk to each other.. I hope you will never forget my name..Zoe Kathareen.” I stated.She stared at the little doll she's holding and then faced wit
“Oh gosh-is this real?”I kept on scrolling until I made myself believe it was real. It has been a week since I completed this story and yet- THERE ARE ALREADY 20,000 READS. I checked the comments they left and it touched my heartbeat. Some says that they didn't expect the ending and actually, me too.I took a deep breath and closed my laptop. I took a sip of my green tea and watched how the butterflies danced in the air, and how the blue the clouds are. After seconds of daydreaming, Tim appeared in my vision who's carrying a white box. He smiled at me when our eyes met and placed the box on the table beside me.” What's that?” I asked while he is slowly taking off the tape.“The printer.”“So..you're really serious about it, huh?”&nb
I slowly opened my eyes as the crisp of sunrays touched my face. The wall of my room is thin and I can hear murmurs from the living room. I hit the buttton in my side table to signal Miss Mia that I am already awake. After some seconds, she entered my room with her curly hair tied in a high ponytail and a wide genuine smile painted on her face. Staring at her made me left in an awe.“Rise and shine, sunshine!””Miss, you are freaking gorgeous..” I said in my hoarsy voice while she sets up my oxygen tank. She just glance at me and shake her head and continued on our morning routine.While she's combing my hair, I heard Tim's voice and Grandpa's and their voices sounds so excited. “What's going on outside?” I asked as I fixed the transparent tube being attac
“Is you-uhm..and Mom in a-uhm..-are you not in good state?” I asked Grandpa while he's arranging the flowers in Grandma's grave. “ I never heard Mom talking about you or Grandma..I'm just..curious.” I continued and unconciously run my fingers with the metal part of the wheelchair.He sat down in the green grass while hugging both of knees and playing with the petals of the flower. “ Your Mom...was mad at me before until the time you saw her in the stall..when she was 18,when your grandma died..she left me and said she wants to live her own life. I let her go but as a father, I don't want her to suffer in poverty, so I gave her one of my company-”“ Wait..what?”He gazed at me but he doesn't to be surprised at all-no single sign. “ I thought she was just a regular worker..” I stated with my hush voice. “Wait, so..you're the one who..named the company, right?” I asked aga
My hands were trembling as I slowly typed the words. I listened to a hundred of songs to make sure that I'll convey the emotions well.I typed and typed and finally reached the last two words.The End.I stared at it long enough to consume the thought that I made it this far.I read the chapter from the top and made sure there are less errors. The feeling was unexplainable. I did it. I finished the novel. I took a deep sigh of relief as I saved it and closed my laptop. I stared at the view- mountains, big trees, green valleys, the lake, children playing with their kites-a home. While enjoying the view, a van suddenly stopped in front of our house. I waited until I saw a familiar figure of someone-her dark complexion, her cury hair, and finally..her lovely face.“ Miss Mia!” I screamed making my lungs stopped working for a moment. She gave me her wides
I can't count how many times I already reread this book but everytime I do, it feels like I am reading it for the first time again. Every page gives magic and even though this novel breathes despair, and the characters are perfect but the dearest author just..killed them, I am still proud to say I am the number one fan of this 386 pages book.“ Kath! Are you done?”I didn't listen to Tim as he screamed from the garden. “Zoe Kathareen! Did you hear me well?” He shouted again.“Almost..” I replied even though only me can hear my voice.I heard his footsteps and I can feel him standing behind me. He pattes my head with his wet hands and it was freaking cold. I turned my head to him with narrowed eyes and wrinkled forehead. “ Stop it Timothy..”“Are you not sleepy?” he asked as
“Ten chapters left.” I uttered replying to Tim's question. HIs eyes went big and there was a smile that formed in his face. I give him a finger gun and scratched the bridge of my nose. I took a deep breath and stared at the ceiling. “ I don't know if this is a great story... I don't feel like it's worth someone's time.” I stated while both of my hands are entagled and on top of my forehead.The smile on his face disappeared and he gave me a glare. “ What are you talking about?” he asked but I didn't respond. He went to the window sill and arranged the vases and then opened the curtain letting the light in. “ You know... not everyone can write a novel..” he uttered leaning at the wall while his legs are crossed. “People like you, who are blessed with writing skill are rare... and you should never be yourself's first hater. You may think your story is lousy it's because you already know everything about that story...how it will end or how you
I sip the smoothie Grandpa made for me. It tastes great than the ones being served in the hospital. The doctor visited me yesterday and talked with Grandpa about my condition. I also grab the opportunity to apologize for how I act the last time we saw each other. He says that it's normal for him, and he already encountered a lot of dramas like what happened to me and him. But actually, I can't look him in the eye and I know there's a litte regret in me after he left, might be the last time I'll see him.Earlier, Miss Dehlaila helped me clean and wash myself. She was so gentle of me..and the way she speak and move is very gracious. Every time our eyes meet, she always gave me her sweet smile showing her perfect white teeth. She told me that she and Miss Mia are like soulmates-they are friends since they were in their teenage years when Miss Mia has to work for her family. They worked in the same shop where Miss Dehlaila is a wait